In my lineage there is programming on the feminine side that in order to survive you must have a man...at all costs.
No matter the pain, no matter the confusion, the isolation, the abuse, the drama, the lies, the deceit, the amount of money or lack thereof you’d better hook up and stay cemented to that person, even if it means your own demise.
My programming tells me that men who can’t show up for me, try to dominate me, control me and use me are the ones I need to fight for, to try and mother, parent, and fix, like a puzzle I kept constantly trying to find the missing pieces for. And not one to give up easily, I will fight almost to my death.
I fought like hell for a spell, a delusion I was under.
You can see this in the world now—people self abusing in order to fight for an absolute and utter spell and delusion they are under too. It’s programming, conditioning that has kept men and women in this constant push/pull, runner/chaser role for eons. It is, more than anything an addiction to anything or anyone that takes us away from ourselves and from being at cause in our lives and puts the focus on the outside.
This is part of the programming I am shedding, and it’s a huge part of my healing. I see it so magnificently working it’s way through my daughter, Emma as well.
I am learning to drop the game, this spell and come home to the I am.
And I know and trust, that as I do, the partner I seek does the work on his side as well, breaking his own spells and programming to come info his full power as well.
And I learn to love the dance alone, for now.
And I know the more I truly love my own dance, the more powerful it will be with him.
No matter the pain, no matter the confusion, the isolation, the abuse, the drama, the lies, the deceit, the amount of money or lack thereof you’d better hook up and stay cemented to that person, even if it means your own demise.
My programming tells me that men who can’t show up for me, try to dominate me, control me and use me are the ones I need to fight for, to try and mother, parent, and fix, like a puzzle I kept constantly trying to find the missing pieces for. And not one to give up easily, I will fight almost to my death.
I fought like hell for a spell, a delusion I was under.
You can see this in the world now—people self abusing in order to fight for an absolute and utter spell and delusion they are under too. It’s programming, conditioning that has kept men and women in this constant push/pull, runner/chaser role for eons. It is, more than anything an addiction to anything or anyone that takes us away from ourselves and from being at cause in our lives and puts the focus on the outside.
This is part of the programming I am shedding, and it’s a huge part of my healing. I see it so magnificently working it’s way through my daughter, Emma as well.
I am learning to drop the game, this spell and come home to the I am.
And I know and trust, that as I do, the partner I seek does the work on his side as well, breaking his own spells and programming to come info his full power as well.
And I learn to love the dance alone, for now.
And I know the more I truly love my own dance, the more powerful it will be with him.
weep for humanity. I cry for all those so viciously caught in the web of lies so thick they can’t apply logic or reasoning, who can’t see the corruption behind the powers running this carnival act. That they would take free loving people, many of whom have survived so much grief, loss to health or loss of loved ones due to these systems already and vilify them as white privileged, selfish apartheidists, when in fact that is what they do.
It is a dastardly deed they are doing.
I also see a new earth forming, a new reality, a timeline if you will, and I know in my very being that all things, all loss, grief, heartache and trauma I have experienced did the spiritual priming to bring me into my being, a reflection of my Creator.
I am a human.
I am being.
I am here for you, and you are here for me, and we can each hold the container for others that fall to their knees when the floor falls out, when the grief knocks us over.
Please never forget why you are here, and if you still are wondering why, go look at a child’s face, smudged with a popsicle, hear the bark of a dog, touch your loved ones as if it’s the last time you’ll get to. Close your eyes, think of a loved one passed or not near you, feel their essence, for love knows no boundaries, it is behind space and time.
Now is the time.
We are awakening, and no one can prevent these souls rising.
It is a dastardly deed they are doing.
I also see a new earth forming, a new reality, a timeline if you will, and I know in my very being that all things, all loss, grief, heartache and trauma I have experienced did the spiritual priming to bring me into my being, a reflection of my Creator.
I am a human.
I am being.
I am here for you, and you are here for me, and we can each hold the container for others that fall to their knees when the floor falls out, when the grief knocks us over.
Please never forget why you are here, and if you still are wondering why, go look at a child’s face, smudged with a popsicle, hear the bark of a dog, touch your loved ones as if it’s the last time you’ll get to. Close your eyes, think of a loved one passed or not near you, feel their essence, for love knows no boundaries, it is behind space and time.
Now is the time.
We are awakening, and no one can prevent these souls rising.
When you really start to understand the way reality works and how it is a maze you have constructed prior to incarnating in order to expand and grow you truly can step into your own power.
Life becomes fun, spontaneous and exciting.
There is no us versus them, there is no lack, no suffering, it is only you experiencing reality as a reflection of your Creator.
Please don’t be scared of the work, the pain, and the grief you may be experiencing, for just as we break down a muscle during weightlifting in order to build it back up, so too must we experience a breakdown in order to build the resiliency, strength and expansion necessary to bring us into our highest selves. These lower level densities use fear as a tool to try to keep us locked in with them. Send them love and light and be on your way up and out of that nonsense.
Do not be moved by the reality (or unreality) around you. You stay unmoved, and the reality will shift around you.
Do you realize how truly powerful you really are? Have you grasped how you create the reality you live in, no matter the external circumstances you may SEE on the external, that when we shift the internal the external shifts with us?
You are here for a purpose.
You are magic embedded in a physical body.
Don’t be deceived by the hype around you, and ha ha ha...I’m not here to “sell” you anything, I’m just here to remind myself and us all how exquisitely masterful we really are.
I love you and send you all my love. ❤️
Life becomes fun, spontaneous and exciting.
There is no us versus them, there is no lack, no suffering, it is only you experiencing reality as a reflection of your Creator.
Please don’t be scared of the work, the pain, and the grief you may be experiencing, for just as we break down a muscle during weightlifting in order to build it back up, so too must we experience a breakdown in order to build the resiliency, strength and expansion necessary to bring us into our highest selves. These lower level densities use fear as a tool to try to keep us locked in with them. Send them love and light and be on your way up and out of that nonsense.
Do not be moved by the reality (or unreality) around you. You stay unmoved, and the reality will shift around you.
Do you realize how truly powerful you really are? Have you grasped how you create the reality you live in, no matter the external circumstances you may SEE on the external, that when we shift the internal the external shifts with us?
You are here for a purpose.
You are magic embedded in a physical body.
Don’t be deceived by the hype around you, and ha ha ha...I’m not here to “sell” you anything, I’m just here to remind myself and us all how exquisitely masterful we really are.
I love you and send you all my love. ❤️
Humans are up leveling, and those that aren’t are dying a slow death, heads down, full of stagnant generational trauma and patterns who believe, like I once did, that this is all you get. That this is how it’s supposed to be. The incessant drone of wake up, eat, consume, shop, f*ck, sleep and repeat.
And to that I say, Hell no. I refuse to compromise my soul or settle for less than the magnificence I am.
I am here for better, for more, for the push that propels me out of bed every morning because I’ve seen, I’ve tasted my freedom and I’m never going back.
I’m not talking a push to prove, a push to buy, a push to make more money, be prettier, get a better job, partner, house, that’s all bullshit tentacles that keep us inside the matrix, attached to a fu*king illusion we’ll never get to.
I’m talking get out of bed to be me.
To create.
To love.
To wring the absolute last drop out of this life that I possibly can, to love as BIG as possible and when I’m done, my intention is to leave this place better than I found it.
And for someone that tried to end my life multiple times I’m gonna call that some big time evolving taking place within me.
The secret they don’t want you to know is that you are the question and you are the answer and YOU hold all of the power.
You are the I am.
And to that I say, Hell no. I refuse to compromise my soul or settle for less than the magnificence I am.
I am here for better, for more, for the push that propels me out of bed every morning because I’ve seen, I’ve tasted my freedom and I’m never going back.
I’m not talking a push to prove, a push to buy, a push to make more money, be prettier, get a better job, partner, house, that’s all bullshit tentacles that keep us inside the matrix, attached to a fu*king illusion we’ll never get to.
I’m talking get out of bed to be me.
To create.
To love.
To wring the absolute last drop out of this life that I possibly can, to love as BIG as possible and when I’m done, my intention is to leave this place better than I found it.
And for someone that tried to end my life multiple times I’m gonna call that some big time evolving taking place within me.
The secret they don’t want you to know is that you are the question and you are the answer and YOU hold all of the power.
You are the I am.
Greater good is subjective to the person claiming it. I’m confident that Harry Truman dropping the bomb on Hiroshima and Pol Pot executing Cambodians both believed they were on the right side of history as well, and were aligned with what they believed to be the “greater good.”
Virtue signaling, shaming, belittling, fear mongering, ad hominem attacks, these don’t make you a saint, they make you an executor of the human right to bodily autonomy.
But please, continue building castles in the sky where you ruminate on hating a group of people so much that you fail to even see the plot against you.
Your vitriol is now your drug.
Have at it.
Virtue signaling, shaming, belittling, fear mongering, ad hominem attacks, these don’t make you a saint, they make you an executor of the human right to bodily autonomy.
But please, continue building castles in the sky where you ruminate on hating a group of people so much that you fail to even see the plot against you.
Your vitriol is now your drug.
Have at it.
Hear me now:
No one is coming to save you. No one is coming to fix this and make it right, to make bad people straighten up, see the error of their ways and do the right thing.
No one is coming to wake up the blind who can’t see it, the dead who won’t hear it and the mute who won’t speak about it. There will be no lightning bolt or immediate karma played out here where this evil is on its back screaming for mercy.
There is no president, no politician, no scythe of justice that we will cut through this fog of corruption, at least anytime soon. No Bible verses that will cover the gaping hole being created by their misdeeds.
Yes, God can work miracles, but first, you must understand that you are the miracle.
You are the way.
And this is your test.
God requires participation and collaboration on our part. He doesn’t lift this burden for us, He is the movement, the momentum that moves within us when we start to shift.
Ask yourself not what you need to do, but who do you need to BE to be in this world, with the RESULTS that you want?
Courageous.
Fearless.
Faithful.
Positively oriented.
Resolute.
Strong.
Loving.
Did you know, you can be ALL of those ☝🏻things right now? That you have that power to step into BEing those things today?
You are the savior you’ve been looking for, and God would love more than anything for you to find your power and use it along with Him.
Please ask Him for help, but understand you have to step into the power you were created with. You have to make your way to the light, which is within you.
No one is coming to save you. No one is coming to fix this and make it right, to make bad people straighten up, see the error of their ways and do the right thing.
No one is coming to wake up the blind who can’t see it, the dead who won’t hear it and the mute who won’t speak about it. There will be no lightning bolt or immediate karma played out here where this evil is on its back screaming for mercy.
There is no president, no politician, no scythe of justice that we will cut through this fog of corruption, at least anytime soon. No Bible verses that will cover the gaping hole being created by their misdeeds.
Yes, God can work miracles, but first, you must understand that you are the miracle.
You are the way.
And this is your test.
God requires participation and collaboration on our part. He doesn’t lift this burden for us, He is the movement, the momentum that moves within us when we start to shift.
Ask yourself not what you need to do, but who do you need to BE to be in this world, with the RESULTS that you want?
Courageous.
Fearless.
Faithful.
Positively oriented.
Resolute.
Strong.
Loving.
Did you know, you can be ALL of those ☝🏻things right now? That you have that power to step into BEing those things today?
You are the savior you’ve been looking for, and God would love more than anything for you to find your power and use it along with Him.
Please ask Him for help, but understand you have to step into the power you were created with. You have to make your way to the light, which is within you.
Except..the ones who know how to unlock the matrix they have tried to keep us in.
i will not be bound to negative entity attachments. I will LIVE my life as a free human being, which means I also do not buy into the negative emotional energy they try to enslave me with like guilt and shame.
I will not be shamed or guilted into self abuse because you think I’m selfish when I question what’s going on here. Don’t you think if a thing like bat soup (ha-ha-remember that’s how it “started”) was going to take out the human population we’d have been wiped off the earth eons ago.
Get real.
Get really real with the delusion you are under, because what you may VIEW as reality may in fact be a view carefully constructed by powers to manipulate you into your very own self destruction.
i will not be bound to negative entity attachments. I will LIVE my life as a free human being, which means I also do not buy into the negative emotional energy they try to enslave me with like guilt and shame.
I will not be shamed or guilted into self abuse because you think I’m selfish when I question what’s going on here. Don’t you think if a thing like bat soup (ha-ha-remember that’s how it “started”) was going to take out the human population we’d have been wiped off the earth eons ago.
Get real.
Get really real with the delusion you are under, because what you may VIEW as reality may in fact be a view carefully constructed by powers to manipulate you into your very own self destruction.
Some people rally the war cry against social media influencers and health advocates who they say are running a money scheme to make money while the same people support a medical system that makes BILLIONS each year helping keep people sick.
Open your eyes.
The truth hurts but once you embrace it it’s f*cking amazing.
If you still think these systems are out to help you you have zero idea what is really going on.
Open your eyes.
The truth hurts but once you embrace it it’s f*cking amazing.
If you still think these systems are out to help you you have zero idea what is really going on.