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Hey so i need a help from guys who are committed for their gfs or an advice.. i have gf i love her so much but i cant stop cheating on her i dont know why..i used to have a night club months ago so i had an access to meet many girls still. The guilt is eating my head. I want to commit my self to her but seems like am having trouble i think there is a devil in me..what should i do she is everything that i could ask for
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Hey so i need a help from guys who are committed for their gfs or an advice.. i have gf i love her so much but i cant stop cheating on her i dont know why..i used to have a night club months ago so i had an access to meet many girls still. The guilt is eating my head. I want to commit my self to her but seems like am having trouble i think there is a devil in me..what should i do she is everything that i could ask for
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Hello every one I'm here to ask you guys for a favour does anybody here know a place to volunteer? at list 2 times week or stn. If you do pls pls leave it down in the comment section. And by the way I'm 17 if that is stn to consider.
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Hello every one I'm here to ask you guys for a favour does anybody here know a place to volunteer? at list 2 times week or stn. If you do pls pls leave it down in the comment section. And by the way I'm 17 if that is stn to consider.
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I've been seeing this girl and we went out on 3 dates menamn and I really like her but there is this other girl she is my friend with benefits so we fuck like 2 times a week. my question is,am I really cheating? Malet its just 3 dates. Esti I need answers
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I've been seeing this girl and we went out on 3 dates menamn and I really like her but there is this other girl she is my friend with benefits so we fuck like 2 times a week. my question is,am I really cheating? Malet its just 3 dates. Esti I need answers
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I don't know if it's aproblem or not but I just needed to get it off my chest so here goes nothing there's my bestie's brother I had crush on him long ago but never acted cos I know he a player and now we got to know each other better and very soon he asked me out and tried to convince me he'll be faithful and all ....of course I said no cos of his reputation but I keep thinking of what if he's changed like he says I wanted to believe him and I talked to ma bestie she said don't even think about it ik she's looking out for me but I feel like she don't think um good for him so I stopped talking to her about it promised I won't do anything but everytime I try it's getting harder to not think about him and I even stopped meeting and all but it's getting impossible to do that sometimes I can't even sleep it feels weird to say this cos I was on of those ladies who does not believe in such lovey dovey things but here I am talking about it and I want to stop it can any one tell me how??
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I don't know if it's aproblem or not but I just needed to get it off my chest so here goes nothing there's my bestie's brother I had crush on him long ago but never acted cos I know he a player and now we got to know each other better and very soon he asked me out and tried to convince me he'll be faithful and all ....of course I said no cos of his reputation but I keep thinking of what if he's changed like he says I wanted to believe him and I talked to ma bestie she said don't even think about it ik she's looking out for me but I feel like she don't think um good for him so I stopped talking to her about it promised I won't do anything but everytime I try it's getting harder to not think about him and I even stopped meeting and all but it's getting impossible to do that sometimes I can't even sleep it feels weird to say this cos I was on of those ladies who does not believe in such lovey dovey things but here I am talking about it and I want to stop it can any one tell me how??
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I'm a guy 26 have a good job and good family I always had the good things....but lately my relationships are not good it's not working for me....so not to get hurt or not to get attached I became this friends with benefits person through time I developed some skills and became good & wild and also the girls increased my confidence ena i'm happy with that with my partners but I don't think I can have a good relationship because of this friends with benefits ena when I think about the future i'm getting worried if I can have a serious relationship
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I'm a guy 26 have a good job and good family I always had the good things....but lately my relationships are not good it's not working for me....so not to get hurt or not to get attached I became this friends with benefits person through time I developed some skills and became good & wild and also the girls increased my confidence ena i'm happy with that with my partners but I don't think I can have a good relationship because of this friends with benefits ena when I think about the future i'm getting worried if I can have a serious relationship
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anybody here corona yezote ynbre sew please guys am really worried betammm ma mom infected ena bet bechewan class nat alhadechm eza ensu gar guys please i need ur adivce mnamn please
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anybody here corona yezote ynbre sew please guys am really worried betammm ma mom infected ena bet bechewan class nat alhadechm eza ensu gar guys please i need ur adivce mnamn please
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I need to vent just to let it off my chest. am a girl 27 years old,an economist .the thing I got all I wanted I got my dream job and so on.my age is running so fast with light speed .I pushed away guys who asked me to go on date so I never get to be in a relationship nah a kiss I don't even have my first kiss.I pushed my love life away so that I will be able to work on my self.family ,friends,they just keep on nagging me I don't may be I just adapted being single.guys I really need u help I wanna spend the rest of my life with one I love the thing is I have trust issues,insecurities.
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I need to vent just to let it off my chest. am a girl 27 years old,an economist .the thing I got all I wanted I got my dream job and so on.my age is running so fast with light speed .I pushed away guys who asked me to go on date so I never get to be in a relationship nah a kiss I don't even have my first kiss.I pushed my love life away so that I will be able to work on my self.family ,friends,they just keep on nagging me I don't may be I just adapted being single.guys I really need u help I wanna spend the rest of my life with one I love the thing is I have trust issues,insecurities.
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Hello, I hope y’all doing good after this vent I’d like it if u could hit me up but only if you relate to my story and if ur not a shady ass person 😊. So here we go I’m sick I had GERD (gastroesophageal relax) I believe it has turned in to chronic nausea. I thought about just letting it kill me but it’s easier said then done this shit will take years before it takes me out🙄. I mean I’m not suicidal or anything since I was a toddler the hospital has been my second home literally it’s like I was a cup holder for diseases AND always the rarest ones! I just don’t like how much this whole process is going to cost it’s fucking too much! I mean if it was before corona I wouldn’t be worried but business is literally gone for us. We reserved our last order about a month ago and God knows if we’ll get another one anytime soon. There are a lot of holes to fill and it annoys me that I’m gonna spend it on this! I can’t even play it off like I’m okay because I’ve basically stopped eating it’s disgusting everything I smell, taste just wants to come flying out the second I put it in(no I’m not pregnant corona people) so my mom will drag my ass to the hospital. I don’t even know how it could change like that. Speaking of mom she’s also my main problem like how is it possible living with someone for 20 years and not picking up their personality but that’s the case for my mother she don’t get what alone time is😂😂 or when I’m in a mood and hide out in my room BECAUSE I don’t want to upset her by lashing out BUT NO I get ignored for that for a week when my period comes or is nearing I became veryyyyy annoying and a cry baby missing my dumb ex and shit thus locking myself up till the storm passes. I’ve lost the love of my life and finding it impossible to connect to someone else which btw will probably never happen as long as corona exists(I’m quarantine) and well that’s pretty much it lol butttt I do have someone that comes once in awhile to make me feel all warm and fuzzy don’t think it’s gonna be anything more. Anyways ya I’ve practically shut the world out right now it’s peaceful tho I do feel lonely at times but I know I have people out there who love me and don’t want to see me hurt I just call them talk for hourss then feel like myself again. I’m not ungrateful I get things can be a whole lot worse. I just want my health back and if his gonna be good I want that boy back too😁(prayers you God). Bechaaaa ya there’s something I won’t write on Twitter 😂😂. Stay safe people, keep your mask on, sanitizer on hand and keep your distance ❤️.
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Hello, I hope y’all doing good after this vent I’d like it if u could hit me up but only if you relate to my story and if ur not a shady ass person 😊. So here we go I’m sick I had GERD (gastroesophageal relax) I believe it has turned in to chronic nausea. I thought about just letting it kill me but it’s easier said then done this shit will take years before it takes me out🙄. I mean I’m not suicidal or anything since I was a toddler the hospital has been my second home literally it’s like I was a cup holder for diseases AND always the rarest ones! I just don’t like how much this whole process is going to cost it’s fucking too much! I mean if it was before corona I wouldn’t be worried but business is literally gone for us. We reserved our last order about a month ago and God knows if we’ll get another one anytime soon. There are a lot of holes to fill and it annoys me that I’m gonna spend it on this! I can’t even play it off like I’m okay because I’ve basically stopped eating it’s disgusting everything I smell, taste just wants to come flying out the second I put it in(no I’m not pregnant corona people) so my mom will drag my ass to the hospital. I don’t even know how it could change like that. Speaking of mom she’s also my main problem like how is it possible living with someone for 20 years and not picking up their personality but that’s the case for my mother she don’t get what alone time is😂😂 or when I’m in a mood and hide out in my room BECAUSE I don’t want to upset her by lashing out BUT NO I get ignored for that for a week when my period comes or is nearing I became veryyyyy annoying and a cry baby missing my dumb ex and shit thus locking myself up till the storm passes. I’ve lost the love of my life and finding it impossible to connect to someone else which btw will probably never happen as long as corona exists(I’m quarantine) and well that’s pretty much it lol butttt I do have someone that comes once in awhile to make me feel all warm and fuzzy don’t think it’s gonna be anything more. Anyways ya I’ve practically shut the world out right now it’s peaceful tho I do feel lonely at times but I know I have people out there who love me and don’t want to see me hurt I just call them talk for hourss then feel like myself again. I’m not ungrateful I get things can be a whole lot worse. I just want my health back and if his gonna be good I want that boy back too😁(prayers you God). Bechaaaa ya there’s something I won’t write on Twitter 😂😂. Stay safe people, keep your mask on, sanitizer on hand and keep your distance ❤️.
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Hello everyone I hope you are all doing great so I want ur opinion on something that has been bothering me for abt a yr now the thing is that when ever I think abt class and learning in the campus I feel so anxious more like I am about to have a heart attack my heart drops and I just feel so much pain in my chest and I feel unworthy and not good enough I mean class is stressful and all but it's not that this year i even tried suicide because of it because dropping out isnt an option my parents would kick me out plus I dont want to either I dont know what to do u might think that I am just over acting but trust me I am for real so pls help me out I cant even imagine going back to class after all this with the same situation.thank u for ur time!
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Hello everyone I hope you are all doing great so I want ur opinion on something that has been bothering me for abt a yr now the thing is that when ever I think abt class and learning in the campus I feel so anxious more like I am about to have a heart attack my heart drops and I just feel so much pain in my chest and I feel unworthy and not good enough I mean class is stressful and all but it's not that this year i even tried suicide because of it because dropping out isnt an option my parents would kick me out plus I dont want to either I dont know what to do u might think that I am just over acting but trust me I am for real so pls help me out I cant even imagine going back to class after all this with the same situation.thank u for ur time!
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Am a girl, 19 I am actually a happy person, like real happy. But that doesn't mean i don't have any problems in my life. I have enough reasons to be sad and depressed all the time. But i didn't choose to be like that. I choose to be happy and am happy. It's not that i am feeling less or something but i don't get sad most of the time. But there are moments where i feel like am about to explode cuz i kept all my problems inside and covered them with my happiness, and i hate that feeling. Feeling every single shit of my life for a moment and then it goes away fast. Then am back to smiling and happy me. What i don't understand is my happiness is not fake at all neither is my sadness. Is it okay to feel two different things at once?
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Am a girl, 19 I am actually a happy person, like real happy. But that doesn't mean i don't have any problems in my life. I have enough reasons to be sad and depressed all the time. But i didn't choose to be like that. I choose to be happy and am happy. It's not that i am feeling less or something but i don't get sad most of the time. But there are moments where i feel like am about to explode cuz i kept all my problems inside and covered them with my happiness, and i hate that feeling. Feeling every single shit of my life for a moment and then it goes away fast. Then am back to smiling and happy me. What i don't understand is my happiness is not fake at all neither is my sadness. Is it okay to feel two different things at once?
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Hey guys. This is my first vent so help me out😊 so here is it I have younger brother he is 14. And he has temper. And sometimes he rip of his cloth. I tried to talk to him so many times but he don’t wanna tell me and he tells me that it’s my fault. Ena bka tnsh koyto wede drug endayhed mnamn eferalw. Ke cousinoche ga mnamn honen yehone nbr sibal yabdal like atenefafesu yileyal erasun yibuacheral lebsun yikedal mnamn staff. Ena bka dedeb negn alrebam eyale yasebal gn ene enegrewalw hule endza atebel beye. Dmo yihen tsebay yametaw quarantine sigemr nw Ena hul gize ye bekel semet alw so plz guys meftehe kalachu negrugn
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Hey guys. This is my first vent so help me out😊 so here is it I have younger brother he is 14. And he has temper. And sometimes he rip of his cloth. I tried to talk to him so many times but he don’t wanna tell me and he tells me that it’s my fault. Ena bka tnsh koyto wede drug endayhed mnamn eferalw. Ke cousinoche ga mnamn honen yehone nbr sibal yabdal like atenefafesu yileyal erasun yibuacheral lebsun yikedal mnamn staff. Ena bka dedeb negn alrebam eyale yasebal gn ene enegrewalw hule endza atebel beye. Dmo yihen tsebay yametaw quarantine sigemr nw Ena hul gize ye bekel semet alw so plz guys meftehe kalachu negrugn
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Ok hi...here it goes....a few months ago I broke things off with this dude and few days after I started texting back all the guys I've been curving and happened to stumble upon this dude who was cute...funny and sweet and he seemed like the perfect rebound....I rly enjoyed his company cause we had alot in common but it was all fun and games and one day we were just talking and sharing memes and out of the blue he told me that he liked me and I honestly thought he meant he liked me as a person so I told him I liked him too......after that day he started acting as if I we were in a relationship....so I had to make things clear and told him I wasnt over my ex and he told me he isnt worried about that and that I'll eventually come to him.....everything started to get serious afterwards....he started opening up bout deep matters.... telling me bout his past and how he's depressed and that he even thought bout killing himself more than once....he said that he started rethinking about life after he met me and that am filling some void that he has.....I do feel bad bout this and I wish I could help but I honestly dont care that much for the dude....so I tried to pull away knowing that am gonna hurt him if he gets too attached....I tried showing all the possible ways of disinterest....and he couldnt take the hint so I just flat out told him that I am no good for him and that he shouldnt let his guard down but he's choosing to turn a blind eye....he keeps asking me where we stand and I told him many times that he's just someone I talk to....he keeps pushing me to open up and gets pissed when i dont....I thought bout blocking him but i felt bad bout it....like he didnt do anything wrong....I just dont know what else to do. Like I just wanna know.... how i can get this guy to cut me out of his life completely???
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Ok hi...here it goes....a few months ago I broke things off with this dude and few days after I started texting back all the guys I've been curving and happened to stumble upon this dude who was cute...funny and sweet and he seemed like the perfect rebound....I rly enjoyed his company cause we had alot in common but it was all fun and games and one day we were just talking and sharing memes and out of the blue he told me that he liked me and I honestly thought he meant he liked me as a person so I told him I liked him too......after that day he started acting as if I we were in a relationship....so I had to make things clear and told him I wasnt over my ex and he told me he isnt worried about that and that I'll eventually come to him.....everything started to get serious afterwards....he started opening up bout deep matters.... telling me bout his past and how he's depressed and that he even thought bout killing himself more than once....he said that he started rethinking about life after he met me and that am filling some void that he has.....I do feel bad bout this and I wish I could help but I honestly dont care that much for the dude....so I tried to pull away knowing that am gonna hurt him if he gets too attached....I tried showing all the possible ways of disinterest....and he couldnt take the hint so I just flat out told him that I am no good for him and that he shouldnt let his guard down but he's choosing to turn a blind eye....he keeps asking me where we stand and I told him many times that he's just someone I talk to....he keeps pushing me to open up and gets pissed when i dont....I thought bout blocking him but i felt bad bout it....like he didnt do anything wrong....I just dont know what else to do. Like I just wanna know.... how i can get this guy to cut me out of his life completely???
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Hi???? everyone im a girl n am 22 n im really smart n did so good at school n i think im good looking(at least thats what guys told me????) but the thing is i haven't dated even once till now. I might be a little shy but thats not the reason. im a person who cares alot &i am afraid i might get heart broken n its also b.c may be i dont know good guys so far and i dont see many couples lasting but may be now i should start dating b.c u know we girls are expected to get married tolo and i dont even have a boyfriend at this age???? i have had guys trying to ask me out but i was interested in none of them so i feel like im missing out and i might not even have a bf since im getting older n all the good guys would probably be taken or it will just be too late and that scares me
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Hi???? everyone im a girl n am 22 n im really smart n did so good at school n i think im good looking(at least thats what guys told me????) but the thing is i haven't dated even once till now. I might be a little shy but thats not the reason. im a person who cares alot &i am afraid i might get heart broken n its also b.c may be i dont know good guys so far and i dont see many couples lasting but may be now i should start dating b.c u know we girls are expected to get married tolo and i dont even have a boyfriend at this age???? i have had guys trying to ask me out but i was interested in none of them so i feel like im missing out and i might not even have a bf since im getting older n all the good guys would probably be taken or it will just be too late and that scares me
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What I want to know is if being indifferent to the LGBTQ+ community is wrong. Personally, due to my Christian belief, I don't condone it. But, I am not against it either. I believe they're humans and deserve to be treated the same as heterosexuals, but some of my Christian friends tell me I should be against it, and some of my more liberal friends expect me to sort of go out and find one to befriend. What is right?
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What I want to know is if being indifferent to the LGBTQ+ community is wrong. Personally, due to my Christian belief, I don't condone it. But, I am not against it either. I believe they're humans and deserve to be treated the same as heterosexuals, but some of my Christian friends tell me I should be against it, and some of my more liberal friends expect me to sort of go out and find one to befriend. What is right?
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Through the natural rule of approaching... guys are perceived to be the one to make the first move... hence it comes as no surprise that guys get rejected far more than girls.
Women sure know how to take advantage of a situation, when we men approach you, you can reject us and move on like it's nothing. You blame guys of acting all simpy, claiming they all want to get in your pants and not in your heart, rejecting those that actually try. First of all, you wouldn't dress inappropriately if you didn't want us guys to see your external beauty instead of the more important inside. I know there are good girls who are mature enough to understand and accept, but most girls think of this when they feel like their time is running out and they get pressured by their friends and family to settle.
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Through the natural rule of approaching... guys are perceived to be the one to make the first move... hence it comes as no surprise that guys get rejected far more than girls.
Women sure know how to take advantage of a situation, when we men approach you, you can reject us and move on like it's nothing. You blame guys of acting all simpy, claiming they all want to get in your pants and not in your heart, rejecting those that actually try. First of all, you wouldn't dress inappropriately if you didn't want us guys to see your external beauty instead of the more important inside. I know there are good girls who are mature enough to understand and accept, but most girls think of this when they feel like their time is running out and they get pressured by their friends and family to settle.
Thanks for reading, stay safe my good people ????
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Hi am a 16 year old girl. I used to be happy , optimistic the girl everyone loved , everyone at school or home saw a sweet happy girl who was perfect but I wasn’t I had demons and problems and facing them has changed me. I am more dark and plain evil. My father is literally afraid of me and my mother thinks am evil and almost every person I know says I am the coldest person they’ve met yet also they say am the best Person . I don’t like this me , the one that laughs in other ppls misery and I don’t know if I can change so please-help
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Hi am a 16 year old girl. I used to be happy , optimistic the girl everyone loved , everyone at school or home saw a sweet happy girl who was perfect but I wasn’t I had demons and problems and facing them has changed me. I am more dark and plain evil. My father is literally afraid of me and my mother thinks am evil and almost every person I know says I am the coldest person they’ve met yet also they say am the best Person . I don’t like this me , the one that laughs in other ppls misery and I don’t know if I can change so please-help
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Hey everyone...I'm a woman nd 23... I need to ask sth important...I had been reading since I was a little kid but I feel no satisfaction nd change in my life...nd when u ask me the books I read I forgot most of them but I know I have read them...I want to do more be more I don't know wat I'm gonna do...wanna build this habit to change my life nd see sth new in it...wat methods do I have to use to remember wat I read nd to become wat I always wanted to be...nd also I tried to read books in English language but because there are a lot I don't know the time stressing me out so please please help me with this reading habit
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Hey everyone...I'm a woman nd 23... I need to ask sth important...I had been reading since I was a little kid but I feel no satisfaction nd change in my life...nd when u ask me the books I read I forgot most of them but I know I have read them...I want to do more be more I don't know wat I'm gonna do...wanna build this habit to change my life nd see sth new in it...wat methods do I have to use to remember wat I read nd to become wat I always wanted to be...nd also I tried to read books in English language but because there are a lot I don't know the time stressing me out so please please help me with this reading habit
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My identity isn't important. But my story needs an audience. Please approve this vent because I'm convinced I desperately need help.
This all started when I was young . I wasn't even aware at the time that what I was doing was fucked up or considered insane. Almost on a daily basis, I would daydream about hurting my parents and sister It wasn't because I hated them. It was because I thought it was fascinating and I wanted to find out how it would feel. I remember this one time, I was in Sunday school and we were learning about how Samson killed a bunch of guys with just the jawbone of a donkey and I started imagining, in detail, how I would do that to the boy sitting next to me. I even told him about it years later and he laughed. I guess he thought I was joking.
As I grew up, these feelings evolved as well. I began to obsessively dream about hurting every person I saw... On the street, in school, at church, relatives, everyone. Obviously, I didn't act on my feelings. But not out of compassion but the fear of getting caught. I confided in one of my friends once, and she told me that I was probably possessed. I think she was joking. In any case, I don't believe in that BS.
Recently, a friend of mine sent me a video of a man getting hacked to pieces and you can imagine my reaction. For those who lack imagination, it was exhilarating. I started obsessively browsing the internet for similar videos and I now have a folder full of them.
Whenever I'm not watching the videos or deep within one bloody fantasy or another, I'm depressed out of my mind. Surprisingly I have never wanted to kill myself. I even truly considered it once and the thought didn't appeal to me.
I feel like all these emotions are building up to something big, something sinister. I think I require help before I lose my mind and do something I won't be able to regret.
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My identity isn't important. But my story needs an audience. Please approve this vent because I'm convinced I desperately need help.
This all started when I was young . I wasn't even aware at the time that what I was doing was fucked up or considered insane. Almost on a daily basis, I would daydream about hurting my parents and sister It wasn't because I hated them. It was because I thought it was fascinating and I wanted to find out how it would feel. I remember this one time, I was in Sunday school and we were learning about how Samson killed a bunch of guys with just the jawbone of a donkey and I started imagining, in detail, how I would do that to the boy sitting next to me. I even told him about it years later and he laughed. I guess he thought I was joking.
As I grew up, these feelings evolved as well. I began to obsessively dream about hurting every person I saw... On the street, in school, at church, relatives, everyone. Obviously, I didn't act on my feelings. But not out of compassion but the fear of getting caught. I confided in one of my friends once, and she told me that I was probably possessed. I think she was joking. In any case, I don't believe in that BS.
Recently, a friend of mine sent me a video of a man getting hacked to pieces and you can imagine my reaction. For those who lack imagination, it was exhilarating. I started obsessively browsing the internet for similar videos and I now have a folder full of them.
Whenever I'm not watching the videos or deep within one bloody fantasy or another, I'm depressed out of my mind. Surprisingly I have never wanted to kill myself. I even truly considered it once and the thought didn't appeal to me.
I feel like all these emotions are building up to something big, something sinister. I think I require help before I lose my mind and do something I won't be able to regret.
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I had a best boy friend and he had a girlfriend and he introduced us and we were very close friends with her..kehone gize behewala gen besu teteretereng jemr. i told her that I had no feelings for him and I stopped talking to him, but she could't believe me... .And I really hate getting into that kind of thing.I don’t want to be thought of this way in anyone’s life!so wt should i do?should i block both of them from social media and cut them from everything because I can't find them anywhere then?or wt should i do as a grownup girl..?
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I need to vent
#relationships
I had a best boy friend and he had a girlfriend and he introduced us and we were very close friends with her..kehone gize behewala gen besu teteretereng jemr. i told her that I had no feelings for him and I stopped talking to him, but she could't believe me... .And I really hate getting into that kind of thing.I don’t want to be thought of this way in anyone’s life!so wt should i do?should i block both of them from social media and cut them from everything because I can't find them anywhere then?or wt should i do as a grownup girl..?
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Hey Unihorse 🦄
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hmm... let me ask/tell uh sth
here it goes...my father had HIV before he met mom... then after they start dating he stopped to took his medicine for not to tell her.... ena they got married then ene teweledku... keteweledku ke 2 years buhala somebody told ma mom about ma father's status.. ena she wants checkups then HIV +ve endehonech awekech gn divorce alaregechm neber... after that betam tameme and she took a care for him ena teshalew then he heal.. gn keza buhala bzu tfat yatefa neber he tried our servants mnamn bcha kenezi Hulu buhala they got divorce.. i was 5 at that time ena enate ga neber yadekut.... BTW she's young betaam stil.. she have dated so many boys(all boys are HIV +ve)... ena they were same.. ena hule tgodalech... after all yehonesew agebach buh he was drunk.. drug addicted mnamn ena etelaw neber.. uh know GOD is grate!! ahun they aren't togather...but the thing is we lost everything.. mejemeriya by ma father then by ma step-father.. bcha the point is..
if uh were me... wouldn't uh hate ur dad?
.......... wouldn't got fear abt relations?
BTW i have dated so many dudes but i couldn't believe them weather am in love or not...i can't fix it up...
Thank you😊
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hmm... let me ask/tell uh sth
here it goes...my father had HIV before he met mom... then after they start dating he stopped to took his medicine for not to tell her.... ena they got married then ene teweledku... keteweledku ke 2 years buhala somebody told ma mom about ma father's status.. ena she wants checkups then HIV +ve endehonech awekech gn divorce alaregechm neber... after that betam tameme and she took a care for him ena teshalew then he heal.. gn keza buhala bzu tfat yatefa neber he tried our servants mnamn bcha kenezi Hulu buhala they got divorce.. i was 5 at that time ena enate ga neber yadekut.... BTW she's young betaam stil.. she have dated so many boys(all boys are HIV +ve)... ena they were same.. ena hule tgodalech... after all yehonesew agebach buh he was drunk.. drug addicted mnamn ena etelaw neber.. uh know GOD is grate!! ahun they aren't togather...but the thing is we lost everything.. mejemeriya by ma father then by ma step-father.. bcha the point is..
if uh were me... wouldn't uh hate ur dad?
.......... wouldn't got fear abt relations?
BTW i have dated so many dudes but i couldn't believe them weather am in love or not...i can't fix it up...
Thank you😊
#Family #Relationship
Hey Unihorse 🦄
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22,girl
My thing is back in highschool I use to be around fake and toxic friends and they really hurted me to the point where I feel afraid to start new friendships I started to be that person you like to hang out but I dont want the attachment after I finished campus I cut out all the peoples I know and was comfortable by myself so last night I saw old photos of my friends and me back in highschool it brought back old memories and I felt the pain again Idk it sucks it sucks so bad that I can't even have friends now bcoz am in fear and that making me depressed so bad
#Friendship #Adult
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I need to vent
22,girl
My thing is back in highschool I use to be around fake and toxic friends and they really hurted me to the point where I feel afraid to start new friendships I started to be that person you like to hang out but I dont want the attachment after I finished campus I cut out all the peoples I know and was comfortable by myself so last night I saw old photos of my friends and me back in highschool it brought back old memories and I felt the pain again Idk it sucks it sucks so bad that I can't even have friends now bcoz am in fear and that making me depressed so bad
#Friendship #Adult