ini beneran aku ya? wkwk bahkan aku ngerasa ini bukan diriku sendiri, dan kaya aku emang ga seharusnya "berlebihan" dalam mencintai seseorang. Dan akhirnya kejadian lah NT

nilai PAS anjlok banget ya Allah, perasaan kemarin pas ngerjain kaya gampang banget dan PD sangat buat dapet nilai gede, eh malah kecil. Tapi untung nya gada yang remed, kecuali matematika sih hehe. Seriusan, di pelajaran accounting aja belum belajar tentang persen persen, lah kok di mtk udah ada duluan. Apa ga pusing kaya gitu? Di tambah lagi materi itu belum di ajarin 😭 paket komplit deh pusing nya!

tapi Allhamdulilah nya, pelajaran jurusan gede. Untung aja ga NT, kalo pelajaran jurusan sampe NT, duh habis tuh diri sendiri ak maki maki. Tapi jujur banget deh, materi yang ini tuh gampang banget. Padahal kan seharusnya ini tuh ribet kan ya, eh ternyata engga dong. Malah yang PTS kemarin bikin naik tensi ak. Soal nya pertanyaan nya itu ribet banget padahal jawaban nya mah sama aja weh 😮‍💨 maaf malah curhat hehe soalnya puesieng bangettt cuyyh

kata orang orang, cinta itu ga harus memiliki. Tapi masa iya setiap aku cinta cowok gabisa aku milikin?

Chapter I, admiring someone who loves another woman.

This isn't the first time I like a man, but... he is the most different from all the men I've ever admired. He has his own characteristics. He was so handsome, his sweet words made me reluctant to leave his side. He is the first man who can make me fall in love this deep. handsome and tall, isn't that the ideal type of man that many women like? he is really really good, I really like him. not only like him, but I fell in love with him. I can't stay away from him, but.. fate said otherwise. He can't forget his past, really.. the woman in his past is really great, can make him unable to forget her.

so should I give in to your past? or should i keep fighting and help you to forget it? but will i be strong? when in the process of helping you later, I even continue to feel sick. I can't be sincere if you are with another girl, but I have no rights at all. I can't last too long for you, always waiting for you to give me hope, I can't. I always hope that tomorrow you will return my feelings, but in fact not. Even my messages you never reply, how do I feel? really, I feel so much pain. but this pain I made, this pain I did myself. because I always hope that you give me certainty and can be with me, but the will of the universe is different from what I want. you just go and run away.

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Hi

Jadi, gue nyerah aja nih?