I felt something today in my chest .ever since i woke up something has been troubling me...stealing breath from my lungs...filling my eyes with water...experiences from my childhood kept visiting me.they kept making me go nuts by screaming the truth I deny myself everytime...that I was lonely from the beginning of my time.i reminisced of the times I did everything by myself.how alone I felt on days without understanding how I have felt and I made it clear to myself that if one day I am going to heal beyond all odds ...beyond every law in nature....beyond EVERYTHING.i know I have to go back in time and walk myself to school...feed my own self...wipe my own tears...play with myself on the playground...pour water on my body...cleanse my sins....rub my skin so damn well and remove the dirt I feel within me....talk back to the stranger that spat on me reminding me the disgust I feel in me...kiss my slayed wrists...slayed heart...and say to myself "i heal you.""The love you seek in stranger's eyes was within you after all"......"The broken ones don't know how to find their home because they search for it on the outside when they should have looked into themselves." Maybe in the rarest case I will say that to myself....
-Yeab T🌊-

Each breath I take I say
"I am alive still and isn't that more than what I am supposed to be"
-Desireè Dallagiacomo-

Tomorrow mighy be sad as well

God is found in the crack of my broken heart.

Time has changed nothing.Ameliè still takes refuge in solitude.

It is ok to get lost as long as you find your way back.

Thoughts about 👆
@AbditoryBot

I hope you learn to love yourself in all of this.