I don't even know anymore
I've identified as ace for close to 10 years at this point, though not always by name. When I first became aware of the concept from a queer friend I had in 7th (maybe 8th) grade and applied it to myself, I was uninterested in having a romantic relationship, being like 12 or 13 at the time (the concept of sex never even crossed my mind). When I graduated and entered college, I wanted to be in a romantic relationship but I still wasn't interested in sex. As I went along, I could see myself having sex but not being attracted to people sexually and certaintly not with strangers. I tried Grindr once but I hated it so much. This also came around when I found out I was bi.
Around this time, I identified as biromantic demisexual. I got into my first relationship which died in flames and made me not want to date for two years. Since then, I feel as if I've fluctuated back and forth between sex-favorable, repulsed and indifferent. There are long stretches of times where I hate the idea of me having sex, some where I'm okay waiting and some where I am totally okay with it to the point where I'm like "Oh no, am I not ace"?
I also feel like I'm breaking out of my religious upbringing where the concept of sex wasn't even something we really talked about. I'm becoming more comfortable publicly identifying as queer. And I start to see me more in more in relationships with other queer people. And more and more I'm like "Ok, I want to engage in sexual acts with a partner..but is that sexual attraction or just another form of affection with a person I'm romantically attracted to? Like a really intense hickey? Or is it just my high libido talking (because oh yeah, I have that too) and I would literally have a panic attack if I tried to have sex with them? I also can't buy a sex toy to relieve that issue because I'm living with my conservative parents who don't even know about any of this"
Like maybe I'm allosexual because I'm becoming more comfortable with identifying as a queer person rather than a strictly straight cis person who never even grew up with proper sex education in a very sex-negative family. But just being allosexual dosen’t work for me either! I can't just look at someone and be like "Well, I want to give them head and/or to fuck me good". Are you kidding? I could never. Like I said: I HATE GRINDR! It terrifies me.
Right now, I'm identifying as bi gray ace (and also non-binary but that's gender and not sex so...) who is sex-favorable with a high libido and I think that's a fine enough middle ground...but who knows? I feel like I have this internal debate every week. Plus there's people out there who don't even think that aceness, let alone umbrella terms like demi or gray-ace are even real terms so it's not as if I can vent.
So I guess that's my vent here. Being queer is tiring sometimes.
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I've identified as ace for close to 10 years at this point, though not always by name. When I first became aware of the concept from a queer friend I had in 7th (maybe 8th) grade and applied it to myself, I was uninterested in having a romantic relationship, being like 12 or 13 at the time (the concept of sex never even crossed my mind). When I graduated and entered college, I wanted to be in a romantic relationship but I still wasn't interested in sex. As I went along, I could see myself having sex but not being attracted to people sexually and certaintly not with strangers. I tried Grindr once but I hated it so much. This also came around when I found out I was bi.
Around this time, I identified as biromantic demisexual. I got into my first relationship which died in flames and made me not want to date for two years. Since then, I feel as if I've fluctuated back and forth between sex-favorable, repulsed and indifferent. There are long stretches of times where I hate the idea of me having sex, some where I'm okay waiting and some where I am totally okay with it to the point where I'm like "Oh no, am I not ace"?
I also feel like I'm breaking out of my religious upbringing where the concept of sex wasn't even something we really talked about. I'm becoming more comfortable publicly identifying as queer. And I start to see me more in more in relationships with other queer people. And more and more I'm like "Ok, I want to engage in sexual acts with a partner..but is that sexual attraction or just another form of affection with a person I'm romantically attracted to? Like a really intense hickey? Or is it just my high libido talking (because oh yeah, I have that too) and I would literally have a panic attack if I tried to have sex with them? I also can't buy a sex toy to relieve that issue because I'm living with my conservative parents who don't even know about any of this"
Like maybe I'm allosexual because I'm becoming more comfortable with identifying as a queer person rather than a strictly straight cis person who never even grew up with proper sex education in a very sex-negative family. But just being allosexual dosen’t work for me either! I can't just look at someone and be like "Well, I want to give them head and/or to fuck me good". Are you kidding? I could never. Like I said: I HATE GRINDR! It terrifies me.
Right now, I'm identifying as bi gray ace (and also non-binary but that's gender and not sex so...) who is sex-favorable with a high libido and I think that's a fine enough middle ground...but who knows? I feel like I have this internal debate every week. Plus there's people out there who don't even think that aceness, let alone umbrella terms like demi or gray-ace are even real terms so it's not as if I can vent.
So I guess that's my vent here. Being queer is tiring sometimes.
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Are You Aro (Advice)?
**Hi everyone!**
Welcome to our weekly Advice post about Aromanticism! Aromantic people experience little to no romantic attraction.
**Do any of these resonate with you?**
\* You rarely (if ever) experience crushes on others.
\* You find the idea of a romantic relationship unappealing, and prefer strong platonic bonds.
\* You've been in romantic relationships but felt like you were going through the motions.
\* You've researched what crushes are "supposed" to feel like, but can't relate.
These are just a few signs you might be Aromantic. Aromanticism is a spectrum, and every person's experience is unique.
\*\*Have questions about aromanticism or your own identity?\*\* Ask away in the comments below, and we'll and your fellow Aro’s will do the best to help!
* [**More signs that you are Aro**](https://aromanticguide.com/am-i-aro)
* [**Honeymoon Phase**](https://health.clevelandclinic.org/what-is-the-honeymoon-phase)
* [**Types of attraction (might be incomplete)**](https://types-of-attraction.carrd.co/)
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**Hi everyone!**
Welcome to our weekly Advice post about Aromanticism! Aromantic people experience little to no romantic attraction.
**Do any of these resonate with you?**
\* You rarely (if ever) experience crushes on others.
\* You find the idea of a romantic relationship unappealing, and prefer strong platonic bonds.
\* You've been in romantic relationships but felt like you were going through the motions.
\* You've researched what crushes are "supposed" to feel like, but can't relate.
These are just a few signs you might be Aromantic. Aromanticism is a spectrum, and every person's experience is unique.
\*\*Have questions about aromanticism or your own identity?\*\* Ask away in the comments below, and we'll and your fellow Aro’s will do the best to help!
* [**More signs that you are Aro**](https://aromanticguide.com/am-i-aro)
* [**Honeymoon Phase**](https://health.clevelandclinic.org/what-is-the-honeymoon-phase)
* [**Types of attraction (might be incomplete)**](https://types-of-attraction.carrd.co/)
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For sex-repulsed asexuals: What do you guys make of symbolism used to indirectly indicate sex scenes? (Specific example of what I’m talking about is in the description)
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“So if trans people are the ones being targeted don’t you think aroace people will be next?” - my friend.
Hello so this is gonna be kinda political and just..Ok me and my friend were having a conversation how trans people more specifically trans women are the hottest new demographic to demonize right now and be painted as predators.
For me I’m an aroace demi-girl so I fall into the trans spectrum an am aroace-spec. Soon enough we started talking about well after trans people aren’t fun to pick on anymore then who will be the next one to paint as violence? And then my friend said it would possibly be aroace people? If the aroace-phobia is bad enough as it is then wouldn’t that make us the perfect next target for homophobes to make propaganda against??
Idk it’s this stuck with me ever since my friend said that.
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Hello so this is gonna be kinda political and just..Ok me and my friend were having a conversation how trans people more specifically trans women are the hottest new demographic to demonize right now and be painted as predators.
For me I’m an aroace demi-girl so I fall into the trans spectrum an am aroace-spec. Soon enough we started talking about well after trans people aren’t fun to pick on anymore then who will be the next one to paint as violence? And then my friend said it would possibly be aroace people? If the aroace-phobia is bad enough as it is then wouldn’t that make us the perfect next target for homophobes to make propaganda against??
Idk it’s this stuck with me ever since my friend said that.
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Not sure if I am asexual?
I could happily be in a sexless relationship or go my whole life never having sex. But if I had a deep connection with someone then I would be ok to use sex to make them feel excited or happy and their excitement would make me excited if I liked them and the fact they liked me. But I would never want to have sex with someone I was not attracted to and had no connection with. But I would be just as fine having a relationship without any sex as long as we could hold hands and be emotionally connected.
I feel like maybe refering to myself as asexual is wrong, it seems to scare people away. It is rare for straight people to know what it means, they think it is bad, and I don't really know what I mean myself either. If I am attracted to someone then I wouldn't mind having sex with them but it isn't important to me, like holding hands is way more intimate and emotional to me, sex is not about my pleasure but giving them pleasure or being desired enough to would make me happy as long as I meant something to them not just a sex doll, I want to be important to them. I feel like that is most allosexual women too have sex for the same reason and to feel good sensations with someone they are attracted to.
But even if I loved someone lots then I don't think I would want to do sex everyday, it needs a lot of cleanup and leftover sensations take a while to go away, I would rather hug or cuddle or something. But I guess if I had to then I can learn to have sex frequently. Just everyday kind of feels not romantic at all, maybe that is like masturbation.
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I could happily be in a sexless relationship or go my whole life never having sex. But if I had a deep connection with someone then I would be ok to use sex to make them feel excited or happy and their excitement would make me excited if I liked them and the fact they liked me. But I would never want to have sex with someone I was not attracted to and had no connection with. But I would be just as fine having a relationship without any sex as long as we could hold hands and be emotionally connected.
I feel like maybe refering to myself as asexual is wrong, it seems to scare people away. It is rare for straight people to know what it means, they think it is bad, and I don't really know what I mean myself either. If I am attracted to someone then I wouldn't mind having sex with them but it isn't important to me, like holding hands is way more intimate and emotional to me, sex is not about my pleasure but giving them pleasure or being desired enough to would make me happy as long as I meant something to them not just a sex doll, I want to be important to them. I feel like that is most allosexual women too have sex for the same reason and to feel good sensations with someone they are attracted to.
But even if I loved someone lots then I don't think I would want to do sex everyday, it needs a lot of cleanup and leftover sensations take a while to go away, I would rather hug or cuddle or something. But I guess if I had to then I can learn to have sex frequently. Just everyday kind of feels not romantic at all, maybe that is like masturbation.
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Sex negativity
I might upset some people with this, but there's a common pattern I have noticed among "ace communities" like the subreddits.
Sex negativity is different from sex-repulsion and aversion. I would know. I'm sex-repulsed.
Sex negativity is rampant in ace spaces (Imo, you might disagree). I see so many posts of people complaining about literally just the existence of sex and how it's gross and dirty or whatever. It's fine to think that about sex (I certainly do), but implying allosexuals or your fellow asexuals who have sex are gross for doing so is just completely wrong.
And the memes themselves that I always see like "no sex, only garlic bread" also just perpetuate the idea that asexuality = not liking sex. While there is a very large overlap, that's not true for everyone. Allosexuals can be sex-repulsed as can asexuals be sex-favorable.
Sex is not a bad thing. Sex is not a dirty thing. Sex should not be barred from being a conversation topic just because it grosses you out. We are just now getting more comfortable as a society discussing sex. If you want to go back to a puritan society, then go ahead.
If you don't want to here about sexual discussions, then just tell your friends that. Communication is an amazing thing.
Personally, I only mind sex talks between people I don't know. If my friend comes to me to talk about their sex life (as long as it's not graphic ;-;), then I let them because they love and trust me enough to share something that intimate. Not everyone is like that, but I really think that if we started being more positive about sex as a community, it would really help.
It just bums me out scrolling through forums and subreddits and seeing all that.
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I might upset some people with this, but there's a common pattern I have noticed among "ace communities" like the subreddits.
Sex negativity is different from sex-repulsion and aversion. I would know. I'm sex-repulsed.
Sex negativity is rampant in ace spaces (Imo, you might disagree). I see so many posts of people complaining about literally just the existence of sex and how it's gross and dirty or whatever. It's fine to think that about sex (I certainly do), but implying allosexuals or your fellow asexuals who have sex are gross for doing so is just completely wrong.
And the memes themselves that I always see like "no sex, only garlic bread" also just perpetuate the idea that asexuality = not liking sex. While there is a very large overlap, that's not true for everyone. Allosexuals can be sex-repulsed as can asexuals be sex-favorable.
Sex is not a bad thing. Sex is not a dirty thing. Sex should not be barred from being a conversation topic just because it grosses you out. We are just now getting more comfortable as a society discussing sex. If you want to go back to a puritan society, then go ahead.
If you don't want to here about sexual discussions, then just tell your friends that. Communication is an amazing thing.
Personally, I only mind sex talks between people I don't know. If my friend comes to me to talk about their sex life (as long as it's not graphic ;-;), then I let them because they love and trust me enough to share something that intimate. Not everyone is like that, but I really think that if we started being more positive about sex as a community, it would really help.
It just bums me out scrolling through forums and subreddits and seeing all that.
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Am i asexual or is there something else going on?
Hi asexual community, I want to share my journey and hear your opinions about it.
I (30F) have never experienced any sexual desire or any feeling whatsoever while having sex. On my teenage years, when everyone is supposed to be a hormonal horny mess, I felt nothing. I didn't think anything of it back then, didn't suspect it was weird or anything. I had relationships but I didn't think of anything other than kissing and hugging. I remember not understanding how some people had issues with unwanted teen pregnancies, staying celibate for religious beliefs etc, when not having sex was so easy.
Once I entered my first adult years, I started to have sexual experiences. I still never felt sexual desire, but i always heard people say the first time you have sex you don't really enjoy it that much and it gets better later, so I kept waiting for that "later". At that point I was having sexual relationships solely because it was expected from a relationship and i thought it should kick in for me at some point.
It went on like that until my mid 20s I'd say. By then I finally assumed it was just never gonna happen for me. I'm not sex repulsed or anything, but I have never experienced sexual desire or any type of pleasure while having sex. I feel nothing from sex.
When I've told a few people about this after having finally assumed it myself, they say I'm asexual. And of course it makes sense but I have one doubt and this is where I'd like to hear opinions from other asexuals. How does one know if it's just innate or it comes from some unresolved issue, be it hormonal or a mental block?. I have trouble labeling myself with that term because I don't know if I have some issue i haven't found or it's just something i simply happen to be and that's it.
Thoughts?
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Hi asexual community, I want to share my journey and hear your opinions about it.
I (30F) have never experienced any sexual desire or any feeling whatsoever while having sex. On my teenage years, when everyone is supposed to be a hormonal horny mess, I felt nothing. I didn't think anything of it back then, didn't suspect it was weird or anything. I had relationships but I didn't think of anything other than kissing and hugging. I remember not understanding how some people had issues with unwanted teen pregnancies, staying celibate for religious beliefs etc, when not having sex was so easy.
Once I entered my first adult years, I started to have sexual experiences. I still never felt sexual desire, but i always heard people say the first time you have sex you don't really enjoy it that much and it gets better later, so I kept waiting for that "later". At that point I was having sexual relationships solely because it was expected from a relationship and i thought it should kick in for me at some point.
It went on like that until my mid 20s I'd say. By then I finally assumed it was just never gonna happen for me. I'm not sex repulsed or anything, but I have never experienced sexual desire or any type of pleasure while having sex. I feel nothing from sex.
When I've told a few people about this after having finally assumed it myself, they say I'm asexual. And of course it makes sense but I have one doubt and this is where I'd like to hear opinions from other asexuals. How does one know if it's just innate or it comes from some unresolved issue, be it hormonal or a mental block?. I have trouble labeling myself with that term because I don't know if I have some issue i haven't found or it's just something i simply happen to be and that's it.
Thoughts?
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Got called an alien
Had a discussion with someone about marriage. I told them I have no desire nor interest in it and they called me a rare alien, saying everyone has the feeling that they want another half.
I'm been getting this weird feeling ever since that comment, like I don't belong here. It really sucks. Sometimes I feel like a defect.
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Had a discussion with someone about marriage. I told them I have no desire nor interest in it and they called me a rare alien, saying everyone has the feeling that they want another half.
I'm been getting this weird feeling ever since that comment, like I don't belong here. It really sucks. Sometimes I feel like a defect.
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Tell me I’m not alone.
I’m 27 & never been with another person. Never let anyone see me naked in person or the other way around. It feels almost like I’m so so broken but I just have no interest in sexual things in person🥲
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I’m 27 & never been with another person. Never let anyone see me naked in person or the other way around. It feels almost like I’m so so broken but I just have no interest in sexual things in person🥲
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