The darkness,its crippling.

And then it happens that moment when your breath starts to slow and everytime you breathe you breath out all the oxygen you have. Everything stops.your heart.your lungs and finally your brain and everything you feel and wish and want to forget it all just sinks and then suddenly you give it air again,give it life again.
I'm just fucking exhausted.

It was like there was no more air left in the world and I was gasping and I was panicking.

And then overtime it's all I wanted those two seconds of nothingness.

The absolute worst part of depression is that even though you know you are depressed you are unable to stop yourself from getting worse.

Its like it's all there in my smiles and my tears.

And at the age of 16 she'll overdose,spend 4 days in a comma and you won't know if she will live or die but when she wakes up she will be given the opportunity to get clean. She'll become a different person,a better person. Here is the toughest part,nomatter what you say or do or wish,the decision will be all hers. And all you can do is hope that she gives herself the chance that she deserves.

The demons want me to play with them.

Someone once asked me "why do you always insist on taking the hard road?"
I replied "why do you assume I saw two roads? "

And in the silence they begin to linger,they touch me. They speak of death,they speak of silence,they speak of peace,they speak of blades and pills and guns,they speak of melancholy,they speak of love and hatred,they whisper words of chaos and I , I smile.

I’ve seen a baby cry, seconds later it laughs. Beauty of life: Pain never last.
-J.Cole.

Ain't nowhere to hide
Got nowhere to go
Put away my pride
Tired of feeling low
Even when I am high
Ain't nowhere to live
Do I wanna die I don't know

How are things?
Just your average teenage melodrama

Too young to burn.
Too young,Too young.

Its all fun and games to you until somebody kills themselves, right?

Death triggers you,as if that is the worst thing that could ever happen to us.we were long dead,It just took you years to bury us.

And in the end, one needs more courage to live than to kill themselves.

Listen to the part starting from 1:35 min of "all the bright places"😭😭😭

I worried about not remembering,not remembering all the moments,all of the places.

I missed seeing something more important...seeing finch. I missed that he was in pain. I missed that he was teaching me all along how to move on.finch was a dreamer. He dreamt while he was awake. He dreamt of all the beauty in the world and made it come to life.🖤🖤🖤
-All the bright places-

It is sad how you have to keep yourself busy to not feel the pain.