8th August, 5:12am
Dream...
What Exactly Happened During That Dream?
Yes, we all know the dream felt perfect.
Everything was smooth. Nothing broken. No silence.
But what exactly happened in that dream?
And more importantly, why did it shake me so deeply in real life?
I remember...
I was going somewhere, and I saw her.
I didn’t walk up. I didn’t chase. I just went to a shop nearby.
But I could feel it that she wanted to talk to me.
I don’t know why, but I started the conversation.
I asked her, “Can we start from scratch?”
I reminded her, in real life, it won’t happen again.
But we already made that promise once — just a week before everything fell apart.
So what would make this time different?
And yet… she accepted me.
Just like that.
This is where I find myself stuck.
Why did she accept me?
Why after all these months of silence she said yes in that dream?
If she really wanted me…
Why didn’t she ever text? Why didn’t she call?
And then it all fast-forwarded —
We were on a beach, sitting, talking for hours.
No weight. No wounds. No questions. Just peace.
But then… I woke up.
And everything was scattered.
Dream...
What Exactly Happened During That Dream?
Yes, we all know the dream felt perfect.
Everything was smooth. Nothing broken. No silence.
But what exactly happened in that dream?
And more importantly, why did it shake me so deeply in real life?
I remember...
I was going somewhere, and I saw her.
I didn’t walk up. I didn’t chase. I just went to a shop nearby.
But I could feel it that she wanted to talk to me.
I don’t know why, but I started the conversation.
I asked her, “Can we start from scratch?”
I reminded her, in real life, it won’t happen again.
But we already made that promise once — just a week before everything fell apart.
So what would make this time different?
And yet… she accepted me.
Just like that.
This is where I find myself stuck.
Why did she accept me?
Why after all these months of silence she said yes in that dream?
If she really wanted me…
Why didn’t she ever text? Why didn’t she call?
And then it all fast-forwarded —
We were on a beach, sitting, talking for hours.
No weight. No wounds. No questions. Just peace.
But then… I woke up.
And everything was scattered.
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9th August, 5:05 AM
Is the condition still the same?
Am I still missing her?
Maybe not.
Maybe I’ve just gotten busy with my life again.
Do I want to talk to that person?
Maybe… no.
Why?
Because I’m sure it won’t last long — for reasons I can’t fully explain.
There’s a reason why friendships with me don’t last.
Even I don’t know exactly what it is… but it’s there.
Maybe I need to work on it in future. And I'll work on it when I know the exact reason.
Why did I write down every detail of that dream?
Because I wanted to capture my thoughts — to understand how this whole thing works in my mind.
Is my situation better than it was yesterday?
Absolutely. 100%. It’s way better.
This is how it usually goes:
I talk to someone when I’m free. Then life gets busy. And suddenly, even finding 30 minutes in a day becomes impossible.
Maybe that’s why I don’t have many female friends.
This time, during my free time, instead of talking to someone new, I started watching a series.
Why? Because I don’t want to create false expectations that I can talk to them regularly… when I know I can’t.
And honestly? Watching a web series is way better than talking to someone for just 2–3 days.
It doesn’t create pressure.
It doesn’t create expectations.
It just… is.
Is the condition still the same?
Am I still missing her?
Maybe not.
Maybe I’ve just gotten busy with my life again.
Do I want to talk to that person?
Maybe… no.
Why?
Because I’m sure it won’t last long — for reasons I can’t fully explain.
There’s a reason why friendships with me don’t last.
Even I don’t know exactly what it is… but it’s there.
Maybe I need to work on it in future. And I'll work on it when I know the exact reason.
Why did I write down every detail of that dream?
Because I wanted to capture my thoughts — to understand how this whole thing works in my mind.
Is my situation better than it was yesterday?
Absolutely. 100%. It’s way better.
This is how it usually goes:
I talk to someone when I’m free. Then life gets busy. And suddenly, even finding 30 minutes in a day becomes impossible.
Maybe that’s why I don’t have many female friends.
This time, during my free time, instead of talking to someone new, I started watching a series.
Why? Because I don’t want to create false expectations that I can talk to them regularly… when I know I can’t.
And honestly? Watching a web series is way better than talking to someone for just 2–3 days.
It doesn’t create pressure.
It doesn’t create expectations.
It just… is.
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10th of August, 01:52 A.M.
Yeah it's all good. I think that was for 2-3 days. After that things went back to normal.
Even though I'm not using telegram, but I really wanted to understand my pattern and I wanted to accept my insecurity. Since I'm over it, I'm ready to share. And that's what I did.
Always take your stand. Don't change it.
Prioritise people who are important for you.
Don't leave grudges in your life for anyone. Forgive but never forget..
There's a say which I admire the most,
"Jab acha time nahi ruka toh bura kaise ruk jayega"
Always love your enemies. They're the reason you'll go ahead in your life.
Yeah it's all good. I think that was for 2-3 days. After that things went back to normal.
Even though I'm not using telegram, but I really wanted to understand my pattern and I wanted to accept my insecurity. Since I'm over it, I'm ready to share. And that's what I did.
Always take your stand. Don't change it.
Prioritise people who are important for you.
Don't leave grudges in your life for anyone. Forgive but never forget..
There's a say which I admire the most,
"Jab acha time nahi ruka toh bura kaise ruk jayega"
Always love your enemies. They're the reason you'll go ahead in your life.
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Dream...
Sometimes dreams give you scars, sometimes they give you the most beautiful moments of your life.
A couple of days ago, I had some horror dreams. But yesterday, I dreamt of something completely different, I was sitting with my crush.
In the dream, my crush and her mom came to my house to meet my parents, since our families have known each other for a long time. Luckily, my parents weren’t home, they were out of station.
So, I welcomed them without looking too desperate. Along with her mom, her sister had also come. I was talking to them about jobs and other things, and her mom seemed really happy with me.
After about 45 minutes, her mom said, “Okay, we’ll leave now.” I asked them to stay a bit longer, but they said they had to go back. We all stepped outside… and that’s when I saw her.
I was shocked and happy at the same time — she looked gorgeous.
Me: “She came too?”
Her Mom: “Yes, she was busy.”
Me: “That’s not fair. At least ask her to come inside.”
Her mom called her, and she came.
Her Mom: “Why didn’t you go inside?”
Her: “I was busy with a company call.”
Me: “Ah, fair. But now you can come in.”
Her mom smiled but said, “Dhruv, we’ll get late if we stay here longer.”
I felt a bit upset. “Okay, fine,” I said.
Then her mom asked her daughter, “Can you stay here for some time?”
She hesitated, then said, “Umm… okay fine.”
Man, I was so happy. She was actually staying with me! We could finally talk as much as we wanted.
She and her sister both stayed, and we talked endlessly. I can’t even describe how good it felt.
Okay Back to Reality..
I woke up.. And I felt so good that I can't even tell..
Sometimes dreams give you scars, sometimes they give you the most beautiful moments of your life.
A couple of days ago, I had some horror dreams. But yesterday, I dreamt of something completely different, I was sitting with my crush.
In the dream, my crush and her mom came to my house to meet my parents, since our families have known each other for a long time. Luckily, my parents weren’t home, they were out of station.
So, I welcomed them without looking too desperate. Along with her mom, her sister had also come. I was talking to them about jobs and other things, and her mom seemed really happy with me.
After about 45 minutes, her mom said, “Okay, we’ll leave now.” I asked them to stay a bit longer, but they said they had to go back. We all stepped outside… and that’s when I saw her.
I was shocked and happy at the same time — she looked gorgeous.
Me: “She came too?”
Her Mom: “Yes, she was busy.”
Me: “That’s not fair. At least ask her to come inside.”
Her mom called her, and she came.
Her Mom: “Why didn’t you go inside?”
Her: “I was busy with a company call.”
Me: “Ah, fair. But now you can come in.”
Her mom smiled but said, “Dhruv, we’ll get late if we stay here longer.”
I felt a bit upset. “Okay, fine,” I said.
Then her mom asked her daughter, “Can you stay here for some time?”
She hesitated, then said, “Umm… okay fine.”
Man, I was so happy. She was actually staying with me! We could finally talk as much as we wanted.
She and her sister both stayed, and we talked endlessly. I can’t even describe how good it felt.
Okay Back to Reality..
I woke up.. And I felt so good that I can't even tell..
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Rule Number 1:
If a person wants to go away from your life, never ever stop that person. I repeat never.
Even if you stop that person, things won't remain the same.
If a person wants to go away from your life, never ever stop that person. I repeat never.
Even if you stop that person, things won't remain the same.
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Today, I was going somewhere, wearing my earphones, and listening to my YouTube Music 2024 Recap. Suddenly, a song started playing and all the memories came rushing back.
Was it painful? NO. Why? Because this time, it wasn’t just the memories. The person from those memories is still with me.
We’ve known each other for more than seven years. After my 12th, we stopped talking. But in 2024, she texted me again. We started talking, and one day, she sent me a song called Dooriyaan. A few weeks later, I was listening to that same song while chatting with her. Out of nowhere, we had a fight. It ended with both of us deciding not to talk anymore. But deep down, I knew she wouldn’t really go anywhere.
And I was right. She texted me after a week, and everything went back to normal.
The best part is that I never let my past or any third person come between our friendship. I’ve already lost enough close friends because of others’ involvement, and I couldn’t afford to lose her the same way.
And now, whenever I listen to that song, it reminds me of all our moments that we enjoyed together.
Was it painful? NO. Why? Because this time, it wasn’t just the memories. The person from those memories is still with me.
We’ve known each other for more than seven years. After my 12th, we stopped talking. But in 2024, she texted me again. We started talking, and one day, she sent me a song called Dooriyaan. A few weeks later, I was listening to that same song while chatting with her. Out of nowhere, we had a fight. It ended with both of us deciding not to talk anymore. But deep down, I knew she wouldn’t really go anywhere.
And I was right. She texted me after a week, and everything went back to normal.
The best part is that I never let my past or any third person come between our friendship. I’ve already lost enough close friends because of others’ involvement, and I couldn’t afford to lose her the same way.
And now, whenever I listen to that song, it reminds me of all our moments that we enjoyed together.
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Do you guys want to know the moments we spent in lasy 7 years? It'll be kind of in a story mode.
Anonymous Poll
91%
Yes
9%
No
I think I now understand why I don’t share my weaknesses with anyone.
In the past, I had very close friends and I believed they would always stay. The last time something like this happened, I was almost ready to open up, but a part of me felt that the person wouldn’t stay for long.
And that’s exactly what happened. I never shared my own problems, but I never stopped that person from sharing theirs. I was always there to listen.
I don’t care whose fault it was. What matters is that the person didn’t even try to come back. That person is not with me anymore, but no one can take away the memories, the late-night talks, and everything we shared.
If I had shared my weakness, I know I would have regretted it FOREVER.
That was the last time I had a best friend, because after that I realised that nothing lasts forever.
In the past, I had very close friends and I believed they would always stay. The last time something like this happened, I was almost ready to open up, but a part of me felt that the person wouldn’t stay for long.
And that’s exactly what happened. I never shared my own problems, but I never stopped that person from sharing theirs. I was always there to listen.
I don’t care whose fault it was. What matters is that the person didn’t even try to come back. That person is not with me anymore, but no one can take away the memories, the late-night talks, and everything we shared.
If I had shared my weakness, I know I would have regretted it FOREVER.
That was the last time I had a best friend, because after that I realised that nothing lasts forever.
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Those were the days…
From ‘Haq nahi tu yeh kahe ki yaar ab hum na rahe’
and ‘Jaate nahi kahin rishte purane kisi naye ke aa jaane se’…
From all that… to today..
We’re just strangers now.
Crazy thing is, it happened real damn quick.
From ‘Haq nahi tu yeh kahe ki yaar ab hum na rahe’
and ‘Jaate nahi kahin rishte purane kisi naye ke aa jaane se’…
From all that… to today..
We’re just strangers now.
Crazy thing is, it happened real damn quick.
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Don’t matter how long you don’t talk. One message brings it all back. Maybe it’s too late, maybe it ain’t. I don’t know anymore..
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Mann I don’t even know why she keeps showing up in my dreams when I know we’re not meant to be.
Yesterday I told myself it’s fine I’m done missing her. Thought I finally had peace. But this morning I saw her again. I was half asleep when the phone rang. Didn’t pick it up. An hour later someone knocked on my door asking for my phone.
I unlocked it and checked the notifications. Her name. Missed call.
I walked out somewhere quiet where no one could see me losing it. Tried calling her back. Once twice five times. She finally picked up.
“Where are you?” she asked.
“I don’t know" I said. “I can come if you want.”
“You with someone?”
“No” I told her. “Just me. Been sleeping alone.”
“Good” she said. “So finally you’re alone. Just like you left me when I was with you.” Then she hung up.
And just like that everything I had buried came rushing back. For a second it felt like maybe there was still a way back.
After that I texted her and told her to call me when she’s free. She said “Ok.”
And I waited.
And I kept waiting.
Till silence started feeling louder than her voice ever did.
Even when I was writing this, I was getting a feeling that she might text me. But it ain't gonna happen. But I'm just glad that at least there was a time when I was her closest friend.
Yesterday I told myself it’s fine I’m done missing her. Thought I finally had peace. But this morning I saw her again. I was half asleep when the phone rang. Didn’t pick it up. An hour later someone knocked on my door asking for my phone.
I unlocked it and checked the notifications. Her name. Missed call.
I walked out somewhere quiet where no one could see me losing it. Tried calling her back. Once twice five times. She finally picked up.
“Where are you?” she asked.
“I don’t know" I said. “I can come if you want.”
“You with someone?”
“No” I told her. “Just me. Been sleeping alone.”
“Good” she said. “So finally you’re alone. Just like you left me when I was with you.” Then she hung up.
And just like that everything I had buried came rushing back. For a second it felt like maybe there was still a way back.
After that I texted her and told her to call me when she’s free. She said “Ok.”
And I waited.
And I kept waiting.
Till silence started feeling louder than her voice ever did.
Even when I was writing this, I was getting a feeling that she might text me. But it ain't gonna happen. But I'm just glad that at least there was a time when I was her closest friend.
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It’s alright even if someone judges you.
How long will they judge, an hour, a day, a month?
What difference does that really make?
Does their perspective even matter to you? If yes, why?
If you are not confident about what you are doing, then maybe you are doing it wrong.
Trust yourself. Have some confidence, bro.
Everyone will have ups & downs. So what?
Will you stop living? No right? If I know you can do it, then why do you keep telling yourself that what if I can't?
What if you can???
How long will they judge, an hour, a day, a month?
What difference does that really make?
Does their perspective even matter to you? If yes, why?
If you are not confident about what you are doing, then maybe you are doing it wrong.
Trust yourself. Have some confidence, bro.
Everyone will have ups & downs. So what?
Will you stop living? No right? If I know you can do it, then why do you keep telling yourself that what if I can't?
What if you can???
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It is a new year, and I want to start from scratch. I want to let go of the past, all the grudges, everything.
But I know that doing this will not bring you back. We were good friends, and that is what makes it hard.
I know you are seeing this. Do not worry, I am not going to text you, because that is what you asked for, and I will not break that promise, no matter what.
That does not mean I do not want to.
It would not even feel like a new beginning if you just try. But still, I would say this. Do not think emotionally. Think with your mind..
My mind is saying you won't text me. And I'm totally fine with it if that's what you want.
Hope you'll overcome your weakness this year ❤️
Have a great year bbg..
But I know that doing this will not bring you back. We were good friends, and that is what makes it hard.
I know you are seeing this. Do not worry, I am not going to text you, because that is what you asked for, and I will not break that promise, no matter what.
That does not mean I do not want to.
It would not even feel like a new beginning if you just try. But still, I would say this. Do not think emotionally. Think with your mind..
My mind is saying you won't text me. And I'm totally fine with it if that's what you want.
Hope you'll overcome your weakness this year ❤️
Have a great year bbg..
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Some friendships are better than relationships.
They feel easy, honest, and safe.
But we often understand their value only after we lose that one person.
When they are gone, the silence hits hard.
Life does not stop or wait for us.
It keeps moving on and on.
But all these things Don't matter as memories always stay. Maybe because you don't want memories to vanish?
Fuck it. I'll be good tomorrow morning.
They feel easy, honest, and safe.
But we often understand their value only after we lose that one person.
When they are gone, the silence hits hard.
Life does not stop or wait for us.
It keeps moving on and on.
But all these things Don't matter as memories always stay. Maybe because you don't want memories to vanish?
Fuck it. I'll be good tomorrow morning.
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From what I’ve seen, it don't matter how good friends you are. The moment you get into a relationship, things start to change. Expectations change. And that’s when you often realise you may have made a mistake by choosing a relationship.
Why did I even choose the path of a relationship when the friendship was going so well?
And it goes both ways.
What’s so special about a friendship that a relationship ends up ruining it?
In friendship, there’s no commitment and no pressure to talk regularly. But the moment you get into a relationship, it suddenly shifts into sixth gear.
I know this doesn’t happen with everyone, but it does happen.
I don’t know, man. But at least don’t ruin a friendship for a relationship or for a third person.
If the relationship doesn’t work out, it can destroy years of friendship. Think about it.
Maybe that’s why most divorces happen. Two people don’t really know each other properly, they get married, and then boom.
Why did I even choose the path of a relationship when the friendship was going so well?
And it goes both ways.
What’s so special about a friendship that a relationship ends up ruining it?
In friendship, there’s no commitment and no pressure to talk regularly. But the moment you get into a relationship, it suddenly shifts into sixth gear.
I know this doesn’t happen with everyone, but it does happen.
I don’t know, man. But at least don’t ruin a friendship for a relationship or for a third person.
If the relationship doesn’t work out, it can destroy years of friendship. Think about it.
Maybe that’s why most divorces happen. Two people don’t really know each other properly, they get married, and then boom.
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Ohh man why I do this..
I opened my main facebook ID and the first came in my notification was my very FIRST crush during school days..
I read the whole chat and I gotta tell you I still remember each & every moment I spent talking to her :)
I used to listen to this song named "Na na na na by J Star" while talking to her :)
She was always calm & composed..
SHE WAS GOOD.. SHES STILL IN MY FRIENDLIST. IM GLAD SHE DIDN'T REMOVE ME.
Those days.. Were the best.. Ofcourse now there's no tension of studying like we used to do but still nothing can match those days.
I don't know where is she currently, but may she succeed in whatever field she is currently..
Funny bit? This chat is from 2016 :D I mean it's been 10 years literally man.. Everything has changed in those 10 years.
We didn't had phone during school days.. So, everything was real..
Idk what will change in upcoming 10 years.
Idk I'm gonna read the whole chat tonight xD
I opened my main facebook ID and the first came in my notification was my very FIRST crush during school days..
I read the whole chat and I gotta tell you I still remember each & every moment I spent talking to her :)
I used to listen to this song named "Na na na na by J Star" while talking to her :)
She was always calm & composed..
SHE WAS GOOD.. SHES STILL IN MY FRIENDLIST. IM GLAD SHE DIDN'T REMOVE ME.
Those days.. Were the best.. Ofcourse now there's no tension of studying like we used to do but still nothing can match those days.
I don't know where is she currently, but may she succeed in whatever field she is currently..
Funny bit? This chat is from 2016 :D I mean it's been 10 years literally man.. Everything has changed in those 10 years.
We didn't had phone during school days.. So, everything was real..
Idk what will change in upcoming 10 years.
Idk I'm gonna read the whole chat tonight xD
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Saw her today. Haven’t looked at anyone else since then. Didn’t talk to her though, didn’t wanna start the conversation.
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