How do I know if I'm asexual or it's just trauma

So I'm a 18 f and I'm currently questioning if I'm asexual because I really have no sexual desires with anyone especially men or the girl that I like but I can masturbate perfectly fine. The issue is that when I was a child my grandma's husband used to touch me and made me touch him and back in 2020 I had a bf and he pushed me to have sex with him and I accepted obviously I didn't like it and when he asked I always said no but he kept on insisting so I always said yes, I really didn't like the guy and one time he took the condom off during sex and I got mad and broke up with him, due to that I'm confused if I am just fucking traumatized or I'm just asexual pls help

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Im generally very private about this sort of thing but its not often i get an opertunity to wear my "ace" tie
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spACE (I digitally drew a space scene with the ace flag colors)
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Here's a subtle wearable to show you're a part of the LGBTQ+ community: Keychains! Ace, Bi, Demisexual, Nonbinary, Pansexual, and Transgender!
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The artist who does "Introvert Doodles" is our patron saint...
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2me2irl
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Thing

So I read smut fanfics and have sexual dreams for no fucking reason.... Is that normal for an Asexual? When I have wet dreams I feel nothing, when read smut I don't care and read it.... Is it normal????

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Saw someone post this, thought I'd join in!
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I believe this calls for a moment of silence
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Title
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Asexualitea
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I got a asexual pin and I love it
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I made this for my friend when she came out, and I figured I would share!
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I know the truth..
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I love my garlic bread and cake, and watching people at parties make horrible decisions
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In honor of this years pride month I drew something in the ace colours. Hope you like it :)
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you can be ace and
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In honor of pride month I finally got aro and ace rings!
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serious, is it okay to dress slutty yet not actually want sex?

I'm still figuring myself out. In past relationships I pretty much had sex to please the partner not necessarily because I wanted to. I sometimes had the FOMO thing happening, but after sex I was like wait.. that wasn't all that. My partners always had a good time tho.

I'm 100% sapphic but I don't have a huge burning desire to like hook up. Maybe sometimes I want the sensations, but that's more a tactile thing for me.

I rarely masturbate maybe once every couple weeks. Sometimes I go a month or more.

But I like looking hot and cute

I'm so confused help

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pride doodle
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