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So I'm 25 ...I was born and raised in an abusive house hold . My father is pretty verbally and physically abusive. The man laughed at me when I I him I wanted to pursue my Masters. He said I would amount to nothing. My childhood was pretty unstable to say the least. I was sexually abused by my uncle from the age of 6 upto 11 and have a very vivid recollection of the event. To say I'm emotionally unstable would be an understatement of the century. I tend to get into a depressive state way too often and my anxiety level has gotten worst over the years. I have trouble sleeping on rainy night cause I remember the nights of the sexual abuse ...my dreams are about that. I used to be a sleeping meds addict for over year but I been sober for 6 months now.
I guess in a way ..my memories are attached to the season change or certain smell.
I can't stand the smell of raw meat cause my uncle used to eat that and come and shove his tongue down my throat while sexually abusing me.
5 years ago I decided to leave my house and pursue my education abroad far from home....far from all the abuse and I did. The thing is I am back here again after finishing my studies...and I just feel like I am child who just can't control her anxiety...everything seems to rub me off the wrong way . I'm a fun person to talk to but the moment a man streches his hand to even shake or hold my hand ...I feel all the red alarms in my head go off and get really anxious. I have abandonment issues and if I vibe with someone and try and get comfortable with them ...I have difficulty emotionally attaching with them.
I recently lost my virginity to my guy friend and I felt nothing. My body went numb and so did I. I felt foreign to my own body. I just didn't understand anything. So I just ghosted him after that ...blamed it on work and my depression and let the whole thing die out.
I go to therapy and all, it helps a lot but I'm just having troubles with everything. I liked it better being away from home and everything and my work place isn't helping my situation cause I have a colleague who continuously tries to grope me and stuff ..last time he kissed me...I went frantic in the office and he just said I'm too uptight and that I am lucky to have his lips touch mine (those were his exact words)
And recently I realised my mom knew about the sexual assault and even saw it ones and told me that she didn't think much of it. So she let it be. I feel like things could have been different if she had said sth or done sth...and I was blamed for what happened to me that I should have said sth at the time.
I told her I was too scared and she said it was my fault
And lately it feels like I have this weird resentment towards her but it's coming in sudden moments I just snap at her.
What I wanna ask is, is there anyone going through what I am going through? Cause I just feel like my life is just a huge ball of disappointment and pain. My bestfriend has been awol and plus I think he is being weird after I told I had feelings for him. I just need to know if I can overcome this in way. I know we all have our own problems but I just feel like mine is just taking a lot away from me.
Thank you for taking your time to read this
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So I'm 25 ...I was born and raised in an abusive house hold . My father is pretty verbally and physically abusive. The man laughed at me when I I him I wanted to pursue my Masters. He said I would amount to nothing. My childhood was pretty unstable to say the least. I was sexually abused by my uncle from the age of 6 upto 11 and have a very vivid recollection of the event. To say I'm emotionally unstable would be an understatement of the century. I tend to get into a depressive state way too often and my anxiety level has gotten worst over the years. I have trouble sleeping on rainy night cause I remember the nights of the sexual abuse ...my dreams are about that. I used to be a sleeping meds addict for over year but I been sober for 6 months now.
I guess in a way ..my memories are attached to the season change or certain smell.
I can't stand the smell of raw meat cause my uncle used to eat that and come and shove his tongue down my throat while sexually abusing me.
5 years ago I decided to leave my house and pursue my education abroad far from home....far from all the abuse and I did. The thing is I am back here again after finishing my studies...and I just feel like I am child who just can't control her anxiety...everything seems to rub me off the wrong way . I'm a fun person to talk to but the moment a man streches his hand to even shake or hold my hand ...I feel all the red alarms in my head go off and get really anxious. I have abandonment issues and if I vibe with someone and try and get comfortable with them ...I have difficulty emotionally attaching with them.
I recently lost my virginity to my guy friend and I felt nothing. My body went numb and so did I. I felt foreign to my own body. I just didn't understand anything. So I just ghosted him after that ...blamed it on work and my depression and let the whole thing die out.
I go to therapy and all, it helps a lot but I'm just having troubles with everything. I liked it better being away from home and everything and my work place isn't helping my situation cause I have a colleague who continuously tries to grope me and stuff ..last time he kissed me...I went frantic in the office and he just said I'm too uptight and that I am lucky to have his lips touch mine (those were his exact words)
And recently I realised my mom knew about the sexual assault and even saw it ones and told me that she didn't think much of it. So she let it be. I feel like things could have been different if she had said sth or done sth...and I was blamed for what happened to me that I should have said sth at the time.
I told her I was too scared and she said it was my fault
And lately it feels like I have this weird resentment towards her but it's coming in sudden moments I just snap at her.
What I wanna ask is, is there anyone going through what I am going through? Cause I just feel like my life is just a huge ball of disappointment and pain. My bestfriend has been awol and plus I think he is being weird after I told I had feelings for him. I just need to know if I can overcome this in way. I know we all have our own problems but I just feel like mine is just taking a lot away from me.
Thank you for taking your time to read this
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Okay so I'm a girl and sth happend to me earlier this week and I've been thinking abt it a lot, it didn't happen TO ME persay it just happened......... so like I said I'm a girl but not what u would call a typical feminist. I mean I support it bedemb gn I'm not the kind of person that talks about it all the time, like I won't purposely bring it up in the middle of a convo and stuff. That being said here's what happened I was in the taxi and it wasn't full so we were waiting eskemimola and some guys were arguing out side about their shifts and stuff, turns out the taxi teraw alneberem and the other guy was so pissed ena he came to us ena weredu mnamn alen. We didn't at first because egna wedemenehedebet yemichn lela taxi alneberem and we just stayed but then the dude was being too loud and mesadeb mnamn jemere to the redat of our taxi so ppl started gathering and they tried to calm him down ena to negotiate (yaleterachew sigebu bekefeya yesmamalu apparently) ena yekefelehal silutm he said no he was like 'lela taxi baynor enkuan ehe yetm aychenm because i said so' ena egnanm begd aswereden and there was no other taxi we were just standing there demoko he's not even a driver tera askebari nw but he was being illogical and absudr, he just wanted it that way because he didn't want his ego to be compromised keza he said "EHE TAXI KECHANE ENE WEND ADELEHUM SET NEGN" those exact words and out loud to our faces. I wanted to kill him algebachum😤😤 like we were all girls ezaga yewerednew and 1 guy, arogitoch hula neberu and I was the youngest one there, I'm 18 fyi, but they were all grown ups and what was most shocking was no one said nothing. WHAT THE FUCK. I was seriously about to insult him gn he was too aggressive even for his friends like mad af and ready to fight kinda mad so I kept quite, like everyone else there!!! And I'm really disappointed in myself for doing that, malet he is the most irrational person I've ever seen......... exaggeration limeslachu yechelal gn u had to be there to understand the way he acted, the level of his disrespect even to the elderly women........ I ain't got no words for it. It's gonna take more than an insult to fix a bone head like him but still I feel like I let myself down. Do u guys think I should have said sth, it's bothering me that I didn't , obviously I would have gotten myself into trouble but still I wish I said sth😡 What is wrong with men gn egnam eko sewoch nen why can't u just respect us as human beings?????💔
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Okay so I'm a girl and sth happend to me earlier this week and I've been thinking abt it a lot, it didn't happen TO ME persay it just happened......... so like I said I'm a girl but not what u would call a typical feminist. I mean I support it bedemb gn I'm not the kind of person that talks about it all the time, like I won't purposely bring it up in the middle of a convo and stuff. That being said here's what happened I was in the taxi and it wasn't full so we were waiting eskemimola and some guys were arguing out side about their shifts and stuff, turns out the taxi teraw alneberem and the other guy was so pissed ena he came to us ena weredu mnamn alen. We didn't at first because egna wedemenehedebet yemichn lela taxi alneberem and we just stayed but then the dude was being too loud and mesadeb mnamn jemere to the redat of our taxi so ppl started gathering and they tried to calm him down ena to negotiate (yaleterachew sigebu bekefeya yesmamalu apparently) ena yekefelehal silutm he said no he was like 'lela taxi baynor enkuan ehe yetm aychenm because i said so' ena egnanm begd aswereden and there was no other taxi we were just standing there demoko he's not even a driver tera askebari nw but he was being illogical and absudr, he just wanted it that way because he didn't want his ego to be compromised keza he said "EHE TAXI KECHANE ENE WEND ADELEHUM SET NEGN" those exact words and out loud to our faces. I wanted to kill him algebachum😤😤 like we were all girls ezaga yewerednew and 1 guy, arogitoch hula neberu and I was the youngest one there, I'm 18 fyi, but they were all grown ups and what was most shocking was no one said nothing. WHAT THE FUCK. I was seriously about to insult him gn he was too aggressive even for his friends like mad af and ready to fight kinda mad so I kept quite, like everyone else there!!! And I'm really disappointed in myself for doing that, malet he is the most irrational person I've ever seen......... exaggeration limeslachu yechelal gn u had to be there to understand the way he acted, the level of his disrespect even to the elderly women........ I ain't got no words for it. It's gonna take more than an insult to fix a bone head like him but still I feel like I let myself down. Do u guys think I should have said sth, it's bothering me that I didn't , obviously I would have gotten myself into trouble but still I wish I said sth😡 What is wrong with men gn egnam eko sewoch nen why can't u just respect us as human beings?????💔
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Sometimes its the simplest things that are the most profounding reminders of whats important. Like love, how it can heal the past or give us hope for the future or family knowing no matter what happens we dont have to fight alone because faith isnt just about religion. It's about realizing we are all in this together. Its easy to forget how connected we all are. Its easy to feel scared or lost or angry but thats not the same thing as losing faith. And sometimes it takes someone new to remind us of that it is never too late to find the faith we have lost.
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Sometimes its the simplest things that are the most profounding reminders of whats important. Like love, how it can heal the past or give us hope for the future or family knowing no matter what happens we dont have to fight alone because faith isnt just about religion. It's about realizing we are all in this together. Its easy to forget how connected we all are. Its easy to feel scared or lost or angry but thats not the same thing as losing faith. And sometimes it takes someone new to remind us of that it is never too late to find the faith we have lost.
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Hello everyone hope ur doing great am 25 years old dude i have a girl friend i am really in love with her for about 3 years. So the thing is what would u feel if u see ur girl holding another boy hand and walking with him.
I just saw her with her friend (boy) and i was really upset. She introduced me as her boyfriend but still didn't feel comfort.
so my questions is will u be upset if this was happend to you?plz share ur ideas
Thanks for ur time.
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Hello everyone hope ur doing great am 25 years old dude i have a girl friend i am really in love with her for about 3 years. So the thing is what would u feel if u see ur girl holding another boy hand and walking with him.
I just saw her with her friend (boy) and i was really upset. She introduced me as her boyfriend but still didn't feel comfort.
so my questions is will u be upset if this was happend to you?plz share ur ideas
Thanks for ur time.
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Hello kind people. It's been a while since I vented and I'm really grateful to this community for listening to my problems.
So basically I've been in that constant sad mood as if for ages. But I somehow managed, the thing is I've lost myself, my identity, everything. If I were to explain anything about myself I don't have anything to say. I keep saying I'm nothing it's not out of humility it's out of disappointment, so what bothers me even more is the question my mind keeps asking me i.e, "What next?".
I am so so soo lost that I don't even remember the basics, like the way of holding a conversation or when to laugh and when to nod or anything.
As long as it's a task that I've to perform I'm good, I'll try to do it thinking I'm being helpful perhaps. But when it comes to something that I've to use my own brains or my suggestions are required I literally become a dead body, my response is always weird people always become annoyed.
The thing is I don't understand anymore what I'm doing, I understand anything anymore. I'm not saying this metaphorically, I'm being honest.
I'm tired and scared and for some reason detest my existence (I feel bad for feeling so).
I used to go to the therapist but I gave it up. I don't feel like I am competent, I believe I'm incompetent. I want to work on it but I really don't, I don't do anything at all I become super numb and begin to cry and all, it's as if I'm making excuses and I'm being dishonest to myself.
I'm tired.
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Hello kind people. It's been a while since I vented and I'm really grateful to this community for listening to my problems.
So basically I've been in that constant sad mood as if for ages. But I somehow managed, the thing is I've lost myself, my identity, everything. If I were to explain anything about myself I don't have anything to say. I keep saying I'm nothing it's not out of humility it's out of disappointment, so what bothers me even more is the question my mind keeps asking me i.e, "What next?".
I am so so soo lost that I don't even remember the basics, like the way of holding a conversation or when to laugh and when to nod or anything.
As long as it's a task that I've to perform I'm good, I'll try to do it thinking I'm being helpful perhaps. But when it comes to something that I've to use my own brains or my suggestions are required I literally become a dead body, my response is always weird people always become annoyed.
The thing is I don't understand anymore what I'm doing, I understand anything anymore. I'm not saying this metaphorically, I'm being honest.
I'm tired and scared and for some reason detest my existence (I feel bad for feeling so).
I used to go to the therapist but I gave it up. I don't feel like I am competent, I believe I'm incompetent. I want to work on it but I really don't, I don't do anything at all I become super numb and begin to cry and all, it's as if I'm making excuses and I'm being dishonest to myself.
I'm tired.
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Hi; so I'm going to go straight to the point...
I'm a girl, 19 and I have a lazy eye and it's bothering me a lot lately... I am overly insecure about it and I try to avoid eye contact with anyone at all costs... but now I just want to have a normal eye you know; and if any of you here know how i can treat it or if u know a doctor/hospital, please let me know 🥺
Thanks in advance😊
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Hi; so I'm going to go straight to the point...
I'm a girl, 19 and I have a lazy eye and it's bothering me a lot lately... I am overly insecure about it and I try to avoid eye contact with anyone at all costs... but now I just want to have a normal eye you know; and if any of you here know how i can treat it or if u know a doctor/hospital, please let me know 🥺
Thanks in advance😊
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Hey guys, so i have a question so anyone who thinks can help pls dm me, so my period is late and i think i am pregnant even tho i never had sex pls dont judge, so me and my ex were making out and suddenly we were naked idk how to say this, but our sexual organs touched(trying to make it formal) but then we decided to wait so we just stopped, so my question is, is there any possibility that his sperm might have gotten in somehow, and plus ive been having some stomach aches since then im so scared and confussed right now, i might just be overthing but what if i was right , guys pls pls help, i dont have anyone to talk to
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Hey guys, so i have a question so anyone who thinks can help pls dm me, so my period is late and i think i am pregnant even tho i never had sex pls dont judge, so me and my ex were making out and suddenly we were naked idk how to say this, but our sexual organs touched(trying to make it formal) but then we decided to wait so we just stopped, so my question is, is there any possibility that his sperm might have gotten in somehow, and plus ive been having some stomach aches since then im so scared and confussed right now, i might just be overthing but what if i was right , guys pls pls help, i dont have anyone to talk to
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Please hear me out.
I'm a strange person. I am awesome (according to people) when I'm with someone who doesn't know me deep down when I get closer to a person I turn out to be a toxic person.
I lie for convenience, I'm not dishonest or disloyal but I can't stick to a particular person forever. I think I'm self centered and things should work according to my convenience when it doesn't happen I guess I lose my temper. I think I'm selfish enough to manipulate people so as to abide by me.
I think I use trauma story for emotional blackmailing. In reality I don't feel anything at all, as long as I'm having fun I'll do everything possible the moment i need to be there it becomes a hassle for me. I run away.
I really don't give a damn about anything at all, though I do feel guilty 24x7 about my existence.
I'm very good at masking, I put a mask of a good person and people literally fall for it. In reality I'm just a sht head who somehow wants to live another day. As long as it's making my life easy I can even lick shoes(I haven't ever but I think that's the kind of person I am).
Why am I saying all this because I'm tired of myself I want someone to beat the pulp out of me and knock some sense into me. I don't want to be like that. I'm tired of being an ahle. I don't give a damn about anything yet I feel guilty for being who I am. I want to have a personality and self respect and stuff but it always feels like what the hell is self respect, why does it even matter, what is self worth what does it even mean. I'm literally suffocated by myself, pretending to be a good person whereas the true me is known to no one. It's really suffocating. I'm suffocated by my existence.
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Please hear me out.
I'm a strange person. I am awesome (according to people) when I'm with someone who doesn't know me deep down when I get closer to a person I turn out to be a toxic person.
I lie for convenience, I'm not dishonest or disloyal but I can't stick to a particular person forever. I think I'm self centered and things should work according to my convenience when it doesn't happen I guess I lose my temper. I think I'm selfish enough to manipulate people so as to abide by me.
I think I use trauma story for emotional blackmailing. In reality I don't feel anything at all, as long as I'm having fun I'll do everything possible the moment i need to be there it becomes a hassle for me. I run away.
I really don't give a damn about anything at all, though I do feel guilty 24x7 about my existence.
I'm very good at masking, I put a mask of a good person and people literally fall for it. In reality I'm just a sht head who somehow wants to live another day. As long as it's making my life easy I can even lick shoes(I haven't ever but I think that's the kind of person I am).
Why am I saying all this because I'm tired of myself I want someone to beat the pulp out of me and knock some sense into me. I don't want to be like that. I'm tired of being an ahle. I don't give a damn about anything yet I feel guilty for being who I am. I want to have a personality and self respect and stuff but it always feels like what the hell is self respect, why does it even matter, what is self worth what does it even mean. I'm literally suffocated by myself, pretending to be a good person whereas the true me is known to no one. It's really suffocating. I'm suffocated by my existence.
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from my time on this floating rock we call earth i have had my share of experience to know a thing or 2 about people. what we do makes sense but not really. we are such a paradoxical creature but i feel the balance behind it all. but sadly what i can't feel is peace. i might want things constantly, some which i am ashamed to desire but regardless i know in my heart what i need is more important and i don't need much. i don't even need the happiness. i just need peace. i want to find the calmness in this chaotic mess that is my mind. that's all i want. i can feel my life passing me because i am too stuck in my fucking head. i spend half of my times either being anxious or trying to avoid being restless and i know that's not right. they say we have free will but hell i can't even make myself to stop thinking so damn much, i can't let my thoughts control me. i can understand everyone except for myslef ! if i can just shut this asshole of a brain that has the fucking audacity to think that its working for my interest when that's far from the truth. i am just tired
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from my time on this floating rock we call earth i have had my share of experience to know a thing or 2 about people. what we do makes sense but not really. we are such a paradoxical creature but i feel the balance behind it all. but sadly what i can't feel is peace. i might want things constantly, some which i am ashamed to desire but regardless i know in my heart what i need is more important and i don't need much. i don't even need the happiness. i just need peace. i want to find the calmness in this chaotic mess that is my mind. that's all i want. i can feel my life passing me because i am too stuck in my fucking head. i spend half of my times either being anxious or trying to avoid being restless and i know that's not right. they say we have free will but hell i can't even make myself to stop thinking so damn much, i can't let my thoughts control me. i can understand everyone except for myslef ! if i can just shut this asshole of a brain that has the fucking audacity to think that its working for my interest when that's far from the truth. i am just tired
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Ok hi guys....so here is the thing me and my bf started dating like 2 months ago we started texting at first and we fell in love immediately so everything was fine i mean if you asked me a month ago or something i would proudly say i am gonna marry him and he is my soulmate.....but lately i am getting irritated by him easily, things i didnt mind before make me mad as hell...i mean idfk whats happening to me like one moment i feel happy i have him and the next moment i am like why the hell am i with this dude bicha enem tesekayehu the poor guy is wondering what he did wrong minamin.....so my question is, is this some kind of a phase thing that would pass because its a new relationship or am i just losing interest i mean i love him eko betam...atleast i think so esti professional asteyayetachun nigerugn or kelmd antsar because i am kinda losing my mind here.....thanks in advance, have a good time
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Ok hi guys....so here is the thing me and my bf started dating like 2 months ago we started texting at first and we fell in love immediately so everything was fine i mean if you asked me a month ago or something i would proudly say i am gonna marry him and he is my soulmate.....but lately i am getting irritated by him easily, things i didnt mind before make me mad as hell...i mean idfk whats happening to me like one moment i feel happy i have him and the next moment i am like why the hell am i with this dude bicha enem tesekayehu the poor guy is wondering what he did wrong minamin.....so my question is, is this some kind of a phase thing that would pass because its a new relationship or am i just losing interest i mean i love him eko betam...atleast i think so esti professional asteyayetachun nigerugn or kelmd antsar because i am kinda losing my mind here.....thanks in advance, have a good time
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I have family that love me , job that pays me, school that is going to be great paying career in the future. But i have no boyfriend and no real female friend that i can go to when i am sad or going through someone that i need emergency help with. I know i am blessed! sometimes i feel so alone because i dont have someone i can share my life with and it sucks. How do i get over this feeling?? I am close to family but we dont talk about personal stuff. I know alot of people and im not antisocial but i have no real bestfriend and it hurts :(
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I have family that love me , job that pays me, school that is going to be great paying career in the future. But i have no boyfriend and no real female friend that i can go to when i am sad or going through someone that i need emergency help with. I know i am blessed! sometimes i feel so alone because i dont have someone i can share my life with and it sucks. How do i get over this feeling?? I am close to family but we dont talk about personal stuff. I know alot of people and im not antisocial but i have no real bestfriend and it hurts :(
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Hello to you all.First time venting. I have been in this channel for some time now and i love how you all try to help each other and need help from you this time.
So i had a girl started our thing about 7 years ago. At first it was bro sis kinda thing relation since we were very little but it was changed after some time. After it was changed (we become adults) we didn't label it and continue our thing lovin each other without having the talk. But after some time i heared all the people around us get jelous at our thing and they say they are both the same person and they are the dream couple. I had only her as both my best friend and my love. I have other friends since they tried to do bad things and brake us up all of them.I had some idea of it (the jelousy part )at that time about this and when people ask me i said we're just friends or we're bro n sis. I did this not to jynx our thing and having fear of losing her coz of the rumors since we didn't label it. But to be sure and to leave this fear behind after some time i made the move and kissed her and i think she didn't like it so i kinda distort the situation and we passed that moment. So we keep on our thing lovin havin a good time but after some time she left the country with out even telling me. She told this after she got there and this made me angry at that time but i let it go since my love for her was that much. But since she got there our thing become ugly and then talking or texting become less and less and we stopped talking after some time. So it became hard for me since i loved her very much. Ididn't know what got in to her. I wasn't able to forgot about her so ye gibi life in addition to this became very hard for me i got sick all the time i lost about 7kg weight. When we were together i was a very top smart student not to exaggerate but since this happened education become less important to me my grade got low and low and day to day my routine become doing my best to forget abt her but it is very difficult. So after we parted I tried to meet with new people but i lost interest in everything or hated every people they irritate me i think i may became introvert so i didn't know anything how to talk to a girl or sth. With the help of my best friend (yeah she is the only true friend i got thank God), i tried to change and improve since this is bad for me and not to let down my parents.
But not long ago i heared she got with someone and i lost my close relative in this time and i think my previous feeling what i was trying to forget is coming back and i don't know what to do i don't want to again be in that situation coz it led me to dark path.
I'm not depressed or sth but just heart broken.
So you guys what can i do about this thing also how can i be with new people with out looking like creepy since i forget how to talk or sth
So please help guys...thanks
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Hello to you all.First time venting. I have been in this channel for some time now and i love how you all try to help each other and need help from you this time.
So i had a girl started our thing about 7 years ago. At first it was bro sis kinda thing relation since we were very little but it was changed after some time. After it was changed (we become adults) we didn't label it and continue our thing lovin each other without having the talk. But after some time i heared all the people around us get jelous at our thing and they say they are both the same person and they are the dream couple. I had only her as both my best friend and my love. I have other friends since they tried to do bad things and brake us up all of them.I had some idea of it (the jelousy part )at that time about this and when people ask me i said we're just friends or we're bro n sis. I did this not to jynx our thing and having fear of losing her coz of the rumors since we didn't label it. But to be sure and to leave this fear behind after some time i made the move and kissed her and i think she didn't like it so i kinda distort the situation and we passed that moment. So we keep on our thing lovin havin a good time but after some time she left the country with out even telling me. She told this after she got there and this made me angry at that time but i let it go since my love for her was that much. But since she got there our thing become ugly and then talking or texting become less and less and we stopped talking after some time. So it became hard for me since i loved her very much. Ididn't know what got in to her. I wasn't able to forgot about her so ye gibi life in addition to this became very hard for me i got sick all the time i lost about 7kg weight. When we were together i was a very top smart student not to exaggerate but since this happened education become less important to me my grade got low and low and day to day my routine become doing my best to forget abt her but it is very difficult. So after we parted I tried to meet with new people but i lost interest in everything or hated every people they irritate me i think i may became introvert so i didn't know anything how to talk to a girl or sth. With the help of my best friend (yeah she is the only true friend i got thank God), i tried to change and improve since this is bad for me and not to let down my parents.
But not long ago i heared she got with someone and i lost my close relative in this time and i think my previous feeling what i was trying to forget is coming back and i don't know what to do i don't want to again be in that situation coz it led me to dark path.
I'm not depressed or sth but just heart broken.
So you guys what can i do about this thing also how can i be with new people with out looking like creepy since i forget how to talk or sth
So please help guys...thanks
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I don’t know how to start, it seems like everything has gone dark. I was raped by someone I know, I was drunk and it hurts so much. I don’t know who to go to, my mom would kill me and I hate myself for ever putting myself in such a vulnerable state. I hate him for making me feel so helpless. I’m afraid I might be pregnant and I can’t have a baby, my family would ostracize me and I can’t handle the embarrassment. I don’t know what to do, I don’t know if I can continue anymore. I’ve given up hope in myself and my future. Help me please
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I don’t know how to start, it seems like everything has gone dark. I was raped by someone I know, I was drunk and it hurts so much. I don’t know who to go to, my mom would kill me and I hate myself for ever putting myself in such a vulnerable state. I hate him for making me feel so helpless. I’m afraid I might be pregnant and I can’t have a baby, my family would ostracize me and I can’t handle the embarrassment. I don’t know what to do, I don’t know if I can continue anymore. I’ve given up hope in myself and my future. Help me please
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I'm 22, soon to be 23 and i'm in a truly dark place in my life.....i'm going to be graduating in not too long and i'm truly terrified of what will come next....i've tried to stay present but i feel this looming sense of doom approaching. I was never really any good at making friends, but when i started university i finally made a group of friends and i felt like the bonds would be solid and it would go the distance. I always wanted the best for them and was always good to them and they were to me as well. We were each other's support systems and we did so much together. I have also been in a handful of relationships and i didn't think much of them until the most recent one. We met about a year and a half ago. She meant everything to me and i treated her like a queen.....i made her feel good about herself at a time when she needed it the most and she made me feel like i could be loved for who i am. I loved her from the bottom of my heart and she did as well....or so i thought. Long story short, she cheated and not too long after, she left. This was a few months ago, and it crushed me. And now i've never felt more disconnected from my friends....i feel like they're pulling away.....things are kind of weird now and the energy is just off......my gut is telling me that they won't be around for much longer and i'm devastated......i feel like i'm truly incapable of making lasting bonds with people and everyone just ends up leaving.....i've tried to find love for myself but that only gets me so far and the loneliness is crippling.....add to that the fact that i can't seem to find a sense of direction for my life and i truly feel like i'm fucked. I never liked what i'm going to school for but i didn't want to drop out of school, so i stayed and i have no clue what career path to commit to. I'm so lost and i'm not getting any younger
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I'm 22, soon to be 23 and i'm in a truly dark place in my life.....i'm going to be graduating in not too long and i'm truly terrified of what will come next....i've tried to stay present but i feel this looming sense of doom approaching. I was never really any good at making friends, but when i started university i finally made a group of friends and i felt like the bonds would be solid and it would go the distance. I always wanted the best for them and was always good to them and they were to me as well. We were each other's support systems and we did so much together. I have also been in a handful of relationships and i didn't think much of them until the most recent one. We met about a year and a half ago. She meant everything to me and i treated her like a queen.....i made her feel good about herself at a time when she needed it the most and she made me feel like i could be loved for who i am. I loved her from the bottom of my heart and she did as well....or so i thought. Long story short, she cheated and not too long after, she left. This was a few months ago, and it crushed me. And now i've never felt more disconnected from my friends....i feel like they're pulling away.....things are kind of weird now and the energy is just off......my gut is telling me that they won't be around for much longer and i'm devastated......i feel like i'm truly incapable of making lasting bonds with people and everyone just ends up leaving.....i've tried to find love for myself but that only gets me so far and the loneliness is crippling.....add to that the fact that i can't seem to find a sense of direction for my life and i truly feel like i'm fucked. I never liked what i'm going to school for but i didn't want to drop out of school, so i stayed and i have no clue what career path to commit to. I'm so lost and i'm not getting any younger
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She is doing it again. Just as I start respecting her again, just as I started loving her as a mom, she has to go and ruin it. You may be asking what the hell is this random girl talking about.
Let's start from the beginning, my screwed up past starts when my so called uncle ruined my innocence when I was too young 9 to be precise it went on for a couple years but then it stopped and I did everything I could to forget it I didn't have problems forgiving though, and the next strike was multiple almost rapes that happened by the people I trusted at the end tho it forced me to live back the memories long story short I got into a bad place and on top of that I found out that my mom was cheating on my clueless dad, try imagining finding nudes of your mom sent to a random stranger and calling him her love and a lot more that I don't wanna relive, after that my life was a series of failed suicide attempts until I finally met him, my first best/boyfriend, oh he was sweet and caring and mostly there for me until very recently he saw a vent on here that looked like it was written by me too good to look like a coincidence, idk if that was a bad thing or not because it at least made me realize that for the long run it wasn't really me he wanted anyway it's been almost two weeks since we finally broke up, I've been in a weird place being mad at him and then myself, sending all these texts while he wasn't online and then deleting it before he saw it, I was almost ready to pick up the blade long since I forgot but before a couple of minutes I just saw my mom has started cheating again I thought she stopped, I thought she was done with it, but I saw it, all of it, I'm so done
I'm gonna be looking for the perfect place and time to do it and I have a bucket list to fully scratch off but it's decided and I'm actually not afraid nor sad
Thanks for reading even though it's worthless
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I need to vent
She is doing it again. Just as I start respecting her again, just as I started loving her as a mom, she has to go and ruin it. You may be asking what the hell is this random girl talking about.
Let's start from the beginning, my screwed up past starts when my so called uncle ruined my innocence when I was too young 9 to be precise it went on for a couple years but then it stopped and I did everything I could to forget it I didn't have problems forgiving though, and the next strike was multiple almost rapes that happened by the people I trusted at the end tho it forced me to live back the memories long story short I got into a bad place and on top of that I found out that my mom was cheating on my clueless dad, try imagining finding nudes of your mom sent to a random stranger and calling him her love and a lot more that I don't wanna relive, after that my life was a series of failed suicide attempts until I finally met him, my first best/boyfriend, oh he was sweet and caring and mostly there for me until very recently he saw a vent on here that looked like it was written by me too good to look like a coincidence, idk if that was a bad thing or not because it at least made me realize that for the long run it wasn't really me he wanted anyway it's been almost two weeks since we finally broke up, I've been in a weird place being mad at him and then myself, sending all these texts while he wasn't online and then deleting it before he saw it, I was almost ready to pick up the blade long since I forgot but before a couple of minutes I just saw my mom has started cheating again I thought she stopped, I thought she was done with it, but I saw it, all of it, I'm so done
I'm gonna be looking for the perfect place and time to do it and I have a bucket list to fully scratch off but it's decided and I'm actually not afraid nor sad
Thanks for reading even though it's worthless
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I'm the type of person that bottles up everything but today I decided to vent.
I have been molested by men more times than I can count and the thought of a man touching me petrifies me to my core. I can't sit there with you and have a conversation I start fidgeting, my hands start shaking, my face turns red. What do you want me to open up to you about the Disney princess(sleeping beauty) theme birthday I had when I was 10 or the fact that I was emotionally and physically abused to a point where I cut my inner thighs, binged then shoved a toothbrush down my throat or straved myself for days... Where my anxiety creeps in the shower to a point where I can't even breathe. I want physical affection I motherfucking do but all that comes to my mind is the pain that was inflicted upon me. There's more to me than just what occurred in my life I enjoy long walks on the beach, culinary mastermind(Mac& cheese.) I'm grateful for everything that I have, I don't take anything or anyone for granted. I hope you enjoy the rest of you're day. Thank you for reading.????????
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I need to vent
I'm the type of person that bottles up everything but today I decided to vent.
I have been molested by men more times than I can count and the thought of a man touching me petrifies me to my core. I can't sit there with you and have a conversation I start fidgeting, my hands start shaking, my face turns red. What do you want me to open up to you about the Disney princess(sleeping beauty) theme birthday I had when I was 10 or the fact that I was emotionally and physically abused to a point where I cut my inner thighs, binged then shoved a toothbrush down my throat or straved myself for days... Where my anxiety creeps in the shower to a point where I can't even breathe. I want physical affection I motherfucking do but all that comes to my mind is the pain that was inflicted upon me. There's more to me than just what occurred in my life I enjoy long walks on the beach, culinary mastermind(Mac& cheese.) I'm grateful for everything that I have, I don't take anything or anyone for granted. I hope you enjoy the rest of you're day. Thank you for reading.????????
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Hey guys
Nice meeting you again
I wanted to ask yall something since you guys were SO FREAKN helpful last time...i was a 12+1 and i passed..barely but i passed and now i kinda don't know what to learn...i mean i know we all have to learn an extra year this year but hoping that goes as planned what should i learn...i'm into tech i do a little bit of coding and all but i kinda don't have the drive as i did before so I'm afraid if i choose that i won't be happy and all so if yall have any suggestions i'd love to hear them. And also people that learnt computer science and or software engineering...can yall tell me of its worth it. Thanks for your time.😁
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Hey guys
Nice meeting you again
I wanted to ask yall something since you guys were SO FREAKN helpful last time...i was a 12+1 and i passed..barely but i passed and now i kinda don't know what to learn...i mean i know we all have to learn an extra year this year but hoping that goes as planned what should i learn...i'm into tech i do a little bit of coding and all but i kinda don't have the drive as i did before so I'm afraid if i choose that i won't be happy and all so if yall have any suggestions i'd love to hear them. And also people that learnt computer science and or software engineering...can yall tell me of its worth it. Thanks for your time.😁
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Am girl,22
Am struggling in life nothing seems to get right because am that kind of person that gives without any hesitation doing things for peoples make me happy more that I do it for my self that how I was raised putting other before you I doesn't come with any strings I just give coz I know how its like not to be given cared loved to be ignored not to be heard,I stopped with being friend with my best friend becoz she is the opposite dont even know to give I wonder why peoples has to be like this people use me at any opportunity they get and am tired so tired
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Am girl,22
Am struggling in life nothing seems to get right because am that kind of person that gives without any hesitation doing things for peoples make me happy more that I do it for my self that how I was raised putting other before you I doesn't come with any strings I just give coz I know how its like not to be given cared loved to be ignored not to be heard,I stopped with being friend with my best friend becoz she is the opposite dont even know to give I wonder why peoples has to be like this people use me at any opportunity they get and am tired so tired
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So am a girl, and I have a bf, we been having sex a lot and today I woke up and there is this pain under my belly button, it won't let me move, it stops only when I lay down, so anybody know how to make this pain go away, and can too much sex cause this?
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So am a girl, and I have a bf, we been having sex a lot and today I woke up and there is this pain under my belly button, it won't let me move, it stops only when I lay down, so anybody know how to make this pain go away, and can too much sex cause this?
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