Never the first always the last

Have you ever thought that you don't have someone who really cares for you ?

These days I've been thinking about this... Everyone has their special someone, my friends are nice and all but am not as important to them as they are for me, my family is all about my brother ( who was doing therapy since 4 years old) while I was always scared of the world that nobody took the time to teach me how it worked, I was bullied, harassed, ridiculed and nobody knew, nobody tried to understand how tired I was. Now I'm 21 almost 22 and still feel like a child, lost in the adult-act I pull every day, it is so exhausting and in the end I feel like if I don't reach to them, if I don't force my presence in their lives I'll be easily forgotten and every time I tell them how I feel they always say I'm trying to find culprits to a problem that I created, that I am being dramatic and everything is just in my head. I'm not looking for solutions, it's just a rant, is life always that tiring for everyone? (My second therapist said I probably have anxiety and depression )

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Some Drinks! By Me.

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Yukari is the best
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allo guy willing to learn more about my aceness

This will be a bit of a short story but i recently downloaded Hinge for fun and made a whole profile and everything. i put the asexual tag on there (of course) and since most people completely ignore that and just go straight for beauty, i thought no one would take me seriously. all of a sudden, here comes this guy who is pretty decent, relates to a lot of the things i like, and is a pretty much a sweetheart all around.

after two days of talking he asks about me being asexual and i immediately think “well, this is the end” because of how unserious people are when it comes to asexuality. i end up explaining it to him and even though he didn’t have the best understanding of it, he asked me if i could teach him about it, which 1000% shocked me. i was completely expecting rejection and coping with that but instead, i got someone who is willing to learn more about who i am and my identity, which is rare.

i tell this story to say that me immediately thinking about rejection when he asked what being asexual means is… sad? like i shouldn’t have to prepare for rejection because of my identity but because of the how the asexual community is treated, i just automatically assumed it wouldn’t work between me and an allo guy.
i’m extremely happy he’s interested in learning and curious to see how this will turn our for me! thanks for coming to my ACE talk!

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Do you other aces experience arousal?

So I've known I was graysexual for a while. I have EXTREMELY low libido, but it's still there, so I was wondering; do any of you guys experience physical arousal just spontaneously? or even at all? I've been curious about this but i wanted to see other people's experiences, because I'm contemplating whether i really am graysexual or if i'm fully ace.

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