Yes finish this later

Here is doodle before I go to sleep

Who tf is he

My body full of self harm scares and I try so hard to not do it again cuz I’m addiction to it. I don’t want to break a promise and also I try to solve my problems by venting to my boyfriend cuz I don’t have anyone else (I think like that cuz I’m sure nobody would like to hear me saying I want to harm myself cuz I hate myself every time I have a mental breakdown)

I know, I shouldn’t say anything about my mental illness in here but I don’t have any place to vent rn cuz my bf has a bad mood rn.

God damn every time I see these posts or hearing myself it’s just like I’m fucking loser with nobody no friends, who hate everything about myself, I will never be good enough and I really want to kill my self rn

If I hadn't died from diabetes or kidney disease, I'm almost 100% certain that I would have killed myself

I'm so pathetically and such a selfish

Never be good enough daughter
Never be good enough friend
Never be good enough sister
Never be good enough student
Never be good enough girlfriend
Never be good enough

I can't be the dead friend
I can't be the dead daughter
I can't be the dead cousin
I can't be the dead student
I can't be the dead lover
I can't be the dead classmate
But I'm so tired..

I think I just need sometime to think about my life

It’s time for me to go for this place now

Just want to say thank you for anything you guys done or give to me

Idk what to say exactly

I realize that I have made many bad mistakes and bad things, memories here, but as the days go by, I honestly don't know why I am still here. Of course, I have friends here who I love and care about, but I am sure that they can live without me. After all, they have their own lives, and I have mine

Over the years, it has made me happy to see them make new friends and grow, but I know deep down that I will never be their best friend, be it language, country, taste, dreams, or anything else. I am glad to be a small part of their lives

I know how much I cling to the past. I know it sucks to leave everything and everyone here, but I want to start over completely. It's not that they're bad friends, I just think it's time for me to leave. And to be honest, it's hard to leave, but I promised myself that I would start over without letting the past bother me. But this doesn't mean we're no longer friends. I'm just leaving this place

For someone you can follow me on other social media if you like, but I suggest you don't. I hope you guys understand. I have always loved and cared for you guys. Thank you for everything you have done and given me.

Good luck to you. I love you guys