DAE have a phobia of sex? Is this just sex repulsion?

So I have been going to a sex therapist for nearly a year now and it’s likely I have a phobia of sex. My fear goes WAY beyond repulsion or feeling like sex is gross. I have panic attacks sometimes just thinking or talking about sex and I don’t have any trauma around sex that I can point to as a source for these feelings. I feel very alone. Is anyone else here not only repulsed but phobic of sex?

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Are asexuals allowed to operate a forklift with a honey blonde wig?

Guys please help me. I’m asexual but I don’t know if I’m allowed to operate a forklift with a honey blonde wig on. It’s so conflicting. Can someone confirm?

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could it be demisexuality?

i've been identifying as strict asexual for a while but recently actually for a very long time i started questioning about if i could actually be demisexual. i've never had a deep-deep feelings for someone, but i've always had pretty demisexual perspective and opinions on sex while the topic somehow was connected to me specifically. the concept of having sex and feeling things towards complete strangers or someone i barely know feels odd and awkward to me, the only immediate spark i usually have is an aesthetic and, in some cases, emotional one still not enough to form attraction tho. besides, my mom is also demisexual when i described a label to her she immediately said: "oh, that's me!"

i know it's wouldn't be very clear for many people because i stated that i didn't had any proper feelings to figure it all about but i still feel very much that this is the right label for me. what do you think?

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Does anyone else struggle with this?

So I’ve suspected for a while that I’m asexual and aromantic and it seems very likely now that I am. As I said in my first post here I have never cared about romance and sex and the thought of having a crush on someone seems like a huge waste of time to me. However I do sadly get sexual urges every now and then and I just can’t resist the urge to look at porn. Afterwards I feel grossed out and ashamed of myself and swear to never do it again, only to rinse and repeat the next time those urges occur. Exacerbating this is the fact that sex, romance and dating is everywhere in media, which makes me feel like I have to at the very least look at porn to be “normal” in some way, even though I know I’ll just wind up beating myself up mentally afterwards. Does anyone else struggle with this? I’m sorry if I come off as an asshole, I’m genuinely just trying to share my personal experiences

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May be sex repulsed/averse

I thought I (32f) was allo my whole life until this last year. My 20’s to 30’s I was sexually active and most of it was coercive/abusive, so while I’ve never really enjoyed sex or craved it, I thought it was something I needed to do to be in a relationship and that this is what it’s like for women. Idk. Lots of trauma though, regardless. A couple of months ago I took a break from my hyper-sexual allo fiance, got high and realized that I didn’t experience sexual attraction, I honestly had no idea what it was like. So I told him no intercourse, but I could do blow jobs. I thought he was ok with that, but now he’s wanting to know if I’ll have intercourse with him ever. The problem is, I don’t know if I’m sex averse/repulsed in general or just with him. Lately the thought of having intercourse is repulsive to me and I don’t know how to tell him because he said if I say I don’t ever want to have intercourse and won’t go to therapy for it then that means I don’t love him enough to work on it. He has sexual trauma too, I just don’t like feeling like it’s something I need to do for him to stay regulated. It shouldn’t be this way. I just don’t know if it’s trauma or who I am. Any input would be appreciated.

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My stepdad has a question

"If you're in relationship with someone that's asexual what does that make you?" My parental figure asks calmly

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ACEsories? My third piece, an ACE color rainbow

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I'm so confused on attraction, platonic feelings and more

I think I'm a gray romantic. I get feelings for someone every about 3 years. This leads to me getting confused in this time frame. I start thinking I have a crush on people I would never date. I ask them if they wanna date and they agree then I freak out hating it a day later so I tell them I can't do it. I hurt them by accident but it's always a day to a week all this happens. Then every 3 years I get into a serious relationship. How do I even tell the difference because I mess a bunch up on accident from it sometimes.

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My wife 30Enby keeps threatening to divorce me 26F because we don't have sex

My wife (they/them) of three years (partner of almost six), keeps threatening to divorce me every few months. We have recurring arguments about me not meeting their needs, specifically when it comes to sex and affection.

We've never had a super active sex life, except in the very beginning when we were long distance. We did that for two years without seeing eachother (covid times + from different countries), and we both had periods where one of us wanted sex while the other one didn't. For the past few years it's typically been once a month or sometimes not at all.

Two years ago they gave me an ultimatum to either improve our sex life or they would divorce me. I'm on the ace spectrum and don't always have the desire to have sex. It's not impossible for me, but definitely less frequent and I have to be in the right headspace. Things would get better between us for a short period, but I could never consistenly be able to keep up with their requirement which was sex once a week.

We're also both neurodivergent ASD (me, undiagnosed) and ADHD (them, but probably AuDHD). For them, sex is something that helps to regulate their mood and keep them from getting depressed or angry. I know this, but still struggle with the pressure and expectation. For me, it's very easy to not want to have sex if the vibes aren't right, if we've argued recently, if I haven't showered yet, etc.

They want me to be the one to initiate, seduce them, and be passionate. I struggle with this when I'm not in the mood and it's hard to get myself to that level of confidence by myself. They even withheld kisses from me for a time so that I had to be the one to go for it.

Since the first ultimatum, it's been a recurring thing that they will threaten to divorce me, usually in the middle of an argument. It's taken a toll on me emotionally and my self worth has never felt lower. Our arguments tend to last one or two rough days and then they start going back to normal and they don't mention divorce til the next time they get angry because I failed again.

Each argument seems to escalate, one of the recent times they tried to kick me out and said I better come back with a lawyer to sign the papers. They've thrown their ring at me multiple times and are currently refusing to wear it because I've failed as a wife.

They want me to admit that I can't do what they're asking and just be honest with myself. That way we can find a different solution instead of waiting for something that might never happen. I believe that I can do it though, but I've never been able to make it last. Last month we didn't argue and we had sex 4 times, which is a lot more than the normal for us. I really went for it and put in the effort even if I wasn't feeling sexual.

I feel like I don't know where to go from here. We're currently in an argument, they said they were breaking up with me earlier today. But I think they want me to tell them how I'm going to fix this. They're asking for change, but they don't believe in me and always put me down, saying I can't do it, just accept that I can't do it. They want me to prove them wrong. I used to be the type of person that would say "watch me" and would prove anyone wrong. Now, I don't know what to do with my life and how to fix this situation.

They're also poly and are only monogamous to be in this relationship with me. We've gone in circles about opening the relationship, but they did that in their last relationship and that's how it ended. They want me to be the person to fulfill their needs and I want to be that person. I love my wife, but there's a growing divide between us and it seems like all I do is upset them.

Any advice? I feel stuck, emotionally drained, and I'm not sure how it gets better from here. Thanks in advance for any thoughts, I'd really appreciate any insight y'all have.

(Also, this is my first time posting. Hopefully this was coherent enough, I'm not in the best

headspace)


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Which form of attraction is most apparent for you? Sensual, aesthetic, or intellectual?



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