Values are a precarious thing. It is on reflection, that I can recognise that my greatest challenges have arisen not because I was doing that which I perceived was wrong but rather perceived was doing right.

Morals and values are inherent in us all and they control the tide in our lives. We choose when the tide goes in and out... Even though it might be very subconscious.

It takes wisdom to overwrite what we perceive as right as wrong. Such wisdom lends itself to experience and its fair share of blood, sweat and tears. You see, wisdom seems high and lofty and even unattainable. It is only by experiencing the application of ourselves in life that we glean the precious pearls which wisdom gives us all.

If we apply such wisdom we can divide a matter if we wish or rather, we will recognise the value of the whole and not just that which affects an independent soul.

As for me, I am learning to reach beyond my past and survey the dearth of that which was only right or wrong in my head. There is no beginning or end to it except for that which I create.

Be careful that which you divide for it ends and starts so much more. The possibilities have always been endless.

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The deluded illusions of the masses who sit upon their asses to consume such dribble of which further leads them into the oblivion of their own minds, as they ever devolve into unconscious slaves at the hands of a system of godless intent.
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The deluded illusions of the masses who sit upon their asses to consume such dribble of which further leads them into the oblivion of their own minds, as they ever devolve into unconscious slaves at the hands of a system of godless intent.
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You are the double edged sword of spirit and truth that divides everything you experience.

What we exist within is a whole that we subconsciously divide into polarity of right and wrong or good and evil or any other polarity you can think of. You see, everything is but one divided within the conscious mind which we behold - consciously or unconsciously.

We wield ourselves again and again and we cast judgement on a matter, dividing it to reflect our own values. Does it make a matter right or wrong? It certainly can in our own mind but what about another's?

Everything is made up of the one and serves the one. We, as many projections of that one like to distinguish ourselves as separate but indeed we are all of the one spirit and exist within the one truth.

One person's good is another person's evil. Until we bend this around to perceive the whole, we will never get the full picture. Without doing so, we are forever in danger of playing out the game of polarity.

There is so much more than the eye can see. You can pierce through so much more than just the surface into the heart of a matter.

Making the eye single is a task of a lifetime. It is only when you make it single that you can perceive the sword for all that it is and not just its two fine edges.

Must you divide? What are you really conquering? What is your point?

kirstenhuntkh.notion.site/musings

In the hush of birch trees and falling leaves,
two hearts lean together without needing words.
The world outside is wide and restless,
but here, the breath becomes steady.

Fringe sways like soft prayer,
beads hold the patience of handmade time.
A lodge stands behind them, quiet and faithful,
and a horse waits close, loyal as truth.

This is not love made for showing off.
This is love that protects.
Love that listens.
Love that stays when seasons change.

Hold someone like you mean peace.
Speak like you want the future to be gentle.
Choose loyalty over ego,
choose respect over pride.

Because the strongest couples
do not conquer the world together.
They guard what is sacred together.
They heal what is heavy together.

If you ever find a love like this,
do not treat it like luck.
Treat it like responsibility.
Treat it like ceremony.
Treat it like home.

Native American Heritage

You are a living, breathing paradox that collapses and enfolds into yourself.

You see, you are the encapsulation of existence which undergirds all subjective judgement.

What if you simply are and all else is but subjective to the who that you are? You are not that of face value but something deeper unspoken and yet shared amongst us all.

Read on: https://kirstenhuntkh.notion.site/limitless

There is tension in the rope and that rope is you.
You are learning what it means to stretch day in and day out into new reaches. The tug of war continues on and it often feels uncertain vying between different polarities - how far will you go and where is the point of no return?
Your rope is seemingly endless and the length to which you will go depends on the pull as invisible as it may seem. What is the pull which drives you? Will you go this way or another?
Tension is but a balance that you are creating within yourself. You are learning how to weigh up everything in the game of life. In the process you discover yourself as the reconciler of all that you stretch yourself into.
Are you feeling frayed? Rediscover yourself, do not tie yourself up in knots.
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They Hate That You Survived Them.

No one resents you more
than the person who tried to diminish you
and failed.

Not because you fought loudly.
Not because you exposed them.
Not because you “won.”

Because you didn’t collapse.

They expected erosion.
They expected the criticism to sink in.
The silence to destabilise you.
The confusion to take root.

They expected you to shrink
so their behaviour would make sense.

And when you didn’t,
something in them tightened.

Here’s the part that stings when you finally admit it:
Some people never wanted reconciliation.
They wanted confirmation.

Confirmation that their words worked.
That their narrative stuck.
That their version of you became your identity.

They needed to see damage.
Not repair.
Because if you broke,
they were powerful.
If you doubted yourself,
they were right.
If you stayed orbiting their opinion,
they mattered.

But when you rebuild quietly…
when you stabilise without them…
when you stop reacting…
when you stop explaining…

you do something far more threatening than fighting back.

You invalidate their story.

If you’re still standing,
then they weren’t right about you.
If you’re clear,
then their distortion didn’t define you.
If you’re growing,
then their attempt to shrink you failed.

And failure is intolerable
for someone who built their identity on dominance.

That’s why the hostility doesn’t fade.
It sharpens.

That’s why they still watch you.
Still take subtle shots.
Still frame your stability as coldness.
Your boundaries as cruelty.
Your distance as immaturity.

They need you to look damaged
so they don’t have to look destructive.

Your strength isn’t what unsettles them.
Your independence is.
Because independence removes leverage.

You are no longer reacting.
No longer seeking clarity.
No longer orbiting their version of events.
And when control disappears,
resentment replaces it.

Here’s the reframe that lands deep:
Their resentment is not proof you did something wrong.
It’s proof you exited the role they needed you to play.
You stopped participating in your own diminishment.

And when someone’s power depended on your compliance,
your refusal feels like betrayal.
Not because you harmed them.
Because you stopped allowing harm.

This is the part most survivors struggle to internalise:
You don’t get punished for being weak.
You get punished for becoming untouchable.
Because once you cannot be destabilised,
confused,
shrunk,
or emotionally hooked -

you are no longer usable.

And that’s what they hate.

Not you;
The loss of access.

Let them resent it.

Your stability is not aggression.
Your clarity is not cruelty.
Your distance is not immaturity.

It’s evidence.

They tried to rewrite you.
And you remained yourself anyway.

That’s not revenge.
That’s sovereignty.
And nothing unsettles a controlling person more
than someone who cannot be broken quietly anymore.

The Self

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