I feel like my entire being has been ground into dust

It pisses me off when I find out a piece of art I like had less planning than I thought. It makes the meaning I take from it feel less genuine

Mind you I have no idea of what I would make it do so suggestions are welcome

I have made a serious and continuous lapse of judgment in writing the encryption suite of functions for vxggr and now I need to refactor them all to not be retarded

I should just delete the xalloc functions from my code and deal with the consequences