I constantly fail over and over again.

It's hard to understand that's part of the game.

I demand so much success it hurts deeply.

Failure is a name I can't accept.

My brother can see it in me..
He knows I'm so hard on myself for a reason..
I've always been this way.

Sometimes we both just sit in silence and think deeply of the life we should be living.

Trusting one day it will all work out.

I never doubted him..

He never doubted me..

We both know life will be beautiful in the end.

If I lose it all today..

Where did everyone go?

"I know I put these problems on myself.. ok you're right I see the storm coming."

Armed and dangerous I know they all want to harm me.

I wonder.. who will be the first to notice.. I'm gods gift.. it's not luck.

Can't see me change overnight.. it feels good.. im growing.

I'm more humble now.. cut me off.. I don't even like you all.

I haven't heard from her in a while.. I wonder how it's going.. sorry.

Cool.. by myself.. back to the normal.

Love is never ending..

Confusion could end beautiful love..

Love isn't confusing.

She said..

"I don't understand you Colin."

I said..

"Baby.. maybe you aren't meant to."

"If I tell you what I've been through, it might fuck with your mental."

She said..

"Colin I want to, I want to understand you.."

"Why hold so much inside?"

"You have such a wonderful mind, talk to me.."

I said..

"Listen.."

"We have all the time in the world."
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Nowadays all I think about is my character..

Building a man so strong..

My future kids will look up to a superhero.

If I lose it all today..

Where did everyone go?

"I know I put these problems on myself.. ok you're right I see the storm coming."

Armed and dangerous I know they all want to harm me.

I wonder.. who will be the first to notice.. I'm gods gift.. it's not luck.

Can't see me change overnight.. it feels good.. im growing.

I'm more humble now.. cut me off.. I don't even like you all.

I haven't heard from her in a while.. I wonder how it's going.. sorry.

Cool.. by myself.. back to the normal.

My body is feeling weak I can't sleep.
I feel I'm losing time I'm constantly paranoid.
My life seems to be getting cut short..
I don't open up I've been that way since a child.
People I grew up with aren't around anymore.
You can ask me how I feel about it an I won't speak about it.
I'm ok most of the time I'm not but I'll be alright.
I fall down then get right up never did I once think about giving up.
There's a lot they don't know.
Keep a smile on your face nobody told me it would be this way.

Don’t dress for the job / life you have

Dress for the job / life you want

Colin is known for a lot of reasons.

Style is a huge part.

Even on my darkest days..
I forget the accomplishments and the marks I've made.
On the verge of quitting..
I always knew never to walk away.
I've been doubted by some onlookers..
Surrounded by stickup kids and wrong pushers.
Violent skies I have these dark clouds hanging over me..
It has me thinking that I'm not where I'm supposed to be.
I constantly go through all the motions..
Somehow I always knew that l will be alright.
I never wanted to live like you people..
All you people care about is how you think others should live..
Losers..
Everything you all do is boring in every way mixed with fake reality degenerate behavior..
Keep looking into my eyes with pointless directions..
I will never be seen around any of you.
My life could've went wrong so many nights..
My life went wrong so many nights..
Im in this shit forever..
Check my schedule.. you have to wait your turn.
Try against me.. you must be crazy.
Living life.. got some money.. I know.. Im a target.
Hold on.. I stayed down for so long.
Rain and dirt left me in the mud.. I never let up.
I said.. I have learned.. I never do.
I am a star.. you must understand.. I will shine.
I promise.. I will blame it on myself.. if I can't save them.

They say I'm on the come up..
They don't know I'm on the come down.

Teachers always said I wouldn't be shit..
Im solo right now in this coupe going through the motions.

I can see why they say im going crazy chasing paper..
I wake up with millions on my mind.

All talks about my life thinking they know colin..
I'm probably doing the opposite.

When you see me now..
They love me now.

Baby..

You ask me why I'm so paranoid..

If you look into my bright blue eyes deep enough..

All with start to make sense..
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Most times young men feel a little bit confused..

They take a hit or take a blow & think that’s it..

Often times it is an opportunity and I know this is what guys miss.

They never get forced into some kind of situation where there is massive potential on the upside.

Invisible feelings mixed with brutal reality expectations.

Cowards fucking give up I have seen enough.

You are put on this earth for a reason regardless of your circumstances as a man you must perform.

I perform regardless.