I just really need to vent rn

I'm sorry, but I need to get a few things off my chest somwhere.

I cannot let go of this feeling. This feeling of uselessness. Of not ever having accomplished anything useful. I cannot let go of this fear that everyone around me is just waiting for me to disappear.

I'm a nobody in a world where you need to be a somebody to make it. Whatever I do, it never feels like I'm enough. And I cannot even engage in the probably most important thing of society. (Yes, talking about being ace) And while thats the only thing I'm really proud of in myself, it's still rough sometimes in a society like this.

In my current mind, every person's life is nothing but a chess board. And with every day that passes I feel more and more like I'm nothing but a pawn in everyone else's game. I'm a spare. They only look at me when they cannot do anything else. And as soon as they've reached far enough, they simple swap me out for a better piece. While in my own chess board, I dont even feel like the king.
Dont get me wrong, I've made quite a few friends in my path, but I cannot shake the fear that they'll eventually leave me too.

I've been working so much on myself but I cannot stop thinking "Why do I even bother?"
In the end, all I need is a f*cking hug.

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Kinda vent abt having children

I really want to have children but the thought of marriage disgusts me. I never want a partner never ever, but I really want to have children. I know there are other ways but I was friends with a girl who was born from a donor and she has a lot of anger and confusion on never knowing her full history and I don’t want to put my children through that. I looked into adoption but it’s a lot harder when you’re not married. I don’t know if there is a solution to this so I’m just posting this as a vent but it just makes me sad. I do sometimes wish I was able to be ok with marriage but I’m really not. It doesn’t really feel fair.

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Nope.

I don't like men or women. I don't like men or women I like and love myself and that's it!

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People genuinely don't understand asexuality

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How do i know if im asexual?

I know this thread probably gets this a lot but I'm seriously considering if I'm asexual or not. Currently I'm open to dating all genders because im so confused and im just trying to do an elimination process. But Im almost and eighteen and ive had one relationship of note and i had no desire to kiss my partner and actively avoided it. Even people that i liked when i really thought about it i never wanted to kiss them. I will say i haven't had a big crush in a very long time so maybe i just dont like them enough? I will also say that sex does interest me and i do want a partner to do it with. I just haven't found anyone im physically attracted to yet? Something I always end up saying is "in theory never in practice" because in theory i want to but in practice i dont want to. I also had had some sexual truama growing up. I was just exposed to it a little early in life and it disgusted me. So maybe thats my issue? Idk but i would really appreciate any and all advice because i am just so lost and it would be nice to know.

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Do you guys read hentai for the plot?

It's kinda interesting even if you don't.. you know..

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I'm not sure what flair to use

All I'm here to say im finally Ina relationship with someone who I 100000000000000% trust shes the best person I could ever ask for

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Sex is overrated. With you with you? Priceless.
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I could live without sex

Is it just me or there is no point in sex? Like I experienced orgasm but it was meh definitely not how people describe it. I really don’t understand people who are not asexual and looking forward to having sex with people. I never had that feeling. Always felt like a chore for the person I loved. I hope I am not alone in this. I literally find anything more interesting and fun than having sex.

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The human body makes me sick

It grosses me out thinking about it and I admire people who have relationships. I don't struggle with making friends I'm good around people who have friendly intentions but as soon as that person comes out that they like me it's like a switch flips and I not only distance myself from that person but also start getting angry over the smallest things they do. It's bad because people who come in thinking I'm this great person leave thinking I'm a peace of poo. I dunno maybe KEEP YOUR FEELINGS TO YOURSELF lol I do need to know if this is normal

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Came out to my best friend

We were sitting on a bus together and I decided to muster up the courage to tell her. Her first reaction? "Oh, that makes sense."

LOL? She looked it up to make sure she actually knew what i meant, nodded her head, and said "yea, that sounds just like you."

After this, I slowly started telling others and apparently its kinda obvious from my personality that Im in no way interested in dating or romance. It made me a little happy :)

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orgasm as an asexual

can someone explain (preferably in detail) what exactly an orgasm feels like? i am an asexual woman in her 20s who has only recently started to masturbate (like once every two weeks) but i have no idea if i have ever had one?? i feel like i did come to that point but it was really underwhelming considering the fact that allos define it as something life changing lmfao. i do like the buildup but the orgasm (?) lasts only a couple of seconds and after it i just feel confused.

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Leaving This Sub


I can't tolerate seeing all the posts about sex. Sometimes, they can be very graphic too. Or, very explicit images posted, with no spoilers.
Even with spoilers, it sucks.

I also am tired of the constant, "Can ace and non ace people be in a relationship?"

Or, "Help, my Ace partner won't have sex!"

"My non-ace partner wants me to have sex"

What did you think would happen, in that situation? Seriously?

I just can't keep seeing this on my feed. I have to leave this sub.

If there is a more logical, SFW, sex-repulsed-aces-only sub on here, please let me know. I would love to join!

Goodbye, and take care, everyone. ✌️

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Am I asexual?

The long and short of it - I’m a 28 year old dude. Previously I’ve had no issue being attracted to women. Been with numerous, had a couple “serious” relationships. However, over the past year my drive has dropped to absolutely 0. I don’t understand why. I’m not attracted to anyone - women, men, anyone in between. It’s been a year since I last had sex and honestly I wouldn’t be upset if it continued this way for the rest of my life. I’m having a really hard time understanding what’s changed and why. Has anyone else had a similar experience? I’d love to chat.

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