Someone called me earlier today and told me my account, this account was back up. No response from Instagram to the numerous support emails i sent them over the weekend, so I have no idea what happened, there is no reason so therefore i assume it could be taken down at any point again.
Here’s a story for you:
A few years ago, before I had really done my trauma work I was still in proving mode-proving I was worthy, proving I was smart, proving to those who had abused me that they made a huge mistake, and part of that PROVING, was growing my social media, because that’s what our culture values. As my account grew and I posted my truth, which was “misinformation” I always wondered what would happen to me if it did get deleted, since it had been such a trophy I had sought after to seek my own validation. But when Alec called me last Friday to tell me it was gone, we both sat there in shock for a minute or two, we’d always known they could get deleted, but after we took it all in, we both literally said to one another, “Let’s go rebuild then...”
A few years ago, I’d have still been in bed suffering the loss, because I was still placing value on things outside of me instead of truly knowing my worth. Seeing this account go under, with all of my writings, my story and showing me, yes me, (I go back and reread my old posts as a benchmark for my growth) was a real blow, but I quickly unclipped from that wow is me, or why me, I’m not going there now. These forces want us crippled on the floor all emotional, they FEED off of that energy, and those of us who know this and have done the work to stay in self see weak plays like that coming a mile away.
We don’t play their game, we don’t chase the carrot of hope and safety they dangle, because we know that real hope lies within us and with God, not man. Don’t buy into the fear game, create one of your own with hope, resiliency and dig down deep for grit. It’s there. You came here for this, don’t forget that.
Here’s a story for you:
A few years ago, before I had really done my trauma work I was still in proving mode-proving I was worthy, proving I was smart, proving to those who had abused me that they made a huge mistake, and part of that PROVING, was growing my social media, because that’s what our culture values. As my account grew and I posted my truth, which was “misinformation” I always wondered what would happen to me if it did get deleted, since it had been such a trophy I had sought after to seek my own validation. But when Alec called me last Friday to tell me it was gone, we both sat there in shock for a minute or two, we’d always known they could get deleted, but after we took it all in, we both literally said to one another, “Let’s go rebuild then...”
A few years ago, I’d have still been in bed suffering the loss, because I was still placing value on things outside of me instead of truly knowing my worth. Seeing this account go under, with all of my writings, my story and showing me, yes me, (I go back and reread my old posts as a benchmark for my growth) was a real blow, but I quickly unclipped from that wow is me, or why me, I’m not going there now. These forces want us crippled on the floor all emotional, they FEED off of that energy, and those of us who know this and have done the work to stay in self see weak plays like that coming a mile away.
We don’t play their game, we don’t chase the carrot of hope and safety they dangle, because we know that real hope lies within us and with God, not man. Don’t buy into the fear game, create one of your own with hope, resiliency and dig down deep for grit. It’s there. You came here for this, don’t forget that.
One train of thought seeks more government dependence and control, don’t call it anything other than that, and less health, academic and financial freedom for everyone.
Some people still can’t/won’t see this because maybe, just possibly their wounds and trauma are so deep, so embedded in them and have been repeating generationally (yes, our systems were set up as racist, no question) that they have settled into a sense of entitlement, of victimhood and that they’re owed something. Our government owes us governing in accordance with what the people want, period.
But what they aren’t seeing is that they are still promoting the system that set it up this way, by asking for MORE control from it. This system only changes when people see the game and no longer acknowledge the need for it as it stands, and this comes first, from unclicking from the belief that your government is here to save you and secondly, energetically stepping into personal empowerment, into the mindset of personal liberty. It’s again, like leaving an abusive relationship. You can stay inside of it and possibly get food and shelter, but these will be at the discretion of your abuser, not on your terms and you’re really at their mercy.
Are you a sovereign being? Of course you are. Has everyone in America been treated as such in the past? Most certainly not, but unfortunately many, many are still seeing this through the lens of what WAS, and not what currently IS, because the cage of entrapment, once real for them, disappeared long ago, but they still want to stay in it and scream at others that fly around outside of it.
Be free. In this country we are all free, but that is very much in jeopardy because some of you want to give the key back to the ones that still want you to stay locked in the cage, because more than anything, they don’t want you to think you can do it on your own.
We’re free in our minds, first.
Some people still can’t/won’t see this because maybe, just possibly their wounds and trauma are so deep, so embedded in them and have been repeating generationally (yes, our systems were set up as racist, no question) that they have settled into a sense of entitlement, of victimhood and that they’re owed something. Our government owes us governing in accordance with what the people want, period.
But what they aren’t seeing is that they are still promoting the system that set it up this way, by asking for MORE control from it. This system only changes when people see the game and no longer acknowledge the need for it as it stands, and this comes first, from unclicking from the belief that your government is here to save you and secondly, energetically stepping into personal empowerment, into the mindset of personal liberty. It’s again, like leaving an abusive relationship. You can stay inside of it and possibly get food and shelter, but these will be at the discretion of your abuser, not on your terms and you’re really at their mercy.
Are you a sovereign being? Of course you are. Has everyone in America been treated as such in the past? Most certainly not, but unfortunately many, many are still seeing this through the lens of what WAS, and not what currently IS, because the cage of entrapment, once real for them, disappeared long ago, but they still want to stay in it and scream at others that fly around outside of it.
Be free. In this country we are all free, but that is very much in jeopardy because some of you want to give the key back to the ones that still want you to stay locked in the cage, because more than anything, they don’t want you to think you can do it on your own.
We’re free in our minds, first.
There is ALWAYS something we can do to help this situation, because dark forces focus on bringing more people down into the void with them, and we can simply say No through our actions, by living our lives in accordance with higher vibrations, love and empowerment over fear. We do have a choice, we really do, and they want you to think you don’t and succumb to the fear.
Your ability to stay in a vibration of love is magnetic and pulls others around you into it too, or it casts those out and away from you that aren’t yet ready to lift that veil up and raise their consciousness. Either way, each of us has our own individual work to do in order to collectively overcome. Raise up. Rise up.
Sending love to all of you. This planet is full of some amazing human beings. ❤️
Your ability to stay in a vibration of love is magnetic and pulls others around you into it too, or it casts those out and away from you that aren’t yet ready to lift that veil up and raise their consciousness. Either way, each of us has our own individual work to do in order to collectively overcome. Raise up. Rise up.
Sending love to all of you. This planet is full of some amazing human beings. ❤️
The very first sign of abuse is confusion, and if you’re really attuned, you’re going to feel it in your body first. They want you to completely vacate that connection you have with your deep inner knowing and hand it all over to their science, their logic, and their rules without questioning.
In any situation this is folly, and in this one, it’s deadly.
Keep reconnecting to self and to God, this is where we should be placing our trust, firmly, because they are trying to split the human psyche in two.
Stay with this and do not relent as the dark forces are trying to pull people in. Stay connected to that from which you came, which is our Creator, who is Love. The darkness cannot defeat the highest calling of a human being, but the human has to seek that calling passionately.
In any situation this is folly, and in this one, it’s deadly.
Keep reconnecting to self and to God, this is where we should be placing our trust, firmly, because they are trying to split the human psyche in two.
Stay with this and do not relent as the dark forces are trying to pull people in. Stay connected to that from which you came, which is our Creator, who is Love. The darkness cannot defeat the highest calling of a human being, but the human has to seek that calling passionately.
I have three questions for you:
1. At this moment, are you safe physically?
2. Are you safe emotionally, no one is threatening you or abusing you right this very moment?
3. Can you control your breath?
If you answered Yes to these, then right now, you have the power to create your reality. It doesn’t matter what’s going on outside of you, what threats are being made, that’s all perception and it’s an illusion you’re being shown that is trying to provoke fear in you. Step back into yourself and your truth and let these waves of fear and anxiety wash over you, just observe them, they can’t hurt you. Sit with them in non judgment and they will make their way up and out of you. Observe them as they do. You are merely a watcher, an observer of their passage.
You are here on this planet to be doing the work you’re being asked to do right now, and it’s hard, damn hard work. To detach from illusions, to experience pain, grief and fear and alchemize them back into love is not for the weak, and that’s why you’re here
And you are never alone, God is with you. He is within you and you are within him, but this is your job on this planet to do, with divine help and guidance. But that fear factor? That’s all illusion. Stay grounded in your purpose and your truth. Sending you love. ❤️
1. At this moment, are you safe physically?
2. Are you safe emotionally, no one is threatening you or abusing you right this very moment?
3. Can you control your breath?
If you answered Yes to these, then right now, you have the power to create your reality. It doesn’t matter what’s going on outside of you, what threats are being made, that’s all perception and it’s an illusion you’re being shown that is trying to provoke fear in you. Step back into yourself and your truth and let these waves of fear and anxiety wash over you, just observe them, they can’t hurt you. Sit with them in non judgment and they will make their way up and out of you. Observe them as they do. You are merely a watcher, an observer of their passage.
You are here on this planet to be doing the work you’re being asked to do right now, and it’s hard, damn hard work. To detach from illusions, to experience pain, grief and fear and alchemize them back into love is not for the weak, and that’s why you’re here
And you are never alone, God is with you. He is within you and you are within him, but this is your job on this planet to do, with divine help and guidance. But that fear factor? That’s all illusion. Stay grounded in your purpose and your truth. Sending you love. ❤️
When you are in a trauma response, you can’t see logic.
When you are in fear, facts don’t matter, your emotions do, and you believe that your feelings are indeed, the facts.
And when a large group of people collectively don’t understand that and are continually exposed to and threatened with fear and death, their emotions will collectively sway the populace and the energy of fear will become the new currency.
If you are a truth seeker, we have to constantly practice staying in logic and out of our emotions, because in logic means you can see things through a bigger picture, in emotion means everything’s running off of your anxiety and adrenaline and you’re off into what could happen, versus staying focused on the present and what you can do now.
This is the work we are in. Staying present with the now. Yes, we want to scan the horizon, the future so that we can be prepared, but we want to scan it with logic and bold hope, not with fear.
Yes, you will have emotions, you will be scared and sad sometimes, who wouldn’t be, but having an emotion is very different than living by them and letting them run you. Stay in logic, which also means plugging into your intuition, that deep knowing you have that everything is going to be alright and that there’s a bigger purpose here to all of this.
Learn to ride the waves of your emotions but don’t be carried away by them. They are each beautiful and necessary energy, but you have to stay connected to logic in order to be present in the moment. Our bias should be of love, of unity and directing our lives toward the future we want to create, not responding to the evil that’s trying to get us to respond in fear to it.
When you are in fear, facts don’t matter, your emotions do, and you believe that your feelings are indeed, the facts.
And when a large group of people collectively don’t understand that and are continually exposed to and threatened with fear and death, their emotions will collectively sway the populace and the energy of fear will become the new currency.
If you are a truth seeker, we have to constantly practice staying in logic and out of our emotions, because in logic means you can see things through a bigger picture, in emotion means everything’s running off of your anxiety and adrenaline and you’re off into what could happen, versus staying focused on the present and what you can do now.
This is the work we are in. Staying present with the now. Yes, we want to scan the horizon, the future so that we can be prepared, but we want to scan it with logic and bold hope, not with fear.
Yes, you will have emotions, you will be scared and sad sometimes, who wouldn’t be, but having an emotion is very different than living by them and letting them run you. Stay in logic, which also means plugging into your intuition, that deep knowing you have that everything is going to be alright and that there’s a bigger purpose here to all of this.
Learn to ride the waves of your emotions but don’t be carried away by them. They are each beautiful and necessary energy, but you have to stay connected to logic in order to be present in the moment. Our bias should be of love, of unity and directing our lives toward the future we want to create, not responding to the evil that’s trying to get us to respond in fear to it.
The macrocosm of the world changes when we work on the microcosm of self, first. And just because others won’t do their work, direct mean you stop doing yours. The work is in you, it is you, and nothing can stop someone who seeks the truth within, first, before they try to stop the lies outside of them.