For all of you out there who want to seek psychiatric help here is a list of contacts for psychiatric hospitals in Addis Ababa,
Lebeza psychiatry~0947406511
0118352929
0966111111
Sitota psychiatry~011912749
0942128339
0913692774
Dr.Yonas Baheretibeb~0913690631
Ethiopia psychiatric clinic~0941767676

Asking for help isnot a weakness,if you think you want it,do it. It takes too much strength to ask for help and tell people about your problems and expect them to understand. Your loved ones will want to help you. Let them help you. Let them fight for you.Let them love you🖤🖤🖤🖤

If I am not hurting myself, I am hurting everyone around me. I am broken.

Here is my first amharic poem. I hope you guys like it.🖤🖤🖤

Your eyes are sad.

I just want this to end. I don’t wanna fight no more.

I couldn't trust myself with my meds that's when I knew I was lost .

Just wanted to remind you that I am here if you ever need someone...always here 🖤🖤🖤🖤

Eventually I will have to make peace with the fact that things are gonna be this way maybe for some time or the rest of my life. I will have to accept the fact that I might wake up tomorrow and be unable to move or breath or that there might not be the hope that was in my heart when i slept.and the fact that the depression can control me whenever it wants...silence me whenever it feels like it or that I might be forced to shuve a bunch of pills down my throat to control my emotions and myself for the rest of my life. That the demon is always gonna be on my shoulders and that I will carry it wherever I go and whatever I do. And on the days it chooses to strangle me I will do whatever I can to let people I love know and save me from myself. And for every amount of guilt I feel I will have to ache for the rest of my life till I feel Iike I have ached enough. I will have to make peace with things I could have done but didn't. And I will do all that not because the guilt is gone or my loved ones deserve better or because money is being spent on me or not because the weight of feeling like a burden has lessened but because whenever others couldn't fight for me I chose to fight for myself. Because no love will ever save me more than the love I have for me and because for all I went through I felt like I needed to do that for myslef. After all I made myself go through I believe I owe myself the FIGHT.
-Yeab T🖤-

"But man you just got me thinking about what that does to a 13 year old,a 13 year old kid,who finds her big sister overdosed."
"What that moment must do to somebody,how it affects the rest of their lives,you know,how it affects their ability to trust."
"Leaves it hard for them to get close to people,you know,relationships."
"Makes it hard for them to fall in love,living with the fear that at any moment,the rug can be ripped out from under them and they lose everything."
"Especially the people that they love."
"You ever think about that?"
"Yeah.probably fucked up for life."

-This part of 'Ali' in "Euphoria" says it all for me🖤

And at the age of 16 she'll overdose,spend 4 days in a comma and you won't know if she will live or die but when she wakes up she will be given the opportunity to get clean. She'll become a different person,a better person. Here is the toughest part,nomatter what you say or do or wish,the decision will be all hers. And all you can do is hope that she gives herself the chance that she deserves.

Where do you go when you disappear?