alhamdulillah

is it cruel to be innocent?
is it cruel to be kind?
thousand of tears running like i killed someone by mistake,
but the truth is,
it is my heart that got stabbed with knife.

where's the peace that i once found in a person?
does it still exist?
my mind wanders while i bit my lips,
knowing im not losing anyone,
but im losing myself.

i wonder... the heaviness that i carried in my heart.
do other people felt it?
when i write this, click the keyboard with my shaking finger,
do they feel it bleed?

i wrote this just now... and i cried so hard.