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Sometimes, just sometimes, I'd like to be a priority to someone. To be in someone's life as a placeholder for someone better is...sad. To realize you're not even on their list of priorities, let alone be the first person they would want to take care of. I mean, I do love myself. I know how to take care of myself. But is this how life is supposed to be for us? To either do it all alone or make peace with being just a 'part' of something for a while.
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Sometimes, just sometimes, I'd like to be a priority to someone. To be in someone's life as a placeholder for someone better is...sad. To realize you're not even on their list of priorities, let alone be the first person they would want to take care of. I mean, I do love myself. I know how to take care of myself. But is this how life is supposed to be for us? To either do it all alone or make peace with being just a 'part' of something for a while.
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End of August. May September is full of good things. Alhamdulillah, August is a good month, unlike last year. I am very thankful that this year I managed the month without getting ST.
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I like to be happy
but I think about sad things all the time,
I crave attention and asked for it but
I always hurt someone in the process.
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but I think about sad things all the time,
I crave attention and asked for it but
I always hurt someone in the process.
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Sometimes, I wanna cry so bad without a valid reason but still I hold back my tears.
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Sometimes, I wanna cry so bad without a valid reason but still I hold back my tears.
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There are so many unspoken questions, which I don't know why. So much curiosity in my mind that is still undiscovered but I don't know how I can get this answer.
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There are so many unspoken questions, which I don't know why. So much curiosity in my mind that is still undiscovered but I don't know how I can get this answer.
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There was a man I once liked,
He's good and gentle,
But sometimes he treats me harshly,
He make me confused,
He say he had feeling toward me,
But still his treating me harshly ,
So I am done and left.
Then, a man came to me,
I tried to open my heart to him,
He's nice and very gentle,
He treats me well,
He gives a sign that he likes me,
But,
I'm still wrong,
He is close to me because he wants to know someone else.
Is this a curse for me?
Do I not deserve good love,
Do I easily fall in love,
All is not going well.
Everything hurts.
Should I be heartless?
Am I dumb enough.
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There was a man I once liked,
He's good and gentle,
But sometimes he treats me harshly,
He make me confused,
He say he had feeling toward me,
But still his treating me harshly ,
So I am done and left.
Then, a man came to me,
I tried to open my heart to him,
He's nice and very gentle,
He treats me well,
He gives a sign that he likes me,
But,
I'm still wrong,
He is close to me because he wants to know someone else.
Is this a curse for me?
Do I not deserve good love,
Do I easily fall in love,
All is not going well.
Everything hurts.
Should I be heartless?
Am I dumb enough.
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What makes you love them so much?
I answered that I believe that Allah places feelings in someone's heart not without reason. If in the end my heart has to be broken, that's okay. This feeling that Allah planted in my heart is only so that I can drink the pleasure of being sincere at the highest peak of love. I believe the feeling that is planted in my heart for someone is a real form of Allah showing how good it is to take care of someone. I don't want to be a hypocrite on how much I suffer when I can't win the fate that I hope for. The chaos in my head almost made me fall apart, until in the end I chose to be sincere about this feeling. But for whatever reason, Allah gave me another chance to care for those feelings, I still love them. I'm still thinking about it, but I don't know what fate will look like after that? For now, my heart still chooses it, I have not been able to erase it because Allah is packing a destiny of justice, a feeling that has almost made me hate my own destiny. I still love them, because I believe that even if they are not destined for me, that feeling will disappear by itself.
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What makes you love them so much?
I answered that I believe that Allah places feelings in someone's heart not without reason. If in the end my heart has to be broken, that's okay. This feeling that Allah planted in my heart is only so that I can drink the pleasure of being sincere at the highest peak of love. I believe the feeling that is planted in my heart for someone is a real form of Allah showing how good it is to take care of someone. I don't want to be a hypocrite on how much I suffer when I can't win the fate that I hope for. The chaos in my head almost made me fall apart, until in the end I chose to be sincere about this feeling. But for whatever reason, Allah gave me another chance to care for those feelings, I still love them. I'm still thinking about it, but I don't know what fate will look like after that? For now, my heart still chooses it, I have not been able to erase it because Allah is packing a destiny of justice, a feeling that has almost made me hate my own destiny. I still love them, because I believe that even if they are not destined for me, that feeling will disappear by itself.
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There is no perfect partner in this world, everyone has flaws, defects, and a bad past. If you keep selecting which one is right for you, remember, you will not get anything, you will even lose someone who sincerely loves you.
If you have met them, take good care of them, choosing you is not easy for them, they has a lot to let go of, they has to reject many more promising offers besides you, because of what, because they trusts you, trusts your process. Fight for them, prove to them that choosing you is not a regret, but a path to happiness.
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There is no perfect partner in this world, everyone has flaws, defects, and a bad past. If you keep selecting which one is right for you, remember, you will not get anything, you will even lose someone who sincerely loves you.
If you have met them, take good care of them, choosing you is not easy for them, they has a lot to let go of, they has to reject many more promising offers besides you, because of what, because they trusts you, trusts your process. Fight for them, prove to them that choosing you is not a regret, but a path to happiness.
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The truth is, there are moments when everything feels dark, but it shows us where the true light is at. And sometimes being in the light, makes us lose our way faster than when we are in the dark. Darkness can lead you to the light, and light can blind you, darker than being in the dark.
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The truth is, there are moments when everything feels dark, but it shows us where the true light is at. And sometimes being in the light, makes us lose our way faster than when we are in the dark. Darkness can lead you to the light, and light can blind you, darker than being in the dark.
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belajarlah menjadi seorang yang lebih tenang. jangan disebabkan emosi, kamu kehilangan banyak perkara yang berharga.
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satu hari nanti kau akan tau bila kita makin dewasa ni, privacy means a lot and dah start rasa taknak bagitau dan taknak orang tau what happen in your life.
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jangan terlalu rushing, take it easy. Allah tahu apa yang terbaik untuk kita dan Dia akan bagi bila tiba masanya. kuncinya adalah sabar.
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Dreaming that we get a new job is a best thing. Hopefully one day that dream will come true.
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Dreaming that we get a new job is a best thing. Hopefully one day that dream will come true.
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I always took care of myself. I dried my own tears. I was the hand that lifted me from the floor. I joined the pieces and placed them together. The one who pretended to believe in myself when no one did. I was always alone and the only person I could count on. I never trusted anyone. I have never had someone, and sometimes I wonder what it feels like to call someone mine and trust this person so I can be vulnerable in front of them, to be myself. The so-called other half. How does it feel to be loved? How does it feel to share the weight of your life with someone? How does it feel to be cared for by someone else besides myself? What is this feeling like?
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I always took care of myself. I dried my own tears. I was the hand that lifted me from the floor. I joined the pieces and placed them together. The one who pretended to believe in myself when no one did. I was always alone and the only person I could count on. I never trusted anyone. I have never had someone, and sometimes I wonder what it feels like to call someone mine and trust this person so I can be vulnerable in front of them, to be myself. The so-called other half. How does it feel to be loved? How does it feel to share the weight of your life with someone? How does it feel to be cared for by someone else besides myself? What is this feeling like?
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Mencuba untuk memujuk diri semuanya baik - baik sahaja. Tidak semua yang terjadi itu mimpi buruk dan juga tidak semuanya selalu indah. Memujuk diri kadang kita terlalu awal untuk menerima sesuatu perkara, kadang kita terlalu lambat untuk mengambil sesuatu yang sebenarnya baik untuk kita. Tidak mengapa untuk semua itu.
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Mencuba untuk memujuk diri semuanya baik - baik sahaja. Tidak semua yang terjadi itu mimpi buruk dan juga tidak semuanya selalu indah. Memujuk diri kadang kita terlalu awal untuk menerima sesuatu perkara, kadang kita terlalu lambat untuk mengambil sesuatu yang sebenarnya baik untuk kita. Tidak mengapa untuk semua itu.
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