Forwarded from azam – logs.
It has already been almost 6 months.
I’ve joined a new job. And this feels completely different from my ex-one. In these 6 months, I’ve learned more than I did in two years at Beeline.
I was looking for a team where everyone is technical and the work is product related. I wanted to learn how to manage a team and build a successful product. That reason pushed me to change my workplace.
As an employee — I had no experience working in a team, where the product depends on teamwork, not just one developer. I’ve learned how to work with team members properly and clearly. How to fix, to estimate, to evaluate, to ship.
As a future team lead — I learned how to manage people too. What they want, what I should consider as a leader. I’ve seen what kind of culture should be built and how to talk with employees.
As a startuper — I didn’t know how to ship a real product. I thought just coding is enough, but it’s not. There are many things to care about as an entrepreneur, as a company. I’m ticking everything I see here to use later for my own product.
I noticed one thing in me. My character, my skills, even my brain changed completely — from developer mode to builder mode. I think I can’t stay as a developer anymore. I need to change my field. Product management is one of the options right now. I even asked my CEO to change my role, but he refused and told me to stay as an engineer.
During these 6 months, I also got a job opportunity from Yandex. They reached out, and I had 3 interviews. I passed the first technical one, but failed the second. I was thinking, if I joined Yandex, I’d stay as an engineer. But it didn’t happen.
After all, I’m still doing my programming job and learning tech stuff. But deep down, I still want to become a PdM and build my own product. I’m on that way — just no updates to share yet.
I’ve joined a new job. And this feels completely different from my ex-one. In these 6 months, I’ve learned more than I did in two years at Beeline.
I was looking for a team where everyone is technical and the work is product related. I wanted to learn how to manage a team and build a successful product. That reason pushed me to change my workplace.
As an employee — I had no experience working in a team, where the product depends on teamwork, not just one developer. I’ve learned how to work with team members properly and clearly. How to fix, to estimate, to evaluate, to ship.
As a future team lead — I learned how to manage people too. What they want, what I should consider as a leader. I’ve seen what kind of culture should be built and how to talk with employees.
As a startuper — I didn’t know how to ship a real product. I thought just coding is enough, but it’s not. There are many things to care about as an entrepreneur, as a company. I’m ticking everything I see here to use later for my own product.
I noticed one thing in me. My character, my skills, even my brain changed completely — from developer mode to builder mode. I think I can’t stay as a developer anymore. I need to change my field. Product management is one of the options right now. I even asked my CEO to change my role, but he refused and told me to stay as an engineer.
During these 6 months, I also got a job opportunity from Yandex. They reached out, and I had 3 interviews. I passed the first technical one, but failed the second. I was thinking, if I joined Yandex, I’d stay as an engineer. But it didn’t happen.
After all, I’m still doing my programming job and learning tech stuff. But deep down, I still want to become a PdM and build my own product. I’m on that way — just no updates to share yet.
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i lost my credibility.
i don’t know when it started, but i became much more careless, unserious. i’m not taking things around me seriously. i’m living like a dragonfly from stories.
i’m not taking anything seriously — not my career, my body, my goals, my responsibilities, my life at all. i’m not trying to do anything hard or well. i’m not being responsible. i formed this attitude suddenly. maybe from friends, or maybe i just got it wrong.
i think i’ve become more selfish. every time i talk with my father, he always says it. from my point of view, it doesn’t seem like that, but once i sat and analyzed, it became a fact. i’ve developed an ego inside me — the kind that doesn’t care about others’ opinions, advice, or reprimands. i’m just like: “ok, but i know very well what to do.”
i see it mostly in my work. after a while, i realize that i did something wrong, but it’s too late. or even when my team lead finds mistakes in my work and tells me, i get angry. i don’t like it. i don’t want to learn anything. recently, we participated in a hackathon as well. and you know what? the most annoying member was me. i demotivated everyone. how they managed to deal with me, i don’t know. but why?
i need to change it. because i guess it’ll be a disaster for me. maybe i’ll get fired from my current job, maybe i’ll lose everything. and even now, i’m losing my mind, my views, my principles, my perspectives. i’m losing my professional field. i don’t see anything good ahead. i became soft. i’m lost.
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i don’t know when it started, but i became much more careless, unserious. i’m not taking things around me seriously. i’m living like a dragonfly from stories.
i’m not taking anything seriously — not my career, my body, my goals, my responsibilities, my life at all. i’m not trying to do anything hard or well. i’m not being responsible. i formed this attitude suddenly. maybe from friends, or maybe i just got it wrong.
i think i’ve become more selfish. every time i talk with my father, he always says it. from my point of view, it doesn’t seem like that, but once i sat and analyzed, it became a fact. i’ve developed an ego inside me — the kind that doesn’t care about others’ opinions, advice, or reprimands. i’m just like: “ok, but i know very well what to do.”
i see it mostly in my work. after a while, i realize that i did something wrong, but it’s too late. or even when my team lead finds mistakes in my work and tells me, i get angry. i don’t like it. i don’t want to learn anything. recently, we participated in a hackathon as well. and you know what? the most annoying member was me. i demotivated everyone. how they managed to deal with me, i don’t know. but why?
i need to change it. because i guess it’ll be a disaster for me. maybe i’ll get fired from my current job, maybe i’ll lose everything. and even now, i’m losing my mind, my views, my principles, my perspectives. i’m losing my professional field. i don’t see anything good ahead. i became soft. i’m lost.
video by then.whynot
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i don't think self-realization makes a person different. because most people already know what they're doing wrong. they feel guilty after making mistakes. we all know, see, and understand. yet, people are still failing to change. self-awareness is essential, yes, but i think it's overhyped. self-realization itself isn't enough. we should focus more on actions. knowing yourself doesn’t change anything unless you act. #quick
// 22.10.25 Anhor Park
// 22.10.25 Anhor Park
i never thought i’d feel lost in my job again. three years ago, i already felt this way, but that time, i found my path in programming. i was full of energy, learning new stuff every day, dreaming of working at FAANG.
but now, i got obsessed with building a startup. at the same time, i kinda want to stay away from technical things. product manager role sounds more interesting to me now. still, i’m working as a backend dev at my job. it feels like i’m trying to eat three different meals at once.
one of the problems is, i don’t know how to change my career path smoothly, without messing up my life too much. i chose programming back in school, and since then, i never really thought about another job. i did work in different roles when i was younger, but i took those jobs just to satisfy my needs, not as something i wanted to build a career in.
building a startup is way harder than i thought. when i struggle, i just wanna quit and focus on my job. but when i lose passion for my job, i again want to build a startup. and that moves me more toward product management. it’s like i’m stuck between all of them.
the thing is, i actually love doing all. i want to become a strong backend engineer because it’ll help me a lot when i build my own startup later. even i become a more desired engineer in the future. i’d love to work on my own thing — the role doesn’t really matter. i like product management because it’s more about ideas, creativity, and initiative, not just tech stuff.
right now, i’m trying to do all at once. and honestly, none of them is going well. i read a quote that describes me perfectly:
// 1.11.25 IT Park
but now, i got obsessed with building a startup. at the same time, i kinda want to stay away from technical things. product manager role sounds more interesting to me now. still, i’m working as a backend dev at my job. it feels like i’m trying to eat three different meals at once.
one of the problems is, i don’t know how to change my career path smoothly, without messing up my life too much. i chose programming back in school, and since then, i never really thought about another job. i did work in different roles when i was younger, but i took those jobs just to satisfy my needs, not as something i wanted to build a career in.
building a startup is way harder than i thought. when i struggle, i just wanna quit and focus on my job. but when i lose passion for my job, i again want to build a startup. and that moves me more toward product management. it’s like i’m stuck between all of them.
the thing is, i actually love doing all. i want to become a strong backend engineer because it’ll help me a lot when i build my own startup later. even i become a more desired engineer in the future. i’d love to work on my own thing — the role doesn’t really matter. i like product management because it’s more about ideas, creativity, and initiative, not just tech stuff.
right now, i’m trying to do all at once. and honestly, none of them is going well. i read a quote that describes me perfectly:
i feel like i’m slowly becoming nothing while trying to be everything at the same time.
// 1.11.25 IT Park
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If you are good at one thing, you're not average.
I came to this thought when I tried to observe myself from outside, after watching people around me. I tried to be someone else for a moment and look at myself not through my own eyes. Observing others and seeing their good skills pushed me into this. I looked around and saw someone who speaks English very well, someone who does backend engineering well, someone who plays football well. So many examples. And when I imagined being another person and looking at myself, something clicked.
Honestly, I’m a very curious person. I’m interested in many things. I want to do many different things, and I want to do them well. Sports? I love them. Gym, running, football, swimming — any sport gives me excitement. But reality hits: I’m not actually good at any of them. I can’t play football at a solid level. I don’t know that much about gym, exercises, or body muscles. I can’t play basketball, volleyball, or even table tennis well. I’m not terrible, but I’m definitely not good.
Same with subjects. I like math, physics, geometry. I’m curious about biology and history too. But reality again: I’m not good at any of these. My math isn’t strong. Physics? I don’t even want to talk about it. Languages? Same story. I don’t know Russian well. I speak English, but not at a high level — I make a lot of mistakes, I fail regularly. Arabic? I can only read. But I still love learning new languages.
Games? I love them too. CS2, Dota, Playstation games. But I don’t play them well either.
Caring? Even this feels weak in me. I don’t really know how to communicate properly or get close to people. I don’t always know how to behave in different situations. Even in my family, I fail sometimes at being a good son or a good brother. And when I think about being a husband one day, it honestly scares me a bit right now.
Even in my job. I work as a backend engineer, but I can’t call myself “good.” There is so much in backend that I still don’t know. Maybe I don’t know even half of what a real backend engineer should know. I’ve faced this reality more recently, and it makes me feel average.
And maybe that's why I think like this: I can’t find anything I’m truly good at. Maybe I’m blind. Maybe someone around me already sees something good in me. Or maybe they also see me the same way I see myself. I don’t know. But from my view, I still don’t see that one strong skill.
Then I thought: if I was good at even one thing — truly good — then I wouldn’t be average anymore. In my observations, I actually found that almost everyone around me is good at least in one thing. I saw one strong skill in each person, and that alone already makes them not average.
If a seller sells well, they’re not average.
If someone speaks English strongly, they’re not average.
If someone is good at math, that’s already above average.
If someone does their job well, they’re not average.
And if someone truly cares about their family — prioritizes them, pays attention, supports them — they’re good at that too.
And that’s why I came to this idea:
Being good at even one single thing already makes you not average. And not being average is a much higher step than it seems.
// 18.11.25 Chekhov Anhor
I came to this thought when I tried to observe myself from outside, after watching people around me. I tried to be someone else for a moment and look at myself not through my own eyes. Observing others and seeing their good skills pushed me into this. I looked around and saw someone who speaks English very well, someone who does backend engineering well, someone who plays football well. So many examples. And when I imagined being another person and looking at myself, something clicked.
Honestly, I’m a very curious person. I’m interested in many things. I want to do many different things, and I want to do them well. Sports? I love them. Gym, running, football, swimming — any sport gives me excitement. But reality hits: I’m not actually good at any of them. I can’t play football at a solid level. I don’t know that much about gym, exercises, or body muscles. I can’t play basketball, volleyball, or even table tennis well. I’m not terrible, but I’m definitely not good.
Same with subjects. I like math, physics, geometry. I’m curious about biology and history too. But reality again: I’m not good at any of these. My math isn’t strong. Physics? I don’t even want to talk about it. Languages? Same story. I don’t know Russian well. I speak English, but not at a high level — I make a lot of mistakes, I fail regularly. Arabic? I can only read. But I still love learning new languages.
Games? I love them too. CS2, Dota, Playstation games. But I don’t play them well either.
Caring? Even this feels weak in me. I don’t really know how to communicate properly or get close to people. I don’t always know how to behave in different situations. Even in my family, I fail sometimes at being a good son or a good brother. And when I think about being a husband one day, it honestly scares me a bit right now.
Even in my job. I work as a backend engineer, but I can’t call myself “good.” There is so much in backend that I still don’t know. Maybe I don’t know even half of what a real backend engineer should know. I’ve faced this reality more recently, and it makes me feel average.
And maybe that's why I think like this: I can’t find anything I’m truly good at. Maybe I’m blind. Maybe someone around me already sees something good in me. Or maybe they also see me the same way I see myself. I don’t know. But from my view, I still don’t see that one strong skill.
Then I thought: if I was good at even one thing — truly good — then I wouldn’t be average anymore. In my observations, I actually found that almost everyone around me is good at least in one thing. I saw one strong skill in each person, and that alone already makes them not average.
If a seller sells well, they’re not average.
If someone speaks English strongly, they’re not average.
If someone is good at math, that’s already above average.
If someone does their job well, they’re not average.
And if someone truly cares about their family — prioritizes them, pays attention, supports them — they’re good at that too.
And that’s why I came to this idea:
Being good at even one single thing already makes you not average. And not being average is a much higher step than it seems.
// 18.11.25 Chekhov Anhor
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Episode 6
Blue Whale Podcast
Охирги пайт карьерам бўйича тупик кўчага кириб қоганде ҳис қилдим. Саволларим кўпиди. Шодиёр билан бу масалада гаплашишни хоҳладим. Соҳасида яхши мутахассис.
00:00 - Интро
01:05 - Меҳмон
03:40 - Сотувчиман
05:00 - Касбга passion
16:07 - Adezis тести
16:40 - Кутувларим бўмади
29:00 - Енги мотив уйғотиш
36:00 - Маъсулиятни оладиган ишчи ёқади
40:00 - Стартап қурмоқчиман
50:15 - Топ 1% га кириш
56:15 - Лайфстайл
01:01:25 - Продукт йўли
01:08:20 - Ваунчер
00:00 - Интро
01:05 - Меҳмон
03:40 - Сотувчиман
05:00 - Касбга passion
16:07 - Adezis тести
16:40 - Кутувларим бўмади
29:00 - Енги мотив уйғотиш
36:00 - Маъсулиятни оладиган ишчи ёқади
40:00 - Стартап қурмоқчиман
50:15 - Топ 1% га кириш
56:15 - Лайфстайл
01:01:25 - Продукт йўли
01:08:20 - Ваунчер
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Чўнтегимда пулим камайган сари, яна, “ойликка яшаб бўмаяпти, нимадир (стартап) қилиш кере” диган фикрла бошланади. Лекин кейинги ойлигимни олишим билан яна тарқалади. Деярли ҳар ой.
Стартап темасига 2023 йиллада кириб қоганман. Ушанда биринчи EdTech лойиҳани $500 га ясаб берганимдан кейин, шуни ойлик тўловли (SaaS) лойиҳа қилиш фикри туғилган. Лекин битта ўзим эпломаганман. Тажрабаям йўғиди. Фақат техник билим бориди. Кейин Шодиёр билан бирга клиника учун CRM қилиб, сотиш фикри кеган. X клиникадан $1500 оганмиз, аммо, яна ман эпломаганман, ва шу билан чиройли ҳайрлашганмиз, Шодиёр биланам. Бу темада. Клиникага пулни қайтармаганмиз, лекин қоган $500 омаганмиз. Уланиям қисман айби бориди. Шундан кейин тинчгина ойлигимни олиб, ишлаш яхши вариантдек кўринган.
Аммо атрофимда доим шу мавзуда гаплар бўларди. Ижтимоий тармоқладаям стартап ҳақида кўп ёзишарди, ўқирдим. 4 курсга ўтганимда, алоҳида фан сифатида, “Стартап қуриш” дарслари ўтилди. Кўп нарса ўрганмадим, лекин, яна шу мавзуга қайтишимга сабаб бўлди. Диплом защита учун бирор лойиҳа қилиш этилди. Ўзим таълим соҳасига қизиқишим туфайли, яна, бошида этган лойиҳамни, яхшилаб, упаковка қилиб, опчиқтим. Соло-фаундер сифатида лойиҳани ясашни бошладим. Лекин яна охиргача етқизомадим. Дипломниям олдим. Лойиҳа бўса йўқ. Соло иш қиломадим. Ва бошқа айрим сабаблага кўра унақа эътиборам қаратмадим.
Бу лойиҳани President Tech Award танволиги олиб чиқмоқчидим. Шу орқали команда йиғиб, стартапни бошламоқчидим. Фейл. Кейин Шерзод бошқа таклиф билан чиқди. Ўзи у биланам ҳар хил стартап лойиҳала ҳақида гаплашиб турардик, лекин ҳич ишни бошламагандик. PTA танловига опчиқмоқчи бўган лойиҳамми ўзгартиришга, бошқа стартап лойиҳа қилишга ишонтирди. Бошладик. Команда йиғдик. Қилишга тайёридик. Фейл. Яна ман эпломадим. Шу билан танловданам ўтомадик. Лойиҳа ҳам тўхтади. Ўзимда fashion соҳасига унчалик қизиқишим йўлигиям таъсир қилди диб ўйлиман. Мотив томондан.
Шу билан бирга бошқа курсдошим билан, лойиҳасини бошқача қилиш устида, уни алоҳида social проект сифати қуришга қарор қилдик. Ўзимни фикрларимни, идеяларимни бердим. Продуктни деярли тайёр қилувдик, лекин етарли фокус қаратомадим. Оғабекни ўзи лойиҳани давом эттирвотти.
Орада Зиёдилла ўртоғим, IELTS’га алоқадор лойиҳа бўйича идея бериб қолди. Манда ҳар доим таълим соҳасидиги лойиҳалага мотив котта бўганига фокусим бунга бурилди. Моддий томондан кўп пул топиб бўмасаям, негадир шу йўналишдан чиққим келади. Лойиҳа устида ишлашни бошладим. Бу сафар жиддийроқ. Анча нарсалани ўргандим, key point’лани кўриб чиқдим. Кейин коллегам, фронтэндчи, Санжарака, бирга қилишга кўндирдим. Роса ялинишладан кейин, бирга қурадиган бўлдик. Ҳамма нарсани тахт қилдим: продукт, таҳлилла, тз, менежмент. 1 ойли (Сентябрь) ҳаракатдан кейин, яна фейл. Фейлча. Яъни бутунлай тўхтамади, лекин танаффусга чиқдик. Иш билан балансни бузилди. Burnout бўлдим. Паузага тушди. Пул ишлатиб ҳар хил стартап бўйича йиғилишга боргандим. Ҳар қанақа pitch бўса, топширдим. Лекин ҳаётда ҳамма нарса бошқачекан-да.
Охирги (шу) ҳафта. Яна стартапла ҳақида жуда кўп ўқивордим. Mindset’ни ўзгартириб, бошқача ёндашишни бошладим. Ва биринчи этган сабабим бўлиб, паузада турган лойиҳа, сал бошқачароқ, минималлаштирган ҳолда, пивот қилиб қайтадан бошладим. Фақат ўзим. Effort'ни минимал камайтиришга, тезроқ ship қилишга кўпро урғу бердим. Санжарака, фронт қисмида, қийналвотган жойларимга ёрдам бервоттила. Ҳозирча, бир ҳафта анча нарса битди. 13 декабргача бемалол, ҳамма ишлатса бўладиган даражада қилиш.
Стартап темасига 2023 йиллада кириб қоганман. Ушанда биринчи EdTech лойиҳани $500 га ясаб берганимдан кейин, шуни ойлик тўловли (SaaS) лойиҳа қилиш фикри туғилган. Лекин битта ўзим эпломаганман. Тажрабаям йўғиди. Фақат техник билим бориди. Кейин Шодиёр билан бирга клиника учун CRM қилиб, сотиш фикри кеган. X клиникадан $1500 оганмиз, аммо, яна ман эпломаганман, ва шу билан чиройли ҳайрлашганмиз, Шодиёр биланам. Бу темада. Клиникага пулни қайтармаганмиз, лекин қоган $500 омаганмиз. Уланиям қисман айби бориди. Шундан кейин тинчгина ойлигимни олиб, ишлаш яхши вариантдек кўринган.
Аммо атрофимда доим шу мавзуда гаплар бўларди. Ижтимоий тармоқладаям стартап ҳақида кўп ёзишарди, ўқирдим. 4 курсга ўтганимда, алоҳида фан сифатида, “Стартап қуриш” дарслари ўтилди. Кўп нарса ўрганмадим, лекин, яна шу мавзуга қайтишимга сабаб бўлди. Диплом защита учун бирор лойиҳа қилиш этилди. Ўзим таълим соҳасига қизиқишим туфайли, яна, бошида этган лойиҳамни, яхшилаб, упаковка қилиб, опчиқтим. Соло-фаундер сифатида лойиҳани ясашни бошладим. Лекин яна охиргача етқизомадим. Дипломниям олдим. Лойиҳа бўса йўқ. Соло иш қиломадим. Ва бошқа айрим сабаблага кўра унақа эътиборам қаратмадим.
Бу лойиҳани President Tech Award танволиги олиб чиқмоқчидим. Шу орқали команда йиғиб, стартапни бошламоқчидим. Фейл. Кейин Шерзод бошқа таклиф билан чиқди. Ўзи у биланам ҳар хил стартап лойиҳала ҳақида гаплашиб турардик, лекин ҳич ишни бошламагандик. PTA танловига опчиқмоқчи бўган лойиҳамми ўзгартиришга, бошқа стартап лойиҳа қилишга ишонтирди. Бошладик. Команда йиғдик. Қилишга тайёридик. Фейл. Яна ман эпломадим. Шу билан танловданам ўтомадик. Лойиҳа ҳам тўхтади. Ўзимда fashion соҳасига унчалик қизиқишим йўлигиям таъсир қилди диб ўйлиман. Мотив томондан.
Шу билан бирга бошқа курсдошим билан, лойиҳасини бошқача қилиш устида, уни алоҳида social проект сифати қуришга қарор қилдик. Ўзимни фикрларимни, идеяларимни бердим. Продуктни деярли тайёр қилувдик, лекин етарли фокус қаратомадим. Оғабекни ўзи лойиҳани давом эттирвотти.
Орада Зиёдилла ўртоғим, IELTS’га алоқадор лойиҳа бўйича идея бериб қолди. Манда ҳар доим таълим соҳасидиги лойиҳалага мотив котта бўганига фокусим бунга бурилди. Моддий томондан кўп пул топиб бўмасаям, негадир шу йўналишдан чиққим келади. Лойиҳа устида ишлашни бошладим. Бу сафар жиддийроқ. Анча нарсалани ўргандим, key point’лани кўриб чиқдим. Кейин коллегам, фронтэндчи, Санжарака, бирга қилишга кўндирдим. Роса ялинишладан кейин, бирга қурадиган бўлдик. Ҳамма нарсани тахт қилдим: продукт, таҳлилла, тз, менежмент. 1 ойли (Сентябрь) ҳаракатдан кейин, яна фейл. Фейлча. Яъни бутунлай тўхтамади, лекин танаффусга чиқдик. Иш билан балансни бузилди. Burnout бўлдим. Паузага тушди. Пул ишлатиб ҳар хил стартап бўйича йиғилишга боргандим. Ҳар қанақа pitch бўса, топширдим. Лекин ҳаётда ҳамма нарса бошқачекан-да.
Охирги (шу) ҳафта. Яна стартапла ҳақида жуда кўп ўқивордим. Mindset’ни ўзгартириб, бошқача ёндашишни бошладим. Ва биринчи этган сабабим бўлиб, паузада турган лойиҳа, сал бошқачароқ, минималлаштирган ҳолда, пивот қилиб қайтадан бошладим. Фақат ўзим. Effort'ни минимал камайтиришга, тезроқ ship қилишга кўпро урғу бердим. Санжарака, фронт қисмида, қийналвотган жойларимга ёрдам бервоттила. Ҳозирча, бир ҳафта анча нарса битди. 13 декабргача бемалол, ҳамма ишлатса бўладиган даражада қилиш.
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Почти 2 часа ночи. Мозг устал, отказывается работать, и я понимаю, что мне пора бы спать. Но вдруг что-то щёлкнуло. И я моментально проснулся.
Этот момент, когда продукт начинает работать именно так, как ты задумал, затягивает обратно. Внутренний всплеск настолько сильный, что усталость на секунду исчезает. Хочется делать ещё, строить ещё, продвигаться дальше, даже когда тело говорит «стоп».
Прямо сейчас я в этом состоянии. Включается одержимость. И кажется, будто сама идея ожила и тянет тебя вперёд. И честно этого чувства уже достаточно, чтобы не останавливаться. Но да, спать всё-таки нужно.🙂
Этот момент, когда продукт начинает работать именно так, как ты задумал, затягивает обратно. Внутренний всплеск настолько сильный, что усталость на секунду исчезает. Хочется делать ещё, строить ещё, продвигаться дальше, даже когда тело говорит «стоп».
Прямо сейчас я в этом состоянии. Включается одержимость. И кажется, будто сама идея ожила и тянет тебя вперёд. И честно этого чувства уже достаточно, чтобы не останавливаться. Но да, спать всё-таки нужно.
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i think one of my mistakes was not being a good partner, or not finding the right partner, when trying to build a startup.
after a few failed attempts, i finally got it: having the right co-founder is one of the most important parts of building anything. people love their own ideas more than someone else’s. i did the same with Sherzod. and when two people don’t share the same level of vision or attachment, things just fall apart slowly.
for me, a startup feels like a child. you become its parent the moment you decide to build it. you carry responsibility. you can’t refuse it or postpone it. you must take care of it no matter what. and your co-founder becomes the other parent in this process. they should care about the “child” almost as much as you do. in real life, it’s like choosing who you will raise a child with. if that match is wrong, everything becomes harder.
a good co-founder isn’t just someone who helps. it’s someone whose goals match yours. same direction. same level of grind. same dream. without this alignment, the whole thing starts breaking from inside.
then there’s the solo path — the hardest one. if you go solo, you need to be able to build a lot on your own. and you need to accept that people around you will mostly be “neighbors.” they’ll give advice, share a bit of experience, maybe help here and there. but they won’t care about your “child” the way you do. only you will.
so yeah, i guess: either you find the right co-founder, or you become that person yourself. or you take the solo road and carry the whole thing on your own shoulders. and i might be wrong, but this is how it feels to me now.
// 10.07.25 AUT
after a few failed attempts, i finally got it: having the right co-founder is one of the most important parts of building anything. people love their own ideas more than someone else’s. i did the same with Sherzod. and when two people don’t share the same level of vision or attachment, things just fall apart slowly.
for me, a startup feels like a child. you become its parent the moment you decide to build it. you carry responsibility. you can’t refuse it or postpone it. you must take care of it no matter what. and your co-founder becomes the other parent in this process. they should care about the “child” almost as much as you do. in real life, it’s like choosing who you will raise a child with. if that match is wrong, everything becomes harder.
a good co-founder isn’t just someone who helps. it’s someone whose goals match yours. same direction. same level of grind. same dream. without this alignment, the whole thing starts breaking from inside.
then there’s the solo path — the hardest one. if you go solo, you need to be able to build a lot on your own. and you need to accept that people around you will mostly be “neighbors.” they’ll give advice, share a bit of experience, maybe help here and there. but they won’t care about your “child” the way you do. only you will.
so yeah, i guess: either you find the right co-founder, or you become that person yourself. or you take the solo road and carry the whole thing on your own shoulders. and i might be wrong, but this is how it feels to me now.
// 10.07.25 AUT
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Night thoughts.
Worry is a negative prayer attracting a reality that is a full of fear. The KEY is belief. You create your reality with what you believe to be true about yourself.
Worry is a negative prayer attracting a reality that is a full of fear. The KEY is belief. You create your reality with what you believe to be true about yourself.
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i’ve got some good news.
last week, i launched my product Mareef (mareef.uz). it’s a tool to help language teachers manage their tasks. right now, it only has writing task creation and submission. nothing crazy yet.
this is the first week stats: 34 visits. not big numbers, but that’s okay. the product is still in development, so i’m not rushing to advertise it. i’m just building and planning.
during this week, i got several improvement suggestions. almost all of them are already done.
next week — big release. ship.
if you’re a language teacher, give it a try: mareef.uz
it’s fully free for now.
or if you know someone who’s a language teacher, tell them about it and ask them to give us feedback. it’ll really help us improve the app.
and thanks to my friend @toeflwithziyadulloh for helping me in this process. he’s one of the early users.
last week, i launched my product Mareef (mareef.uz). it’s a tool to help language teachers manage their tasks. right now, it only has writing task creation and submission. nothing crazy yet.
this is the first week stats: 34 visits. not big numbers, but that’s okay. the product is still in development, so i’m not rushing to advertise it. i’m just building and planning.
during this week, i got several improvement suggestions. almost all of them are already done.
next week — big release. ship.
if you’re a language teacher, give it a try: mareef.uz
it’s fully free for now.
or if you know someone who’s a language teacher, tell them about it and ask them to give us feedback. it’ll really help us improve the app.
and thanks to my friend @toeflwithziyadulloh for helping me in this process. he’s one of the early users.