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Hey guys I've been very stressed about something and I hope you can give me some helpful advice.π It all started I'm second semester of our first year at campus and I met a very nice, very cute very caring and lovely girl which I really loved and my love for her kept growing and growing until the point that I couldn't keep it inside any more. And when I decided to tell her that I have feelings for her she found out that we were FAMILY think about it. Fucked up right?!?!? But then I did some digging and we are not really related, she is my uncle's wife's sister's shit like that which means we aren't related by blood. But still I love her sooooooooooooo much so I just told her my feelings for her and she told me that she doesn't have that kind of feelings for me, then I told her that I would wait for her until she's ready and she said okay, and it's been about 2 months since she said this and we've been talking every day so I wanted to make a move bot I'm not sure about what she feels. I don't know what she feels about the fact that we being sorta family. And I wanted to know if she feels disturbed because of it. Can you guys pleaseeeee give me advice on how to know what she feels. Is it wrong that I feel this way sijemer? I'm really confused and I always think about herπ’π’π’π’please help meππππ
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Hey guys I've been very stressed about something and I hope you can give me some helpful advice.π It all started I'm second semester of our first year at campus and I met a very nice, very cute very caring and lovely girl which I really loved and my love for her kept growing and growing until the point that I couldn't keep it inside any more. And when I decided to tell her that I have feelings for her she found out that we were FAMILY think about it. Fucked up right?!?!? But then I did some digging and we are not really related, she is my uncle's wife's sister's shit like that which means we aren't related by blood. But still I love her sooooooooooooo much so I just told her my feelings for her and she told me that she doesn't have that kind of feelings for me, then I told her that I would wait for her until she's ready and she said okay, and it's been about 2 months since she said this and we've been talking every day so I wanted to make a move bot I'm not sure about what she feels. I don't know what she feels about the fact that we being sorta family. And I wanted to know if she feels disturbed because of it. Can you guys pleaseeeee give me advice on how to know what she feels. Is it wrong that I feel this way sijemer? I'm really confused and I always think about herπ’π’π’π’please help meππππ
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I am really thinking about suicide, I am just wondering what the meaning of life is and how it all maybe pointless; leave thoughts
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I am really thinking about suicide, I am just wondering what the meaning of life is and how it all maybe pointless; leave thoughts
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I hurt a boy. I really fucked up his life just because i ignored him when he needed me the most. But he did the exact same thing after i fell for him. U think it is karma, right? Nop. I am not ashamed to say that i didnt deserve it. I ignored him because i was emotionally assaulted by a boy i trusted the most. So yeah, i was scared and terrified of boys till recently. But he is not giving me a fuckin chance to explain myself. But i just cant get him outta my head even though ik i don get a chance. What in the world shall i do?
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I hurt a boy. I really fucked up his life just because i ignored him when he needed me the most. But he did the exact same thing after i fell for him. U think it is karma, right? Nop. I am not ashamed to say that i didnt deserve it. I ignored him because i was emotionally assaulted by a boy i trusted the most. So yeah, i was scared and terrified of boys till recently. But he is not giving me a fuckin chance to explain myself. But i just cant get him outta my head even though ik i don get a chance. What in the world shall i do?
Please suggest something
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Im 22 years old dude n I fuckn have HIV in my blood. I got it from my parents yeah my father fucked up my life I ain't lived half my life I spent my childhood in church n hospitals n now I can't even talk people with confidence I got all kind of insecurities can't communicate with people I feel alone n left out it feels like my world is crashing down n I start smoking weed till I pass out uk to get out of z pain all I see is these darkness n death. N now they know I smoke n guess what my father said he said get z fuck out of my house. I don't know where to go I don't even know what to do. Again he's gonna mess my life.
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Im 22 years old dude n I fuckn have HIV in my blood. I got it from my parents yeah my father fucked up my life I ain't lived half my life I spent my childhood in church n hospitals n now I can't even talk people with confidence I got all kind of insecurities can't communicate with people I feel alone n left out it feels like my world is crashing down n I start smoking weed till I pass out uk to get out of z pain all I see is these darkness n death. N now they know I smoke n guess what my father said he said get z fuck out of my house. I don't know where to go I don't even know what to do. Again he's gonna mess my life.
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Hi am 20yrs old and I wanna start a business but my families aren't supportive I have 0 friends I am socially awkward and boring and I feel too much negative energy on my life more than I can take and am about to get banned from uni and I hadn't been this lost since...its not even a vent but anything I can let steam out is wiz writing and if it get approved any mentor will be great
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Hi am 20yrs old and I wanna start a business but my families aren't supportive I have 0 friends I am socially awkward and boring and I feel too much negative energy on my life more than I can take and am about to get banned from uni and I hadn't been this lost since...its not even a vent but anything I can let steam out is wiz writing and if it get approved any mentor will be great
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Hey, Iβm 18 and Iβve been dealing with depression since a few years. Sometimes I feel like i missed out the best time of my life (the teenager years even though Iβm still one) and I ask myself is someone out there who feels like me... i mean people really seem to have their fun and living their best lifeβs while sometimes Iβm at home and cry because of stupid shit... did you guys enjoyed or are enjoying your teenager years?I donβt know why everybody claims that the teenager years are the best in life but if they really are I wonder why. I am afraid I missed out everything. What do you think is so special about our teenager years? I donβt want to waste my last years as being a teenager so Iβd be thankful about advice and tips
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Hey, Iβm 18 and Iβve been dealing with depression since a few years. Sometimes I feel like i missed out the best time of my life (the teenager years even though Iβm still one) and I ask myself is someone out there who feels like me... i mean people really seem to have their fun and living their best lifeβs while sometimes Iβm at home and cry because of stupid shit... did you guys enjoyed or are enjoying your teenager years?I donβt know why everybody claims that the teenager years are the best in life but if they really are I wonder why. I am afraid I missed out everything. What do you think is so special about our teenager years? I donβt want to waste my last years as being a teenager so Iβd be thankful about advice and tips
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I'm 24 (M)
College dropout.
Bored.
No Job.
Homeless.
No family.
Tired of living.
The only friend I hv is my phone.
Do you guys think is there any hope for me?
Any help? Ideas?
Thanks for reading.
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I'm 24 (M)
College dropout.
Bored.
No Job.
Homeless.
No family.
Tired of living.
The only friend I hv is my phone.
Do you guys think is there any hope for me?
Any help? Ideas?
Thanks for reading.
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Its my second time but for some reason u guys aint postin it but Well heres the thing i broke up with a girl 4 months ago we where together for 5 months we were so happy and suddenly her religious side kicks in and tells me she cant be with me (an orthodox) and dumped my ass and i was cool with it for the fist few weeks but know every song i ever sent her is hard to listen to everything is just difficult and im in love with my ex and there aint shit i can do about it like its to the point where i cant sleep im constantly thinking about her like i cant even start shit with other girls im stuck seriously don't know what to do tnx for reading my bullshit problems.
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Its my second time but for some reason u guys aint postin it but Well heres the thing i broke up with a girl 4 months ago we where together for 5 months we were so happy and suddenly her religious side kicks in and tells me she cant be with me (an orthodox) and dumped my ass and i was cool with it for the fist few weeks but know every song i ever sent her is hard to listen to everything is just difficult and im in love with my ex and there aint shit i can do about it like its to the point where i cant sleep im constantly thinking about her like i cant even start shit with other girls im stuck seriously don't know what to do tnx for reading my bullshit problems.
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Guys am i the only one who is being frustrated ....our country peace is keeping me scared ol day..worrying abt the worse is yet to come...all i think abt is this...am i the only one? Am dying inside here ..helpπ’
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Guys am i the only one who is being frustrated ....our country peace is keeping me scared ol day..worrying abt the worse is yet to come...all i think abt is this...am i the only one? Am dying inside here ..helpπ’
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I've been dating this girl for quite a while now and we're deeply into each other. But before you roll your eyes, hear me out. I am an absolute sucker for her. I give her too many compliments and all to the point where I feel like I'm boring her. And I say to myself that the next time we talk I'm going to keep my cool but I end up going soft and pouring my heart out. I'm such a mess. Do you think I should, at least for some time, not be so soft and all and maybe she'll want it back neger? Idk. Have a great day
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I've been dating this girl for quite a while now and we're deeply into each other. But before you roll your eyes, hear me out. I am an absolute sucker for her. I give her too many compliments and all to the point where I feel like I'm boring her. And I say to myself that the next time we talk I'm going to keep my cool but I end up going soft and pouring my heart out. I'm such a mess. Do you think I should, at least for some time, not be so soft and all and maybe she'll want it back neger? Idk. Have a great day
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Helluuu readers hope everyone had a lovely day. My question is directed to Christians, since I think you guys will understand my situation better, but non-believers feel free to share your oppinion too. So, lately the sermons I've attended at church keep talking about how my life has to revolve around Jesus and basically christianity and not the other way around. The thing is, I have things in my life that I'm so compasionate about I could eventually develope them into a career, but I'm worried it might take my intention away from my religion. At the time I really wanted to pursue these dreams I really didn't take anything else, including my religion, seriously. I sorta lost hope after.. due to well... certain personal issues(yes, I did have a montage flash back of all the bad things in my life that hindered me from living the way I wanted to..), but now that I've gained it again it's not easy keeping track of what I should do, and what I feel, I'm lost hehe. My question is how do you balance pursuing your dreams and staying focused on God? Thanks in advance ( :
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Helluuu readers hope everyone had a lovely day. My question is directed to Christians, since I think you guys will understand my situation better, but non-believers feel free to share your oppinion too. So, lately the sermons I've attended at church keep talking about how my life has to revolve around Jesus and basically christianity and not the other way around. The thing is, I have things in my life that I'm so compasionate about I could eventually develope them into a career, but I'm worried it might take my intention away from my religion. At the time I really wanted to pursue these dreams I really didn't take anything else, including my religion, seriously. I sorta lost hope after.. due to well... certain personal issues(yes, I did have a montage flash back of all the bad things in my life that hindered me from living the way I wanted to..), but now that I've gained it again it's not easy keeping track of what I should do, and what I feel, I'm lost hehe. My question is how do you balance pursuing your dreams and staying focused on God? Thanks in advance ( :
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I don't want to sound cliche but I'm in a point where I am constantly questioning my sanity and value. A couple weeks ago I watched a video about a guy named Frank Abignale and I was moved by the confidence he had in himself. What really caught my attention about his story was when he said "the very moment you start doubting yourself people will notice", now after listening to this I started implimenting this in my life and so I did. The only problem of implimenting other people's philosophy is that it might not work for you. And that's what happened in my case. It was all fake. Fake confidence sold by a con man. Now, I am starting to lose my self. With no guide in this vast world, I realized that there isn't really anywhere to go. Society, Class, Religion, Art, Culture, Politics .... what does they all mean? Do they have any purpose? Are we living just for the sake of it?
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I don't want to sound cliche but I'm in a point where I am constantly questioning my sanity and value. A couple weeks ago I watched a video about a guy named Frank Abignale and I was moved by the confidence he had in himself. What really caught my attention about his story was when he said "the very moment you start doubting yourself people will notice", now after listening to this I started implimenting this in my life and so I did. The only problem of implimenting other people's philosophy is that it might not work for you. And that's what happened in my case. It was all fake. Fake confidence sold by a con man. Now, I am starting to lose my self. With no guide in this vast world, I realized that there isn't really anywhere to go. Society, Class, Religion, Art, Culture, Politics .... what does they all mean? Do they have any purpose? Are we living just for the sake of it?
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Its my 3rd vent but none has been approved please help me out Well heres the thing i broke up with a girl 4 months ago we where together for 5 months we were so happy and suddenly she and dumped my ass and i was cool with it for the fist few weeks but know every song i ever sent her is hard to listen to everything is just difficult and im in love with my ex and there aint shit i can do about it like its to the point where i cant sleep im constantly thinking about her like i cant even start shit with other girls im stuck seriously don't know what to do tnx for reading my bullshit problems.
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Its my 3rd vent but none has been approved please help me out Well heres the thing i broke up with a girl 4 months ago we where together for 5 months we were so happy and suddenly she and dumped my ass and i was cool with it for the fist few weeks but know every song i ever sent her is hard to listen to everything is just difficult and im in love with my ex and there aint shit i can do about it like its to the point where i cant sleep im constantly thinking about her like i cant even start shit with other girls im stuck seriously don't know what to do tnx for reading my bullshit problems.
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Here's my question. Is it a good idea to date a bestie ?? Some ppl say its better to keep ur friends as friends cuz if the rship doesn't work out u're gonna lose the friendship too...but isn't it also better to date someone who u know well, someone u can rly trust and hv a connection with ?! Or is there like a way u can tell if it's gonna work out or end in a disaster ?!!
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Here's my question. Is it a good idea to date a bestie ?? Some ppl say its better to keep ur friends as friends cuz if the rship doesn't work out u're gonna lose the friendship too...but isn't it also better to date someone who u know well, someone u can rly trust and hv a connection with ?! Or is there like a way u can tell if it's gonna work out or end in a disaster ?!!
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First time venting here. I want to really change. But change needs a great deal of time and energy. But my energy is being wasted on compulsive masturbation(like 5 years), porn and video games. I want to seek help but the topic in its self is considered taboo in our culture. I have tried a lot of times to stop but I always get back at it. Specially the sex oriented movies in hollywood are like my triggers. I instantly think abt it and do it when sex is mentioned in any media. For those of u who are going to argue masturbation is okay and healthy I promise u its not, u constantly think abt woman only in sexual perspective not as a human being and u distance Ur self from social interactions(at least that's what I did). So what should I do?(my issue is relatively light compared to the once I saw in this channel. But doesnt mean I dont need help)
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First time venting here. I want to really change. But change needs a great deal of time and energy. But my energy is being wasted on compulsive masturbation(like 5 years), porn and video games. I want to seek help but the topic in its self is considered taboo in our culture. I have tried a lot of times to stop but I always get back at it. Specially the sex oriented movies in hollywood are like my triggers. I instantly think abt it and do it when sex is mentioned in any media. For those of u who are going to argue masturbation is okay and healthy I promise u its not, u constantly think abt woman only in sexual perspective not as a human being and u distance Ur self from social interactions(at least that's what I did). So what should I do?(my issue is relatively light compared to the once I saw in this channel. But doesnt mean I dont need help)
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it is the 3rd time
Hey guys I don't know from what I should start buh I started π....I am a 20 yrs old guy.... mostly I get depressed without any reason....I am single, I didn't get in r/ns till now. it's not that I didn't get the chance ,,,,it's b/c of ma attitude. I have no confidence by my selfπ
I am short( 5.4ft)... which is the thing that i hate to be in zis world...but i know that i have to accept it. you know being short is not ma fault buh mostly I feel boared and making quarrel with God. i am silent boy( hardly),,, i don't talk with anybody in the class...I don't want anybody say " u r wrong, u couldn't do zis...bla bla.." I always relate negative things with ma height. idk why I think zis b/c I'm successful boy....I scored best till last yr, now I'm thinking abt opposite sex buh ma brain tells me zat no girls wanna be ma gf. I know zat u will say zat i am wrong and if I ask I can have 1 but she may lose confident to introduce me to her friends as her bf coz I don't look like 20yrs old guy( u never understand making my self responsible for this thing hurtsππ)... and I think zat she could let me down when she get better zan me. now a days I don't believe in true love coz ...get to know each other then date...then bf/gf...break up zen zis cycle never stops. so how can I say there is true love??
this things are kill'n me. I'm not like what previously people know me at class. I can't stop thinking such awful things and I can't read too. I don't know how can I fix ma self plz guys help me. don't say anything negative π
ma brain is always telling me z negative ones abt ma self. and 1 more thing am "Gemini"
difficult to hide from ma selfπ
ππthanks betamππ
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Hey guys I don't know from what I should start buh I started π....I am a 20 yrs old guy.... mostly I get depressed without any reason....I am single, I didn't get in r/ns till now. it's not that I didn't get the chance ,,,,it's b/c of ma attitude. I have no confidence by my selfπ
I am short( 5.4ft)... which is the thing that i hate to be in zis world...but i know that i have to accept it. you know being short is not ma fault buh mostly I feel boared and making quarrel with God. i am silent boy( hardly),,, i don't talk with anybody in the class...I don't want anybody say " u r wrong, u couldn't do zis...bla bla.." I always relate negative things with ma height. idk why I think zis b/c I'm successful boy....I scored best till last yr, now I'm thinking abt opposite sex buh ma brain tells me zat no girls wanna be ma gf. I know zat u will say zat i am wrong and if I ask I can have 1 but she may lose confident to introduce me to her friends as her bf coz I don't look like 20yrs old guy( u never understand making my self responsible for this thing hurtsππ)... and I think zat she could let me down when she get better zan me. now a days I don't believe in true love coz ...get to know each other then date...then bf/gf...break up zen zis cycle never stops. so how can I say there is true love??
this things are kill'n me. I'm not like what previously people know me at class. I can't stop thinking such awful things and I can't read too. I don't know how can I fix ma self plz guys help me. don't say anything negative π
ma brain is always telling me z negative ones abt ma self. and 1 more thing am "Gemini"
difficult to hide from ma selfπ
ππthanks betamππ
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So he is one of my closest friends,,, he has no intentions of starting a rship wid me.. he even tells me abt the hot chicks he talks to,, i hav confessed abt my feelings abt a hundred times nw bt no reply he jst shows me that he cares and he is always there for me,, we occasionally make out a pity make out jst fo me to feel better he is not taking advantage of the fact that i like him he is being nice... i thnk... gn its confusing.. he also flirts a lot tells me how hot i am minamin even when i look my worst... its been yrs i hav been with other guys bemehal bt i jst cnt move on π
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So he is one of my closest friends,,, he has no intentions of starting a rship wid me.. he even tells me abt the hot chicks he talks to,, i hav confessed abt my feelings abt a hundred times nw bt no reply he jst shows me that he cares and he is always there for me,, we occasionally make out a pity make out jst fo me to feel better he is not taking advantage of the fact that i like him he is being nice... i thnk... gn its confusing.. he also flirts a lot tells me how hot i am minamin even when i look my worst... its been yrs i hav been with other guys bemehal bt i jst cnt move on π
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Hey...here is the thing am a prep. student and there is a guy in ma school we usef to talk online since last year and I haven't met him in person i know it sounds crazy but am the kinda the 'tibaramπ' person many ppl don't know this and this year we got the same class. The problem is he have many things I don't like but at the same time I want to get to know him more but again I think abt his behavior I wish i didn't met him at the first place. I can't tell this to ma friends I don't think they understand me well. And these days am kinda bored one day am happy mnamn then I will get bored easily and soon idk if this happens because I have to do many things like ma schl and deal with ma parents abt ma schl situation (fyi i don't like ppl to tell me what to do or not what to do) or if it's because of him(i talk to him like ge is very aggressive person he can get mad easily and I can't tolerate him so maybe we won't talk for one month or more than that and after a while I started to ignore him like he never existed at school but then he starts talking to me again all this things will happen π€¦ββ)
Please tell me if u have anything to say....tnx alot ππ
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Hey...here is the thing am a prep. student and there is a guy in ma school we usef to talk online since last year and I haven't met him in person i know it sounds crazy but am the kinda the 'tibaramπ' person many ppl don't know this and this year we got the same class. The problem is he have many things I don't like but at the same time I want to get to know him more but again I think abt his behavior I wish i didn't met him at the first place. I can't tell this to ma friends I don't think they understand me well. And these days am kinda bored one day am happy mnamn then I will get bored easily and soon idk if this happens because I have to do many things like ma schl and deal with ma parents abt ma schl situation (fyi i don't like ppl to tell me what to do or not what to do) or if it's because of him(i talk to him like ge is very aggressive person he can get mad easily and I can't tolerate him so maybe we won't talk for one month or more than that and after a while I started to ignore him like he never existed at school but then he starts talking to me again all this things will happen π€¦ββ)
Please tell me if u have anything to say....tnx alot ππ
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I hope u will read this yoni... I am sorry I am really sorry I know u wanted nothing but for me to be fine but I... Well uk what I did! Im embarrassed to even talk to you but you know what I have been through try to understand. You are the best person I have known my whole life, and I know we can't be together or anything but I just wanna say I LOVE YOU TOO I love u so so much! I'm sorry for being mean and an ass I really am β€οΈβ€οΈ
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I hope u will read this yoni... I am sorry I am really sorry I know u wanted nothing but for me to be fine but I... Well uk what I did! Im embarrassed to even talk to you but you know what I have been through try to understand. You are the best person I have known my whole life, and I know we can't be together or anything but I just wanna say I LOVE YOU TOO I love u so so much! I'm sorry for being mean and an ass I really am β€οΈβ€οΈ
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LHey zis is my first vent but its my secind time eriting zis cos it wasnt posted i dont know y.
Anyways so let me tell u my story.
am in love with zis girl ena I just cudnt stop thinking abut here its been 2 year since we been friends ena I told her some how bkerbu hw I feel abut her enam she said "no but let's be friends and continue" ena I just cudnt stop thinking abut her I'm rly in love with her....of all I met girls and been with, I've never felt for any girl zis much.pls tell me wat should I do.kmr I'm thinking all abut her 24/7. I rly don't eat much food too. I know u guys and Laddies might say move on dude but for now she is z one I rly can't.
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LHey zis is my first vent but its my secind time eriting zis cos it wasnt posted i dont know y.
Anyways so let me tell u my story.
am in love with zis girl ena I just cudnt stop thinking abut here its been 2 year since we been friends ena I told her some how bkerbu hw I feel abut her enam she said "no but let's be friends and continue" ena I just cudnt stop thinking abut her I'm rly in love with her....of all I met girls and been with, I've never felt for any girl zis much.pls tell me wat should I do.kmr I'm thinking all abut her 24/7. I rly don't eat much food too. I know u guys and Laddies might say move on dude but for now she is z one I rly can't.
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Hey guys. Here's the rub... I've struggled with depression like symptoms(i say like because I've not been diagnosed and i know the term is not one to be used lightly)for a while to the point where i was self harming and had constant suicidal thoughts. And that ultimately cost me a future with a girl i loved a lot. Since then I've been trying to put myself back togther and be better. And since met an awesome girl whom i care about but the problem is its back again and i feel crappy and drained. And it makes me push people away or do reckless things to sabotage it. It takes my hope away and all the effort i put was for nothing. But i really don't want to lose her or worse hurt her..but i don't know how to stop being this way..what should i do?
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Hey guys. Here's the rub... I've struggled with depression like symptoms(i say like because I've not been diagnosed and i know the term is not one to be used lightly)for a while to the point where i was self harming and had constant suicidal thoughts. And that ultimately cost me a future with a girl i loved a lot. Since then I've been trying to put myself back togther and be better. And since met an awesome girl whom i care about but the problem is its back again and i feel crappy and drained. And it makes me push people away or do reckless things to sabotage it. It takes my hope away and all the effort i put was for nothing. But i really don't want to lose her or worse hurt her..but i don't know how to stop being this way..what should i do?
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