Dear God,
Please help me, I don't
know what to do anymore. I want to end this pain yet I can't. I don't even know what I'm feeling anymore. Sometimes I feel too much, something nothing at all. I want to die, but not really. I want to live, not just breath. I want to feel something, to do something..
I feel like I failed you one too many times already.. But will you give up on me, one of your children that easily?
Please don't. Even though I know that I sin quite a lot, don't believe in you as strongly as I should and that I don't preach about you and your teaching as much as I was taught. I need you, I need you quite a lot. Because if you can't help me, no one else would. This is.. This is my cry for help. Please don't leave me yet, please save me from all my sins. Please don't let me keep drowning in the same place that I can't seem to escape. Please don't let the people I love die. Please don't steal any more loved ones I have. And I know that I don't pray as I should, but please I'm begging while on my knees and clasping my hands, to not let my sister die on me. Please don't let me all alone. Dear god, please save me of this misery I'm begging you. Please show me your mercy, and love for you are far too kind. Dear God, I know you are hearing me so please. 👏🏽
@asinnersdiary🥀
Please help me, I don't
know what to do anymore. I want to end this pain yet I can't. I don't even know what I'm feeling anymore. Sometimes I feel too much, something nothing at all. I want to die, but not really. I want to live, not just breath. I want to feel something, to do something..
I feel like I failed you one too many times already.. But will you give up on me, one of your children that easily?
Please don't. Even though I know that I sin quite a lot, don't believe in you as strongly as I should and that I don't preach about you and your teaching as much as I was taught. I need you, I need you quite a lot. Because if you can't help me, no one else would. This is.. This is my cry for help. Please don't leave me yet, please save me from all my sins. Please don't let me keep drowning in the same place that I can't seem to escape. Please don't let the people I love die. Please don't steal any more loved ones I have. And I know that I don't pray as I should, but please I'm begging while on my knees and clasping my hands, to not let my sister die on me. Please don't let me all alone. Dear god, please save me of this misery I'm begging you. Please show me your mercy, and love for you are far too kind. Dear God, I know you are hearing me so please. 👏🏽
@asinnersdiary🥀
•❆•
Me: Well here's another day,
I guess I'll be fine—’
Life: Game On!
Me: ....
Also Me:🖕🏼🙃🔫.
•❆•
@asinnersdiary🥀
Me: Well here's another day,
I guess I'll be fine—’
Life: Game On!
Me: ....
Also Me:🖕🏼🙃🔫.
•❆•
@asinnersdiary🥀
“Did you hear?”
“...Yeah.., the rumors say
that they're insane.”
“You are probably right,
you know!”
“And how would you
know?”
“Because darling, ..
I am THEY.”
•❆•
@asinnersdiary🥀
“...Yeah.., the rumors say
that they're insane.”
“You are probably right,
you know!”
“And how would you
know?”
“Because darling, ..
I am THEY.”
•❆•
@asinnersdiary🥀
With you
left behind
Regret bitter
on my tongue
Guilt weighting
me down
No words I
seem to find
To get
you back!
But I guess..
that's fine
Since you
deserve better
Than I'll
ever acquire
Or dream
to become.
@asinnersdiary🥀
left behind
Regret bitter
on my tongue
Guilt weighting
me down
No words I
seem to find
To get
you back!
But I guess..
that's fine
Since you
deserve better
Than I'll
ever acquire
Or dream
to become.
@asinnersdiary🥀
“Most of times I get lost in the
fantasies that my mind
conjures, but whenever I tried
to write them down they
came out as unsatisfing or
incomplete sentences. Like
they were never meant to
be written down, but be
felt deep within as
words won't describe how
wonderful they truly are. But
you'll be surprised since that's
how most things in our life turn
out to be, unfinished poems of
our feelings lost in the
seeminglees abyss of our
consistent battles. Some over
but most are still not yet com
—.”
@asinnersdiary🥀
fantasies that my mind
conjures, but whenever I tried
to write them down they
came out as unsatisfing or
incomplete sentences. Like
they were never meant to
be written down, but be
felt deep within as
words won't describe how
wonderful they truly are. But
you'll be surprised since that's
how most things in our life turn
out to be, unfinished poems of
our feelings lost in the
seeminglees abyss of our
consistent battles. Some over
but most are still not yet com
—.”
@asinnersdiary🥀
•[💮🎃🦋🕸🐚🕷]•
Happy cursed belated birthday
to me, may I finally die happy. :)
•[💮⚰🌸🌲💐✨]•
–S🥀–
Happy cursed belated birthday
to me, may I finally die happy. :)
•[💮⚰🌸🌲💐✨]•
–S🥀–
Fuck my life
Kill me now!
Rip my heart
And burn it down
Crush my bones
Scar my skin
For I scarred
Far worst fears.
@asinnersdiary🥀
Kill me now!
Rip my heart
And burn it down
Crush my bones
Scar my skin
For I scarred
Far worst fears.
@asinnersdiary🥀
[YOU MAY ONLY FORWARD THIS OR REPOST IT KINDLY THROUGH GIVING CREDIT TO THE WRITER AKA (ME) IF THIS POST APPLIES TO YOU TOO, ALRIGHT, THANKS.]
Credit to:↓↓↓
@A . S I N N E R S . D I A R Y
Alright, now I am official done. Like.. What's up with people?!?! I mean are you fucking serious right now? Wow, I literally don't understand the fucking audacity some people seem to have, the goddamned nerve!
Now now you might be wondering.. What the f*** happened to you? Well I'll tell you, my work was stolen, AGAIN. For the love of the lord, why? Why do you people (the one's who steal someone's work) do it.. Like you think you won't be found or something!? Maybe, either way I don't give a rats ass about your sorry excuse of a reason.
But, what I do care about is when, the thing that I have though about long before it transfered into something visual after undergoing so many editing & revising of myself, being fucking copy pasted & printed by someone else LIKE IT'S FUCKING THEIRS! Now this shit ain't fucking cool, bro.
Now, I know that this is a crises that a lot of writer's are facing everywhere worldwide on different sites, apps, publications and so on.. with Telegram not being an expectation of course. But that does not make it okay to do it however! Admittedly, telegram is a vast communication app with people from across the globe using it, yes, and their are a lot of channels on it with variety of content on it. And most of them (post famous quotes, poems, memes, songs, etc.) But their are some who post their own original, raw thoughts. And some prefer to mix both.
Now I would consider myself of the second category for the most part since, I write mostly my own thoughts, although sometimes I share other people's works when they fascinate me enough. The only times that I don't tag them is when and only when I don't know the original owner or if their identity is anonymous.
If a person admires someone's work, whatever kind of work it might be [eg: a painting(s), a poem(s), a novel(s)/novella(s), a book(s), movie(s), series('s), craft(s), and so on] then it is acceptable to share their work as long as you are giving them credit &/or as long as the person gives permission to it of course. With the exeptation of when you don't kown them or if the owner prefers to be unknown.
What isn't acceptable/cool however, is, when someone see's some person's work and decides;
‘Oh! This looks good maybe I'll copy it/repost it/steal it and write my name/name tag/signature on it to make it seem like its my work, to take credit from it.’ When it's obviously not theirs.
Yeah I get that you can do whatever you want but you still can be considerate enoughs not to steal someone else's hard work like its nothing. Hell, you don't even know how sentimental, meaningful or important it might of have been to them. This is one of the reasons that I lost motivation in writing myself. I mean why should I work hard to write something I deem important only to get it stolen, repeatedly, again?
The thing is, this shit happens all the time not only to me but hundreds & thousands of people. And the thing I saw on telegram more of then than not is that the people who get their posts stolen are almost always the channels that have below 1k followers. Y'all who do this.. Go And Kindly Fuck Yourself's!
Stop Fucking Stealing What Have Never And Would Never Be YOURS. THANKS.
–Writer's Crises part 1
by,
@asinnersdiary🥀`
Credit to:↓↓↓
@A . S I N N E R S . D I A R Y
Alright, now I am official done. Like.. What's up with people?!?! I mean are you fucking serious right now? Wow, I literally don't understand the fucking audacity some people seem to have, the goddamned nerve!
Now now you might be wondering.. What the f*** happened to you? Well I'll tell you, my work was stolen, AGAIN. For the love of the lord, why? Why do you people (the one's who steal someone's work) do it.. Like you think you won't be found or something!? Maybe, either way I don't give a rats ass about your sorry excuse of a reason.
But, what I do care about is when, the thing that I have though about long before it transfered into something visual after undergoing so many editing & revising of myself, being fucking copy pasted & printed by someone else LIKE IT'S FUCKING THEIRS! Now this shit ain't fucking cool, bro.
Now, I know that this is a crises that a lot of writer's are facing everywhere worldwide on different sites, apps, publications and so on.. with Telegram not being an expectation of course. But that does not make it okay to do it however! Admittedly, telegram is a vast communication app with people from across the globe using it, yes, and their are a lot of channels on it with variety of content on it. And most of them (post famous quotes, poems, memes, songs, etc.) But their are some who post their own original, raw thoughts. And some prefer to mix both.
Now I would consider myself of the second category for the most part since, I write mostly my own thoughts, although sometimes I share other people's works when they fascinate me enough. The only times that I don't tag them is when and only when I don't know the original owner or if their identity is anonymous.
If a person admires someone's work, whatever kind of work it might be [eg: a painting(s), a poem(s), a novel(s)/novella(s), a book(s), movie(s), series('s), craft(s), and so on] then it is acceptable to share their work as long as you are giving them credit &/or as long as the person gives permission to it of course. With the exeptation of when you don't kown them or if the owner prefers to be unknown.
What isn't acceptable/cool however, is, when someone see's some person's work and decides;
‘Oh! This looks good maybe I'll copy it/repost it/steal it and write my name/name tag/signature on it to make it seem like its my work, to take credit from it.’ When it's obviously not theirs.
Yeah I get that you can do whatever you want but you still can be considerate enoughs not to steal someone else's hard work like its nothing. Hell, you don't even know how sentimental, meaningful or important it might of have been to them. This is one of the reasons that I lost motivation in writing myself. I mean why should I work hard to write something I deem important only to get it stolen, repeatedly, again?
The thing is, this shit happens all the time not only to me but hundreds & thousands of people. And the thing I saw on telegram more of then than not is that the people who get their posts stolen are almost always the channels that have below 1k followers. Y'all who do this.. Go And Kindly Fuck Yourself's!
Stop Fucking Stealing What Have Never And Would Never Be YOURS. THANKS.
–Writer's Crises part 1
by,
@asinnersdiary🥀`
Forwarded from Colorless perception (Anim)
Let your laughter mock the world.
Let the sound reverberate in their minds, haunt them 'till death.
Let them wonder why your sadness sounds like joy and the crunch from your broken pieces remind them of music.
@heartlesswoes
Let the sound reverberate in their minds, haunt them 'till death.
Let them wonder why your sadness sounds like joy and the crunch from your broken pieces remind them of music.
@heartlesswoes
Why is life so shitty tho, like why does it make us feel like an absolute disaster?
I feel like I am slowly but surely going straight to hell ;) lol
I remember once when I though I was normal it was the funniest thing when I think back 'bout it now, lill' old days they were.
I wonder if someone is listening to us now like r u there when we do creepy shit or I now chillin' on our backyards after burying someone? Hmm,
I wonder.
I wonder.
[_Sucide constantly on my mind_]
I am drifting, I am edgying
towards my doom,
I can't wait till I cross the
brigde of death,
As I am tired of waiting for
my misery to end,
Tired of holding on to a
crushed, broken ship,
Tired of losing my sanity, my
ultimate demise,
My clarity nowhere to be found
in this sea of deceit,
Tired of losing people who
were never meant to be in my
life,
Tired of being mistreated,
misjudged, violated,
Tired of wiping others tears
while mine runs like an ocean,
Tired of upholding other
peoples expections over my
health,
Tired of feeling worthless,
without a penny to spare,
Tired of always depending on
the people that never cared,
Tired of all the fake affection,
pretty lies, & mocking smiles,
Tired of living in a world more
concerned with net worth
over a genuine self,
Tired of the society that we
live in,
The place that traps all of me
the good bad or worse yet,
Tired of feeling like a trapped
animal without freedom,
Tired of hating on the things
that used to make me smile,
Things that used to make my
day full of laughter, delight
I wish I could turn back the
time to a place I used to love,
To a place I used to cherish..
I wish I didn't became like this!
I wish it all turned different but
I guess it couldn't be helped,
Because in the end it; was
always meant to be.
#someofmysucidalthoughs🙃
@asinnersdairy🥀
I am drifting, I am edgying
towards my doom,
I can't wait till I cross the
brigde of death,
As I am tired of waiting for
my misery to end,
Tired of holding on to a
crushed, broken ship,
Tired of losing my sanity, my
ultimate demise,
My clarity nowhere to be found
in this sea of deceit,
Tired of losing people who
were never meant to be in my
life,
Tired of being mistreated,
misjudged, violated,
Tired of wiping others tears
while mine runs like an ocean,
Tired of upholding other
peoples expections over my
health,
Tired of feeling worthless,
without a penny to spare,
Tired of always depending on
the people that never cared,
Tired of all the fake affection,
pretty lies, & mocking smiles,
Tired of living in a world more
concerned with net worth
over a genuine self,
Tired of the society that we
live in,
The place that traps all of me
the good bad or worse yet,
Tired of feeling like a trapped
animal without freedom,
Tired of hating on the things
that used to make me smile,
Things that used to make my
day full of laughter, delight
I wish I could turn back the
time to a place I used to love,
To a place I used to cherish..
I wish I didn't became like this!
I wish it all turned different but
I guess it couldn't be helped,
Because in the end it; was
always meant to be.
#someofmysucidalthoughs🙃
@asinnersdairy🥀
《Will it ever get better?》
A question so beyond everything I could ever come to comprehend or truely grasp,
A question that I longingly wish to know the answer for but unfortunetly had yet to succeed,
A question that almost drove me mad countless of trillions billions millions of times,
A question that always rendered me speechless whenever someone would foolishly ask,
A question that appealed to me to be so goddamned confusing, irritating and beyond sad,
A question that I had yet to mature enough to understand the depths of, the complexity behind,
A question almost all human beings at all generations had atleast once came to ask,
A question that I had yet to know the answer off regardless of how desperate I was,
A question, that I sincerely and from the bottom of my heart, aspire to know the answer of,
someday if at all.
@asinneradairy🥀
A question so beyond everything I could ever come to comprehend or truely grasp,
A question that I longingly wish to know the answer for but unfortunetly had yet to succeed,
A question that almost drove me mad countless of trillions billions millions of times,
A question that always rendered me speechless whenever someone would foolishly ask,
A question that appealed to me to be so goddamned confusing, irritating and beyond sad,
A question that I had yet to mature enough to understand the depths of, the complexity behind,
A question almost all human beings at all generations had atleast once came to ask,
A question that I had yet to know the answer off regardless of how desperate I was,
A question, that I sincerely and from the bottom of my heart, aspire to know the answer of,
someday if at all.
@asinneradairy🥀