I think i might be Asexual..?
(I posted it on r/asexuality but i wanted to share it here too.)
I've been struggling with my sexual/romantic attraction for a while now, and i still don't know what am i supposed to be.. i'm almost 21 years old. I'm FtM transgender, i started transitioning about a year ago.
I've never been in love to be honest, i never had a crush. I just don't think about people in a romantic or sexual way at all. I never thought something is wrong with me, until i was 14-16 years old i thought maybe "gender just doesn't matter" to me, so i thought i was Pansexual.
I was 16 years old when i met my (now ex) girlfriend. It was my first relationship. She was way more experienced than me, and i always felt frustrated when it came to being intimate. I often forced myself to do things with her, just to make her happy. At the end i started having panic attacks and cry for no reason. After 2 years of dating we stopped having sex in general and i felt so much better. At the same time she was frustrated of course, and that made me feel really bad.
We've been dating for 4 years and broke up recently (because of different reasons, she wants to be a nun). But in the last 2 years we rarely got intimate, and i was happy like that. At the same time, because i've never been with a man before i feel like i missed out something. I think..? Like i'm almost 21 and a "virgin" and it's bothers me a little bit. Not because i want to have sex with a man but because i'm getting older and older and i feel like a total loser. It's hard to explain..
Since i started Hormone Replacement Therapy, my libido is much higher than before i do feel sexually frustrated i guess, but i don't really want to act on it and find an actual partner.
Most of the time i feel like being alone is so much better. I don't want anyone in my life right now, and i'm happy like that. After my relationship ended with my girlfriend i thought i was attracted to guys but so far i've never been sexually or romantically attracted to anyone, so i feel like there is something is wrong with me.
Being intimate was always a problem for me, even small things like hand holding, kissing or cuddling can make me feel really uncomfortable. At this point i think i do want a best friend or soulmate in the future who could understand me. I do like hugs, friendly cuddling and kisses on the cheeks but not in the sexual or romantic way.
I think i might be Aromantic & Asexual..?
https://redd.it/cdxkat
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(I posted it on r/asexuality but i wanted to share it here too.)
I've been struggling with my sexual/romantic attraction for a while now, and i still don't know what am i supposed to be.. i'm almost 21 years old. I'm FtM transgender, i started transitioning about a year ago.
I've never been in love to be honest, i never had a crush. I just don't think about people in a romantic or sexual way at all. I never thought something is wrong with me, until i was 14-16 years old i thought maybe "gender just doesn't matter" to me, so i thought i was Pansexual.
I was 16 years old when i met my (now ex) girlfriend. It was my first relationship. She was way more experienced than me, and i always felt frustrated when it came to being intimate. I often forced myself to do things with her, just to make her happy. At the end i started having panic attacks and cry for no reason. After 2 years of dating we stopped having sex in general and i felt so much better. At the same time she was frustrated of course, and that made me feel really bad.
We've been dating for 4 years and broke up recently (because of different reasons, she wants to be a nun). But in the last 2 years we rarely got intimate, and i was happy like that. At the same time, because i've never been with a man before i feel like i missed out something. I think..? Like i'm almost 21 and a "virgin" and it's bothers me a little bit. Not because i want to have sex with a man but because i'm getting older and older and i feel like a total loser. It's hard to explain..
Since i started Hormone Replacement Therapy, my libido is much higher than before i do feel sexually frustrated i guess, but i don't really want to act on it and find an actual partner.
Most of the time i feel like being alone is so much better. I don't want anyone in my life right now, and i'm happy like that. After my relationship ended with my girlfriend i thought i was attracted to guys but so far i've never been sexually or romantically attracted to anyone, so i feel like there is something is wrong with me.
Being intimate was always a problem for me, even small things like hand holding, kissing or cuddling can make me feel really uncomfortable. At this point i think i do want a best friend or soulmate in the future who could understand me. I do like hugs, friendly cuddling and kisses on the cheeks but not in the sexual or romantic way.
I think i might be Aromantic & Asexual..?
https://redd.it/cdxkat
@asexualityonreddit
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r/Asexual - I think i might be Asexual..?
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My biggest sexual fantasy... long in-depth talks
When a friend asked what my biggest sexual fantasy was ,in game of truth or dare, the first thing that came into my mind was:
“I want to stay up all night talking about stuff that we both like ,going into really deep content.” Something like this.
But of course I couldn’t say that because even though they know that I’m not a sexual person, I somehow thought that the fact that my sexual fantasy doesn’t have anything physical in it would be too hard to comprehend for people that love physical action(?) (idk how to refer.. cis maybe)
https://redd.it/ce02t3
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When a friend asked what my biggest sexual fantasy was ,in game of truth or dare, the first thing that came into my mind was:
“I want to stay up all night talking about stuff that we both like ,going into really deep content.” Something like this.
But of course I couldn’t say that because even though they know that I’m not a sexual person, I somehow thought that the fact that my sexual fantasy doesn’t have anything physical in it would be too hard to comprehend for people that love physical action(?) (idk how to refer.. cis maybe)
https://redd.it/ce02t3
@asexualityonreddit
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r/Asexual - My biggest sexual fantasy... long in-depth talks
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I found this the other day, this is the first time ever seeing but it feels like I might fit
https://redd.it/cdw2wc
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https://redd.it/cdw2wc
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Allo writer looking for asexual opinions re: kissing in ace/allo couples (cross-post with r/asexuality)
Hello! I'm a (pansexual&panromantic) film academy student working on a short film with an asexual main character, and I've got a question about whether I should include kissing into the main character and her partner's romantic relationship? I know that some aces dislike kissing and some enjoy it, but I'm wondering if any of you would like to see either preference more represented in media? For more context, the main character (asexual and panromantic) and her partner (bisexual and non-binary) are in high school and have been dating for over a year, and the kissing I had in mind is more like an occasional quick good-bye peck on the lips rather than full-on making out. Thank ya'll in advance for your replies :D
https://redd.it/ce3kk0
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Hello! I'm a (pansexual&panromantic) film academy student working on a short film with an asexual main character, and I've got a question about whether I should include kissing into the main character and her partner's romantic relationship? I know that some aces dislike kissing and some enjoy it, but I'm wondering if any of you would like to see either preference more represented in media? For more context, the main character (asexual and panromantic) and her partner (bisexual and non-binary) are in high school and have been dating for over a year, and the kissing I had in mind is more like an occasional quick good-bye peck on the lips rather than full-on making out. Thank ya'll in advance for your replies :D
https://redd.it/ce3kk0
@asexualityonreddit
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r/Asexual - Allo writer looking for asexual opinions re: kissing in ace/allo couples (cross-post with r/asexuality)
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