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What to do when you figure out you're not asexual?

I'm not sure if this is a good place for this, but it's a difficult topic and perhaps someone here has dealt with it or knows someone who dealt with something similar. I'm in my mid 30's.

I found out about and started identifying as asexual when I was in university, maybe 20 or 21? I really identified with everything I read about asexuality and have greatly benefited from the support and community. I've also been on the birth control pill since I was 15 for severe period cramps.

A couple years ago, for various reasons (primarily financial) I stopped taking the birth control pill. After some months when my periods came back and stabilized... I suddenly felt attracted to people. At first it was just a couple people so I thought "oh, maybe I'm actually graysexual or something" but then now it's like. Many people. I feel now I'm probably allosexual.

I want to emphasize that, even though in my case I believe I felt I was asexual because of some hormonal thing, I don't think this is true for the majority of asexuals AND I really appreciate and value the community and people I met when I identified as asexual. Regardless of the reason, not feeling sexual attraction in an allosexual world was very isolating, and support from the asexual community was so valuable.

I suppose that's something that makes it difficult to talk about with people. I don't want to be held up as a "See! Asexuality is fake! Look at this person!" Because I don't think that's true, my case is probably rare and uncommon and most people who identify with asexuality are just innately asexual.

But I'm also feeling some amount of grief or struggle in some ways. Yes, I guess I'm allosexual, which means I can "fit in" with social expectations about relationships now or whatever, but I was a part of the asexual community for over 10 years. It feels very difficult to have had something that gave me community and something in common and a point of connection with other asexuals I knew, but then now... I don't. Of course we still have shared history and I'm still friends with people but it's different. I don't regret at all the time I identified as asexual and feel it's just a part of my life and a part of my story, and gave me an understanding of the world from a different perspective.

But also, I'm different. Feeling attraction affects a lot of things about how I interact with the world and other people. I'm feeling a lot of feelings I haven't before, only now I'm in my 30's rather than a teenager. It's also kind of isolating and difficult, and it's hard to find others who have had a similar experience. I don't know, does anyone know someone who identified as asexual for some period of time and then stopped for some reason? Or felt their sexuality changed over time? Again, I apologize if this isn't a good place for this. The asexual community has been a place I could go for support for such a long time, most of my adult life. Now, I'm not sure where to go or who to talk to, other than of course IRL friends who are happy to listen to me but don't necessarily understand. Anyway, thank you for reading 🙏

Edit: My paragraphing didn't work before so I added them again

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