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You guys immediate help am losing my mind the thing is I found out recently that the job i was studying for all these years has now became sooo far away from me my dream the goal i want to achieve is now gone i am getting so depressed lately losing interest in studying I lost my purpose i used to study hard because of it now after its gone i lost the motivation i mean whats the point of working hard now I can't do the thing i love I tried to think about another thing but no interest in anything else all the other ones are boring I wanna do something I love go to work excited everyday make my life meaningful live the life i dreamt off but sometimes we don't get what we want thats the painful truth I stress over my education I cry alot i know pathetic but better than crying over a boy isn't it? i swear its so depressing the career I wanted to build. what am i supposed to do?
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You guys immediate help am losing my mind the thing is I found out recently that the job i was studying for all these years has now became sooo far away from me my dream the goal i want to achieve is now gone i am getting so depressed lately losing interest in studying I lost my purpose i used to study hard because of it now after its gone i lost the motivation i mean whats the point of working hard now I can't do the thing i love I tried to think about another thing but no interest in anything else all the other ones are boring I wanna do something I love go to work excited everyday make my life meaningful live the life i dreamt off but sometimes we don't get what we want thats the painful truth I stress over my education I cry alot i know pathetic but better than crying over a boy isn't it? i swear its so depressing the career I wanted to build. what am i supposed to do?
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I’m 20 and a girl the thing is I’m in love with two guys at the same time and I don’t wanna lose either of them and they both have feelings for me what should i do
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I’m 20 and a girl the thing is I’m in love with two guys at the same time and I don’t wanna lose either of them and they both have feelings for me what should i do
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Hi, I’ve come here to vent because I don’t have anyone I can talk to. I was raped twice in one year and by the same person. The first time it happened, I drank too much and fell unconscious. And I didn’t want to speak to him and I blocked him for months. He asked me for forgiveness and i thought it was from the bottom of his heart and I accepted. We got close again and I slowly started to forget what he had done to me. I let him back into my heart and I even lied to my closest friends about him, trying to protect him because at some point I think I was in love with him. I found out that he was in love with another person and I was just shocked. I was so hurt and we met up and I asked him about her. And to make matters worse, he said yeah I do love her but you’re like one of my closest friends. He was drinking a little and he offered me some. I’m an alcoholic, I don’t have a good record with drinking and he knew that and yet he tempted me. I said maybe just a little and accepted. A little turned to a lot and I was drunk again. I don’t know what came over me, I let my guard down. At some point, that fear in my heart returned and I said I was going to the bathroom and snuck out the front door. I was halfway to the taxi place when he got to me. He took my hands and said take your stuff first and led me back to his house. There, he offered me the drink again and I was so angry and disappointed, and I drank. A lot. I fell unconscious and he was on top of me, I remember begging him and him holding my mouth shut. Now I can’t live with my self. I feel so horrible and so out of control. My whole body hurts. Why did I trust him again? Or am I the problem? Am the one at fault here because I allowed myself to be in this situation despite all the red flags. I don’t know, I don’t know anything anymore. And I hate him so much. I hate myself so much. I just hate everything.
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Hi, I’ve come here to vent because I don’t have anyone I can talk to. I was raped twice in one year and by the same person. The first time it happened, I drank too much and fell unconscious. And I didn’t want to speak to him and I blocked him for months. He asked me for forgiveness and i thought it was from the bottom of his heart and I accepted. We got close again and I slowly started to forget what he had done to me. I let him back into my heart and I even lied to my closest friends about him, trying to protect him because at some point I think I was in love with him. I found out that he was in love with another person and I was just shocked. I was so hurt and we met up and I asked him about her. And to make matters worse, he said yeah I do love her but you’re like one of my closest friends. He was drinking a little and he offered me some. I’m an alcoholic, I don’t have a good record with drinking and he knew that and yet he tempted me. I said maybe just a little and accepted. A little turned to a lot and I was drunk again. I don’t know what came over me, I let my guard down. At some point, that fear in my heart returned and I said I was going to the bathroom and snuck out the front door. I was halfway to the taxi place when he got to me. He took my hands and said take your stuff first and led me back to his house. There, he offered me the drink again and I was so angry and disappointed, and I drank. A lot. I fell unconscious and he was on top of me, I remember begging him and him holding my mouth shut. Now I can’t live with my self. I feel so horrible and so out of control. My whole body hurts. Why did I trust him again? Or am I the problem? Am the one at fault here because I allowed myself to be in this situation despite all the red flags. I don’t know, I don’t know anything anymore. And I hate him so much. I hate myself so much. I just hate everything.
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Hey everyone,so I have a cousin but like an older sister and it's been almost a year since she graduated in marketing and still haven't gotten a job. Our situation at home has always been very hard especially for her.her father,the only person who could make her happy died two years ago and she has been struggling since then.and now she has gotten in to this dark place of constant depression and self hate. I'm really scared and I don't know what to do for her.i have tried to look for a job for her but haven't succeeded.please help me before something goes wrong.if you guys have any idea or maybe a job even if not related to her field please🙏🙏🙏
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Hey everyone,so I have a cousin but like an older sister and it's been almost a year since she graduated in marketing and still haven't gotten a job. Our situation at home has always been very hard especially for her.her father,the only person who could make her happy died two years ago and she has been struggling since then.and now she has gotten in to this dark place of constant depression and self hate. I'm really scared and I don't know what to do for her.i have tried to look for a job for her but haven't succeeded.please help me before something goes wrong.if you guys have any idea or maybe a job even if not related to her field please🙏🙏🙏
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Hello, this is not a vent but a question for those medical students (pc1) because am in a huge confusion. there is a new curriculum which started these year and a lot of things changed including grading system so my question is ahun lay pc1 yehonachu beteleym hawasa ena bahirdar University yalachu tnsh ngr btnegrugn nw... Please cooperate😊
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Hello, this is not a vent but a question for those medical students (pc1) because am in a huge confusion. there is a new curriculum which started these year and a lot of things changed including grading system so my question is ahun lay pc1 yehonachu beteleym hawasa ena bahirdar University yalachu tnsh ngr btnegrugn nw... Please cooperate😊
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Hi everybody I was having sex with my bf for the first time and i didn't bleed and am n't happy with that why did this happens? But we just have sex too much slowly i mean he inserted slowly, Is it the reason why i didn't bleed? Does bleeding may occur when we have sex for the next time? Please tell me🙏
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Hi everybody I was having sex with my bf for the first time and i didn't bleed and am n't happy with that why did this happens? But we just have sex too much slowly i mean he inserted slowly, Is it the reason why i didn't bleed? Does bleeding may occur when we have sex for the next time? Please tell me🙏
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Hey... i made group of friends in campus and we were so close n eza west 1 lj nbr btam wedew nbr astesasebun byam tru na emnetun miak lj selone. Esu kne b 1 batch ybeltal tmerkual, ena i told him that i have feelings for him and esum ya semet endalew ngeregn... gn eskahun eneferaraln malete still as friends nw menaweraw wede lela subject malef alchalnm... ena what should I do?
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Hey... i made group of friends in campus and we were so close n eza west 1 lj nbr btam wedew nbr astesasebun byam tru na emnetun miak lj selone. Esu kne b 1 batch ybeltal tmerkual, ena i told him that i have feelings for him and esum ya semet endalew ngeregn... gn eskahun eneferaraln malete still as friends nw menaweraw wede lela subject malef alchalnm... ena what should I do?
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Hey guys how ya'll
I'll get straight to my point. Am a university student private university. And am in need of money I don't have anything to pay for my next tuition fee which is 2 months later. So I really need money which I can earn within this period of time so guys if u can help me please don't hesitate to comment. I don't know where else to go but I can't find anything I tried many things but those are kind of works that's not suitable with my class so help me
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I'll get straight to my point. Am a university student private university. And am in need of money I don't have anything to pay for my next tuition fee which is 2 months later. So I really need money which I can earn within this period of time so guys if u can help me please don't hesitate to comment. I don't know where else to go but I can't find anything I tried many things but those are kind of works that's not suitable with my class so help me
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Hey guys how are you ..this is it I don't know what to do I really need a psychologist or anyone who can perform hypnosis am really desperate for it..there are things that I need to get out of my mind before they literally kill me ..thanks!
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Hey guys how are you ..this is it I don't know what to do I really need a psychologist or anyone who can perform hypnosis am really desperate for it..there are things that I need to get out of my mind before they literally kill me ..thanks!
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Hey whats up so i have a question so when i was in my very teenage days i dated this young guy i was deeply in love with him but i got hurt broken when my best friend and him started loving eachother in front of my eyes she betrayed me then she told me i like him so i told her you too have fun! i cancelled her out of my life but then they started seeing eachother quickly got bored of eachother he still begs till this day to be closer to me but after that i changed i mean dont blame me i started seeing older guys rich guys and i make them buy me stuff and get tired of them i have a car and a house because of that and im only 20 but the thing is i completly lost the meaning of love i hate couples i hate younger guys trying to approach me i hate the thing called best friend im a girl and i domt trust girls at all and i hate that shit bag im still young to find love but i dont feel up to it because of that shithead any advise how i can love this stuff?
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Hey whats up so i have a question so when i was in my very teenage days i dated this young guy i was deeply in love with him but i got hurt broken when my best friend and him started loving eachother in front of my eyes she betrayed me then she told me i like him so i told her you too have fun! i cancelled her out of my life but then they started seeing eachother quickly got bored of eachother he still begs till this day to be closer to me but after that i changed i mean dont blame me i started seeing older guys rich guys and i make them buy me stuff and get tired of them i have a car and a house because of that and im only 20 but the thing is i completly lost the meaning of love i hate couples i hate younger guys trying to approach me i hate the thing called best friend im a girl and i domt trust girls at all and i hate that shit bag im still young to find love but i dont feel up to it because of that shithead any advise how i can love this stuff?
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Hi 👋🏽 Been awhile since i sent a vent but here we go! I started talking to someone online for few weeks now and he lives in a different country! At first when we started talking it was just to talk as friends and nothing more! The more we talk, i started noticing that he is actually a very decent guy! He checks most of the things i look for in a future husband. How do you guys work a long distance relationship? I usually dont talk to someone if theyre not in the same city as me. I am very curious about everything about his life & i enjoy talking to him... usually my interest ends very quickly.
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Hi 👋🏽 Been awhile since i sent a vent but here we go! I started talking to someone online for few weeks now and he lives in a different country! At first when we started talking it was just to talk as friends and nothing more! The more we talk, i started noticing that he is actually a very decent guy! He checks most of the things i look for in a future husband. How do you guys work a long distance relationship? I usually dont talk to someone if theyre not in the same city as me. I am very curious about everything about his life & i enjoy talking to him... usually my interest ends very quickly.
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Hi i am 19 years old and i need you guys to help me in one thing <MASTERBATING>
At this rate i feel like its a curse or something everytime when i open instagram i feel horny for no reason im even in r/nofap community in reddit but that doesn't help. I need an advice from my fellow Ethiopians please if you have any advice for me help i need to end this shit once and for all!!
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Hi i am 19 years old and i need you guys to help me in one thing <MASTERBATING>
At this rate i feel like its a curse or something everytime when i open instagram i feel horny for no reason im even in r/nofap community in reddit but that doesn't help. I need an advice from my fellow Ethiopians please if you have any advice for me help i need to end this shit once and for all!!
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I want a genuine friend who will be my friend despite my look...a friend who will never get bored of me just cuz am plain....a friend who will go wild with me despite what ppl say...and a friend who will never get ashamed of me...
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I want a genuine friend who will be my friend despite my look...a friend who will never get bored of me just cuz am plain....a friend who will go wild with me despite what ppl say...and a friend who will never get ashamed of me...
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If you had to choose between keeping sending a guy nudes or taking the risk of the dude leaking the nudes which would you choose? I'm not really worried that anyone would recognize me if the nides were leaked, but on the other hand I have nothing to lose if I keep sending them. What would you do in my place ?
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If you had to choose between keeping sending a guy nudes or taking the risk of the dude leaking the nudes which would you choose? I'm not really worried that anyone would recognize me if the nides were leaked, but on the other hand I have nothing to lose if I keep sending them. What would you do in my place ?
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Okay what do u think about a first kiss malte we r in relationship but it just been months gena engalen that Mich bayhonem & we talk with phone but evey time we meet he want to kiss me and I told him to wait uk till ik him better and trust him right this is also my frist relationship but i see it as a serious koye ye relationship tergmu mndn nw is it about the kisses and hugs or is it the one u feel safe with?knowing more eachother aydel?and I don't feel that at all...I can't trust him cause every time we meet it feels like that he just want to kiss or make out I think I'm more than that and worth the wait right I'm a women and I want to see what effort he make to earn a trust or me. I do love him and wanna give him a chance but i still don't want to be used esti what do u think?I'm confused in my mind bezu neger nw mesbew bande and tell me what do u gain in relationships?
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Okay what do u think about a first kiss malte we r in relationship but it just been months gena engalen that Mich bayhonem & we talk with phone but evey time we meet he want to kiss me and I told him to wait uk till ik him better and trust him right this is also my frist relationship but i see it as a serious koye ye relationship tergmu mndn nw is it about the kisses and hugs or is it the one u feel safe with?knowing more eachother aydel?and I don't feel that at all...I can't trust him cause every time we meet it feels like that he just want to kiss or make out I think I'm more than that and worth the wait right I'm a women and I want to see what effort he make to earn a trust or me. I do love him and wanna give him a chance but i still don't want to be used esti what do u think?I'm confused in my mind bezu neger nw mesbew bande and tell me what do u gain in relationships?
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So let me get to the point... I have been dating this guy for more than a year and half now. And a lot is going on...his mom compares me to other girls, tells me he has so many better options then gets into our relationship and saying things like I am holding back and whatnot. And when it reached the limits I told him and he said he will work it out but then said she is a positive person and I am negative then apologized and I stopped meeting his family cause...its a lot of things that I can't write here and it just traumatized me in many levels. But then I feel like I am not with the right person. He only meets with me when it works for him other than that even when I am sick he would just call and say eat drink ayezosh he doesn't show effort unless it works into his schedule or something. And honestly speaking I don't feel the same way for him the way I used to. I tried to end the relationship so many times but he won't let go but at the same time doesn't treat me right. Like he do have his good sides too but It's been a lot to take in. He used to have this childhood friend. And they used to chat as she lives in a different country but then he deleted their whole chat and when I asked him why he said its because he chatted something about latino girls and that he was wishing to latino and he met one then she told him that she is only here for sometime so he I guess he didn't go for it. But I came in his life right after in few days. Now that I know the history (if its the truth why he deleted the whole chat) then I am just... I am not his type? Or I am not his first choice...and that hurts. I always felt like he is not fully in the relationship. I got into a car accident in midnight and called him he said he can't come as he doesn't want to worry his family if he got out in midnight, I was literally in a life death situation. After he moved here, when he got a job he wasn't answering my calls texts or anything for a straight a week and then one day he said he is with his coworker and he is not comfortable talking to me around her. But I was there for him for 6 month keeping him sane till he gets a job here. I don't know what to feel right now. I don't know where I went wrong. And he doesn't let go I am confused why he doesn't let go when he is not in 100%. Dating someone knowing and feeling like you are not their first choice just breaks my heart. I cried for so long that I am a point where I feel numb. I am also afraid of being alone. I don't have any friends or family around. And I don't know how to even make friends, I feel like I am a boring person. This is just the short version, I am just so traumatized. This is my second long time relationship, and the first time was worst than this. I don't even know if I will ever find a guy or even date not cause I don't want to but because I don't know where to find that guy who understands you and treats you right and be there for you, have the same energy level with you and crazy about you.
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So let me get to the point... I have been dating this guy for more than a year and half now. And a lot is going on...his mom compares me to other girls, tells me he has so many better options then gets into our relationship and saying things like I am holding back and whatnot. And when it reached the limits I told him and he said he will work it out but then said she is a positive person and I am negative then apologized and I stopped meeting his family cause...its a lot of things that I can't write here and it just traumatized me in many levels. But then I feel like I am not with the right person. He only meets with me when it works for him other than that even when I am sick he would just call and say eat drink ayezosh he doesn't show effort unless it works into his schedule or something. And honestly speaking I don't feel the same way for him the way I used to. I tried to end the relationship so many times but he won't let go but at the same time doesn't treat me right. Like he do have his good sides too but It's been a lot to take in. He used to have this childhood friend. And they used to chat as she lives in a different country but then he deleted their whole chat and when I asked him why he said its because he chatted something about latino girls and that he was wishing to latino and he met one then she told him that she is only here for sometime so he I guess he didn't go for it. But I came in his life right after in few days. Now that I know the history (if its the truth why he deleted the whole chat) then I am just... I am not his type? Or I am not his first choice...and that hurts. I always felt like he is not fully in the relationship. I got into a car accident in midnight and called him he said he can't come as he doesn't want to worry his family if he got out in midnight, I was literally in a life death situation. After he moved here, when he got a job he wasn't answering my calls texts or anything for a straight a week and then one day he said he is with his coworker and he is not comfortable talking to me around her. But I was there for him for 6 month keeping him sane till he gets a job here. I don't know what to feel right now. I don't know where I went wrong. And he doesn't let go I am confused why he doesn't let go when he is not in 100%. Dating someone knowing and feeling like you are not their first choice just breaks my heart. I cried for so long that I am a point where I feel numb. I am also afraid of being alone. I don't have any friends or family around. And I don't know how to even make friends, I feel like I am a boring person. This is just the short version, I am just so traumatized. This is my second long time relationship, and the first time was worst than this. I don't even know if I will ever find a guy or even date not cause I don't want to but because I don't know where to find that guy who understands you and treats you right and be there for you, have the same energy level with you and crazy about you.
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Ladies I need some help ASAP. I'm going out with a guy this Saturday and I've never been out on a date before. And I don't really know him that well we haven't texted much. He's one of those overly experienced rich boys and I'm one of those shy awkward girls. Tell me how to act, what to expect, how to eat idek guys what's the worst thing that can happen and how can I handle it? What do you do to get rid of the awkwardness when it's time to pay for meal. And what should I wear, even. Please please please I really like him and I don't want to ruin this. So girls who've been in a lot of dates or guys even, tell me what men expect. Thank you.
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Ladies I need some help ASAP. I'm going out with a guy this Saturday and I've never been out on a date before. And I don't really know him that well we haven't texted much. He's one of those overly experienced rich boys and I'm one of those shy awkward girls. Tell me how to act, what to expect, how to eat idek guys what's the worst thing that can happen and how can I handle it? What do you do to get rid of the awkwardness when it's time to pay for meal. And what should I wear, even. Please please please I really like him and I don't want to ruin this. So girls who've been in a lot of dates or guys even, tell me what men expect. Thank you.
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Hey guys this ain't a vent but I need to find someone idk how but I have to I've been in tekur anbessa this past days and I met a boy who's family was in ICU too we didn't met but i was so worried and he saw me crying and he came and gave me an advice that changed my whole mind idk his but I can give detail about the woman who he came to look after , she have worked at tikur anbessa for 30 years and she has a son called yared Idk her name tho becha i heard she passed away yesterday and I feel like i need to talk to him so if you're reading this or someone who knows him reply me. Tnx
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Hey guys this ain't a vent but I need to find someone idk how but I have to I've been in tekur anbessa this past days and I met a boy who's family was in ICU too we didn't met but i was so worried and he saw me crying and he came and gave me an advice that changed my whole mind idk his but I can give detail about the woman who he came to look after , she have worked at tikur anbessa for 30 years and she has a son called yared Idk her name tho becha i heard she passed away yesterday and I feel like i need to talk to him so if you're reading this or someone who knows him reply me. Tnx
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Am I the only one who thinks mad people who talks alone loudly thinks there's someone beside them, they feel like there's actually someone who hear what they're saying as if that person is their just to listen their thought being voiced. Actually I know why I'm thinking like this, I was once like that. I had imaginary friend who would support me in everything I say and I do. He loved me and I loved him so fucking much I don't even know why I chose it to be a boy. I think it's because I lose you. The one boy best friend I had. The one person I used to lean on without a second thought without fear of being hurt. After like 3 days I refused to accept your death. I mean I was at your house for 3 days crying and looking at your mother and other people crying and not for even a moment I doubted my lose. But after everything got settled, after everyone who was there for me and for your mom started to disappear, my mind couldn't process that shit anymore. My soul couldn't accept it... at all. I don't know if that's my reason or something but in order to maintain my inner peace I created you again...Micky. Believe it or not it helped me. I used to tell you everything and I used to listen to you too. I used to imagine how you made fun of all the people around us just to make me laugh and I actually laughed about those moments even when you were not around. For a long time I was fine in my own little bubbly world. But when things got hard I mean when I stopped talking with people who are actually with me cuz I couldn't focus on the real thing and when I started laughing talking with my imaginary Micky and when my family started to notice and had an idea to take me to tsebel and all....I stopped. With too much struggle I started to see the reality, that I need to accept you don't exist anymore. And I killed my imaginary Micky too. You know why? No one could understand me when I tell them I'm not crazy I'm just lonely. Even my dad was like "kabedsh tsebel wey hospital lewsedesh enji endezi aynet neger yetenegna sew meleket aydelem". This was like before 1 year or so but still I couldn't fully stop it. Like you are here somewhere near me. When I'm sad or sitting alone I feel your presence. I feel you hugging me, talking to me, making me laugh with those silly faces you used to make, I wish you were here to see my boyfriend. I bet you wouldn't let me date him the moment you saw him. Lol you remember that one guy you forced him not to see me again cuz you think he's not enough for me just because he talks fast😂😂 you said "men ende leba yaklebelebewal". I loveeee you...you will always have that place in my heart you used to say that is my empire. That was pure friendship. That's why I'm this lost now. I lost my everything. I don't know who I'm without you. And I don't even have the idea why I'm missing you now. Everything in my life seems to go perfectly besent mekera. But these days I keep missing you I think I should wake my imaginary Micky up so I won't be this lonely. I have the perfect best friend (who by the way you would kill if you were here cuz I love her) everyone wishes to have. I have the perfect boyfriend (who you'd hate cuz he loves me...not as much as you did tho). My family is at what seem a good place. I have a job which I'm thankful for. But there is this huge void inside me that I couldn't fill no matter what. So here's what I'm gonna do...I, despite of what everybody says, need my imaginary you.❤️ I Love You. I WILL ALWAYS DO❤️❤️❤️ RIP
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Am I the only one who thinks mad people who talks alone loudly thinks there's someone beside them, they feel like there's actually someone who hear what they're saying as if that person is their just to listen their thought being voiced. Actually I know why I'm thinking like this, I was once like that. I had imaginary friend who would support me in everything I say and I do. He loved me and I loved him so fucking much I don't even know why I chose it to be a boy. I think it's because I lose you. The one boy best friend I had. The one person I used to lean on without a second thought without fear of being hurt. After like 3 days I refused to accept your death. I mean I was at your house for 3 days crying and looking at your mother and other people crying and not for even a moment I doubted my lose. But after everything got settled, after everyone who was there for me and for your mom started to disappear, my mind couldn't process that shit anymore. My soul couldn't accept it... at all. I don't know if that's my reason or something but in order to maintain my inner peace I created you again...Micky. Believe it or not it helped me. I used to tell you everything and I used to listen to you too. I used to imagine how you made fun of all the people around us just to make me laugh and I actually laughed about those moments even when you were not around. For a long time I was fine in my own little bubbly world. But when things got hard I mean when I stopped talking with people who are actually with me cuz I couldn't focus on the real thing and when I started laughing talking with my imaginary Micky and when my family started to notice and had an idea to take me to tsebel and all....I stopped. With too much struggle I started to see the reality, that I need to accept you don't exist anymore. And I killed my imaginary Micky too. You know why? No one could understand me when I tell them I'm not crazy I'm just lonely. Even my dad was like "kabedsh tsebel wey hospital lewsedesh enji endezi aynet neger yetenegna sew meleket aydelem". This was like before 1 year or so but still I couldn't fully stop it. Like you are here somewhere near me. When I'm sad or sitting alone I feel your presence. I feel you hugging me, talking to me, making me laugh with those silly faces you used to make, I wish you were here to see my boyfriend. I bet you wouldn't let me date him the moment you saw him. Lol you remember that one guy you forced him not to see me again cuz you think he's not enough for me just because he talks fast😂😂 you said "men ende leba yaklebelebewal". I loveeee you...you will always have that place in my heart you used to say that is my empire. That was pure friendship. That's why I'm this lost now. I lost my everything. I don't know who I'm without you. And I don't even have the idea why I'm missing you now. Everything in my life seems to go perfectly besent mekera. But these days I keep missing you I think I should wake my imaginary Micky up so I won't be this lonely. I have the perfect best friend (who by the way you would kill if you were here cuz I love her) everyone wishes to have. I have the perfect boyfriend (who you'd hate cuz he loves me...not as much as you did tho). My family is at what seem a good place. I have a job which I'm thankful for. But there is this huge void inside me that I couldn't fill no matter what. So here's what I'm gonna do...I, despite of what everybody says, need my imaginary you.❤️ I Love You. I WILL ALWAYS DO❤️❤️❤️ RIP
#Friendship #Melancholy
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This pain is unbearable, am aching...I feel numb at the same time. I lost a good one. He was one of the closest human to me. I lost him to suicide. It's hard i kept asking my self why did he do that for the past 4 days since he was pronounced brain dead I loved him eko, he seemed happy eko, he had the biggest smile in the room eko ... he was my go to person when I felt a lil down. I swear to God am not even exaggerating when I say he was the happiest person I ever known. We all considered him lucky. Like he was the clown of our group, we always called him drama free, he laughed a lot, loved movies, obsessed with EDM music, hates being the center of attention eventho he gets attention for being so funny and charismatic yet also dorky I remember once i cried infront of him, am not one to show emotions... like it's hard for me to cry infront of mama... n I remember we were talking abt my relationship problems and he listened to me very attentively, esuko yihene bzu yemiyaweraw yerasu ngr neber but we connected, I could feel my self showing him the real me and I cried saying what i felt exactly, and he didnt say a word he just came closer and gave me the biggest hug. And I sobbed and sobbed he just hugged me so tight.😔🥺🥺 I wish I could go back to that day and wipe my tears tf out and say darling how abt u? How have u been feeling lately are u good? Ahun I can think of billions of questions I coulda asked then but the selfish me, the spoiled lil brat me only focused on my problems.
Every problem I ever talked to him abt he made sure I felt at ease after talking to him abt It. I remember once I failed this course I told him I was scared abt and he was like nah u will add it next year feta bey mnamn he consoled me it happens eko mnamn blo then this year add sareg class west kuch blo agegnehut n we laughed till our stomach hurt I was like dude endet alnegerkegnm... now that I think abt it ppl like him dont talk abt them selves a lot, the problems they are facing aynagerum and they always make them selves appear happier than most and make other ppl happy cuz they know what it's like to feel pain more than anyone... I always thought this man is great but sth was so diffrent about him.maybe it's my fault for not seeing the signs, ahun sasbew new yegebagn he was always happy... u can't always be happy that ain't normal I failed to c that am so dumb
there were storms behind those soft eyes... there was hidden pain... he hid it so well props to him... he fooled us we never thought that this would happen...
The last time we met I was in hurry I told him we should catch up and that I missed him, he said sure atetfi but I bet he was thinking abt metfat from us for forever..
Why would he do that? Why? Why didnt he tell me he felt like saying goodbye. I didnt even give him a proper hello eko it happened as I was getting In a taxi I swear I would've died to get him to stay. Ik it's a fucked up world but damn I'm still crying.. I dont think I'll ever stop am not eating, if this is a bad dream someone pls wake me up cuz I lost a real person. Oh what did u do biniyee u decided to leave so soon I want to know I forgive u, I hope it's nice there I miss u terribly, i would give my life just to hug u ryt now.... for the rest of us what dreadful life its gon, its gonna suck without u. I cant belive im saying this but i wish i didn't know u biniyee because it hurts to know someone to love em and they leave I'm sorry but I regret knowing u... ere I take it back I would take this pain and more if I have to enkuanm awekuh rest easy biniyee I love you. Ik i'll see u again
#Melancholy
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I need to vent
This pain is unbearable, am aching...I feel numb at the same time. I lost a good one. He was one of the closest human to me. I lost him to suicide. It's hard i kept asking my self why did he do that for the past 4 days since he was pronounced brain dead I loved him eko, he seemed happy eko, he had the biggest smile in the room eko ... he was my go to person when I felt a lil down. I swear to God am not even exaggerating when I say he was the happiest person I ever known. We all considered him lucky. Like he was the clown of our group, we always called him drama free, he laughed a lot, loved movies, obsessed with EDM music, hates being the center of attention eventho he gets attention for being so funny and charismatic yet also dorky I remember once i cried infront of him, am not one to show emotions... like it's hard for me to cry infront of mama... n I remember we were talking abt my relationship problems and he listened to me very attentively, esuko yihene bzu yemiyaweraw yerasu ngr neber but we connected, I could feel my self showing him the real me and I cried saying what i felt exactly, and he didnt say a word he just came closer and gave me the biggest hug. And I sobbed and sobbed he just hugged me so tight.😔🥺🥺 I wish I could go back to that day and wipe my tears tf out and say darling how abt u? How have u been feeling lately are u good? Ahun I can think of billions of questions I coulda asked then but the selfish me, the spoiled lil brat me only focused on my problems.
Every problem I ever talked to him abt he made sure I felt at ease after talking to him abt It. I remember once I failed this course I told him I was scared abt and he was like nah u will add it next year feta bey mnamn he consoled me it happens eko mnamn blo then this year add sareg class west kuch blo agegnehut n we laughed till our stomach hurt I was like dude endet alnegerkegnm... now that I think abt it ppl like him dont talk abt them selves a lot, the problems they are facing aynagerum and they always make them selves appear happier than most and make other ppl happy cuz they know what it's like to feel pain more than anyone... I always thought this man is great but sth was so diffrent about him.maybe it's my fault for not seeing the signs, ahun sasbew new yegebagn he was always happy... u can't always be happy that ain't normal I failed to c that am so dumb
there were storms behind those soft eyes... there was hidden pain... he hid it so well props to him... he fooled us we never thought that this would happen...
The last time we met I was in hurry I told him we should catch up and that I missed him, he said sure atetfi but I bet he was thinking abt metfat from us for forever..
Why would he do that? Why? Why didnt he tell me he felt like saying goodbye. I didnt even give him a proper hello eko it happened as I was getting In a taxi I swear I would've died to get him to stay. Ik it's a fucked up world but damn I'm still crying.. I dont think I'll ever stop am not eating, if this is a bad dream someone pls wake me up cuz I lost a real person. Oh what did u do biniyee u decided to leave so soon I want to know I forgive u, I hope it's nice there I miss u terribly, i would give my life just to hug u ryt now.... for the rest of us what dreadful life its gon, its gonna suck without u. I cant belive im saying this but i wish i didn't know u biniyee because it hurts to know someone to love em and they leave I'm sorry but I regret knowing u... ere I take it back I would take this pain and more if I have to enkuanm awekuh rest easy biniyee I love you. Ik i'll see u again
#Melancholy
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Hey Unihorse 🦄
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I have two things to say, ppl are really confrontational and challenging more than I could have ever imagined, even the closer ones. when I buy new stuff, they act like I beat them in a game or sth...why would they do that? first of all, they are just hurting themselves by comparing them with others and it makes me feel bad ( things like I have it too good that I don't deserve) also it annoys when people hold a contest of whose having it worse. Another thing is, I'm horny these days....not getting random boners and stuff (21 yo boy btw) I get really carried away by the thought of having sex I am a virgin and recently stopped fapping for the better. But the thing is I kinda feel more sexual these days and I keep getting distracted sometimes. Thanks.... oooh btw don't tell me masturbating is healthy or recommend relationships, I'm into neither of those two. peace out
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I need to vent
I have two things to say, ppl are really confrontational and challenging more than I could have ever imagined, even the closer ones. when I buy new stuff, they act like I beat them in a game or sth...why would they do that? first of all, they are just hurting themselves by comparing them with others and it makes me feel bad ( things like I have it too good that I don't deserve) also it annoys when people hold a contest of whose having it worse. Another thing is, I'm horny these days....not getting random boners and stuff (21 yo boy btw) I get really carried away by the thought of having sex I am a virgin and recently stopped fapping for the better. But the thing is I kinda feel more sexual these days and I keep getting distracted sometimes. Thanks.... oooh btw don't tell me masturbating is healthy or recommend relationships, I'm into neither of those two. peace out
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