I felt really well self protected and strong fighting chance at making art.

This impressively works really well handling depressing social media and internet we're dealing with as hellscapes now. I can't believe what I did in 2019 was smart, not knowing what 2024 was going to be. it's impressively foolproof. Surprising emotionally stronger in healthier way.

All thanks to my old 19 years old self being deeply influenced by art studio spaces with lot of empty spaces and impressed by how extremely easy to use macbooks.

Those strong influences were responsible for making myself wonder, how can I make my real life design insanely easier personally designed to my own mental health to stop any unhealthy addictions as possible I had at the time before?

I promise, there will be more new art to come. I don't do this out of my pride. More like self desperate to keep on living and mentally survive to enjoy what I can afford.

Yeah I will keep on going to furry cons. Two furry cons each year just to get together with furry fandom as a whole.

Especially my art college loans/debt will be all completely paid off next year soon.

I can't believe I have been emotionally laughing for two days in a day. I never felt like this before since I lost emotions during middle school.

So many things my old self have said or have done. Made myself laugh harder. All stuff I have said for years with straight face on. Now I just can't say them without breaking into laughing anymore xD.

I must have been the OG unhinged furry growing up. No, I never do drugs.

Even furries I knew I now find them Sexier and hotter. Makes myself laugh too. I just feel more emotional now, no longer dry.

Doesn't help that I have developed fur fetish long ago last year, and being more vanilla furry after stopped looking at crazier furry porn for years now. Everything feels sharper and more focused.

I'm definitely happier to make comics again, especially by use of environment at home slowly and carefully.

It's surprising I thought it was a good idea to make comics when I was in high school. Especially how much mental and physical work they take. With poor outcomes.

Which is why I kept on rethinking and while using at least enough time to take a self care vacation until mentally and emotionally ready to make comics.

Understandable, I found it so strange how my mind and body is willing to do anything to avoid cell phones, internet, social media, etc. Especially on four days off each week for a year and half.

The problem is, internet/social media now have became the absurdity of humanity. Humanity right now is too much absurdity to handle. That even MAD can't satire today's times much as could have.

Admittedly, realized since I'm emotionally happier. My bisexuality is emotionally growing. It was always there since as a kid in middle school I do remember in places, especially how I got my furry sexuality too. Now it's like sense of conflict inside myself, but ultimately I already made peace with it in my mid-20's. I'll live with it yes.

Thought I should share this close up panel from my private channel I only use for showing to people in real life. To avoid having to go through the walls of text here 😂 (I'm so sorry). Channel was created long time ago.

There's unique interesting story behind on how I drew this panel. Most of the comic pages were drawn in extremely rough loose pencils (to finish nearly all in four days inked). I used flat side of the pencil to sketch this insanely quickly. It was so rough I put faith to ink it decently as I can. Not fast or slow, to ink it steady. This was the roughest loose sketch, yet to my surprise, it came out amazing face reaction xD.

It's perfect size to scan in comic art pages, yay! Probably paid something like $250 ish. Will check purchase paper. Was on discount. I got it delivered yesterday from best buy in person.

Was walking around my hometown, somehow my curiosity got best of myself and wanting go over huge river. By figuring out how go over by using bridge walkway (had to walk up hill). Suddenly found myself in forest I never explored in before. Got lost for two hours xD, walked long way by the river. Made it home.

This is the first time I hiked in the forest since 2018 xD. Six years ago until now. Thankfully it's open to public.

I did this rather promising take in the year 2020 on covid crisis in a more fantastical way. More horror, inspired/influenced by likes of I Am Legend and evil dead zombies. I couldn't get around to it due to having clean up real life more.

I realized I do still have sexual thing for being in the forest since as a kid, probably 12. It does explain why I feel it at the furry cons also. It's the whole vacation thing where I don't have to worry. It's how I discovered my furry sexuality all at once. All while relaxing in a cottage in the forest growing up. When I was at the same cottage at age 28. It was emotionally amazing when I was texting with a furry on telegram.

Nature is wonderful, it brings out the animal in all of us xP.

Yes, being in the forest during last two days was emotionally amazing. I can still feel it at work.

It's definitely different not being addicted to porn anymore for years now. I still have a thing for them, but it's not the same. They're basically drawings.

I can live without porn yes. Which definitely improves my life quality yes.

I finally handed in flash drive of over long overdue 75 old comic pages (not all colored tho) in to the printing place for higher quality pages with strong colors I can use for my art profolio (for size 8.5 x 11) to show off at furry cons. Those are comic pages already published for years. I was using cheap printer that doesn't do well with colors.

The people at the printing place were stunned and surprised to see me again after probably 2016 xD. They definitely aged in their years.

Yeah, I'm definitely ready to make comic pages again. Will make TF comic story and two comic stories projects (Lethal Heist, and the remake of The Outland Furry Freaks under different title.)