how do you deal with the eternal weight of feeling like a failure no matter what you do? ——— Honestly, it take a very very long time for me to come to a realization. I was at my power point in my life, abandoned by family, beat down by the world and decided, why am I living for everyone else and trying to please them with unrealized expectations of being perfect all the time and I started living for me. Doing what I wanted, and I finally started to heal and feel better about myself. And no longer felt like I was a failure