sarah kane. 4.48 psychosis

sarah kane. 4.48 psychosis

sarah kane. 4.48 psychosis

sarah kane. 4.48 psychosis

sarah kane. 4.48 psychosis

julia kristeva. black sun: depression and melancolia

And why are you so firmly, so triumphantly convinced that only the normal and the positive — in short, only prosperity — is to the advantage of man? Is not reason mistaken about advantage? After all, perhaps man likes something besides prosperity? Perhaps he likes suffering just as much? Perhaps suffering is just as great an advantage to him as prosperity? Man is sometimes fearfully, passionately in love with suffering and that is a fact.

fyodor dostoevsky. notes from underground

Я не помню вещей, которым учился, вещей, которые читал, того, что я испытывал, не помню людей, событий; я чувствую, что у меня нет никакого опыта, что я ничему не научился, что я на самом деле знаю меньше, чем рядовой школьник, и в том, в чем я разбираюсь, мои знания поверхностны. Я могу постичь в одиночестве суть вещей, но мои мысли непоследовательны. Я даже не способен рассказать грамотно историю; фактически, я едва могу говорить.

франц кафка. дневник

I believe one writes because one has to create a world in which one can live.

anaïs nin. diary

Father! All my life has been one great longing for you.

anaïs nin. diary

If only I could be freed of this quest for the father. Father? Savior? God?

anaïs nin. diary

At the age of ten, the young Anaïs felt herself suddenly expelled from a domestic Garden of Eden.

suzette henke. shattered subjects: trauma and testimony in women's life-writing. anaïs nin's interior cities: incest, anxiety and father-daughter loss

After the first trauma, perhaps there is no other.

suzette henke. shattered subjects: trauma and testimony in women's life-writing. anaïs nin's interior cities: incest, anxiety and father-daughter loss

Поэт ловит будущее в ненасытное ухо, но ему не суждено войти в землю обетованную.

роман якобсон. о поколении, растратившем своих поэтов

But we soon see that Marnie has been subject to trauma, and that her repeated routine is a circuitous way of seducing, not men, but her mother — to love her, protect her, accept her, repair her blockages to manifesting maternal love.

lauren berlant. desire/love

Why are the transparency and simultaneity promised by love not automatically considered a mirage and a fraud, given the frequency with which this wish is disconfirmed by experience?

lauren berlant. desire/love

Love induces stuckness and freedom; love and its absences induce mental / emotional illness or amour fou; love is therapy for what ails you; love is the cause of what ails you.

lauren berlant. desire/love

Ганс: Подумал, что теперь всегда так будет. Все лошади, когда омнибус везут, будут падать.

зигмунд фрейд. анализ фобии пятилетнего мальчика

оксана тимофеева. мальчики, вы звери