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Its so fucked up how most of you guys judge the gay ppl. First of all who gave you the power to decide whether they're going to hell or not? Second of all you dont know what is like to be gay. do you think they choosed to be that to be that someone most of the people around the world hate. do you think they wanna be seen like something disgusting? They never wanted to be this they never choosed to be gay but that's how they're created maybe it's a sin but why do these ppl pay for the things they didn't choose to be? So even if it's not right god is the one who could punish them. Really some of you are like God will love me if I killed gay ppl, they are the most disgusting ppl, I would kill someone if I found out they're gay mnamn who the fuck are you? Acting like innocent. Like you dont have sin. Most straight ppl cheat, have sex with everyone they want, do drugs, kill ppl, do so many sins and the gay ppl are the one who are going to hell for the sexuality they didn't even choose. Do u think that's fair? Not even close to fair so even if they are doing sin let's think of the sins we do before judging them. Just because we're straight doesn't mean we have the power to judge them. So pls before you judge someone think of what would you feel if you're in their place.
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Its so fucked up how most of you guys judge the gay ppl. First of all who gave you the power to decide whether they're going to hell or not? Second of all you dont know what is like to be gay. do you think they choosed to be that to be that someone most of the people around the world hate. do you think they wanna be seen like something disgusting? They never wanted to be this they never choosed to be gay but that's how they're created maybe it's a sin but why do these ppl pay for the things they didn't choose to be? So even if it's not right god is the one who could punish them. Really some of you are like God will love me if I killed gay ppl, they are the most disgusting ppl, I would kill someone if I found out they're gay mnamn who the fuck are you? Acting like innocent. Like you dont have sin. Most straight ppl cheat, have sex with everyone they want, do drugs, kill ppl, do so many sins and the gay ppl are the one who are going to hell for the sexuality they didn't even choose. Do u think that's fair? Not even close to fair so even if they are doing sin let's think of the sins we do before judging them. Just because we're straight doesn't mean we have the power to judge them. So pls before you judge someone think of what would you feel if you're in their place.
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More like a question then a vent so I used to be a dancer but last year and this year I’ve just had way too much to deal with haven’t really payed much attention to my dance and shit but last night I found this amazing music and wanted to choreograph something but then I realized my body is stiff as a board so please doesn’t anyone how to to help?
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More like a question then a vent so I used to be a dancer but last year and this year I’ve just had way too much to deal with haven’t really payed much attention to my dance and shit but last night I found this amazing music and wanted to choreograph something but then I realized my body is stiff as a board so please doesn’t anyone how to to help?
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So this is going to sound like a teen drama but bare with me cos its driving me insane. So i had a best friend and she lived with her boyfriend and i used to go visit her there and one day i met one of her bf's friend and we fell inlove and my friend was also happy for me but after a while my friend and her bf broke up and she moved back home but i kept on pushing her to go back and make peace because its the 3rd time this happend and she always went back and i knew that they loved each other but she refused so i decided to respect her decision but after a while she started acting strange around me she became mad whenever my bf called or when i told her i was gonne meet him then i started getting the felling that she wanted us to break up because she broke up with her bf so i distanced my self for a bit then one day my bf told me that he was sensing the same thing from her bf aka his friend so after a while when i met up with her she just keeps talking shit abt my bf but i didnt listin and her bf would keep doing the same with my bf but he listened and started doubting me but i didnt say anything cos i didnt want to loss both of them but finaly my friends bf started spreading rumors abt how its my fault that they broke up and that he even lost his best friend b/c of me even tho i was the only one who told her to get back with him when her other friends were introducing her to new guys so as much as i loved my bf i broke up with him cos i cant live with all this drama and b/c he said nothing when his friend spread all those rumors eventhough he new they werent true i mean wasnt he suppose to defend me i am his girl and i also distanced myself from my friend because i didnt want to hear any more gossip but a few days ago she called me and said that she was on gud terms with her ex and that she thinks that i should get back with my ex too isnt that selfish i know she introduced me to him but does that make her call the shots so my question is am i over reacting or am i right to get mad
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So this is going to sound like a teen drama but bare with me cos its driving me insane. So i had a best friend and she lived with her boyfriend and i used to go visit her there and one day i met one of her bf's friend and we fell inlove and my friend was also happy for me but after a while my friend and her bf broke up and she moved back home but i kept on pushing her to go back and make peace because its the 3rd time this happend and she always went back and i knew that they loved each other but she refused so i decided to respect her decision but after a while she started acting strange around me she became mad whenever my bf called or when i told her i was gonne meet him then i started getting the felling that she wanted us to break up because she broke up with her bf so i distanced my self for a bit then one day my bf told me that he was sensing the same thing from her bf aka his friend so after a while when i met up with her she just keeps talking shit abt my bf but i didnt listin and her bf would keep doing the same with my bf but he listened and started doubting me but i didnt say anything cos i didnt want to loss both of them but finaly my friends bf started spreading rumors abt how its my fault that they broke up and that he even lost his best friend b/c of me even tho i was the only one who told her to get back with him when her other friends were introducing her to new guys so as much as i loved my bf i broke up with him cos i cant live with all this drama and b/c he said nothing when his friend spread all those rumors eventhough he new they werent true i mean wasnt he suppose to defend me i am his girl and i also distanced myself from my friend because i didnt want to hear any more gossip but a few days ago she called me and said that she was on gud terms with her ex and that she thinks that i should get back with my ex too isnt that selfish i know she introduced me to him but does that make her call the shots so my question is am i over reacting or am i right to get mad
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Hi guys am 20 girl
I ve been in love once but it didn't workout i was hurt a lot & started to believe love doesn't exist but suddenly after 3 years i had a crush on this guy his kinda weirdo but i love him so he started to call me text me we talk for long ours a day then finally he told me that he loves me but he don't want to get married at all & i want to get married & have kids after 3 or 4 years even though its up to God one of my biggest dream is to get married have good & happy family but he don't want that i asked for a reason but he ain't got areason & i said let me give u some time so that he can figure out he said no i wont change my mind then i break up with him
I am in love with him but there is nothing i can do but the thing is i want your opinion do you think what i did is bad?? & he did not even called me or text me since be broke up its about 15 days do you think he's really in love with me or messing up? Specially girls i need ur advise
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I ve been in love once but it didn't workout i was hurt a lot & started to believe love doesn't exist but suddenly after 3 years i had a crush on this guy his kinda weirdo but i love him so he started to call me text me we talk for long ours a day then finally he told me that he loves me but he don't want to get married at all & i want to get married & have kids after 3 or 4 years even though its up to God one of my biggest dream is to get married have good & happy family but he don't want that i asked for a reason but he ain't got areason & i said let me give u some time so that he can figure out he said no i wont change my mind then i break up with him
I am in love with him but there is nothing i can do but the thing is i want your opinion do you think what i did is bad?? & he did not even called me or text me since be broke up its about 15 days do you think he's really in love with me or messing up? Specially girls i need ur advise
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hi.....i need help.has anyone ever flet like their brain just wants to hurt them? and it doesnt feel like its your mind at all its like someone in you is making the decisions and it just hurts. i have severe depression and sometimes i just cant stop crying for no reason. yes i do have reasons to cry but sometimes i just cant help myself but be sad for no reason at all its like i dont know any other way to feel anymore. every time i start to become hapy for real my whole body just keeps reminding me every single bad thing that has ever happened until i shut down. please help me
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hi.....i need help.has anyone ever flet like their brain just wants to hurt them? and it doesnt feel like its your mind at all its like someone in you is making the decisions and it just hurts. i have severe depression and sometimes i just cant stop crying for no reason. yes i do have reasons to cry but sometimes i just cant help myself but be sad for no reason at all its like i dont know any other way to feel anymore. every time i start to become hapy for real my whole body just keeps reminding me every single bad thing that has ever happened until i shut down. please help me
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hey guys......so i always felt different i always heng out with guys and i act like them and even cheak out girls ????????. but then i went through a break up with a guy and suddenly things start to get obvious that i am bisexual and i know that aint good with soo many people but i just cant help it. and i cant even talk to my parents cause they are really strong protestant and it just hurts to know that. so please tell me what to do. and go easy on me on the comments.
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hey guys......so i always felt different i always heng out with guys and i act like them and even cheak out girls ????????. but then i went through a break up with a guy and suddenly things start to get obvious that i am bisexual and i know that aint good with soo many people but i just cant help it. and i cant even talk to my parents cause they are really strong protestant and it just hurts to know that. so please tell me what to do. and go easy on me on the comments.
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I am hurt i mean everyone is hurting at some point but I'm hurt because i love someone dearly and i've never loved anyone like that but i did know and what's hurting more is that person doesn't realize that or doesn't care if even if i showed it i mean why r we in love with someone who can't love us why r we hurting just because we love someone and I'm sitting here thinking how did i end up here i was strong now I'm weak and thinking about suicide thinking about leaving and i know everyone says it will pass but this hurting is so much that it feels like I'm hurting physically please anyone help me
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I am hurt i mean everyone is hurting at some point but I'm hurt because i love someone dearly and i've never loved anyone like that but i did know and what's hurting more is that person doesn't realize that or doesn't care if even if i showed it i mean why r we in love with someone who can't love us why r we hurting just because we love someone and I'm sitting here thinking how did i end up here i was strong now I'm weak and thinking about suicide thinking about leaving and i know everyone says it will pass but this hurting is so much that it feels like I'm hurting physically please anyone help me
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So I have a question. If a girl never had penetrative sex but did other things like touching and stuff and what is commonly known as brush or something, is she called a virgin or not?
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So I have a question. If a girl never had penetrative sex but did other things like touching and stuff and what is commonly known as brush or something, is she called a virgin or not?
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Okay I know this might feel a little bit of small problem but hear me out ....you see for the past 2 years or so I have been trying to change my life from doing office work that doesn't change anything...the salary is good but even if you saved for entire 10 years u may not be able to afford a good house or the kind of life you want ...so my final decision was I have to get out of this and i started applying for scholarship...As soon as I finished work I used to go straight to Interent cafe and search for opportunity so In general I have wasted my time and energy but like one month ago I got email for one of the Chinese university for acceptance to full scholarship...But with everything that going in right know? What is the best decision ? What should I do the program start on September but still after all this? And I haven't told my family too because they will think am crazy for even bringing the issue? Any advice will be accepted. Thanks
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Okay I know this might feel a little bit of small problem but hear me out ....you see for the past 2 years or so I have been trying to change my life from doing office work that doesn't change anything...the salary is good but even if you saved for entire 10 years u may not be able to afford a good house or the kind of life you want ...so my final decision was I have to get out of this and i started applying for scholarship...As soon as I finished work I used to go straight to Interent cafe and search for opportunity so In general I have wasted my time and energy but like one month ago I got email for one of the Chinese university for acceptance to full scholarship...But with everything that going in right know? What is the best decision ? What should I do the program start on September but still after all this? And I haven't told my family too because they will think am crazy for even bringing the issue? Any advice will be accepted. Thanks
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Hello, Umm I just need to let this off my chest. Umm I have good days in life and some bad days. Seen Good sunshine and hard storms. These storms came to be tougher and really traumatic. Tbh my life is all good rn. And I'm grateful for it. But I keep having sudden flashbacks of these traumatic events. It feels like I've been living unconsciously and I just wake up and it's so shoking & frightening. I get startled every now and then, Its really painful. Makes this reality feel like this reality doesnt seem as real and im stuck in those moments. I really want to seek help but not in the place where I can actually set time and money to go see someone. It's been like this for like the half the past year. I'm just praying it doesnt stay like this😓
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Hello, Umm I just need to let this off my chest. Umm I have good days in life and some bad days. Seen Good sunshine and hard storms. These storms came to be tougher and really traumatic. Tbh my life is all good rn. And I'm grateful for it. But I keep having sudden flashbacks of these traumatic events. It feels like I've been living unconsciously and I just wake up and it's so shoking & frightening. I get startled every now and then, Its really painful. Makes this reality feel like this reality doesnt seem as real and im stuck in those moments. I really want to seek help but not in the place where I can actually set time and money to go see someone. It's been like this for like the half the past year. I'm just praying it doesnt stay like this😓
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The truth is I don't know anything about myself. I read this book last night, in the book the character is asked what makes her happy in life...I asked myself the same question and by God! I could not mention one single thing that made me happy. and then i started asking more questions like whats my favourite colour... i dont know was my answer.... i just kept asking and reached the conclusion that Me! yes a 21 year old does not know myself! How do u fix that? cause honestly I don't know where to even start. And No I dd not just wake up from a coma. I have been well and functioning all this time... after knowing this though everything I do is filled with anxiety...I question every move. Anyways if y'all have any constructive comment or books/videos...please let me know.
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The truth is I don't know anything about myself. I read this book last night, in the book the character is asked what makes her happy in life...I asked myself the same question and by God! I could not mention one single thing that made me happy. and then i started asking more questions like whats my favourite colour... i dont know was my answer.... i just kept asking and reached the conclusion that Me! yes a 21 year old does not know myself! How do u fix that? cause honestly I don't know where to even start. And No I dd not just wake up from a coma. I have been well and functioning all this time... after knowing this though everything I do is filled with anxiety...I question every move. Anyways if y'all have any constructive comment or books/videos...please let me know.
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The thing is do u think god is fair like there may be so many different religion but we all know only one is right z other is not so think of how may of us go to hell n how many off us will be for genet. But all the power is on his hand why he just make all of us good or rich or why don he punish ur while doing wrong thing why he want that endless very sektach punishment even he knows at z first place mn endemnsera or endemansera ena hulum yesu power hono sale he want us to reflect that why? does it have a meaning for you i think like we r actors
Plus like some of us in this world may have a horrible life then we may nat be on the straight like we may be orthodox Muslim pente.... so like Muslim honen orthodox tekekel kehone yahulu dekamachin chirash le siole lihon new lelelawm endihu endezihm honen teskayten noren bemder besemayem ya lk kalone enktalk so is this fair just wondering
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The thing is do u think god is fair like there may be so many different religion but we all know only one is right z other is not so think of how may of us go to hell n how many off us will be for genet. But all the power is on his hand why he just make all of us good or rich or why don he punish ur while doing wrong thing why he want that endless very sektach punishment even he knows at z first place mn endemnsera or endemansera ena hulum yesu power hono sale he want us to reflect that why? does it have a meaning for you i think like we r actors
Plus like some of us in this world may have a horrible life then we may nat be on the straight like we may be orthodox Muslim pente.... so like Muslim honen orthodox tekekel kehone yahulu dekamachin chirash le siole lihon new lelelawm endihu endezihm honen teskayten noren bemder besemayem ya lk kalone enktalk so is this fair just wondering
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This is for the guys....is it fun for u?? Making girls believe that u care making us think that u'll love us no matter what and just as soon as u know u got us all vulnerable and shit as soon as u sense that we've fallen for u....u just break us apart u stamp all over our feelings. Lies lies lies u dont u get tired of it?? Jumping from one girl to another like ur playing super Mario or smt. Do u just see a girl and say oh let me just mess up her life a lil. I honestly want to know what goes into that head of urs when u decide to play someone.
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This is for the guys....is it fun for u?? Making girls believe that u care making us think that u'll love us no matter what and just as soon as u know u got us all vulnerable and shit as soon as u sense that we've fallen for u....u just break us apart u stamp all over our feelings. Lies lies lies u dont u get tired of it?? Jumping from one girl to another like ur playing super Mario or smt. Do u just see a girl and say oh let me just mess up her life a lil. I honestly want to know what goes into that head of urs when u decide to play someone.
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So i love this person and i did everything he asked me for even if when i don't think it's right i do it and sometimes i tried to say no i don't want to do it and i know you don't want it either but then we will get into fight i don't want to lose this person but deep inside I'm hating myself for it hw can i help this person to be better and hw can i be better cuz leaving him is so hard believe me i tried it please help
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So i love this person and i did everything he asked me for even if when i don't think it's right i do it and sometimes i tried to say no i don't want to do it and i know you don't want it either but then we will get into fight i don't want to lose this person but deep inside I'm hating myself for it hw can i help this person to be better and hw can i be better cuz leaving him is so hard believe me i tried it please help
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Hey guys I’m 19 M and I don’t know if I’m schizophrenic or psychotic but I’m one of em I just have this weird feeling that I’m observing life through a glass or how can I say this I’m out of my body and there is this voice in my head that just keeps talking talking I don’t really know what to do help me out
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Hey guys I’m 19 M and I don’t know if I’m schizophrenic or psychotic but I’m one of em I just have this weird feeling that I’m observing life through a glass or how can I say this I’m out of my body and there is this voice in my head that just keeps talking talking I don’t really know what to do help me out
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Am sorry to say gn what the fuck. Where the fuck are the happy venters telling us they passed through shit and it will be okay?? As much as I admire your good faith comments I really want a fucking a person that sucked up to the good words they spit and actually pulled it off. Because tbh am feeling like its all just bunch of bullshit ppl trying to comfort you for the day. That's what am feeling like lately. Advice but okay but tell me where are u know. Don't tell me what u didn't or couldn't do. Tell me how u got here. Tell me how u passed it. And tell me from ur heart if it was worth it. Don't say some good shit cuz u have to or cuz that's what u have to do. Tell me cuz it's real! Be fucking real with me!
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Am sorry to say gn what the fuck. Where the fuck are the happy venters telling us they passed through shit and it will be okay?? As much as I admire your good faith comments I really want a fucking a person that sucked up to the good words they spit and actually pulled it off. Because tbh am feeling like its all just bunch of bullshit ppl trying to comfort you for the day. That's what am feeling like lately. Advice but okay but tell me where are u know. Don't tell me what u didn't or couldn't do. Tell me how u got here. Tell me how u passed it. And tell me from ur heart if it was worth it. Don't say some good shit cuz u have to or cuz that's what u have to do. Tell me cuz it's real! Be fucking real with me!
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Hey guys how r u ....its not that much of a vent but here it goes.am 20 a girl never been in a relationship but i was in love tho twice to be specific but i was rejected.why? ....because every guy i meet and have known makes me their sister ...sister they never had before and now am 3rd year in collage before it has never bothered me but now am thinking is this how it gonna be for the rest of my life ? But there in second tought i think r/ship is a nightmare from all this vents and stories i have heard thats what i have learned!and finally i wanna say for those out there who r depressed,sad,cofussed.....i hope u find ur way out of there!
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Hey guys how r u ....its not that much of a vent but here it goes.am 20 a girl never been in a relationship but i was in love tho twice to be specific but i was rejected.why? ....because every guy i meet and have known makes me their sister ...sister they never had before and now am 3rd year in collage before it has never bothered me but now am thinking is this how it gonna be for the rest of my life ? But there in second tought i think r/ship is a nightmare from all this vents and stories i have heard thats what i have learned!and finally i wanna say for those out there who r depressed,sad,cofussed.....i hope u find ur way out of there!
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Guy 19, Ever since a certain breakup i had my whole concept of relationships and women has changed Every time i try to talk to a new girl it either becomes sexual or i talk to her knowing i dont love her and lead her on.
My ex when she broke up with me i hated how she changed on me i hated the person that she become after all we've been through
But i have become the same person she was to me and i cant help but see girls as nothing more but sexualized object if not just be in a fake relationship in w/c i lie to them and say i love u or the whole thing is just a time passer i just cant i want to be somthin serious again but i cant i try but its like i think it gon work out but i just cant i hate being like this and i want to change it .
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Guy 19, Ever since a certain breakup i had my whole concept of relationships and women has changed Every time i try to talk to a new girl it either becomes sexual or i talk to her knowing i dont love her and lead her on.
My ex when she broke up with me i hated how she changed on me i hated the person that she become after all we've been through
But i have become the same person she was to me and i cant help but see girls as nothing more but sexualized object if not just be in a fake relationship in w/c i lie to them and say i love u or the whole thing is just a time passer i just cant i want to be somthin serious again but i cant i try but its like i think it gon work out but i just cant i hate being like this and i want to change it .
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Okay for those of you who are too sensitive I suggest you not read this . It was from a young age that I started to not feel shit about anything . I was dead inside . I needed to feel something so I started to explore what could make me feel . Unfortunately it turned out to be hurting someone or something that could be hurt. It felt terrible but at least it made me feel something . I literally abused my friends and anybody around me . I was only 12 when I beat a cat and hang her to death . Now most of you might guess that all my friends hated me but not really because I did everything without anyone noticing I did it . I am naturally gifted in acting so nobody knew how I really function. When I was an Eighths grader I drowned a grown man in a river near to my school and my home . He was fortunate because people dragged him out when he was right about to go deeper . So I kept on doing "evil" shit to people without them even noticing . Another character that I had was that I speak with no mercy ( I am brutally honest and I say things in the meanest way possible) . So this kept on going till I got into a new school at grade 11. What I am about to say sounded as stupid as you will hear it now to me back then . I saw a random chick in my class and for the very first time ever I noticed myself feeling something different than terrible . I thought I would hurt her so I kept my distance . Through time , when I started to love the feeling I feel when I see her I stopped all the evil deeds I used to do except being mean to every one . I changed for the better . Mind you I didn't even talk to her at this point . Kept it that way till we were the big guys in school . We were 12 and I was a better man . Dropping the story how I got to make her mine to wonder for you guys ...I made her mine ...until she wasn't mine anymore and it felt worse than hurting people . Now I'm far from hurting people but I am hurting everyday after I lost her . I thought I would get better but I didn't . I am still in love with her but I know we can never be together again and I think I am paying for all the things I did . I know I deserve to be alone and I deserve to be hurt . I used to hurt my self physically so it can compensate to what I did and pray to God it makes up for it ...I prayed to God to not take her away from me and I will keep hurting myself if he won't take her from me . But what I did was so evil that he had to punish me with her absence in my life too. I am sad .
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Okay for those of you who are too sensitive I suggest you not read this . It was from a young age that I started to not feel shit about anything . I was dead inside . I needed to feel something so I started to explore what could make me feel . Unfortunately it turned out to be hurting someone or something that could be hurt. It felt terrible but at least it made me feel something . I literally abused my friends and anybody around me . I was only 12 when I beat a cat and hang her to death . Now most of you might guess that all my friends hated me but not really because I did everything without anyone noticing I did it . I am naturally gifted in acting so nobody knew how I really function. When I was an Eighths grader I drowned a grown man in a river near to my school and my home . He was fortunate because people dragged him out when he was right about to go deeper . So I kept on doing "evil" shit to people without them even noticing . Another character that I had was that I speak with no mercy ( I am brutally honest and I say things in the meanest way possible) . So this kept on going till I got into a new school at grade 11. What I am about to say sounded as stupid as you will hear it now to me back then . I saw a random chick in my class and for the very first time ever I noticed myself feeling something different than terrible . I thought I would hurt her so I kept my distance . Through time , when I started to love the feeling I feel when I see her I stopped all the evil deeds I used to do except being mean to every one . I changed for the better . Mind you I didn't even talk to her at this point . Kept it that way till we were the big guys in school . We were 12 and I was a better man . Dropping the story how I got to make her mine to wonder for you guys ...I made her mine ...until she wasn't mine anymore and it felt worse than hurting people . Now I'm far from hurting people but I am hurting everyday after I lost her . I thought I would get better but I didn't . I am still in love with her but I know we can never be together again and I think I am paying for all the things I did . I know I deserve to be alone and I deserve to be hurt . I used to hurt my self physically so it can compensate to what I did and pray to God it makes up for it ...I prayed to God to not take her away from me and I will keep hurting myself if he won't take her from me . But what I did was so evil that he had to punish me with her absence in my life too. I am sad .
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