sometimes i think that i am too dumb to understand your stories, despite my love for them. Should i get dumber? ——— when I was younger, everything seemed over my head. intimidating. but most of the things people talk about are stupid and fake. accretions of subcultural neurosis. there are things worth learning. sometimes their contexts and influences won’t be immediately apparent. being curious about lots of different things will illuminate past mysteries in unexpected ways. but the mystical can only thrive in the gaps. not everything is for understanding, but for feeling. and it sounds like you’re doing that :)