Boyfriend forcefully gave me backshots.
Yeah okay the title is very weird and abstract so long story short. I, 19(M) I'm asexual and I genuinely cringe at the idea of having sex. However I do like kissing,holding hands and cuddling and that's my way of showing love and affection. I have a boyfriend and I told.him casually about asexuality and myself and he took it too in a casual way. He s very caring and loving and we ve been holding hands and kissing untill a few days ago he just pushed me to.the bed and said he wanted to do it. I was sooo taken aback and wanted to say NO GOD I HATE IT. ITS SOO FUCKIN WEIRD AND CRINGY AND WE LL JUST BE DELIVERING OURSELVES PAIN FOR JUST A NICE FEELIMG THAT LASTS ONLY FOR A MIN AND HALF AND THEN IT TAKES SO MUCH TIME TO RECOVER AND CLEAN UP AND ITS SO PAINFUL AND ANNOYING GOD NO STOP IT. but I thought that would make him feel bad and he would leave me if I was not fulfilling his desire over me and so I gave in and said SURE. Honestly it was so painful and I hated every second of it coz I was the bottom. I wanted to curse him and say no but the fear of our relationship coming to an end haunted me so much. After that he said he liked it and maybe would do me more and idk I hate it so much but still I ll have to just agree coz he s so loving,caring,smart,sexy and head over heels for.me and the thought that maybe a girl( he's bi) that is his type will fulfill his sexual desires would just take him away one day and I ll.be left alone.
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Yeah okay the title is very weird and abstract so long story short. I, 19(M) I'm asexual and I genuinely cringe at the idea of having sex. However I do like kissing,holding hands and cuddling and that's my way of showing love and affection. I have a boyfriend and I told.him casually about asexuality and myself and he took it too in a casual way. He s very caring and loving and we ve been holding hands and kissing untill a few days ago he just pushed me to.the bed and said he wanted to do it. I was sooo taken aback and wanted to say NO GOD I HATE IT. ITS SOO FUCKIN WEIRD AND CRINGY AND WE LL JUST BE DELIVERING OURSELVES PAIN FOR JUST A NICE FEELIMG THAT LASTS ONLY FOR A MIN AND HALF AND THEN IT TAKES SO MUCH TIME TO RECOVER AND CLEAN UP AND ITS SO PAINFUL AND ANNOYING GOD NO STOP IT. but I thought that would make him feel bad and he would leave me if I was not fulfilling his desire over me and so I gave in and said SURE. Honestly it was so painful and I hated every second of it coz I was the bottom. I wanted to curse him and say no but the fear of our relationship coming to an end haunted me so much. After that he said he liked it and maybe would do me more and idk I hate it so much but still I ll have to just agree coz he s so loving,caring,smart,sexy and head over heels for.me and the thought that maybe a girl( he's bi) that is his type will fulfill his sexual desires would just take him away one day and I ll.be left alone.
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