It makes me sick that one day I have to force myself to forgive you or act like nothing ever happened...you make me sick

She wears pain like a diamonds

She's been through more hell than you'll ever know.
But that's what gives her beauty an edge.
You can't touch a woman who can wear pain
like the grandest of diamonds around her neck.
--Alfa
@numbjah🥀

You were the one love I didn't have to beg for and yet you are the love that made my knees full of bruise...

"Have you ever been afraid of yourself???"
"Yea.Like all the time"

Nothing kills a person like feeling worthless...

Mom: nawaye ቅድም ስልኬን balance ሞልቼ አሁን ሳየው ባዶ ነው

Me:

Sis: አይ mom ለቀባሪ ታረጃለሽ እንዴ 😗

Me: *still shutting ma mouth off*
@naughtiesonly

Hug me, I’m mentally tired.

A child cried painful tears for years.
The mother never noticed.
-Y-

Healing will never come easy.you have to know that

Many people go through terrible shit in some part of their life and when they come out of it somehow they tend to act like it was all a choice and for me because I have been there through both I hate that idea.I have felt extremely ecstatic and shit sad and knowing that had made me realize that despite how much we try leading a hopeful healthy lifestyle takes too much.so if by any chance I find myself finally getting out of this shit I am gonna try with all of me to help the ones still drowning in the dark but first I need to help myself.which brings me to another point.HOW DO WE HELP OURSELVES?Do we just forget bad times like they never happened?will we heal?will we forgive?Do we make peace with the past?we don't have a fucking clue of what to do.I guess that's why we can't get ourselves out of the dark because noone thought us where to begin.we need to learn how to let go of what makes us sick.For me at the moment asking help is my first step towards the path of healing.It took me self harm...near death experience...years and years of sadness...self doubt...self hate...too much self hate...waste of my childhood and teenage years...losing almost all of me...but for myself and mostly for the ones I love nomatter how weak i felt and still feel asking for help is the only choice .Nomatter what people would say or what my demons whisper through my ears about my choice I will feel a bit comfort in knowing that this time I chose for me.This time I chose to love and fight for me.
-Yeab T🌹-

Choosing you after all you went through isnot being selfish

You owe the fight to your heart.The heart you broke in expecting...in loving...in dying day after day.You owe it to you🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

I spread misery wherever I go because I feel nothing else.

The scars on my arm remind me of what I so deeply crave to forget.

If no one hates you, you’re doing something wrong.

When I posted this poem it took me a lot because that poem held too much of me and my pain and it was too bloody but I posted it because my story had to be said for the ones that couldnt say things about their story...my life had to be told so others couldnt have to feel alone...Everything about this channel is me being a voice...and I trusted you guys with it though you knew who I was so now I hope you trust me with yours.It doesn't have to be a poem or a perfect story and you dont have to tell your name...leave me your story in my inbox and let others know you face the pain too...that they are not alone...identity hidden...when I get back I will post it on the channel...you can be the voice too...let's be there for eachother
#mystory is #yourstory

Till then here is something from my draft👇

Cut myself today...for no reason at all..I wasnt happy...I wasnt sad...things were not good not bad...things were starting to feel right but something I wasn't aware of was wrong...a loneliness I couldnt suffocate with pillows...with tears...with music...with water...with blood was troubling me so I decided to slit .....DEEP...till it hurt nomore...Like somehow the secret was engraved in my veins...
-Yeab T🥀-