The sad thing is .. I'm talking to all of your deleted accounts, but I don't have the courage to talk to you .. you let me down and now I know, if I were to talk to you you'll break my heart some more, maybe I expected that I meant more to you, and you put me in my place, I broke my own heart by expecting that you will hold on to the thought of me.. that you would care whether you lose me or not..
But you didn't.
Our small, few conversations haven't stopped, I still wish you good morning and safe work trips, I still check in when I'm out, and I'm more open with my feelings .. and it's the same responses I get from you.. the silence it's similar to what it was like..
I know damn sure you stopped caring for me, cause if you did, you'd know I'll be here writing to you without bothering you with my presence..
But you haven't come here yet, and I fear you'll never come around.
#chaos
But you didn't.
Our small, few conversations haven't stopped, I still wish you good morning and safe work trips, I still check in when I'm out, and I'm more open with my feelings .. and it's the same responses I get from you.. the silence it's similar to what it was like..
I know damn sure you stopped caring for me, cause if you did, you'd know I'll be here writing to you without bothering you with my presence..
But you haven't come here yet, and I fear you'll never come around.
#chaos
Coming back without a sorry and a changed behavior.. without answers!!!
You can't be this clueless 💔
#chaos
You can't be this clueless 💔
#chaos
لوهلة قلت انو ما بصدق ما اشتقتلي .. بس للصراحة هالفرضية ممكنة وبشدة .. احتمالية انك ما تكون اشتقتلي قوية .. وبكل وضوح you moved on to the next, والصراحة .. good for you,
Is it so wrong of me to pray she breaks your heart?
Is it so wrong of me to pray she tears you apart?
#chaos
Is it so wrong of me to pray she breaks your heart?
Is it so wrong of me to pray she tears you apart?
#chaos
I hate that I'm always unconsciously in anticipation of you.
And that I keep looking for you but you're no where to be found, I burned everything of yours, and I thought you'd vanished, but somehow, whenever I'm alone, there you are teasing my lonesome with your cruel absence.
And I really hope I can say, that I hate you for that.
#chaos
And that I keep looking for you but you're no where to be found, I burned everything of yours, and I thought you'd vanished, but somehow, whenever I'm alone, there you are teasing my lonesome with your cruel absence.
And I really hope I can say, that I hate you for that.
#chaos
لساك بتوجعلي قلبي كل ما بشوفك اختفيت من مكان جديد .. كل ما بتمحي وجودي من حياتك.. عرفتك كتير شغلات .. بس ما عرفتك لئيم .. رح
"And if you go, I wanna go with you.. and if you die, I wanna die with you..❤️"
You're that much in love I see .. and you left here I see that too ..
You're bad ..
"And if you go, I wanna go with you.. and if you die, I wanna die with you..❤️"
You're that much in love I see .. and you left here I see that too ..
You're bad ..
I don't care how long it takes, as long as I am with you, I have got a smile on my face, save your tears it will be ok.. you're here with me ...
woke up in the mood to be alive and in love .. not with the someone who held me tight last week, but I do cherish the way he made me feel, it has been so long since I was tightly held. pulling close and fingers wandering and playing with my hair, way too intimate than I would go for, but still, I'll savor the tenderness of it and keep it for cold nights.
...
it will be alright for me
#chaos
woke up in the mood to be alive and in love .. not with the someone who held me tight last week, but I do cherish the way he made me feel, it has been so long since I was tightly held. pulling close and fingers wandering and playing with my hair, way too intimate than I would go for, but still, I'll savor the tenderness of it and keep it for cold nights.
...
it will be alright for me
#chaos
It was march 13th yesterday, Guess you don't remember what it was about, heh, it's okay, I forgot about it too..
261 days .. and you are out of my system.. more or less..
#chaos
261 days .. and you are out of my system.. more or less..
#chaos
You're really delusional aren't you..
Keep pretending i didn't exist.
Go ahead..
Or maybe just maybe now you've found the one who actually deserves going all in with her ..
I hope that is the case, I hope you are better with her than you were with me, I hope she never has to ask for reassurance, and I hope you won't get bored, nor take her for granted, that she never feels alone when she's with you.. I hope you are now better and more worthy of her, cause maybe ya baby you've matured...
#chaos
Keep pretending i didn't exist.
Go ahead..
Or maybe just maybe now you've found the one who actually deserves going all in with her ..
I hope that is the case, I hope you are better with her than you were with me, I hope she never has to ask for reassurance, and I hope you won't get bored, nor take her for granted, that she never feels alone when she's with you.. I hope you are now better and more worthy of her, cause maybe ya baby you've matured...
#chaos
Now that I know, ( tried so hard not to btw) I'm kinda relieved, but not as happy for you as I would be, bs baby.. it all makes sense now..
((- And if she goes .. go the fuck with her .. and if she dies .. well, you can both rot..
- so close no matter how far?! Baby you weren't that far after all ..
Hope you guys be reunited ❤️))
#chaos
((- And if she goes .. go the fuck with her .. and if she dies .. well, you can both rot..
- so close no matter how far?! Baby you weren't that far after all ..
Hope you guys be reunited ❤️))
#chaos
I know I know.. it's not that day yet .. but.. everyday is that day to me .. the detoxing I did was AMAZING..
You can be the greatest person now with her, maybe guys you were meant for each other.. and it's destiny for you.. you could be the greatest love story ever existed..
But you will always be a traitor.. a villain.. the toxin that stole 5 years of my life for laughs and giggles.. and I know A that one day you will meet your karma.. I don't wanna know anything about it.. but I just know.. cause you deserve it .. you deserve each other.. & me not planning to see the cutest couple pic, but forced to my face like that .. got me to actually FINALLY starting to hate you.. gradually to feel nothing..
Your whole existence in my life was a traumatizing incident.. & I'm getting over it already..
I'll celebrate everyday.. & be thankful it didn't last longer with a traitor, with some turned out exactly the way they said they didn't wanna be (like ur father), with an ahole like you..
I'm thankful you left.
#chaos
You can be the greatest person now with her, maybe guys you were meant for each other.. and it's destiny for you.. you could be the greatest love story ever existed..
But you will always be a traitor.. a villain.. the toxin that stole 5 years of my life for laughs and giggles.. and I know A that one day you will meet your karma.. I don't wanna know anything about it.. but I just know.. cause you deserve it .. you deserve each other.. & me not planning to see the cutest couple pic, but forced to my face like that .. got me to actually FINALLY starting to hate you.. gradually to feel nothing..
Your whole existence in my life was a traumatizing incident.. & I'm getting over it already..
I'll celebrate everyday.. & be thankful it didn't last longer with a traitor, with some turned out exactly the way they said they didn't wanna be (like ur father), with an ahole like you..
I'm thankful you left.
#chaos