the question that pops up in my head when i get close with people. is this what i genuinely want or am i striving for some kind of company and understanding, that they usually cannot give me..

in the bottom of my heart i know it, i don’t really like them, i don’t find them interesting, i don’t trust them, don’t consider them my friend/lover.

they just exist as a distraction.

i strongly agree!! but have you ever wondered why all the good qualities that people have are considered “feminine”? for example, tenderness, loyalty, vulnerability, patience, thoughtfulness, adaptability and so on

i hear everywhere that men are becoming more “feminine” and don’t understand why is it a bad thing?

shouldn’t all decent human beings have all this?? not only women..

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sorry for not posting i’m in academic pit rn

my toxic trait is that i think
i deserve my own cute little apartment in the center of london, going to fancy restaurants in the evening and some peace of mind

sometimes i think that some sort of philosophy will help me understand or change my life, but at the end of the day it gives me severe headaches