I think it's beautiful how every action we take is an act hope. Taking a shower: hope that I'll feel clean and refreshed as I start the day. Washing berries for lunch, hope that they will taste good and that they will give my body nutrients it needs. Studying for my classes hope that I'll learn something valuable, do well on my tests, and achieve my goals. Going sleep hope that things will be better in the morning. The simple act of doing anything is proof that we have some hope for the future.

I'm a the academic overachiever, being the topper is too easy for me. I always am teachers favourite and the academic validation I get is intense. I am so intelligent, even if I don't study I still get full 100% marks/straight A’s. Having straight A's all the time is constant. Every subject of my syllabus is literally as easy as abcd. I always know what type of questions will be asked in the exam. I always finish my paper on time, with correct answers, A+ presentation and pretty handwriting. All examiners are literally amazed at my test taking skills. No matter what I write it's fixed that I always get 100.

<rant> a comforting place of refuge and rest in a noisy, chaotic world.

Music always puts me in a better mood.