the boy and his white roses.
he carries so much love within him that sometimes, i swear, when he walks, the air shifts as if... it's easier to just breathe, even after a long day at work and you start to wonder which one you should chase, happiness or the mundane? but he comes as on time as the train, reminding you that he is the happiness in the mundane. his merciful smile. his soothing voice. his act of love that somehow mends every part of your broken bones.

white roses symbolize innocence, and in a world where innocence is in short supply, he feels as if life still has so much to discover.

as if love is not something scary, coz he is love personified— and if love ever comes close in the shape of him you would definitely love: over and over again, in this lifetime, and in the next one, and in the next one after that.

there's only one star in the sky tonight and i'll use them to grant you a wish; but this time i hope you'd be selfish. this time, i hope you'll think of yourself, to fill yourself with so much love once again it will overflow anywhere— in the end, even in the midst of your selfish act, I'd still be the one drowning in endless love you had.

we both went through plenty of stories in last of 2024, right? starting with the humorous, frustrating, distressing, angry, and pleased. Khalail and Jeadore's love path unites all kinds of feelings and all hurdles. I'm extremely thankful to know we are still a match made in heaven, hopefully for the rest of our lives (aamiiin bangettt!!!). you taught me a lot while I was with you, but the most essential thing is to be patient; you are far more patient than I am, despite the fact that you seem really emotional hehehe, but you tend to be patience when confronted with me, who is fond of being outspoken. 🥺😞 I'm not sure what else I might tell you what the story will be, however you were patient and devoted to me till now, and I am wholeheartedly yours to own, Lail, a lovely man whom I cherished the most in this universe!

oh, right! don't forget about the playlist I made for you. https://open.spotify.com/playlist/15zOtwE7yth0NHE4kfMglK?si=4jzNxnHWSny8QNhpBxadrg&pi=a-yEN5brkeR0CF

eiTTTS! wait, km mo kemanaa woe! aku belum selesaaai hehehehe 😉

this is the last thing i want to give

your love has transformed me into a person I never thought I could be, filling my life with a joy and fulfillment that I had only dreamed of.

— it's nice coz I thought of you, and it's enough to get me through. thank you for teaching me how to love loudly, fiercely, fervently; and even with all the unwanted fallouts you're there to ease my pain and doubts. thank you for being born in this month of love—as if you knew you'd be a still water in the midst of this drought. thank you, for being both my Khai and Lail for balancing those two worlds without reducing them to only your own.

for including us in every celebrations, for always saying that we're the reason.

happy birthday,
my husband, Khalail G. ♡

YAY! MAMAS'S BIRTHDAY