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Nah, I have to share some of my personal experiences for a second.

I saw a few newer people in information security share some code, or ideas they had, on social media. They retracted their posts, or code, because of criticism they received. This wasn't one singular person, to my surprise I saw like, five noobies sharing stuff.

Very cool.

Let me tell you something, stinky new people: yes, people online are mean. They are very mean. I have been BOILED ALIVE by stinky nerds online. I have been called every synonym for idiot you can imagine over the past ... uhhh, 21 years of doing malware related stuff.

And because this is the internet, and we're connected across the globe, I've had the pleasure of being called an idiot (or something similar) in English, Spanish, French, Russian, Mandarin, Hindi, Arabic, Portuguese, and more.

While these people are not nice, I very sincerely recommend filtering out the negative verbiage and focusing on the underlying message (if applicable). It is a skill that you'll need to adapt and grow in this field. In the "hacker" sphere, intellectuality is like, the thingie people value the most (or at least claim to).

Hence, if you share something it will be heavily critiqued. When you share something, whether you explicitly say it or not, you're inviting your peers for feedback. You WILL receive feedback, good or bad, and you will have to learn to handle it, process it, or learn from it.

Someone say your code is trash? Good. That is an opportunity to improve.

Someone criticize you for leaning heavily on AI? Good. Use AI as a tool to learn and stop using it as much.

Someone misunderstood what you said and called you a bad name? Good. Use that as an opportunity to practice improving your phrasing and writing.

Someone say your idea is repetitive and has been done before? Good, you discovered an idea for yourself, learned about an existing idea, and now you know how to find more ideas.

Also, you'll notice some people are extremely quick to criticize others but do not share anything. You'll notice quickly many people kind of sit around idly and don't share stuff they've done or what they're learning. It is because:

1. They're not doing anything, genuinely.
2. They're aware they will be criticized and are afraid of it
3. Something, something, something, NDAs, but I think people exaggerate it and it's sometimes BS. They're being goofy

Still thinking about that Python malware that targeted Steam

I kind of want to do it in C and make it painfully convoluted and unnecessarily obfuscated for literally no good reason other than a challenge

Conversely, I want to look at silly pictures of cats and watch esoteric videos on the the geography of the United States

I'm torn emotionally

Lots of people asked me to be their Benzodiazepine test dummy and kind of document my taper and stuff. Many people seemed nervous trying to quit. Here is the current state. Unfortunately it is not good.

> be me
> on Benzodiazepines
> 14 years
> not good
> decide to stop
> cut by 25%
> not too bad
> people say be careful
> can be hard
> no big deal
> cut another 25%
> hehe 50% reduction
> shrimple
> day 5 arrives of 50% cut
> feel weird
> whatever
> day 6 feel weirder
> day 8 arrives
> deep unfathomable depression
> feel empty, unable to even malware

Holy cannoli, Chat. This will pass, but you have GOT to be prepared when doing big tapers with Klonopin or Benzodiazepines. I know tons of people told me, but the first aggressive 25% cut wasn't bad.

My brains GABA thingies are screaming at me and it feels like my soul is being crushed. It is a deep hollow emptiness and wave after wave of anxiety.

Here is a silly picture depicting how I currently feel inside. Klonopin is not cool and it is not badass. It fucks you up

It's very surreal. It doesn't feel like typical depression. I've been depressed. This is a different feeling. My logical state is normal, I can identify everything is fine. However, my emotional state is shot to shit. It's weird because like, one side of brain is normal, one side of brain is depressed, but it doesn't match, it is very strange and very confusing.

Because of this mismatch I can feel sad, then normal, then sad, then normal. It oscillates throughout the day, but it's not like mania or Bipolar disorder. It's like... Literally a random wave of depression that subsides seemingly randomly. It's really weird.

Overall I give this experience a 3/10. It's not terrible, but it is far from good.

I found some dork online who talks about being a malware enthusiast, or something.

He dedicates basically every second of his free time to helping people remove malware from their computers for free. He provides step-by-step instructions on how to install an anti-virus and provides useful links to software tool suites that can help clean your computer

Y'know, God bless him, but that seems like such a terminally bleak existence. If you told me this man was Jesus Christ in the flesh, I might believe you. I've never met someone who does Helpdesk support for the love of the game.

Imagine waking up and being excited about helping Jimmy JumboToes remove malware from his computer. You unironically just send links to MalwareBytes, CCleaner, and hold their hand through the process. Then, once it's done, you decide to do it again, and for free.

Fucking schizo

The darkest time in my life was the 3 months following my son's birth.

It's not because of my son.

It's because people online recommended I watch anime. I watched anime basically every single day for 90 days straight.

My mind has never been the same.

> be United States
> sanction VPN
> used for ransomware
> ransomware VPN uses Telegram
> Advertisement and customer support
> US Treasury publishes sanction thingie
> list VPNs Telegram channel
> Domain people see it
> See t.me/ransomwarethingie
> "OMG BLOCK T.ME!!!"
> Put global block on t.me
> Breaks Telegram URLs
> Telegram owner mad af
> Complains, says they can't read
> "hehe oops, me no think good"
> Resolved like, 24 hours later

Chat, my entire life I've hated going outside. I like being on beep boop machine and doing malware stuff.

However, my son is 16 months old and, despite everything, I have been extremely happy and fulfilled spending time with my son and extended family outside.

For the first time in my life I do not hate outside because my son is happy outside. He plays in the dirt, farts, and says "Dad?" while pointing at stuff.

It is cool and badass. Being a Dad is super cool and super badass.

Anyway, I see your malwares you've sent me. I plan on getting to it. I have lots of stuff planned. However, it is low priority for me at the moment because my son and I are busy (playing in the dirt, farting, etc).

Overall I'd rate having children a 10/10. Having a little dude call you "Dad" makes you feel good inside in a way nothing else can

Dawg, I'll tell you something right now though, if my son is like six, and he's like, "Dad, you're on beep boop machine a lot. Can you teach me how to malware?".

I'll say, "My son, my flesh and blood, my beautiful baby boy. Sit down. We begin now".

Then I will transfer everything I know about malware from my brain into his brain over several years. When he is a pre-teen he will possess all of my malware knowledge and he will inherit vx-underground when I die.

Or maybe he'll think malware is stinky nerd shit and instead want to play video games with his friends and do psychologically normal things. Only time will tell.

> wake up
> take a shit
> get out of bed
> check email
> email from fbi
> not spoofed
> something something leakbase
> "On behalf of the International Law Enforcement Operation Leak"
> "Law enforcement takes this type of crime extremely seriously and will not hesitate to act against offenders"
> think
> "did i make a leakbase account?"
> flash back
> made account to check out website
> spoke with admin briefly
> unironically sent him pictures of cats
> now fbi and europol sending me mean emails
> is sending cats a crime?

> get email from fbi
> click unsubscribe

HOLY.

The two nerds from Scattered Spider got FIVE YEARS for profiting millions from ransomware and, most notably, ransoming critical infrastructure in the United Kingdom.

Dawg, move to the UK and do cyber crime. It's basically legal there. They don't even extradite you

They'll probably get out in two years. The United Kingdom is badass bro wtf ransomware is basically legal

After receiving an e-mail from the FBI, or EUROPOL, or whatever, about Operation Leak, I decided to establish a line of communication with the FBI.

I am now Super Top Secret (STS) FBI Agent Smelly Smellington, in charge of silly cat picture collection intelligence

Oh, this is the picture I sent:

The FBI after I keep sending them e-mails with pictures of cats for literally no reason (they hate my guts)

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