I just finally allowed myself to admit that I am asexual and that it is OK to be that way 🙂
I have been struggling with a flawed view of a whole bunch of things for quite a long time. Around 17 years to be more precise. I always told myself that I was bisexual and that that was totally fine and normal, which is soooo hypocritical because as I am saying that that sexual orientation is totally normal I am lying to myself because I really do know deep down that I'm not bisexual.. I'm not straight or pan ot whatever. I don't want to have sex, its not something I crave or need or think about, at least in a way that would be considered... not normal because this is who I'm supposed to he and that is the definition of normal. But typical. I watch porn frequently, but I don't do it because it arouses me or because I want to do things with the people in it, its just fun, its entertaining and fun to watch
I like watching the people in it because they seem so happy and like they're having such a great time and that makes me happy. I love seeing and especially love making peope happy. imo thats the best feeling on earth, and it turns out that I'm very good at making people horny and making them orgasm with words, thats pretty much what I considery my sexual side if you csn call it that. Because I never ask for them to do anything for me in return, I don't want anything from them but to help them feel good and have fun, I don't find it arousing or think of it ad a sexual act its more of an emotional experience for me. I just get so much joy from helping people feel good and wanted and letting them explore their desires with someone who doesn't need or require them to be anytjing but themselves and to just have fun. It feels good to actually feel comfortable admiring that, mostly to myself. Because for some reason I always viewed all sexual orientations as totally normal except my own. I thought I must be broken or sick or crazy because its not normal to not want to have sex, I'm a man and I'm supposed to want to do it all the time.. but I am finally in a place in my life where I am comfortable in saying I really just don't want to. Its not a bad thing, it doesn't hurt or cause me any sort of discomfort. Its not an aversion or an inability Its just a lack of desire, a total absence of a sex drive. I did have sex in high school and it did feel good but so do soooo many other things that I also don't think about or crave. I don't have an insatiable lust to ride roller coasters, or a maddening desire to feel a cool breeze on a hot day. All those things feel nice and they're good but I don't need them and its ok that I don't even really think about them unless I'm in a situation where they are involved already.. its ok to be asexual its normal because its who I really am. What wasn't normal was forcing myself to be sexually active because I for some reason thought I was just broken and it made less of a man and I needed to fix it. I'm not broken I'm just different and it feels so nice to actually be able to belive that for once in my life and to not feel embarrassed that I haven't had sex in like decades, and I sometimes do masturbate but like maybe once or twice ever few years lol and thats totally fine and thats normal for me and I'm not broken I'm working as intended and it feels great 😁
Sorry for the text assault I just had to explain it to anyone. I think mostly for myself to hear tbh but I'm also excited to talk to people who feel similarly!
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I have been struggling with a flawed view of a whole bunch of things for quite a long time. Around 17 years to be more precise. I always told myself that I was bisexual and that that was totally fine and normal, which is soooo hypocritical because as I am saying that that sexual orientation is totally normal I am lying to myself because I really do know deep down that I'm not bisexual.. I'm not straight or pan ot whatever. I don't want to have sex, its not something I crave or need or think about, at least in a way that would be considered... not normal because this is who I'm supposed to he and that is the definition of normal. But typical. I watch porn frequently, but I don't do it because it arouses me or because I want to do things with the people in it, its just fun, its entertaining and fun to watch
I like watching the people in it because they seem so happy and like they're having such a great time and that makes me happy. I love seeing and especially love making peope happy. imo thats the best feeling on earth, and it turns out that I'm very good at making people horny and making them orgasm with words, thats pretty much what I considery my sexual side if you csn call it that. Because I never ask for them to do anything for me in return, I don't want anything from them but to help them feel good and have fun, I don't find it arousing or think of it ad a sexual act its more of an emotional experience for me. I just get so much joy from helping people feel good and wanted and letting them explore their desires with someone who doesn't need or require them to be anytjing but themselves and to just have fun. It feels good to actually feel comfortable admiring that, mostly to myself. Because for some reason I always viewed all sexual orientations as totally normal except my own. I thought I must be broken or sick or crazy because its not normal to not want to have sex, I'm a man and I'm supposed to want to do it all the time.. but I am finally in a place in my life where I am comfortable in saying I really just don't want to. Its not a bad thing, it doesn't hurt or cause me any sort of discomfort. Its not an aversion or an inability Its just a lack of desire, a total absence of a sex drive. I did have sex in high school and it did feel good but so do soooo many other things that I also don't think about or crave. I don't have an insatiable lust to ride roller coasters, or a maddening desire to feel a cool breeze on a hot day. All those things feel nice and they're good but I don't need them and its ok that I don't even really think about them unless I'm in a situation where they are involved already.. its ok to be asexual its normal because its who I really am. What wasn't normal was forcing myself to be sexually active because I for some reason thought I was just broken and it made less of a man and I needed to fix it. I'm not broken I'm just different and it feels so nice to actually be able to belive that for once in my life and to not feel embarrassed that I haven't had sex in like decades, and I sometimes do masturbate but like maybe once or twice ever few years lol and thats totally fine and thats normal for me and I'm not broken I'm working as intended and it feels great 😁
Sorry for the text assault I just had to explain it to anyone. I think mostly for myself to hear tbh but I'm also excited to talk to people who feel similarly!
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