መባቻ...
ከእኔነቴ ቅንጣት ፤ ካለኝ ፍቅር ጥቂት
ትንታ እንዳያስቸግርህ
እንዳላጣህ ፤ የልጅ አይነት ስስት
ለሁለት ከፍዬ እንደምበላው ብስኩት
ደሞ እንደ እናት አይነት ፤ መጠን ልኬት የሌለው
ከፍ ሲል እንደ እግዜሩ ፤ ምክንያት በማይፈልገው
አፈቀርኩህ
ለካ ፍቅር ያስንቃል ፤ መቼ አወኩልህ
መውደዴ ሲገዝፍ ፣ ሲሰፋ ፣ ስር ሲሰድ
ባንተ አይን እኔ ቀለልኩብህ
ይሁና!
ከእኔነቴ ቅንጣት ፤ ካለኝ ፍቅር ጥቂት
ትንታ እንዳያስቸግርህ
እንዳላጣህ ፤ የልጅ አይነት ስስት
ለሁለት ከፍዬ እንደምበላው ብስኩት
ደሞ እንደ እናት አይነት ፤ መጠን ልኬት የሌለው
ከፍ ሲል እንደ እግዜሩ ፤ ምክንያት በማይፈልገው
አፈቀርኩህ
ለካ ፍቅር ያስንቃል ፤ መቼ አወኩልህ
መውደዴ ሲገዝፍ ፣ ሲሰፋ ፣ ስር ሲሰድ
ባንተ አይን እኔ ቀለልኩብህ
ይሁና!
~THE WAY YOU LOVED ME~
Replace me with your favorite cigarette. My body with a piece of rolled paper and my blood with the tobacco inside. Seal me between your lips only to make me feel like I'm far from the ground, far from the dirt temporarily and you will see no difference in the way you hold me. Light me up with your matches and burn my tiny body slowly as if I were an inanimate and you will see no difference in the way you treat me. Inhale my sense of being, let the smoke circulate in your airways and diaphragm, mix with your blood and make you feel alive only to expel it from your lungs in the end and you will see no difference in the way you use me. Put me down on the ashtray for a second, reconnect my burning end with the ashes of my burnt down residue only to pick me back up and let what's left of me turn into fine particles of remains and you will see no difference in the way you care for me. Take and take all that I am and have, smoke me until the sponge filter is all that I'm left with and throw me into the dirt, stomp your feet over me and squash me and you will see no difference in the way you damage me. Replace the piece of cigarette with me and you will see no difference in the way you loved me.
Replace me with your favorite cigarette. My body with a piece of rolled paper and my blood with the tobacco inside. Seal me between your lips only to make me feel like I'm far from the ground, far from the dirt temporarily and you will see no difference in the way you hold me. Light me up with your matches and burn my tiny body slowly as if I were an inanimate and you will see no difference in the way you treat me. Inhale my sense of being, let the smoke circulate in your airways and diaphragm, mix with your blood and make you feel alive only to expel it from your lungs in the end and you will see no difference in the way you use me. Put me down on the ashtray for a second, reconnect my burning end with the ashes of my burnt down residue only to pick me back up and let what's left of me turn into fine particles of remains and you will see no difference in the way you care for me. Take and take all that I am and have, smoke me until the sponge filter is all that I'm left with and throw me into the dirt, stomp your feet over me and squash me and you will see no difference in the way you damage me. Replace the piece of cigarette with me and you will see no difference in the way you loved me.
- Aren't we all goddamned rats? -
"Rats chew on stronger objects to shorten their growing teeth in order to survive".
That's what us, humans, do as well. Chew on stronger objects, not in the sense of literally crunching metals or wood but in the sense of using others to mold the state of our existence. Our insecurities grow as time goes by and it is an undeniable fact that we shred someone else's emotions and drown them just to feel less insecure and think maybe that helps our survival. Fear gets the best of us and we bite on someone else's strength and weaken them just to feel less fearful as we leave them scared to death and think maybe that drives us to live another day. We rip and rip all the better and stronger being we come across just to shorten our growing teeth of problems never, for a fraction of seconds, caring about the damage we bring on others. Aren't we all goddamned rats?
"Rats chew on stronger objects to shorten their growing teeth in order to survive".
That's what us, humans, do as well. Chew on stronger objects, not in the sense of literally crunching metals or wood but in the sense of using others to mold the state of our existence. Our insecurities grow as time goes by and it is an undeniable fact that we shred someone else's emotions and drown them just to feel less insecure and think maybe that helps our survival. Fear gets the best of us and we bite on someone else's strength and weaken them just to feel less fearful as we leave them scared to death and think maybe that drives us to live another day. We rip and rip all the better and stronger being we come across just to shorten our growing teeth of problems never, for a fraction of seconds, caring about the damage we bring on others. Aren't we all goddamned rats?
I found you in a place I never thought I would in a million years. Now I don't know how to feel about you. It's like I fell from my skin and never recovered. I want disappear into the nothingness, let the poison in my throat explode. I hate you on days like this.
I hate you
For the days you rubbed your insecurities against me and made me feel small
I hate you
For the months you poured your sad self all over me and drowned me in tearful nights
I hate you
For the years you kept me close to you and suck out all the good in me knowing damn well it was killing me
I hate you for all the times you pretended to care, to love and used me and my love only to feel better about yourself.
And then
I love you for all the best you are, you give and could be. Because love transcends everything.
I hate that too!
For the days you rubbed your insecurities against me and made me feel small
I hate you
For the months you poured your sad self all over me and drowned me in tearful nights
I hate you
For the years you kept me close to you and suck out all the good in me knowing damn well it was killing me
I hate you for all the times you pretended to care, to love and used me and my love only to feel better about yourself.
And then
I love you for all the best you are, you give and could be. Because love transcends everything.
I hate that too!
If you lose interest in someone, respect them enough to let them go. Do not stay in their life and suck all their good traits, do not feed on their love, energy, kindness and loyalty just to not let your insecurities consume you. Let them go so they can pour all their goodness into someone else that values them.
Listen
They talk to everybody
They text other people
They call another person
They check on their friends
They spend time with someone else
As long as they do not go above and beyond for you,
As long as they do not put in effort, do not romanticize the bare minimum.
Do not settle for the basic!
They talk to everybody
They text other people
They call another person
They check on their friends
They spend time with someone else
As long as they do not go above and beyond for you,
As long as they do not put in effort, do not romanticize the bare minimum.
Do not settle for the basic!
Momma you were right, trying to find happiness where I lost it is a foolishness.
Wordgasm
•Tell me to stay...or not• I want go! I want to run to where nothing relates to you. I want to start a new chapter where there are faces that look nothing like you. I want to unfold and bloom where I don't have attachments to your existence. I want to be…
It's clear now
I want go!
I want to run to where nothing relates to you.
I want to start a new chapter where there are faces that look nothing like you.
I want to unfold and bloom where I don't have attachments to your existence.
I want to be present in life where nothing pokes my wounds and remind me of you, of us, of how we used to be, of what we could have been.
I want to leave!
I want to move to a place where you don't exist.
I want to live where I can't breathe the same air as yours.
I want to be where I can't walk on the same ground as yours.
I want to be where you're not around.
I just lost the few healthy tendons I had.
I want go!
I want to run to where nothing relates to you.
I want to start a new chapter where there are faces that look nothing like you.
I want to unfold and bloom where I don't have attachments to your existence.
I want to be present in life where nothing pokes my wounds and remind me of you, of us, of how we used to be, of what we could have been.
I want to leave!
I want to move to a place where you don't exist.
I want to live where I can't breathe the same air as yours.
I want to be where I can't walk on the same ground as yours.
I want to be where you're not around.
I just lost the few healthy tendons I had.