>RFK-jr rescuing an autistic child out of one of the red-40 dye opium dens. (colorized, 2030)

Concurrency in C is just frustrating enough that I'm about a hair's width from just redoing vxggr in Golang

Fully sunk costing rn

I described a dream to my friends today:

"Interesting dream. I was dicking around when my friend <name> came by with some of his friends holding a whiteboard with the words "faggot menu" on it, and then a bunch of food items, and when I saw it I asked if it was pride day"

And later, one of them came up with this

The logistics of chaos magick are interesting to me because it's basically 40k's immaterium minus the chaos gods

The base assertion that "nothing but belief matters" is in and of itself is an interesting philosophical statement, akin to "reality is perception". In fact, it basically states "reality is perception", or at least implies it, for if chaos magick is to have any weight it must be capable of influencing reality, and by choosing a belief system you are fundamentally changing your perception of reality by imposing a structure on meta-reality

Another thing I find interesting about the practice is the goal of ego death, or rather structural anarchy. Intentionally switching between and entirely devoting oneself to different belief systems in an attempt to lay the structure of the belief, and ego of the practitioner, bare, is a really strange and ingenious thing. To carry the contradictions of being a Christian and pagan, for example, can not be easy, and to do so you must either reject the concepts entirely - and thus fail in your practice - or truly believe in the merits of chaos magick to soothe the cognitive dissonance. That's smart as hell, even if I disagree with the overall notion

The other thing I find interesting is that chaos magick manages to, despite directly trying to prevent this to an extent because of the ego death, get its practitioners to believe in themselves

Any problem can be solved by adopting the correct belief system at the right time, for the right amount of time. And if one isn't enough, use as many as is necessary to achieve your goal

Ultimately, it's a self belief that's being cultivated. Sure, there's the indirection of "believe everything" to make it more palatable, but the ultimate result is giving someone a framework by which they can tackle problems in their life by temporarily adopting other time-tested frameworks. If Christianity doesn't solve it, maybe Buddhism does, and if it doesn't maybe paganism has an answer. Wishy-washy as it may be, it gives its devotees options

I think chaos magick as a religious system is weak. If belief is all that matters, all that's necessary is the creation and devotion to an artificial God, and all would be yours. This is obviously not true, as if it was, we'd be under the thumb of the first practitioner to consider it. Furthermore, the belief in chaos magick fundamentally prevents the actual genuine belief in any other religion. You will always have that seed of doubt in the back of your mind, given that the religion is incompatible with chaos magick (most are)

Overall, interesting worldview. The potential for personal growth is great, but it's not particularly coherent as a belief system on its own

She right angling on my drive till my almonds activate

wtf my phone is pregnant. the battery is ballooning and swelling up. it also is really warm to the touch

in all seriousness, was charging my phone, prepping to fill computer with mayonnaise. phone was being weird, not holding charge. picked up phone, it felt really hot. phone felt kind of bent, flip it around, the back of phone is cracked and battery is swelling up lmfao

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Can anyone versed in neopaganism explain why "lol Jesus was Jewish" is supposed to be an insult

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