Now i am in the depression again discourge i need some rest and motivation

On Twitter every baby girl who study in university that was paid by dad blame you for lack self confidence. They all want luxury car and rich boyfriend. They think they made from gold

Ijtimoiy tarmoqlarsiz 30 kun!

28-may kuni telefonimdagi barcha ijtimoiy tarmoq ilovalarini o'chirib tashladim. Bu qarorni men 5 soniyada qabul qildim.Yangi xafta, yangi oy, yoki yangi yil kelishi kutmadim. Kirdim, o'chirdim, va o'zimga keyingi 30 kun davomida kirmaslikni va'da berdim.

Qarorimga ta'sir qilgan omillar juda ko'p. Eng asosiylaridan bu o'zimni bilmagan holda boshqalarni virtual dunyodagi "baxtli" hayotiga solishtirib qo'yish bo'ldi.

Buni qanday sezdim?

Oddiy. O’z hayotimdan qoniqmaslikni va “yana-yana” deb boriga shukur qilmaslikni boshladim.

Ho’sh, oradan 1 oydan ko’p vaqt o’tdi, nima o’zgardi?

Ko’p narsa…

- 3 ta kitob o’qib tugatdim
- qizim bilan ko’proq vaqt o’tkazishni boshladim
- o'zim bilan o'zim 4 yoki 5 marotaba suhbat qurdim
- Yozishni telegram bahona o'rganyabman (yoqayapti degan umiddaman)
- hayotimga sokinlik kirib keldi chunki "kim qanday moshina olgani", "qayerda sayohat qilgani", yoki "qancha pul topayotgani" haqida hech qanday ma'lumot olmay qo'ydim
- yana bir bor (chunki oldin ham uzoq muddatga chiqib ketganman) ijtimoiy tarmoqlarsiz hayotim binoyidek davom etishini tushundim

Har bir erkin davlatni chegarasi bo'lganidek, har bir erkin shaxsni ham o'ziga qo'ygan ma'lum chegaralari bo'lishi kerak. Ya'ni sizni tanangiz va miyyangizni erkinlikka chegaralash orqali erishasiz.

O'zingizni asrang!

@shahadolimov

men ham instagram ishlatmayman, youtube recomendatsiya chiqmaydi, faqat, telegram ishlataman unda ham faqat kerakli kanallarni kuzataman, xayot ancha yaxshiroq

Bugun ilon bilan shunaqa kayfiyatdamiz

On 8 June hr called me and invite to interview. After that i went interview and he organized interview with director of hr department. An hour ago i had it. But i am not happy as what i did in tech interview.

Today i may missed best opportunity in my life

i have been waiting call since morning. I still have't got any. I am feeling failrule. The most painful setiment is reject after had 3 interview,prepered a week. Waited response 11 days, living with dream amount of time and finily reject. It pushed me to depression and desporation, i wanna cry

fuck it i will text him on 12 am if he don't call me

Erkak kishini yaxshi ko’rishingiz kerak emas. U bu dunyoga yaxshi ko’rilish uchun kelmagan.

Uni vazifasi bor.

Oilasi va jamiyat oldidagi majburiyatlarini ma’suliyat bilan bajarishi.

U bu majburiyatlarini bajarish uchun tashqarida huddi o’ziga o’xshagan yoki undanda kuchli erkaklar bilan raqobatda bo’ladi.

Doimiy raqobat uni charchatadi.

Charchagan paytda unga shovqin emas tinchlik kerak.

Mana nima uchun erkak kishi shovqinni emas tinchlikni yaxshi ko’radi.

U tinchlik bor joyga doim intiladi chunki tinchlikda qayta kuchlanib olib yana “hayot jangida” davom eta oladi.

#xulosalar

@shahadolimov

Good news i am rejected

yesterday i got another reject.

I have been trying to get the girl number

I am approched her 3 time every time my voice started shaking

I have virtual girlfriend. She loves me but i am just having some feelings this is not true love

But the girl is so much impressed me

All were fail