I lost my virginity today

So um... I lost my virginity a few hours ago. Like, y'know, the whole thing. Before that, I had received oral sex, but today (apart from that lol), I had penetrative sex.

Despite being ace (not even demi, never felt any sexual attraction towards anyone at all), I somehow knew I would enjoy sex before doing anything. I was right, and now that I got the full experience, I can still say that I do enjoy it, but also... penetrative sex is kinda weird. Does it feel good? Yes. Does it take you there? No (to most people with vaginas, according to my previous research). So, um, sure it's nice, but not something to go crazy about. I know it was my first experience, so maybe things will get better. Or maybe not. It will probably happen with this guy again as we have some sort of "arrangement" and honestly I want to keep experimenting. But I'm not sure how I feel. I'm not a virgin anymore, which for most of my life I thought I would be. I used to think I would always be the "virgin ace".

You know what people, I wish I hadn't liked it at all so I could be ace & not care about sex at all, lol. I feel like things would be easier.

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I hate masterbating with a burning passion.

My reasons for being asexual and not having sex is plain ol “never thought about it other than learning about it and don’t care”.

I decided to masterbate. I get it. But I also don’t.

Like I rather be making an omelette with bacon in it.

…and that is exactly what I did. The food was good.

To the however we exist if we even exist at all… Thank you for asexuality in its simplest form as well as all else me.

Fun? I love being an asexual; but damn it all the hell that those such as me didn’t get no sexy drive. Pfttttttttttttt.

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