Lōud Librāry

Hey there, I hope you do remember me well I mean you definetely should!
I am you afterall,not a lot of time has passed since I have written my first letter to you showing you a glimpse to your(my own ) future to be honest it feels like eternity has passed since then, time is the biggest player, it plays with us really well its a trickster really sometimes it goes way so fast and same time way too slow. But we grow up..by number, size and experience never the heart...

Am not sure where you are in the life right now or at what stage you are on, that I have gone through but try to never loose that positivity...you will learn the meaning of being positive soon when life gives you no where to go but essentially yourself...I miss the way, you used to be so innocent,cute and pretty, me is you and you is me so...I miss that time when I didnt know about heartbreaks, money, taxes, how life can bring you down to your kness, I miss how I wasnt the one responsible for managing things oh gosh the funny part i didnt even know the reason why we memorised gave exams I was so unaware until life became serious from being a bright student came crashing down to barely passing( just desclaimer you are doing your best in the future) I know when my words reach to you maybe you still would be back home...not knowing what I am even saying but thats the bliss of being unaware, your life will go in a blink , you’ll meet new people but sweets never rely on them no one is sweet and innocent like you people can be like venom which is a dangerous substance it can spread widely anywhere...and they give their venom to you but do not ever absorb it..stay away from it or it'll ruin your heart and mind they will never understand you the way you want them to...I do not want to take your goodness away but never over do it... you have a life and try to live it to the fullest...and let me tell you our family is going to be the biggest hurdle..but don't loose faith in them one day which I still cannot guarantee even for me but one day you’ll be your own person when the warm breeze will hug you, when the fruits of your own hardwork will reward you, when you will enough for your self...and maybe maybe a partner who will love you for who you are ( here you go me trying to daydream)

Sometimes I look for those big moments and overlook the small ones whereas you used to love the small movements..find happiness in them you know let me tell you a secret am an adult now, officially 18 few days ago..and I for some reason didn't feel it at all...its because when we grow up we realise that things never go the way you want ever see roses are red but their stems have thorns they might seem pretty from afar but go to pick them out they hurt, life can be beautiful but beautiful but you cannot get closer to the facade it provides just like the roses, cling to the reality and it will become your best friend maybe one day it will challenge you and you will thrive on it.

Hug your friends for me as I miss them so much but we change....people change....guess what even locations change I miss the fact that I can never live my teenage years with them, just see them enjoy moments from a status far far away, it aches...so bad I miss what I never had jealousy calls but I am happy they are doing well not like they might not have any problems but still.....

Kitten never stop talking and being curious, do not get discouraged at what people say about you, you are a kid, HOW ARE YOU SUPPOSED TO KNOW NOT TO TALK..MUCH AND..JUST BE KID... I hate adults for that and am sure you do aswell, I also did back then...don't ever care and youll be way happier.

I wont tell you how exhausted, confused, messed up I am....as you don't know how that feels yet...but be prepared...

This is getting a lot longer now and my eyes are getting sleepy so till next time...And next letter I will tell you more hopefully...hehe

I love you lot more than others you have ever thought loved you enough but it will never be enough you deserve much more.. now I definitely need to stop writing..sighs*

Yours,
Myself:)

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