peganganku cuman 20k ga boong

Yatuhan mana masih harus ngeprint laporan, baru ngeprint logbook doang,,

I think I will have to open an urgent commission, I can't afford asking my sister for money when it's still this early in the month .

haoehaoeahowshaoheoahwi god pls help

it would be wrong if I will be asking for you guy's help when I haven't even properly done my part (HFW and proper diving). So hold a sec, fellas. let me do it now

just know that if there's a random hotdog/banana reaction, it may probably be me, haha

holy fuck

something happened yesterday

something.... serious

I couldn't even finish forwarding your messages. but I have dived though. so rest assured

yh yesterday's disaster involved a lot of pleading and tears were shed. my internship was threatened to end because of my negligence and clumsiness. hadeh.

udah tanggal 10, lagi dikit banget tanggal 19 (the day that my internship ends). semoga gabakal ada kenapa kenapa lagi in the next 9 days I have left, soalnya ini kayak setara sp 2 gitu. one last mistake and my internship will be forced to stop, and I will not get a certificate nor grades. I'm so fucking scared shitless yesterday I could actually shit myself

bayangin 6 months of internship, 9 days left, and it went down and gone and all that time wasted just because of one mere mistake. anjing anjing.

I'm still shaken by it though. the shock, grief, regret, anger, sadness, despair, depressive state, and wanting-to-end-it-all, still lingers

I'm not sure if I could pull through the next week, atau, hari ini aja dah. I'm not even sure. I will be encouraging myself, but I'll still be scared shit

I think I may have, no, need, to walk on eggshells and lay low for the time being until my training ends.

wish me the best of luck, semoga trainingku at least jalan lancar dalam sisa 9 hari ini dan gaada masalah training selesai sepihak mengancam gw lagi.