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Hey guys so let me clarify more so my bf keeps all of d girls he dated pics n wuld not agree to delete it so its not just one specific girl he thinks its memory but it doesn't make sense to me at all in fact it makes me furious every time i find pic, especially his previous relationship which wz serious .bicha the point is it makes me feel like im not as important to him i mean when u find dat person" d one "y wuld u luk back y shuld it matter who u hv dated ryt or im just being totally non understanding ?
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Hey guys so let me clarify more so my bf keeps all of d girls he dated pics n wuld not agree to delete it so its not just one specific girl he thinks its memory but it doesn't make sense to me at all in fact it makes me furious every time i find pic, especially his previous relationship which wz serious .bicha the point is it makes me feel like im not as important to him i mean when u find dat person" d one "y wuld u luk back y shuld it matter who u hv dated ryt or im just being totally non understanding ?
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Hello everyone ... please don't be harsh on ur comments eshi ye ewnet yekefagnal ...
There was this guy that I really love .. he was such a nice guy he has helped me through everything we are always there for each other ahun we are not together anymore but we still call and text each other we share advices minamen .. I am living my everyday hoping that someday God will make us together I believe he is my heaven Sent husband ... I couldn't tell him him how I felt about him I couldn't tell him that I couldn't picture my life with out him I couldn't tell him that I always pray to God to give him back to me ... ene minem alfelegim gin esu biyawek that I truly want him des yelegn neber ... he is my angel 💖💖 he is mine .. ene I dnt even want to forget about him .. I recently found out that he has got a new bae I even saw them together gin ahunem abren yalen newu mimeselegn I can picture my life with out him .... I am confused I am rly confused I need a help .. 😞
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Hello everyone ... please don't be harsh on ur comments eshi ye ewnet yekefagnal ...
There was this guy that I really love .. he was such a nice guy he has helped me through everything we are always there for each other ahun we are not together anymore but we still call and text each other we share advices minamen .. I am living my everyday hoping that someday God will make us together I believe he is my heaven Sent husband ... I couldn't tell him him how I felt about him I couldn't tell him that I couldn't picture my life with out him I couldn't tell him that I always pray to God to give him back to me ... ene minem alfelegim gin esu biyawek that I truly want him des yelegn neber ... he is my angel 💖💖 he is mine .. ene I dnt even want to forget about him .. I recently found out that he has got a new bae I even saw them together gin ahunem abren yalen newu mimeselegn I can picture my life with out him .... I am confused I am rly confused I need a help .. 😞
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I'm fucking tried of the bull crap I deal with everyday..... I'm so sick of it.... If I do it I will be the start of my fuck ups.... I'll be the disappointment everyone remembers me for..... The reason.... The real reason to the why I'm always on line Is that I couldn't.... I couldn't find Sb to listen... Like I listen... Ppl to understand me or at least try.... Giving attention to what u say.... N making me hope for the better when I say I can't..... Like I always do... In my upbeat phase. .....i am sorry but if I just do it I know my friends would be so confused bc they won't know why.... That even makes me wanna do it even more.... Now ppl would tell me that suicide is nt a choice.... It is.... But it's a lesson.... But I ain't white.... U don't value my life... I won't change shit.... I'll just exhaust the resources... .if my future is nonexistent why trive for it.....
I don't have anyone beside me to hug me and say everythings gonna be okay
I don't have a fucking shoulder to cry on.... So I'll tell you guys.... Hopefully you would care... Funny... How I look for acceptance from ppl IDK n ppl that don't know me......
I'm confused n I fucking don't like it....
Honestly I'm a caring person... I try to be positive n help u be as well I will make you feel special n make u feel not neglected.....
Maybe I'm that bc I need some one like that.... I'm sorry for ur time
I don't even know the point of this
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I'm fucking tried of the bull crap I deal with everyday..... I'm so sick of it.... If I do it I will be the start of my fuck ups.... I'll be the disappointment everyone remembers me for..... The reason.... The real reason to the why I'm always on line Is that I couldn't.... I couldn't find Sb to listen... Like I listen... Ppl to understand me or at least try.... Giving attention to what u say.... N making me hope for the better when I say I can't..... Like I always do... In my upbeat phase. .....i am sorry but if I just do it I know my friends would be so confused bc they won't know why.... That even makes me wanna do it even more.... Now ppl would tell me that suicide is nt a choice.... It is.... But it's a lesson.... But I ain't white.... U don't value my life... I won't change shit.... I'll just exhaust the resources... .if my future is nonexistent why trive for it.....
I don't have anyone beside me to hug me and say everythings gonna be okay
I don't have a fucking shoulder to cry on.... So I'll tell you guys.... Hopefully you would care... Funny... How I look for acceptance from ppl IDK n ppl that don't know me......
I'm confused n I fucking don't like it....
Honestly I'm a caring person... I try to be positive n help u be as well I will make you feel special n make u feel not neglected.....
Maybe I'm that bc I need some one like that.... I'm sorry for ur time
I don't even know the point of this
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Helooo pepps if there are doctors or girls wid the same problem thers a liquid that comes out of the vagina aydel and yehone seat lay yene betam beza like ende period bicha its too much and plz if this is normal let me know please
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Helooo pepps if there are doctors or girls wid the same problem thers a liquid that comes out of the vagina aydel and yehone seat lay yene betam beza like ende period bicha its too much and plz if this is normal let me know please
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Hello ppl am i want to star up by thanking the ppl tht comment on think of helping the ppl be sure the same will happen to u
And for the ppl tht joke on our problems wht is wrong with u this vent is were we get help not were u selfish ppl or lonely ppl joke on our problems
Sry to say this but i curse u tht u face the same problems on which u joked on 😊
For the ppl facing problems hope u will pass through this fast luv ya all the gud commenter ✋
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Hello ppl am i want to star up by thanking the ppl tht comment on think of helping the ppl be sure the same will happen to u
And for the ppl tht joke on our problems wht is wrong with u this vent is were we get help not were u selfish ppl or lonely ppl joke on our problems
Sry to say this but i curse u tht u face the same problems on which u joked on 😊
For the ppl facing problems hope u will pass through this fast luv ya all the gud commenter ✋
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ISo I have smt 2 say I have a big problem most of z timeI can't say long in relationships more than meybe 2 weeks malet tolo yeselechugal when 4 z first days it's seems magical am z kind of easy 2 talk and ena but z problem cames out after 5 or 6 days later beka betam nw medeberugn mn alebat sex arege selemayemechugn adelem I have date more than 5 boy z maximum thing we do is kissing nat even touch gn I don't now wht just happen wht do u think help me wht should i do 2 stay?so help me pls help me out has been set as the name used for your actions in Vent Here.
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ISo I have smt 2 say I have a big problem most of z timeI can't say long in relationships more than meybe 2 weeks malet tolo yeselechugal when 4 z first days it's seems magical am z kind of easy 2 talk and ena but z problem cames out after 5 or 6 days later beka betam nw medeberugn mn alebat sex arege selemayemechugn adelem I have date more than 5 boy z maximum thing we do is kissing nat even touch gn I don't now wht just happen wht do u think help me wht should i do 2 stay?so help me pls help me out has been set as the name used for your actions in Vent Here.
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I trust people with all of my heart why do they end up disappointing me
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I trust people with all of my heart why do they end up disappointing me
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Hi so um am a 21 year old girl who's never had a boyfriend and was quite alright with it up until recently. These days i have this urge to meet a guy and fall in love and all that shit tho i know its not that easy. What should i do? Am feeling desperate tho i shouldn't be. I mean, all good things in time right?
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Hi so um am a 21 year old girl who's never had a boyfriend and was quite alright with it up until recently. These days i have this urge to meet a guy and fall in love and all that shit tho i know its not that easy. What should i do? Am feeling desperate tho i shouldn't be. I mean, all good things in time right?
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Hey everyone. .am 21 years girl who is a virgin and who have no plan of doing it untill marriages. Am mostly a silent one who have no confidence in myself. People call me am cute even tho am tall and huge for my age( which that's why am not confident) am not a girly girl. .I never put on eny makeup cus am not interested in them..or act like a girly girl which is out of the line.... gat a LOT of friends and bestes and no enemy's but feels so alone inside And my headphone is my best best friend. Am a person who likes to make people happy even if am not...I just can't help it. And I have never been in a real relationship cus am a friend type not a girlfriend type and am ok with that if they r happy. .I have liked alot but non even have an interest in getting to know me or even have an eye for me😔😔 they rather go for my friends but am still happy which that makes me weird😂 maybe am scary to talk to ...so I don't know what to do in my situation. I never did bad stuff to any one in my life but had received bad dids by some. I know this can't be called a vent but I need ur opinion on this what should I do with my attitude that I need to change? I can't find somone who would tell me what my problem is😔
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Hey everyone. .am 21 years girl who is a virgin and who have no plan of doing it untill marriages. Am mostly a silent one who have no confidence in myself. People call me am cute even tho am tall and huge for my age( which that's why am not confident) am not a girly girl. .I never put on eny makeup cus am not interested in them..or act like a girly girl which is out of the line.... gat a LOT of friends and bestes and no enemy's but feels so alone inside And my headphone is my best best friend. Am a person who likes to make people happy even if am not...I just can't help it. And I have never been in a real relationship cus am a friend type not a girlfriend type and am ok with that if they r happy. .I have liked alot but non even have an interest in getting to know me or even have an eye for me😔😔 they rather go for my friends but am still happy which that makes me weird😂 maybe am scary to talk to ...so I don't know what to do in my situation. I never did bad stuff to any one in my life but had received bad dids by some. I know this can't be called a vent but I need ur opinion on this what should I do with my attitude that I need to change? I can't find somone who would tell me what my problem is😔
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Silent faith
I used to have reasons for everything
Used to give reasons for every failure
And You know that
You're always watching
One failure comes
And the reason may be-it's because you want to teach me something;to make me think of what I did wrong.
That's how I thought of it always.
I used to be up high in the sky;confidence was my inborn quality,but lately, you shrank me..and as always, I tried to reason out...one was ,I started listening to Korean zefen ..zefen is hatyat....so it's a reason to why you would punish me... Or may be, I didn't do my best. And that would mean you didn't punish me.
You shrank me, I wouldn't say you made me lose confidence,cuz that is not what You do, you're a good good father...a really good one!... Last year I asked you to not let my end be a failure....I've been asking you the same question since then, I've done the right things since then.And now this last try, it was the last one, and you knew or know that, I gave it to you, and I made sure that there was absolutely nothing that I would point out as a reason for failure. Did it riiiight...day and night, I did my best...those Korean zefenoch...no more listening,but I'm asking You what I did wrong this time.. .was I contemptuous of other people years ago that I had to be punished for 2 years?seriously... Mnm ewnet mnm reason yelegnm....like my mind is empty....I can't even think about it.... What wrong did I do this time? You're a good good father, that's who you are, and I have no choice but to silently trust You, to have faith in You, a silent faith.
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Silent faith
I used to have reasons for everything
Used to give reasons for every failure
And You know that
You're always watching
One failure comes
And the reason may be-it's because you want to teach me something;to make me think of what I did wrong.
That's how I thought of it always.
I used to be up high in the sky;confidence was my inborn quality,but lately, you shrank me..and as always, I tried to reason out...one was ,I started listening to Korean zefen ..zefen is hatyat....so it's a reason to why you would punish me... Or may be, I didn't do my best. And that would mean you didn't punish me.
You shrank me, I wouldn't say you made me lose confidence,cuz that is not what You do, you're a good good father...a really good one!... Last year I asked you to not let my end be a failure....I've been asking you the same question since then, I've done the right things since then.And now this last try, it was the last one, and you knew or know that, I gave it to you, and I made sure that there was absolutely nothing that I would point out as a reason for failure. Did it riiiight...day and night, I did my best...those Korean zefenoch...no more listening,but I'm asking You what I did wrong this time.. .was I contemptuous of other people years ago that I had to be punished for 2 years?seriously... Mnm ewnet mnm reason yelegnm....like my mind is empty....I can't even think about it.... What wrong did I do this time? You're a good good father, that's who you are, and I have no choice but to silently trust You, to have faith in You, a silent faith.
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Hey guys i have 2 bestfriends and they both told me they like me but one is going to another city and i really like her but since she is gonna go am thinking of choosing the one not going .what should i do
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Hey guys i have 2 bestfriends and they both told me they like me but one is going to another city and i really like her but since she is gonna go am thinking of choosing the one not going .what should i do
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Hey everyone ma gf saw ma chat wz ma bff we had conversation about some personal things.and shez so upset on me.she even through promise ring i gave her..i don know what to do pls help me
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Hey everyone ma gf saw ma chat wz ma bff we had conversation about some personal things.and shez so upset on me.she even through promise ring i gave her..i don know what to do pls help me
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I have been dating my best friend for almost 2 years now .he is kinda good looking and i am so insecure.i feel like i don't deserve him and he is out of my league.trust me i wasn't like this and i always thought i would be with someone who liked me for me but i can't stop feeling this way.i don't know how to stop feeling this way and do u think i should stop dating him till i become comfortable with myself.please help me.
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I have been dating my best friend for almost 2 years now .he is kinda good looking and i am so insecure.i feel like i don't deserve him and he is out of my league.trust me i wasn't like this and i always thought i would be with someone who liked me for me but i can't stop feeling this way.i don't know how to stop feeling this way and do u think i should stop dating him till i become comfortable with myself.please help me.
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Its about a girl nd its probably too long but here it goes..
We started out as friends at campus four years ago but bedenb ketewaweken mawerat kejemeren buhala i fell for her the way we fall asleep slowly n slowly nd then all at once, after that i could never go back..i cant.. alefelegem
She is everything i could ask for..i have never known what real love feels until i fell in love with her.
I love her very existence.. everything she does everything she says its just the most adorable thing..nd we dont even agree on many things..we both are very different ppl, nd its very hard at times but at the end of the day for me all that matters was that i still love her no matter wat.
Ever since i told her i was in love with her we'v gotten ourselves in a complicated situation with me being her friend nd her dealing with other ppl falling for her as well, it isn't an easy situation especially for her nd i do understand that.
The problem is(more like the sad reality) ever since we started trying it out...i was never rly good enough. I was more like "maybe good enough if only..." Hula if only alew with a list of reasons that i might not be the one for her..nd i still do my best to understand those reasons i rly do...but therez always someone who is better out there for u.. someone older, smarter..someone u could talk to all day..more attractive but the thing is i dont need someone better all i want is u with all your imperfections.. you are my definition of perfect i jst wish that i was yours too.
I also wish u felt comfortable around me...wish i was the person u go to when ever smt bothers you..wether its a headace or a major family issue..i wanna be there for u.
I just wish u were sure abt me as i am abt you..you keep saying "esti enayalen" woye maybe, i always keep hoping for that time to come when u do choose me..the pain tho is that day might never come nd how can i make peace with that when you're everything i ever wanted. When 5 minutes with you smiling nd looking at u nd not being able to hear a thing is worth the confusion nd sadness that comes all of a sudden. Its like we go to a place that feels as if its perefct nd that its going to work out but then all of a sudden it falls apart again.
It feels lyk no amount if trying, hoping, wishing nd praying might make u fall for me the same way i did for you..nd i do knw u cant force someone to feel a certain way but i jst wish at least u cared enough abt me that u were afraid of losing me as i am afraid of losing you.
Nd the worst feeling is knwing that i did my very best nd it still wasnt good enough.
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Its about a girl nd its probably too long but here it goes..
We started out as friends at campus four years ago but bedenb ketewaweken mawerat kejemeren buhala i fell for her the way we fall asleep slowly n slowly nd then all at once, after that i could never go back..i cant.. alefelegem
She is everything i could ask for..i have never known what real love feels until i fell in love with her.
I love her very existence.. everything she does everything she says its just the most adorable thing..nd we dont even agree on many things..we both are very different ppl, nd its very hard at times but at the end of the day for me all that matters was that i still love her no matter wat.
Ever since i told her i was in love with her we'v gotten ourselves in a complicated situation with me being her friend nd her dealing with other ppl falling for her as well, it isn't an easy situation especially for her nd i do understand that.
The problem is(more like the sad reality) ever since we started trying it out...i was never rly good enough. I was more like "maybe good enough if only..." Hula if only alew with a list of reasons that i might not be the one for her..nd i still do my best to understand those reasons i rly do...but therez always someone who is better out there for u.. someone older, smarter..someone u could talk to all day..more attractive but the thing is i dont need someone better all i want is u with all your imperfections.. you are my definition of perfect i jst wish that i was yours too.
I also wish u felt comfortable around me...wish i was the person u go to when ever smt bothers you..wether its a headace or a major family issue..i wanna be there for u.
I just wish u were sure abt me as i am abt you..you keep saying "esti enayalen" woye maybe, i always keep hoping for that time to come when u do choose me..the pain tho is that day might never come nd how can i make peace with that when you're everything i ever wanted. When 5 minutes with you smiling nd looking at u nd not being able to hear a thing is worth the confusion nd sadness that comes all of a sudden. Its like we go to a place that feels as if its perefct nd that its going to work out but then all of a sudden it falls apart again.
It feels lyk no amount if trying, hoping, wishing nd praying might make u fall for me the same way i did for you..nd i do knw u cant force someone to feel a certain way but i jst wish at least u cared enough abt me that u were afraid of losing me as i am afraid of losing you.
Nd the worst feeling is knwing that i did my very best nd it still wasnt good enough.
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Hey guys so I got a bit of a situation so there is a guy I'm seeing ena yehone ken we were hanging out ena I think I had a bit much to drink then we slept over and I ddnt want to have sex but we dd it anyways I told him to stop n he ddnt n after that I ddnt say anything abt it ik it my fault to put him in that situation in the first place (he was rly drunk too I think) but help me out guys should I talk to him abt wat happened? He might think I'm blaming him n I don't wanna jeopardize the relationship we have right now but it wasn't the first time this happened n it is bothering me a bit so what should I do? PS pls no rude comments 😟
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Hey guys so I got a bit of a situation so there is a guy I'm seeing ena yehone ken we were hanging out ena I think I had a bit much to drink then we slept over and I ddnt want to have sex but we dd it anyways I told him to stop n he ddnt n after that I ddnt say anything abt it ik it my fault to put him in that situation in the first place (he was rly drunk too I think) but help me out guys should I talk to him abt wat happened? He might think I'm blaming him n I don't wanna jeopardize the relationship we have right now but it wasn't the first time this happened n it is bothering me a bit so what should I do? PS pls no rude comments 😟
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Hey guys .....so here it goes....am kinda an attractive😎guy lol... Actually I was😰 ...until those fucking things came on my face ....GOD am so embarrassed of those things....I can't even look to people while am talking specially girls ....know am in UV (fresh) ..... I can't even date ,I can't even talk ....wt am I suppose to do ....they r like pimples n scars ....which I can't remove them .....help😰😰😰 me guys if u knew how to remove them......plesssss.....n.....no mean things pless😇...n...tnx
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Hey guys .....so here it goes....am kinda an attractive😎guy lol... Actually I was😰 ...until those fucking things came on my face ....GOD am so embarrassed of those things....I can't even look to people while am talking specially girls ....know am in UV (fresh) ..... I can't even date ,I can't even talk ....wt am I suppose to do ....they r like pimples n scars ....which I can't remove them .....help😰😰😰 me guys if u knew how to remove them......plesssss.....n.....no mean things pless😇...n...tnx
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I can't sleep guys. I'm filled with anxiety of having an imperfect life in the future
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I can't sleep guys. I'm filled with anxiety of having an imperfect life in the future
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I was really close with my dad, but then i lost him in a car accident. Every since then i feel like a huge part of me is gone with him..this was years ago but i kept it soo deep in me not to think or talk about him. Lately tho i cant fill his void with nothing !! All i feel now is his disappointment, he left me here for no one, just by my self!!.i spent all my life giving love to so many people in my life and got nothing , no one by my side, so many that i was by their side difficult times, n not one bother to ask 'what is wrong?'...he would have been the only one to help me now!!..
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I was really close with my dad, but then i lost him in a car accident. Every since then i feel like a huge part of me is gone with him..this was years ago but i kept it soo deep in me not to think or talk about him. Lately tho i cant fill his void with nothing !! All i feel now is his disappointment, he left me here for no one, just by my self!!.i spent all my life giving love to so many people in my life and got nothing , no one by my side, so many that i was by their side difficult times, n not one bother to ask 'what is wrong?'...he would have been the only one to help me now!!..
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I feel like no one can ever truly understand me,so what's the point in trying? Not even my mom knows about me. How do u explain to your close-minded,worriesome,over-reactive,over-protective mother that you're borderline bipolar?"Oh,hey mom I have a fucking mental illness!"Which is an actual thing. Right now,I feel hopeless. Like,I just want the earth to crack open and eat me alive. I don't know what the hell I did to deserve this,but I have this. I hate having to live knowing that,if I watch a certain movie,or hear a certain song,I'll break apart. If I think of a certain memory,I'll fall to my knees. And,the worst part is not knowing why. You know,sometimes I wish something bad will happen to me, that I'll walk into the house one day and my mom's lying there unresponsive. Or I get into a car accident and loose my legs. Or I hear my friends talk shit about. Anything. I wish I'll finally have a reason to cry. Because,this is not a life. One time,I was so depressed,I decided to kill myself and end my misery. Then,I sat down with a pen and a piece of paper,to write a letter as to why I killed myself. And I came up blank. Nothing. Nada. Zilch. I have no reason to be the way I am. It's a fuckin nightmare. And I feel like I'm never going to wake up.
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I feel like no one can ever truly understand me,so what's the point in trying? Not even my mom knows about me. How do u explain to your close-minded,worriesome,over-reactive,over-protective mother that you're borderline bipolar?"Oh,hey mom I have a fucking mental illness!"Which is an actual thing. Right now,I feel hopeless. Like,I just want the earth to crack open and eat me alive. I don't know what the hell I did to deserve this,but I have this. I hate having to live knowing that,if I watch a certain movie,or hear a certain song,I'll break apart. If I think of a certain memory,I'll fall to my knees. And,the worst part is not knowing why. You know,sometimes I wish something bad will happen to me, that I'll walk into the house one day and my mom's lying there unresponsive. Or I get into a car accident and loose my legs. Or I hear my friends talk shit about. Anything. I wish I'll finally have a reason to cry. Because,this is not a life. One time,I was so depressed,I decided to kill myself and end my misery. Then,I sat down with a pen and a piece of paper,to write a letter as to why I killed myself. And I came up blank. Nothing. Nada. Zilch. I have no reason to be the way I am. It's a fuckin nightmare. And I feel like I'm never going to wake up.
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I need to vent.
Hello
So this is my first time venting here and idk how to star or where to start what I want to say... so I don’t want to start with am hurt, my parents did this, my family did that and am depressed as shit and I don’t know how to get out of it. I cut myself so I don’t feel like am a numb, I try my best to interact with people and pretend like am fine and I smile always am a crazy person that my friends love and adore me, my teachers think am crazy because of my craziness in the class room and I pretend like am the happiest person in the world and I get all the love I need and nothing in this world means more than my family and shit but that’s all a shit and not true. Yea my family is super rich and gets me all I want but I pretend like am not rich cause all my life the truth didn’t get me no where. If you didn’t grow up getting something you don’t know how to give it back and that’s what happens with me. I didn’t grow up getting love so Idk how to give it to others. I just got out of a relationship because of the love I can’t give him. He thinks I don’t love him and I don’t care about him but the truth is I do too many things for him I buy him things and stuff cause that’s the way I was raised I think when I do those things I might show him how much he means to me but I guess it wasn’t meant to be. I have a bunch of friends which I love so much but they think I can’t do anything better than then malet just because I don’t show off and I don’t dress up they think am less than them. But the truth is I don’t dress up because I have what I have in my heart and mind I just don’t have the time to protocol myself and most of all I got no one to impress I mean if they want me by the way I dress then why bother to be with me? I don’t go out, I keep my head low. Not because my family doesn’t have the name or that they don’t know wealthy people it’s just I just don’t want to get myself attached to this whole situation and be as heartless as they are right now. They think their money can get them anywhere they want yes it does but can’t never get them the love they deserve. I grew up seeking love and all I want right now is that not anything else but I can’t get that because of my depression and the decision I decide every time. Idk what to say or how to let it all out but it’s killing me inside, I was abused, tortured, beaten, insulted and most of all because of the decisions I made in my life and because of all the decisions my mom made for me I was abused and tortured growing up and now I hate my life. I know what I said is all completely and not understandable but if any one understood what I said give me some advice if not all I wanted was just to let something out my chest so thank you for reading this.
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Hide My Identity.
I need to vent.
Hello
So this is my first time venting here and idk how to star or where to start what I want to say... so I don’t want to start with am hurt, my parents did this, my family did that and am depressed as shit and I don’t know how to get out of it. I cut myself so I don’t feel like am a numb, I try my best to interact with people and pretend like am fine and I smile always am a crazy person that my friends love and adore me, my teachers think am crazy because of my craziness in the class room and I pretend like am the happiest person in the world and I get all the love I need and nothing in this world means more than my family and shit but that’s all a shit and not true. Yea my family is super rich and gets me all I want but I pretend like am not rich cause all my life the truth didn’t get me no where. If you didn’t grow up getting something you don’t know how to give it back and that’s what happens with me. I didn’t grow up getting love so Idk how to give it to others. I just got out of a relationship because of the love I can’t give him. He thinks I don’t love him and I don’t care about him but the truth is I do too many things for him I buy him things and stuff cause that’s the way I was raised I think when I do those things I might show him how much he means to me but I guess it wasn’t meant to be. I have a bunch of friends which I love so much but they think I can’t do anything better than then malet just because I don’t show off and I don’t dress up they think am less than them. But the truth is I don’t dress up because I have what I have in my heart and mind I just don’t have the time to protocol myself and most of all I got no one to impress I mean if they want me by the way I dress then why bother to be with me? I don’t go out, I keep my head low. Not because my family doesn’t have the name or that they don’t know wealthy people it’s just I just don’t want to get myself attached to this whole situation and be as heartless as they are right now. They think their money can get them anywhere they want yes it does but can’t never get them the love they deserve. I grew up seeking love and all I want right now is that not anything else but I can’t get that because of my depression and the decision I decide every time. Idk what to say or how to let it all out but it’s killing me inside, I was abused, tortured, beaten, insulted and most of all because of the decisions I made in my life and because of all the decisions my mom made for me I was abused and tortured growing up and now I hate my life. I know what I said is all completely and not understandable but if any one understood what I said give me some advice if not all I wanted was just to let something out my chest so thank you for reading this.
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Hey Unihorse 🦄.
Hide My Identity.
I need to vent.
Is it really that bad to want to die? How could god want you to live when he knows your living in misery? And that is if he exists which I don’t think he does. I see two kinds of people who don’t believe in god. Those are the ones who ignore religion and go for the science and there are the ones who can’t believe in him cause they don’t want to think that there is this great thing that can prevent all those torturous events from happening to them but just lets it happen. And I am sorry if you don’t get why I can’t believe in the all mighty. But the thing is (and this might be the worst thing i could ever say) I don’t want to believe in god cause whenever I have these mental breakdowns just crying in solitude or getting beaten up by my dad or hurting myself which I don’t really know why, I blame him (god) for putting me in this position when the Bible tells you that he can get you out of anything. I sit there alone, sacred and bruised physically, mentally and emotionally then I say ‘I hate you for doing this to me’ but then I immediately feel guilty and then start to loath myself even more. And then I ask, why didn’t he get me out of this one? Did I really deserve it? Or am I just talking to thin air? If there is really someone out there why does he let us go through all this scaring events just to let him decide wether we are good enough to go to heaven or break at some point and go to hell? And maybe things just happen for no reason and will keep happening that way and people would make a big deal out of everything. But for me the truth has always been dark. And it takes a dark one to understand that and live by it. Even if it means I will never experience real affection with anyone maybe I will get a chance to change that in my next life or maybe I will vanish into nothing and I would be ok with both cause nothing happens for a reason, no one is special, we are all going to die.
PS i don’t really need your comments I just wanna be anonymous and speak my side of this story you call life
Call me Bob if u please.
Good night.
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Hide My Identity.
I need to vent.
Is it really that bad to want to die? How could god want you to live when he knows your living in misery? And that is if he exists which I don’t think he does. I see two kinds of people who don’t believe in god. Those are the ones who ignore religion and go for the science and there are the ones who can’t believe in him cause they don’t want to think that there is this great thing that can prevent all those torturous events from happening to them but just lets it happen. And I am sorry if you don’t get why I can’t believe in the all mighty. But the thing is (and this might be the worst thing i could ever say) I don’t want to believe in god cause whenever I have these mental breakdowns just crying in solitude or getting beaten up by my dad or hurting myself which I don’t really know why, I blame him (god) for putting me in this position when the Bible tells you that he can get you out of anything. I sit there alone, sacred and bruised physically, mentally and emotionally then I say ‘I hate you for doing this to me’ but then I immediately feel guilty and then start to loath myself even more. And then I ask, why didn’t he get me out of this one? Did I really deserve it? Or am I just talking to thin air? If there is really someone out there why does he let us go through all this scaring events just to let him decide wether we are good enough to go to heaven or break at some point and go to hell? And maybe things just happen for no reason and will keep happening that way and people would make a big deal out of everything. But for me the truth has always been dark. And it takes a dark one to understand that and live by it. Even if it means I will never experience real affection with anyone maybe I will get a chance to change that in my next life or maybe I will vanish into nothing and I would be ok with both cause nothing happens for a reason, no one is special, we are all going to die.
PS i don’t really need your comments I just wanna be anonymous and speak my side of this story you call life
Call me Bob if u please.
Good night.
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