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So I'm desperate for some advice here.
So I used to be the kind of person that doesn't hang out much with people. I go to class alone then leave alone, without waiting for anyone, I was a loner and those times were peaceful and happy.
So recently I feel really suffocated, i feel trapped, always with the same people, same place. I can't do anything alone, people r always with me. I feel so bad 4 feeling this way cause they are my friends and I love them. But when I'm around them, I'm always comparing. They have so much, they have lived, they have dated, they have been loved. But none of those have happened for me. And I feel so jelous but I don't want to feel that way, cause it feels really horrible to feel that. But I can't help it, it's just too much and i just want to be alone but I cant even have that cause they are always with me. I just feel really horrible so is it really bad that I'm feeling this way? Am I a bad person?
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I need to vent.
So I'm desperate for some advice here.
So I used to be the kind of person that doesn't hang out much with people. I go to class alone then leave alone, without waiting for anyone, I was a loner and those times were peaceful and happy.
So recently I feel really suffocated, i feel trapped, always with the same people, same place. I can't do anything alone, people r always with me. I feel so bad 4 feeling this way cause they are my friends and I love them. But when I'm around them, I'm always comparing. They have so much, they have lived, they have dated, they have been loved. But none of those have happened for me. And I feel so jelous but I don't want to feel that way, cause it feels really horrible to feel that. But I can't help it, it's just too much and i just want to be alone but I cant even have that cause they are always with me. I just feel really horrible so is it really bad that I'm feeling this way? Am I a bad person?
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Hi guys😊 I'm a 20 yr old girl in love with a 27 yr old. I know he likes me as well but it isn't enough.(not nearly as much as I like him) There are so many reasons that I should dump him, so many. On the other hand this is a friend of mine altough he insists on being more. He knows how in love I am and how hopeless my love is. Lately I have been considering his continous proposal. You know how we should choose the ones that love us more than the ones that we love.😉 Although I have no idea how to move on and learn to love a great friend. And the other problem is that, this great friend is a yr younger than me so... I'm stuck. Please help. And please don't be harsh in the comments. I swear I'll do the same😊 Thank you so much👍😃😉
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Hi guys😊 I'm a 20 yr old girl in love with a 27 yr old. I know he likes me as well but it isn't enough.(not nearly as much as I like him) There are so many reasons that I should dump him, so many. On the other hand this is a friend of mine altough he insists on being more. He knows how in love I am and how hopeless my love is. Lately I have been considering his continous proposal. You know how we should choose the ones that love us more than the ones that we love.😉 Although I have no idea how to move on and learn to love a great friend. And the other problem is that, this great friend is a yr younger than me so... I'm stuck. Please help. And please don't be harsh in the comments. I swear I'll do the same😊 Thank you so much👍😃😉
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well hi guys....this is a small issue and just bare with me...take it from a religious perspective....I am a Protestant and I have fooled around and done many bad things not really understanding my religion and I have repented now and become closer go god but a guy u have been texting for a long time and trifled to have plans just found the perfect time and everything and I Dont want to turn him down after all this time cuz I Dont really wanna tell anyone my reason but...I Dont know how to let him down easy and the worse part is I still wanna be with him and stuff🙄🙄...urghhh.any advice...and if u r here to insult me pls dont
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well hi guys....this is a small issue and just bare with me...take it from a religious perspective....I am a Protestant and I have fooled around and done many bad things not really understanding my religion and I have repented now and become closer go god but a guy u have been texting for a long time and trifled to have plans just found the perfect time and everything and I Dont want to turn him down after all this time cuz I Dont really wanna tell anyone my reason but...I Dont know how to let him down easy and the worse part is I still wanna be with him and stuff🙄🙄...urghhh.any advice...and if u r here to insult me pls dont
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I will say this with all the guilt and the shame I am feeling. But I am not doing this 'coz am a heartless woman rather it's coz am a hopeless lover. In the last six month I started talking to my very first love;(I was the reason why we never were together) but then all this feeling that I succeeded in to suppressing. For the last 8 eight years rushed back in to me. And for the reason that isn't still clear for things suddenly became physical just physical. The problem is he has a girlfriend; a serious one. And now am the side chick. I can't BELIVE I agreed to that. I couldn't find the gut nor the self respect that I needed to end it. And it seems I keep falling for him harder every time as time goes by. I know it sounds damn and selfish but I seriously couldn't do anything about it. And that poor girl thinks she found the one;and it's me to blame; if things fall apart between them.....
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I will say this with all the guilt and the shame I am feeling. But I am not doing this 'coz am a heartless woman rather it's coz am a hopeless lover. In the last six month I started talking to my very first love;(I was the reason why we never were together) but then all this feeling that I succeeded in to suppressing. For the last 8 eight years rushed back in to me. And for the reason that isn't still clear for things suddenly became physical just physical. The problem is he has a girlfriend; a serious one. And now am the side chick. I can't BELIVE I agreed to that. I couldn't find the gut nor the self respect that I needed to end it. And it seems I keep falling for him harder every time as time goes by. I know it sounds damn and selfish but I seriously couldn't do anything about it. And that poor girl thinks she found the one;and it's me to blame; if things fall apart between them.....
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Hello out there👉, am here to ask ur advise so i think u have to be polite wz ur suggestions cz i nvr vent here before🙏! Am 18 fun loving gal, smart in class... So 1st let me begin wz ma previous story when i was a little gal max 12yrs ma dad "tried* to rape me nd after zat i started experiencing zis kinda guys in ma life. I used to had an Uncle (he's dead) hu tried to do z same thing twice! And after zat before 2 yrs means 2016 i was kidnapped in a taxi zen i had to be smart wz z guys nd thanks to God z driver was smarter zan his keeper nd i was smarter zan z driver😳 not actually gn God helped me nd i get out of zat🙏 actually am still v ntn happened at all. sry fo writing zis whole shit. Wat i wanna say is i had experienced zis kinda things fo almost uncountable times teachers in school, dad in home, ... 😢 but ma subject is am into z difficulty of visiting ma dad. I live wz ma mom nd i have a sister and so whenever she bring his name i be like😢 and day by day i got older i think of zat day it was dad hu had z chance to take ma virginity😔. Imagine🤔 , and everytime i try not to think of zat day but whenever he wanned to act like a dad i feel like killing him instead of being in his arms. Gals u have no clue how much it hurts when z 1st thing zat comes in ur mind when u think abt dad be sex, and 1st person zat comes in ur mind when u think abt sex be ur dad. And whenever someone calls on ur phone and when zat guy be ur dad, z person hu is trying to act like a father be him, hu wants to hesitate u, punish u like a father be him And ryt after all behind z story zat he never been a father to me i mean he even told me zat he wasn't ma father when i was little kid and now he is z guy pretending out there wis his fans talking abt me and acting like such a really gud father. And as a result of ma previous experiences i love to be alone, i mean i never sat wz ma family even though they told me to, i hate family's as hell and no feeling fo sex cz he's z person i think of, i had a Psychiatry (i kinda have stress) and he told me not to be alone at any time. Thank God i got zis bot so u r t going to be the only person i share zis part of ma life, i don't no wat advise u r gonna put gn be careful wz zat pls🙏 i hate being alone gn zat's how i feel specially i don't feel like being wz ma family cz i always have zat pain, zat pain zat i will never tell zem, z pain i think of when i see zem, z pain am not gonna share zem till i die... so i want u to say sth abt ma loneliness gn don't tell me to tell zem cz zat's impossible mom is going to kill him🤔 maybe, their heart will be broken🤔maybe 👉got it no one is going to believe me fo sure.
😱oops did i just wrote zis whole shit🙄!!! 😉 just kick ur comments here sry fo z full book story of ma life😘
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Hello out there👉, am here to ask ur advise so i think u have to be polite wz ur suggestions cz i nvr vent here before🙏! Am 18 fun loving gal, smart in class... So 1st let me begin wz ma previous story when i was a little gal max 12yrs ma dad "tried* to rape me nd after zat i started experiencing zis kinda guys in ma life. I used to had an Uncle (he's dead) hu tried to do z same thing twice! And after zat before 2 yrs means 2016 i was kidnapped in a taxi zen i had to be smart wz z guys nd thanks to God z driver was smarter zan his keeper nd i was smarter zan z driver😳 not actually gn God helped me nd i get out of zat🙏 actually am still v ntn happened at all. sry fo writing zis whole shit. Wat i wanna say is i had experienced zis kinda things fo almost uncountable times teachers in school, dad in home, ... 😢 but ma subject is am into z difficulty of visiting ma dad. I live wz ma mom nd i have a sister and so whenever she bring his name i be like😢 and day by day i got older i think of zat day it was dad hu had z chance to take ma virginity😔. Imagine🤔 , and everytime i try not to think of zat day but whenever he wanned to act like a dad i feel like killing him instead of being in his arms. Gals u have no clue how much it hurts when z 1st thing zat comes in ur mind when u think abt dad be sex, and 1st person zat comes in ur mind when u think abt sex be ur dad. And whenever someone calls on ur phone and when zat guy be ur dad, z person hu is trying to act like a father be him, hu wants to hesitate u, punish u like a father be him And ryt after all behind z story zat he never been a father to me i mean he even told me zat he wasn't ma father when i was little kid and now he is z guy pretending out there wis his fans talking abt me and acting like such a really gud father. And as a result of ma previous experiences i love to be alone, i mean i never sat wz ma family even though they told me to, i hate family's as hell and no feeling fo sex cz he's z person i think of, i had a Psychiatry (i kinda have stress) and he told me not to be alone at any time. Thank God i got zis bot so u r t going to be the only person i share zis part of ma life, i don't no wat advise u r gonna put gn be careful wz zat pls🙏 i hate being alone gn zat's how i feel specially i don't feel like being wz ma family cz i always have zat pain, zat pain zat i will never tell zem, z pain i think of when i see zem, z pain am not gonna share zem till i die... so i want u to say sth abt ma loneliness gn don't tell me to tell zem cz zat's impossible mom is going to kill him🤔 maybe, their heart will be broken🤔maybe 👉got it no one is going to believe me fo sure.
😱oops did i just wrote zis whole shit🙄!!! 😉 just kick ur comments here sry fo z full book story of ma life😘
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I like him...I really do.but I dont think he likes me as much as I do.he's smart.i like smart guys.that really turns me on.n he knows what to say to make me flatter.i thought he liked me.i thought he was real.i don't think he played me but I don't think he really liked me either.i don't know what to think....but what ever we had,we ended it long ago(a couple of months) but why do I still want him?why do I still wanna call him?why do I miss his voice?why am I not still over him after he told me that he would never be what I want him to be?
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I like him...I really do.but I dont think he likes me as much as I do.he's smart.i like smart guys.that really turns me on.n he knows what to say to make me flatter.i thought he liked me.i thought he was real.i don't think he played me but I don't think he really liked me either.i don't know what to think....but what ever we had,we ended it long ago(a couple of months) but why do I still want him?why do I still wanna call him?why do I miss his voice?why am I not still over him after he told me that he would never be what I want him to be?
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The feelings I feel are too much to be explained, I see you changing your mind but you're still seeing me from a safe range and I'm not really used to this so I don't know what to say except I'm all in my feelings so don't nobody get in my way
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The feelings I feel are too much to be explained, I see you changing your mind but you're still seeing me from a safe range and I'm not really used to this so I don't know what to say except I'm all in my feelings so don't nobody get in my way
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Umm I rly dunno where to start but according to my point of view u were a jerk who didn't deserve to be in my life in the first place I mean who do u think u are to look down on me,talk to me with disrespect I ignored it all cause I was just trying to compromise and work it out but at the end of the day I was wrong ur just another bad guy on the streets and yet u think u can play on me give me hope then let me down well guess what am sick of it,am tired of leading my life with Compromises that did me no good till the very end but am just wondering what kind of guts u had to say "I still care 4 u lets try to work it out" u nvr even cared in the first place do u rly think am dumb enough to believe all ur sweet talks well that's just insane and it ain't a horror movie movie u know y the fuck would I get back with you ur just another bad chapter of my life since I passed that part y would I turn back I got no reasons to cause I don't give a damn abt u I just simply moved on with my life just try moving on with urs
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Umm I rly dunno where to start but according to my point of view u were a jerk who didn't deserve to be in my life in the first place I mean who do u think u are to look down on me,talk to me with disrespect I ignored it all cause I was just trying to compromise and work it out but at the end of the day I was wrong ur just another bad guy on the streets and yet u think u can play on me give me hope then let me down well guess what am sick of it,am tired of leading my life with Compromises that did me no good till the very end but am just wondering what kind of guts u had to say "I still care 4 u lets try to work it out" u nvr even cared in the first place do u rly think am dumb enough to believe all ur sweet talks well that's just insane and it ain't a horror movie movie u know y the fuck would I get back with you ur just another bad chapter of my life since I passed that part y would I turn back I got no reasons to cause I don't give a damn abt u I just simply moved on with my life just try moving on with urs
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This is going to be gibberish be hold on....i fucking hate my girlfriend. I lover her and shit. She says she does too and but her actions speak otherwise. She insults the fuck out of me. She calls me so many names. She is very manipulative she always ends up being the one that got hurt in an argument. I’m a bit emotional and wether it was her fault or not i say something stupid emotionally and shit just turns around all on me. My question is how do you argue with a woman? Ever-time we fight she just wants to leave she knows how deeply i am in love so she plays with me man.... i feel like I’ve no control over her. I never thought relationships would be this difficult and i have been on many of them but here i am.woman are so manipulating... i swear all off ya’ll .... fuck you ....you assholes. You’re all selfish. You just want to be right for the day and win an argument.....i am so tired man, i need someone who can realise and see how i care.....So i need an advice from experienced men on how to handle a woman?
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This is going to be gibberish be hold on....i fucking hate my girlfriend. I lover her and shit. She says she does too and but her actions speak otherwise. She insults the fuck out of me. She calls me so many names. She is very manipulative she always ends up being the one that got hurt in an argument. I’m a bit emotional and wether it was her fault or not i say something stupid emotionally and shit just turns around all on me. My question is how do you argue with a woman? Ever-time we fight she just wants to leave she knows how deeply i am in love so she plays with me man.... i feel like I’ve no control over her. I never thought relationships would be this difficult and i have been on many of them but here i am.woman are so manipulating... i swear all off ya’ll .... fuck you ....you assholes. You’re all selfish. You just want to be right for the day and win an argument.....i am so tired man, i need someone who can realise and see how i care.....So i need an advice from experienced men on how to handle a woman?
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Hi girls this one is a question for u. Is it usual for girls to tell guys their period is late and they might be pregnant. cuz they wanna break up with em.
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Hi girls this one is a question for u. Is it usual for girls to tell guys their period is late and they might be pregnant. cuz they wanna break up with em.
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I don't know where to begin with but right now my life is messed. I 19 & a girl . so it all begin with as always doing what my parents tell me to do but then they all started controlling me like they start choosing my career, since all my family members are doctors they want to be like them , I didn't oppose since I want to be doc 4m z beginning but then again they started to choose which field I
Should join I told zm that I really wanna study psychology but they started giving excuse that like it doesn't fit me ... but then z dropped this cause & zn started other , zy all started caming to me telling me that they found me good husbands they told me to pick one from the list & they told me that z guy will wait for me until I finish my studies...... I really tried hard not to break zere heart but if I keep doing what they want me told I will destroy myself. & I can't argue with my father cause he has heart disease . So what should I do. Please help 😔
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I don't know where to begin with but right now my life is messed. I 19 & a girl . so it all begin with as always doing what my parents tell me to do but then they all started controlling me like they start choosing my career, since all my family members are doctors they want to be like them , I didn't oppose since I want to be doc 4m z beginning but then again they started to choose which field I
Should join I told zm that I really wanna study psychology but they started giving excuse that like it doesn't fit me ... but then z dropped this cause & zn started other , zy all started caming to me telling me that they found me good husbands they told me to pick one from the list & they told me that z guy will wait for me until I finish my studies...... I really tried hard not to break zere heart but if I keep doing what they want me told I will destroy myself. & I can't argue with my father cause he has heart disease . So what should I do. Please help 😔
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Owkay first time venting....its like I have been single since grade 8 and now am 2nd year univ student its not like guys don't ask me out and staff its just I don't say yes when they ask its hard for me to even say yes so they will ask me like few times and fed and go along with there life and when I see them in a r/ship with another gal I feel happy at first and get jelous ...I just don't get it.....and I always complien why am single so any advise how to say yes..plz its just driving me crazy like fuck so help
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Owkay first time venting....its like I have been single since grade 8 and now am 2nd year univ student its not like guys don't ask me out and staff its just I don't say yes when they ask its hard for me to even say yes so they will ask me like few times and fed and go along with there life and when I see them in a r/ship with another gal I feel happy at first and get jelous ...I just don't get it.....and I always complien why am single so any advise how to say yes..plz its just driving me crazy like fuck so help
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I never trusted you, even though i nodded and smiled , my gut was telling me how i should be cautious and i know that you didnt believe me either when i laughed aloud at your jokes and touched your arm you could see right through me as i did you and now when i heard how you used me i laughed aloud as i would at your jokes because i knew what was coming i knew what kind of person you were and i feel nothing
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I never trusted you, even though i nodded and smiled , my gut was telling me how i should be cautious and i know that you didnt believe me either when i laughed aloud at your jokes and touched your arm you could see right through me as i did you and now when i heard how you used me i laughed aloud as i would at your jokes because i knew what was coming i knew what kind of person you were and i feel nothing
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this is my first time venting. So I'm a freshman student in college and the thing is I'm in love with a girl who also happen to be my best friend(and also we're on the same class). but I'm kind of shy idk hw to tell her and i fear that if i got rejected our friendship will be ruined (i think she only see me as her bestie) so wat shud i do, any advice?
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this is my first time venting. So I'm a freshman student in college and the thing is I'm in love with a girl who also happen to be my best friend(and also we're on the same class). but I'm kind of shy idk hw to tell her and i fear that if i got rejected our friendship will be ruined (i think she only see me as her bestie) so wat shud i do, any advice?
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Hellooooo,
So here's a thing: i need an honest opinion about what i'm gonna tell you. My friend fell in love with a person who has physical impairment, she really loves him and sees her future with him. He is a very good and quite accomplished gentleman too. The thing, she is scared as f**k to start anything serious. Not b'c of the physique, but since he wants to settle for marriage & she doesn wanna break his heart while she is not sure of many things.
1. Family acceptance 😔😔( a major deal for habeshan parents)
2. societal norms, 😡😡 stupid judgemental freaks out there.
Ebakachu, 🙋♀ this is real, a responsible and insightful comment is needed.
Thanks good people! 🙏
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Hellooooo,
So here's a thing: i need an honest opinion about what i'm gonna tell you. My friend fell in love with a person who has physical impairment, she really loves him and sees her future with him. He is a very good and quite accomplished gentleman too. The thing, she is scared as f**k to start anything serious. Not b'c of the physique, but since he wants to settle for marriage & she doesn wanna break his heart while she is not sure of many things.
1. Family acceptance 😔😔( a major deal for habeshan parents)
2. societal norms, 😡😡 stupid judgemental freaks out there.
Ebakachu, 🙋♀ this is real, a responsible and insightful comment is needed.
Thanks good people! 🙏
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Hey guys...hmm...so...ok this is not really venting,just smtn I was dying to know. Are you guys really having this dating-bf-gf thing..I mean..aren't Ethiopian parents are really restrict.😕Don't they follow "Only school...."...kinda strategy. I really thought you guys were jk but it turned out to be real.😕
I just wanna know how? I am confused😶
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Hey guys...hmm...so...ok this is not really venting,just smtn I was dying to know. Are you guys really having this dating-bf-gf thing..I mean..aren't Ethiopian parents are really restrict.😕Don't they follow "Only school...."...kinda strategy. I really thought you guys were jk but it turned out to be real.😕
I just wanna know how? I am confused😶
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I am not happy
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I am not happy
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Hey guys im just wondering is it okay for a guy to keep his ex girlfriends pic n wouldn't agree to delete the pics,what do u think?
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Hey guys im just wondering is it okay for a guy to keep his ex girlfriends pic n wouldn't agree to delete the pics,what do u think?
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I live with the memories and die with the dreams, don't fall for love that shit ain't what it seems
Just when I think we're getting somewhere I realize our hearts are in different dimensions not to mention I'm reckless and you like keeping your distance
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I live with the memories and die with the dreams, don't fall for love that shit ain't what it seems
Just when I think we're getting somewhere I realize our hearts are in different dimensions not to mention I'm reckless and you like keeping your distance
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Among my siblings i feel like I'm the one who gets blamed the most. All the time i end up crying and wishing i was dead. Or so i can run away. But where would i go? My small brother and sister were being rude to our neighbor, i got blamed for it. My mom qnd dads divorce, again im blamed by it because i couldnt choose. I get a single B in my grades, im counted as a failure but none of my siblings even have more than two A's.
Im hated by my family and by myself. I am the one who takes care of my small siblings all the time. They hate that mom doesnt do it often so they think im trying to take her spot. My father used to think i insult him behind his back to my mom or my friends. My big brother hates it when i even speak. Idl what i did. My only escape place is school. When u see me in school i am the happiest and nost carefree person in the world. But thats only what people see me as and what i want to be. I cant tell this to anyone because they wont understand. They all have perfect lives and not so much happens to them. Because of envy i started pushing my friends away. I can't pretend all the time. I have bruises on my leg, all from my dad. I believe im a worthless person. Telling people all my secrets makes me feel vulnerable like they know all about me. And i Dont want that. I cant have a say in my life at all. At the same time i want someone to know. To understand me. But ik if i tell someone i will regret it deeply the next day, like i had betrayed my family. I once told my teacher and i still regret it deeply. For some reason i feel like talking wont help me at all. Looking back at the horrible things that happens to me. I try to make myself believe its almost the same in every family. They just hide it. But i look at the way the fathers look at their children with care and i ask God all the time why cant my dad look at like that instead of hate and disappointment. He doesnt do that to my brother. He cares for him. My brother got two B's and even got a C but my dad didnt say anything. He just told him he will do better. But when i got a B. I was kicked and beaten. I still have the bruises on my leg and face. I dont know what to do..same with my mom. She doesnt say that to any of my siblings. Everyone in my family hates me.
I asked my mom if i can meet my friend outside once. She screamed at me saying that i cant go and that i have to try not to be selfish. Last i checked she was out with her friends the day before this argument and all of my brother's friends were at my house playing games together till they all left to eat outside. I asked if she can come to my house, again a flat out no. Im asking for one friend thats all. But my brother is allowed to bring 14 guys over. Is it because im a female? Is it because of my gender that only i have to take care of my sisters, wake up at 5 on the morning to wake them up, feed them or clean the house or cook or wash the dishes?
Its times like these that make me wish i had money so i can leave. I never tell my parents about my friends because in the end they will make sure that i never talk to them. My mom tore all of my books once when she saw me reading one at 9pm. And it was a saturday. She knows how much books mean to me. They are the only things that make me forget the world i live in. everything i like is hated and banned in the house. I stopped eating five days ago. Only having breakfast to keep me during the day. And of course no one noticed. Did i mention my mom broke my phone because i replied with a Hi to a guy on telegram? Idk why am letting this out. Maybe its because my mom just had another argument with me because i didn't get her coffee or because i want to tell you all that, if you see a friend in depression like me, or in a problem. Dont hesitate to go talk to them before they start to burden themselves with their secrets. Even when they say im fine, be there for them. Dont be quiet. Bye
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I need to vent.
Among my siblings i feel like I'm the one who gets blamed the most. All the time i end up crying and wishing i was dead. Or so i can run away. But where would i go? My small brother and sister were being rude to our neighbor, i got blamed for it. My mom qnd dads divorce, again im blamed by it because i couldnt choose. I get a single B in my grades, im counted as a failure but none of my siblings even have more than two A's.
Im hated by my family and by myself. I am the one who takes care of my small siblings all the time. They hate that mom doesnt do it often so they think im trying to take her spot. My father used to think i insult him behind his back to my mom or my friends. My big brother hates it when i even speak. Idl what i did. My only escape place is school. When u see me in school i am the happiest and nost carefree person in the world. But thats only what people see me as and what i want to be. I cant tell this to anyone because they wont understand. They all have perfect lives and not so much happens to them. Because of envy i started pushing my friends away. I can't pretend all the time. I have bruises on my leg, all from my dad. I believe im a worthless person. Telling people all my secrets makes me feel vulnerable like they know all about me. And i Dont want that. I cant have a say in my life at all. At the same time i want someone to know. To understand me. But ik if i tell someone i will regret it deeply the next day, like i had betrayed my family. I once told my teacher and i still regret it deeply. For some reason i feel like talking wont help me at all. Looking back at the horrible things that happens to me. I try to make myself believe its almost the same in every family. They just hide it. But i look at the way the fathers look at their children with care and i ask God all the time why cant my dad look at like that instead of hate and disappointment. He doesnt do that to my brother. He cares for him. My brother got two B's and even got a C but my dad didnt say anything. He just told him he will do better. But when i got a B. I was kicked and beaten. I still have the bruises on my leg and face. I dont know what to do..same with my mom. She doesnt say that to any of my siblings. Everyone in my family hates me.
I asked my mom if i can meet my friend outside once. She screamed at me saying that i cant go and that i have to try not to be selfish. Last i checked she was out with her friends the day before this argument and all of my brother's friends were at my house playing games together till they all left to eat outside. I asked if she can come to my house, again a flat out no. Im asking for one friend thats all. But my brother is allowed to bring 14 guys over. Is it because im a female? Is it because of my gender that only i have to take care of my sisters, wake up at 5 on the morning to wake them up, feed them or clean the house or cook or wash the dishes?
Its times like these that make me wish i had money so i can leave. I never tell my parents about my friends because in the end they will make sure that i never talk to them. My mom tore all of my books once when she saw me reading one at 9pm. And it was a saturday. She knows how much books mean to me. They are the only things that make me forget the world i live in. everything i like is hated and banned in the house. I stopped eating five days ago. Only having breakfast to keep me during the day. And of course no one noticed. Did i mention my mom broke my phone because i replied with a Hi to a guy on telegram? Idk why am letting this out. Maybe its because my mom just had another argument with me because i didn't get her coffee or because i want to tell you all that, if you see a friend in depression like me, or in a problem. Dont hesitate to go talk to them before they start to burden themselves with their secrets. Even when they say im fine, be there for them. Dont be quiet. Bye
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Hey Unihorse 🦄.
Hide My Identity.
I need to vent.
This is gonna be long...
A Guide to worrying.
So, you are worried about something, are you? Might be your crush not liking you back or lusting after an ex while you are with your new boyfriend or maybe worried if boys are after your 'Cookie' *chuckles*. Whatever, the best thing that you can do about it is to think as much as possible about it. Just do absolutely nothing about it and keep on worrying. Cuz that always makes problems go away.
Look at the rest of your country. I'm sure they have never faced a personal crisis or lost family members or been fired or panicked on their life choice or anything most people go through in their lifetime. Because the thing you are worried about is the biggest thing that has happened to anyone on this planet.
No one has ever gone to war so they wouldn't understand what you are going through. No one has fought to free us from oppression. No one has fought with spears and shields against modern weapons for us not to be colonized. No one has walked kilometers just to get clean water. No one has starved in our third world country. Somehow whatever it is you are worried about justifies you loosing sleep and being a total dick to yourself and everyone around you.
Well, you know best. Luckily we humans live forever therefore you have infinite time to hold yourself back with doubt and fear.
And some how your crush might not like you back or you embarrass yourself in that presentation. We are all going to be laughing at you because we don't have a life or anything to do except to wait and laugh at your demise.
All 7 billion of us. Even after you're dead, we'll come to your grave every day and form a circle laughing and chanting 'this person made a mistake'.
Because we don't have anything else to do.
Also with that thing you are about to do. No one has ever taken a risk before. You're the first one. And I'm God is watching you in a 70 inch screen holding a gaint popcorn waiting for you to fail because he isn't doing anything like miracles or play chess with Jesus or regulate the speed if light or keep the fucking world moving!
But none of that matters, does it? Because you are worried about your crush not liking you back or lusting after an ex while you are with your new boyfriend or maybe worried if boys are after your 'Cookie' *chuckles*. Whatever, the best thing that you can do about it is to think as much as possible. Just don't do anything about it because no one has ever been in a bad situation before.
Exurb1a X Ms. M
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Hide My Identity.
I need to vent.
This is gonna be long...
A Guide to worrying.
So, you are worried about something, are you? Might be your crush not liking you back or lusting after an ex while you are with your new boyfriend or maybe worried if boys are after your 'Cookie' *chuckles*. Whatever, the best thing that you can do about it is to think as much as possible about it. Just do absolutely nothing about it and keep on worrying. Cuz that always makes problems go away.
Look at the rest of your country. I'm sure they have never faced a personal crisis or lost family members or been fired or panicked on their life choice or anything most people go through in their lifetime. Because the thing you are worried about is the biggest thing that has happened to anyone on this planet.
No one has ever gone to war so they wouldn't understand what you are going through. No one has fought to free us from oppression. No one has fought with spears and shields against modern weapons for us not to be colonized. No one has walked kilometers just to get clean water. No one has starved in our third world country. Somehow whatever it is you are worried about justifies you loosing sleep and being a total dick to yourself and everyone around you.
Well, you know best. Luckily we humans live forever therefore you have infinite time to hold yourself back with doubt and fear.
And some how your crush might not like you back or you embarrass yourself in that presentation. We are all going to be laughing at you because we don't have a life or anything to do except to wait and laugh at your demise.
All 7 billion of us. Even after you're dead, we'll come to your grave every day and form a circle laughing and chanting 'this person made a mistake'.
Because we don't have anything else to do.
Also with that thing you are about to do. No one has ever taken a risk before. You're the first one. And I'm God is watching you in a 70 inch screen holding a gaint popcorn waiting for you to fail because he isn't doing anything like miracles or play chess with Jesus or regulate the speed if light or keep the fucking world moving!
But none of that matters, does it? Because you are worried about your crush not liking you back or lusting after an ex while you are with your new boyfriend or maybe worried if boys are after your 'Cookie' *chuckles*. Whatever, the best thing that you can do about it is to think as much as possible. Just don't do anything about it because no one has ever been in a bad situation before.
Exurb1a X Ms. M
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