Those who lead with their head eventually hit a ceiling they lack the force to break through. Those who lead with their heart eventually hit a wall that keeps them corralled, unable to advance further than they've already been. Infinite advancement requires the heart to be fostered and developed; unbounded development demands the mind be fine-tuned and applied. This is the essence of being limitless.

It finally makes sense why an attempt at a more balanced life led to my downfall when I suffered sufficient loss, whereas now, even in the case of my grandmother's death, I’ve yet to shed a tear and don’t think I ever will. I’m reminded of obligate ram ventilators: sharks like great whites, makos, and hammerheads rely on a method called "ram ventilation," where they must swim continuously to force water over their gills. If they stop swimming, they can’t get enough oxygen and will eventually suffocate.

It took God's consideration (the Father, not Christ) to realize now is all that really exists, and the temporal world does have its value. I finally understand divine judgment is cast in the present. Intention and consistency define us more than what we've done, what we are, or what we intend to do. Surrender has its significance; there is time and opportunities that flow upwards and downwards, like layers of a cake. Side-stepping can allow those opportunities and that time to flow into our lives. Along with the opportunities that come from taking advantage of the present comes time that flows outwardly and inwardly. This is why there is power in making optimal use of now—what we take in versus what we put out, actions versus inactions. A side-step is enough to allow things of value to flow into our lives without a doubt, but the inverse is also true. Side-stepping too soon or too frequently can result in loss. It should be done to generate space for things of value, for what truly benefits us. People side-step all the time and allow nonsense into their lives—a side-step for a person that doesn’t deserve it, or for something that doesn’t serve them. Up until this point, I've only ever side-stepped for Ada. I spent a few months too many giving my feelings for her priority. Feelings matter, but they must serve the greater structure of our aspirations and objectives, not dictate it. Staying the path is of the utmost importance. Time surrounds us, flowing above and beyond, a constant current carrying with it a cascade of events, possibilities, and opportunities. Along with it are avenues, branching inward and outward, and we get to choose which to bolster, which to sever, which to weave into something more intricate, and even which to traverse. Side-stepping, at its core, is about when and for what. The true efficiency of now lies in intention and consistency. Time surrounds us, and I intend to use it as effectively as possible.

Relationships are an output, making them a point of consistent focus doesn't make sense. The people a man has access to in his life are a byproduct of the life he leads. In the end they are the result of specific inputs.

As long as this code remains uploaded I can be reached. It's bound to my personal cellphone number, without revealing it of course. That's the beauty of telegram.

Win the morning.

With the time I have left, I can only become the second-best version of myself. The thing is, as it pertains to the top the position of the best is interchangeable.

O.C.E.A.N. Scores: 84th percentile Openness to experiences, 98th percentile Conscientiousness, 54th percentile Introversion, 4th percentile Agreeableness, and 2nd percentile Neuroticism.

INTJ-A,

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I finally understand why I didn't shed tears for my grandmother after she passed. I knew who she was, the possibilities as to which direction our relationship could go in were near non-existent. She was was my grandmother, and I was her grandson. I long for nothing. The brunt of the impact of losing someone comes from the lost possibilities that their absence creates; the possibilities we desire that will now never play out

"He's been quite lucky in what he's picked to double down, double down, double down. Then he's used leverage so much that he's doubled down right to the edge of extinction maybe two or three times. How many people can go to the edge of extinction without stepping into it?" - Charlie Munger, on Elon Musk

Best exists as a result of rigid metrics; value, from ever-shifting spectrums. I'll take volatile over eventually replaceable even at the risk of immense loss most days. In a perfect world, you'd have both -every time and anytime. But perfect worlds don't exist. It's important to remain prudent for this reason. And why it's just as important to understand that some wins are only possible through risk.

Gustave Doré, Dante and Virgil in the Ninth Circle of Hell, 1861

To maneuver based in reason, in service of something outside yourself is the most impervious to corruption that you can be.

I forget sometimes that life draws out overly linear thinking in others, and you have to learn to factor the straight line painted by what you say and do.