"ሁለት ወደኋላ አንድ ተራምዶ
የምሄድ መስዬ እያየሁ ማዶ
አደናቀፈኝ ያላየሁት ነዶ
ህልሙም ጠፋብኝ ያየሁት ድሮ
ለውጬው ይሆናል........."

ስለነገ ማን ይሆን ቃል የገባልን? መኖራችንን ሳናውቅ እንደዚህ በሀሳብ የምንናጠው?

This!

Do we ever love the person or the attention we have been given....I am yet to find an answer.

I went on a walk today. And as i was just observing the city and the sky(which I feel likes to make a statment by always being this beautiful) I realized that I can count the times that i took a walk out in this city with just one hand. So much to be seen and to experience. So many places to be. So many people to be with. Yet not present always running and sweating for an unpromised tommorow. Always ready for sacrifices. Little do we know that in those sacrifices we make we are betraying ourselves and stealing from its desires to be freely human and be present on all that goes on around it. That will always break my heart.

In a failed voice message that didn't actually reach my friend I tried to express this same idea to her. And How I feel like I have lost so much of myself at some point in my walk but I dont know where or how or even when. Its like coming back to your home after a long time abroad only to find out day by day that important things in your house have been missing. Things that you treasure most and values you have upheld your entire life are just gone. And as if you weren't given consent when it happened, the realization that you have exchanged things for something with less value just sets you off. The realization that so much of you lies bound to a distant past makes you grieve. Its amazing how we are living each day but somehow fail to be present in all that happens within us.

So many times most of our disappointment comes from the desire to be understood by others the same way we understand ourselves but them failing to do so. We require so much for them to listen to the details and understand each single piece of "WHYs" to each of our actions. But one thing we should always understand is that nomatter how much we explain ourselves or no matter how much someone loves us there will always be a gap in their understanding and a miscommunication somewhere along the line. They won't always feel the intensity of what you are going through or your intentions and that is ok.

So much beauty in noticing!

ልብ ጉልበት አለው...



ይዝላል!

There is a great grief that comes with watching your parents age. To have to watch the days take a toll on them. To have to race with time እነሱን ለማኩራትና ለማስደሰት......time is bitter in this way.

Its a beautiful day. Seldom do we stop at our tracks and observe what goes on around us.ከሩጫችሁ ቆም በሉና admire the beauty. Don't let your days consume you.

Most of the time what we want from people that are around us seems so unachievable because what we desire is most likely the copy of ourselves. Friendship or relationship. Someone who understands our problems and what is missing exactly as how we want it to be understood. Someone who knows how to satisfy it too. Most times degmo we want all of that uncommunicated. Even our mother won't know what goes on inside us somedays aydel? So do yourself a favor ask for what you want from those that are around you instead of always feeling unfulfiled in a relationship. I believe that to a certain point we teach people how to love us and how to tend to the scar that we show them. Don't sabotage relationships with people that could love you because of lack of communication. More ግን ለራሳችሁ ከማንም በላይ ተገኙ!ልባችሁ እንዳይዝልባችሁ ሁሌ እጃችሁን ዘርግታችሁ የሆነ ሰው እስኪይዘው አትጠብቁ!

......."የት ነበርኩ?" ያስብላል ሁሉም ነገር