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Back at it again spilling my guts to strangers

I have been struggling alot since about the beginning of college...
I feel as if I'm not supposed to be here and that I'm going to fail n embarrass my family by even trying n wasting their money.

The imposter syndrome is strong

I feel like imma fail n when I don't I feel like it's still pretty shitty...n I just can't seem to look at the brighter side ...I maybe exaggerating a lil bit...I can see n verbalize the good things the glass half full blah blah
But I don't believe it ....idk how to explain it

So every exam I be struggling with my Time management...with focus ...to maintaining interest in my studies... keeping my motivation hight .....which is hard when I'm literally fighting a brain that tells me I pretty much suck major ass n should be embarrassed for even trying n who do I think I am

I been having this major problem with time blindness time feels like it's slipping my mind ✨
I can't do shit anymore

I can't function n it hurts my heart help

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Hello hi
I feel like talking about identity bc I'm having a crisis
Ik ik I can always google...but my brain is fried so 💜
For me identity is what I'm
What am I ?
Human - mostly general
Woman - less general but most of the population
Student, I'm broke ... financially ...I can't buy shit with out compromise
Owe you bought that well we can buy this this month.
I'm a friend...not best friend just average friend.
I'm fat.. enough for anyone to comment damn you got fat ... like a chiming Bell ....what an etude observation
I'm black ...which is pretty
I'm a first Born ..which can be hard
I'm a daughter.

In these identities I play a role.
Sometimes I struggle balancing things.

These identities factor in my interactions with the world . How the world perceives me ..and what do they expect.

The biggest (punn intended ) identity that factors largly is me being fat.

People don't treat me different bc I'm woman ...when I'm loud I'm not told aren't yiy s girl shush

Bc as a person in a fat body I'm perceived less feminine...n I give off pretty masculine energy ...bc no body gave me the time of day to bring out my feminine side
Always had to be on guard ... protecting myself n everyone around me ...my friends ...

But also as a person in a fat body I'm also perceived sexually ... instead of a person with a whole life experience... just a piece of meat ... like a dirty little secret

In my experience anyone that says I love fat women ...red flag
Why you telling me ...do you want a reward for that ...

As fat girl I'm perceived as pretty aggressive n confrontational and arrogant ...which is confusing as shit

I know these thoughts are pretty half baked but ya

Next as a women when I fight for my rights ...not just that ...when I try to start a Convo ...I'm perceived as nagging ... annoying I'm sorry
I worry about the future children that don't feel safe bc I didn't do enough

N dear men who think treating women decent like a human being deserves yiu trophy go away

The rape culture that's rampant in the country literally helps y'all ...you are a direct beneficiary

Owe my goodness he is amazing he didn't drug my drink ...omg he is so nice when we had a fight he didn't hit me ....he just screamed st me omg

I'm sad now n have forgotten what my fucking point was

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Hey guys how u been tnx to God iam in a good state of mind now that i feel good in my relationship so as my previous vent it has been total confusion mean i started dating my ex again the worst mistake least it thought me things but now shortly i found a guy nd been 4 months nd he is a good guy so i have this betammm aza yehone trust issue u know when ppl came out of ur life nd trying to believe nd being able to love nd trust that person is hard nd so iam 23 nd. He is around 26 so he recently got job nd all nd am so happy for him he respect my job help me nd all nd the thing is its very short time nd iam like bit unsure of what to do he wont to get things faster fr like meeting his family his friends u know some serious stuff nd the scenarios had got me so seriously this time ena i even told him no s b4 marriage idk as if iam v iam not gn i dont wanna be hurt again too so what should i do like guys u don’t understand ene am making bezu mekniat beteseb lemehenaget fetenen tinish gize new eko eyalkugn ena my fam dont know shitttt about anything gn his sister his cousins his fds know a lot i didnt even make him my fds meet him iam doing wrong is it okay of getting things rush nd throught this i have been having things with friends too nd my fds becaming so judgy nd its so uncomfortable i cant always be the one apologizing nd talking calling ryt so i start keeping things ti my own is that something i shouldn’t do hmmm idk help me up guys idont have one good unjudgye fd to talk to holla at me

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F in my 20's, and i just wanna hear from those of you in the job world. I graduated with an engineering field few months ago from a good school,graduated late but with a good grade. I had my mind set to find a job with in my field but so far no luck the more time goes on the less likely it will happen right? And i hear if a year passes its near impossible. But i have a management degree on the side and i'm starting to think about looking in that field sooo does this mean its over? That 6 yrs were just wasted? Am i just gonna go on working knowing that if i studied a social field straight out of highschool i would have had 3 yrs experience or even a masters but now gotta start from zero??? This shit is depressing me these days. Engineering graduates what do you say? Also what are you doing with your lives??

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Hey guys. I’m a female and I can’t control my feelings these days. There was this guy who i used to talk to dro and we used to have video calls and masturbate to each other and all. He was so fucking good with sexting and I miss everything about all that. I miss him so much but I can’t bring myself to talk to him again. Plus I have a guy who I’ve been seeing for 2 years now and even though he doesn’t fully satisfy me, These days I miss being fucked by him so bad that I even start grinding on whatever chair I’m sitting on. I can’t curb my desires. I hate watching porn or anything but sexting is definitely one of my favorite sexual activities. I’ve been so busy this year but this week I just can’t seem to focus at all. I have desires for any kind of sensual stuff. Even with a girl. Like I have wet dreams about eating a fucking pussy. Idk why but I just needed to vent this out

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Yall really out here havijg sex? i thought it was an inside joke and everybody was in on it. Ppl actually be having sex for real?! damn 😔.i am heartbroken rn i hate my life

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I can't stop thirsting over a friend, and yes before you say anything I've confessed my crush when it become so obvious and he gently let me down. We have actually gotten closer after that, and maybe it was because I asked but, even more flirthy. We spend 1-6 hrs together everyday.
The thing is these days I can't stop thinking of him. I don't want a day to pass without seeing him and I just want to be with him all the time. (unhealthy, time n energy consuming, torture......noted).
For April's fool he pulled a prank on me, a good one since I am hard to fool, and it scared the shit out of me cause I had almost done something I would never do in my right mind to side with him. It would have compromise my position and could have sent me to war with people way above my power, and I would have done that just to defend him.
I can't ask him out again and I dont think staying away will help much too, we are not compatible either atleast not in a long term. And he is a really close friend and with work and stuff I would atleast see him 3 days a week in the least.
I'm the kind of person who get over things once I know I could have them and I was counting on that but it is just getting more complicated and it is scaring me.....
I really don't know what to do

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Hey guys so this is a weird vent, I don't really need any help from you, I just wanted to get this out. So I have been battling suicidal thoughts for a while now the only reason I haven't done it yet is bc I fear god and that's the only reason I am still alive today barely pushing through. Everything got worse when I joined college and my parents basically forced me to learn computer science at hilcoe, I am first year there but I am obv failing my courses and I have my parents on my ass pressuring me to learn shit I don't even want. Everyday I see that college I feel like jumping off from the roof but again I fear god so that's the only reason I haven't done it. Life is pretty much shit rn, my rship with my parents is also full of shit tbh I wish I was never born like really I wish I was never born bc I am stuck in the fine line of wanting to live and wanting to die and I want to die but I can't kill myself. I thought bout joining the military so I can get killed in war there but you can guess what my parents said to that. Everything is fucking plain and dull I hate everything around me I wish I could sleep forever idk

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Hello guys there is a thing that is Stressing me out. I had slept with a pro waerind a condom all done with the rules but i feared that i catched HIV. I have Allergy on my skin that will start to itch at night. I see a doctor and He said it is physical Uritcaria. But i feared. Is there a chance that i will get infected

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I think its getting harder and harder to get Married and start a family ..... So
How many of you wanna get married and what is your reason and
How many of you don't wanna get Married and your reason as well
Thank you 😊❤️

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Blue bird by charles bukowski

There is a bluebird in my heart that wants to get out
But I'm too tough for him.
I say, stay in there, I'm not going
To let anybody see you
There is a bluebird in my heart that wants to get out
But I pour whiskey on him inhale cigarette smoke
And the whore and the bartenders
And the grocery clerks
Never know that
He's
In there
There's a bluebird in my heart that wants to get out
But I am to tough for him.
I say
stay down, do you want to mess me up?
You want to screw up the works?
You want to blow my book sales in Europe?
There is a bluebird in my heart that wants to get out
But I'm to clever, I only let him out at night sometimes
When everybody's asleep
I say I know that you're there
So don't be
Sad
Then I put him back
But he's singing a little
In there I haven't quite let him
Die.
And we sleep together like
That
With our
Secret pact
And it's nice enough to make a man weep
but I don't weep.
do you?


I wanted to share this poem for someone to let them know there is still hope for me. I will trust again, I will love again there will be only smiles on my face hopefully you will there when it happens.

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Sup everyone

25M here
Structural engineer
Working in a nice place

I fucking hate my job, lets start with that. A well known engineer promised me a lotta shit when I came to this company, & guess what... he isn't joining. Its all me, & I work my ass off for a shitty money.

I'm interested in computers, want to pursue IT bachelor degree in full time. I went on searching for scholarships and guess what... I succeeded.

The first was a turkey one, I was offered 60% discounted scholarship, I had to pay abt 70,000ETB yearly. Asked my big bro for that money, & I know he could afford it... said ante tkeldaleh...

I succeeded again... its Netherlands... but it was for self sponsored only. I took the interview, but they asked abt 11,250 euros... thats more than 600k. Can't afford that either.

I'm fucked up right now... I can't even concentrate on my work... I want to resign sooooo bad. But my parents are against that. I even prepared a letter of resignation.

Ahun endewm tsom gebtual... Ramadan... its really hard eyetsomu mesrat... I just want to disappear... I want something new.

Is it only me... hellooo world😢

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So im feeling really frustrated and i dont really know what to do, my husband and I can't agree on expenses, I feel as though hes being controlling and a bit condescending. He wants me to deposit money into an account that i have no real access to as opposed to splitting expenses with him and I'm not okay with this, he says its for savings for our future but I won't have any access to this bank account it wont even be in both of our names and I'm not comfortable with that

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just to give alit advice For all 12 Grade n 1st year University students ...Once you get to University. you will feel like everyone is always going out and getting drunk...but I am here to tell you that is not true. There are plenty of people that stay in and have just as much fun...if not more than people who go out every weekend...If you ever don’t feel like hanging out with your friends, it’s fine to say no and spend some time by yourself. Catch up on that TV show you have been meaning to watch or read that book that’s been sitting on your desk all year... It’s okay to be by yourself. And don’t ever let other people force you to go out or tell you that you need to go out and drink... because you don’t.

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Hi, I don't know if there is a definite answer to this but what is there after death?
And what happens if you take your life ??

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hello
I'm a dude I'm 17
let me start by listing out things in my life (important ones) I grew up with my grandparents and mom since she didn't have a job we were not rich nor poor but not to the point it's called mediocre (wede brokeness yadelal...) we lived happily... until I started realizing it was all delusive lies they filled my head in... I was told my father's side was as evil as fiends... at least that's what I heard and once I started growing up it was all sad I never had a room of my own my family always criticizes my mom for marrying a bad person and she always cries and im usually told to be a curse... I don't think venting is the solid solution here I never had a shoulder to cry on (I really don't crave it though) but I want to hear what people say about this... I really thought I would wrote alot this would be 1/4th of my problems but I really can't let it all out somehow something still holds me... I don't have a room of my own... now that I'm older I get told to leave and live on my own... I don't have any other place to be... they usually curse me out and I was always silent about it but I talked back today and... I was told I am a really bad kid and that they shouldn't have raised me... I really don't know what to do I'm not asking for alot I just want to let a little out. please help me?

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I have secrets. It's not somebody's secret, it's my own. It didn't have to be a secret, but you can't handle it the right way. You'll  jump to conclusions, may be you'd hate me the rest of my life and it's okay. I shall not tell you for your own sake because when i pointed it out hypothetically, you showed your true color, you can't change that back. Even if I am your mountain and you are my river, it's better I keep this part of me far away from you. And you shall feel me grow further away. I won't hate you for your ignorant remarks. But as someone anonymous here, I want to tell you I am different. And it's okay. Someday when I have the courage to tell you my secret and when you learn I am different, I am gonna give you the time to process it so you won't say something you'll regret. Despite all these Love always wins.
Signed: A loved one

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I rly hv a question like why is it so harder to find a boy bestie than having a bf? Like idk why I rly want a boy bestie maybe it's becoz I used to and I miss his company menamen but I rly need to find boy bestie yet it is so freaking hard????????????

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Have you ever been in love? I have been in love, once. It was pretty exciting at first, but as it grew stronger, it was hurtful. I couldn't tell him I loved him, he still doesn't know and he'll never know. 10 years has passed and all the guys that came in my life are no where up to his standard. He has a cute smile; he laughs to my jokes; he is honest; he is compassionate; he is muscular and tall, I am taller than him though. He uses lots of words to express his feelings and I listened to him like a soul satisfying music. He was all I wanted in life, but he was also the forbidden fruit I can never have to myself. He was the person I can never have, and we weren't meant for eachother.
Love wins, but only sometimes.
A lover, once 🙂

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Once upon a time...
There was a person whom u gave ur Everything & ur time for, u were there for that person in his/her worst times. Now suddenly that person starts to change & ignore u & just see u as a normal person, u wanted him/her in a bad day of urs but u find him/her laughing around & enjoying & not giving a shit for u and not even asking "how r u?".... Doesn't that hurt? I swear it hurts when u see that person acts like that....But here is my confession for that person, I gave u my time, I struggled to let u let out all ur bad and worst things and I accepted u as u r and never changed on u, while I am sure if the person who u r laughing with knew ur secret he/she would run away from u. U smile to everyone but when u see me u make that bad bored face, u don't even respond to my hi properly!...Here is my message for u, u r really hurting me in a way u can't imagine but if something or anything happened to u and u came to me I will be there for u but sorrily u r not there for me.
Thank u and remember I just hope u the best happiest life

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Hey guys, so I started talking to this very sweet guy and we were hitting it off and he's got my number from his friend who was also my friend and texted me ena he also got a cheguara hemem but he drunk coffee just to not sleep and talk to me and he got sick b/c of that...we spent a lot together but one day all of a sudden he stopped talking to me and doesn't respond as quick as he used to and I was confused and asked my friend what had happened but he has got no idea what had happened but he gave me a guess saying that it's because I once called him bro b/c lemd honobegn nbr...and after some time I have heard that he's got back with his ex who hurted him a lot and even made him try killing him self....becha a lot happened and they broke up again and I don't know why but I felt happy hearing that but still I felt bad for him b/c he got heart broken again. And now I have this felagot to text him right now but I don't even know what I'm supposed to do and I am afraid of being ignored by him, that's why I need your advice so guys please help! Thanks in advance😊

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